Some times I wonder if I really belong here. Wherever here is, I'm not sure any more. It's like living is a state of mind, and I just don't know how to get there. Looking around me I see colors, and yet I feel like I'm colorblind. I hear melodies, and yet I'm deaf. I reach out for a world not quite beyond my reach. Not quite out of the way. If I really wanted to I could get there...I really could, but I don't go. I'm still here. Still trying to live with out her because I only bring harm. Still wondering about real life. And still knowing that this is where I'll stay.