A/N: Hey everybody! I'm SOOOOO sorry this has taken so long. I really am! I'm trying to get the next part written soon. Here, read this and tell me if it's ok......
Disclaimer: I own absolutely nothing. And because of that I have to tell you that I'm stealing all these characters from JK just so I can write my story. I'll give them back as soon as I'm done. I think.......
It was silence. Complete and utter silence. Harry awoke to that silence. He was quick to get up off the floor despite his injuries. He didn't know where he was until he looked around a little and he sighed heavily.
The room was the same he had been in before. Harry groaned and waited for the voice. But it never came. Just complete silence.
He needed the silence, he reasoned after a while. He couldn't remember the last time he had been alone and it had been silent. Alone with his thoughts. So, he sat back down.
He started thinking about everything that had happened to him in his life. He remembered how lonely he always felt when he was young; lonely, but hopeful. He had been sad too, and afraid. But all that had changed when he went to Hogwarts. He was truly happy for the first time he could ever remember. He laughed again, and was hardly ever sad. Sure, Voldermont had been there, but it didn't matter because Harry had friends for the first time in his life.
But then his fourth year came. He let somebody die. Harry knew he should have been smarter. They both should have been. Wouldn't the teachers have told them if the cup was a porkey? Besides, he had felt a deep sense of dread as soon as they had landed on that ground. He should have known. They should have gone back to Hogwarts. But instead, he had to figure it out. He had to keep investigating.
And then the summer came and Harry felt completely lost again. He thought everything would be fine once he had come to Hogwarts, but his uncle didn't want Harry happy. So, the abuse that had stopped once Harry had gotten his letter, had started again, leaving Harry very much alone in the world.
It was then, for the first time, Harry realized that he had let his uncle win. He had let his uncle win over the power Harry held once he was known as a wizard. He let him win, when he vowed to never let that happen. Besides that, Harry knew he was acting totally unlike who he was. He was never so angry in his life. And he was turning into his uncle.
Harry bolted upright. His eyes pleading with the truth to be a lie. But he knew it was true. Harry had let his anger take him over just like his uncle did. He was changing in a way he never wanted to and never imagined.
He held his head in his hands and quietly sobbed. He cried for the first time since he had gotten beat that summer. The tears didn't leave for an hour after they started. It was good to cry, Harry thought. He needed his other emotions back besides anger. 'If I can get sadness back,' Harry thought, 'there's got to be hope for me to be happy again.'
"I'm killing myself," Harry said out loud. His tone had changed from the hard, cold voice he had grown accustomed to over the summer. Now, it was weak and tired. He felt so empty, so cold.
"I wanna go home. I don't want to turn into my uncle," And Harry cried himself to sleep, acting totally unlike the teenager that he had become that summer. The teenager that felt nothing and let nothing hurt him because he had pushed everyone aside. But now? Now Harry felt nothing but guilt and loneliness that had been threatening to overtake him since he had begun stopping the emotions. He had hoped before that pushing everyone away would make everything easier and better. Now he saw that he was tearing himself apart and he was slowly falling into the same position that Voldermont had found himself in over 50 years ago. What was he doing? He knew he had to stop.
The last thing Harry thought before he drifted into dreams, was that he hoped he could still be the boy he had once been before all the pain.
A/N: Ok.....I dunno...that chapter kinda scares me, it's really weird.....this does NOT mean Harry is totally healed and better and normal. And it DOES NOT mean that Harry is back on the 'good' side. Things change. And I know this chapter was really short...I'M SORRY!
I promise, later on in a different chapter, everything will be explained, so just give it time. I'm not just going to leave it at Harry has freaky powers. I'll get into them more if this story is still good and people still like it...And you know how I'll know if people like it?! REVIEWS!!! So, wanna drop one in my box and make me feel good??? Pretty please??? Oh, and here's some thanks to past reviewers! (I'm sorry, I'm only gonna do it for last chapter, and I feel like a ditz because I don't remember if I ever did this for other chapters... Sorry if I haven't thanked you for reviewing, but ya know I really appreciate it, right?) This would be thanks to the reviewers of chapter 10!! Here they are folks:
Sophie W. -Wow! I guess you like it, huh? Well, I know it wasn't soon(Sorry! I really am!) but, I gave it to ya!
Ratgirl: Thank you! OK, you want to know how Ginny,Ron, and Hermoine are effected by this, right? I just might do a chapter focused on them next. I might have to retrace my steps and go back in time, but I can do that....Good suggestion! Thanks!
Lyn: Thanks! I personally thought the prophecy needed major help because I didn't try very hard and I think it came out horrible.. But I'm glad you don't mind it!!! Thanks, really. I didn't know the story was that great.
Slinky: Thanks!!!!! LoL. running out of chapters would be a problem. But here! A gift from me to you! Another chapter!!!
A Fallen Child: I'm glad you think it's interesting...I'm still not saying if Harry if good or evil yet... you'll find out eventually...Ah, the voice...hehe.... Haven't got many insights on that yet... Just as I said in the other Authors note, all the answers are coming and I'll try to get you the answers soon.
MajesticAngel: Thank you!!! Do you really think its a good story??? I must sound like a bimbo because I keep asking that, but as you can see I don't really think I have very much talent.....I'm continuing and I'm starting the next chapter as soon as I finish these comments.
Amy: Geesh!! I dunno about that! The prophecy was pretty pathetic....It actually made me laugh when I went back and read it....ok, I'm ok...Thank you so much for reviewing..
Ok...Well, what can I say?! Just review more and tell me if the chapter was as sappy as I think it was.... By the way, I got a request for a Beta-reader for my other story, "Breaking Pont" if anyone's interested....maybe for this story too......
Oh, and I got a comment that I need to learn how to indent...LoL. I DO know how to indent people. I just have a messed up computer with a messed up program that makes uploading very difficult and I have yet to learn how to make it stay indented when it's up for all to read.....Seriously.
Disclaimer: I own absolutely nothing. And because of that I have to tell you that I'm stealing all these characters from JK just so I can write my story. I'll give them back as soon as I'm done. I think.......
It was silence. Complete and utter silence. Harry awoke to that silence. He was quick to get up off the floor despite his injuries. He didn't know where he was until he looked around a little and he sighed heavily.
The room was the same he had been in before. Harry groaned and waited for the voice. But it never came. Just complete silence.
He needed the silence, he reasoned after a while. He couldn't remember the last time he had been alone and it had been silent. Alone with his thoughts. So, he sat back down.
He started thinking about everything that had happened to him in his life. He remembered how lonely he always felt when he was young; lonely, but hopeful. He had been sad too, and afraid. But all that had changed when he went to Hogwarts. He was truly happy for the first time he could ever remember. He laughed again, and was hardly ever sad. Sure, Voldermont had been there, but it didn't matter because Harry had friends for the first time in his life.
But then his fourth year came. He let somebody die. Harry knew he should have been smarter. They both should have been. Wouldn't the teachers have told them if the cup was a porkey? Besides, he had felt a deep sense of dread as soon as they had landed on that ground. He should have known. They should have gone back to Hogwarts. But instead, he had to figure it out. He had to keep investigating.
And then the summer came and Harry felt completely lost again. He thought everything would be fine once he had come to Hogwarts, but his uncle didn't want Harry happy. So, the abuse that had stopped once Harry had gotten his letter, had started again, leaving Harry very much alone in the world.
It was then, for the first time, Harry realized that he had let his uncle win. He had let his uncle win over the power Harry held once he was known as a wizard. He let him win, when he vowed to never let that happen. Besides that, Harry knew he was acting totally unlike who he was. He was never so angry in his life. And he was turning into his uncle.
Harry bolted upright. His eyes pleading with the truth to be a lie. But he knew it was true. Harry had let his anger take him over just like his uncle did. He was changing in a way he never wanted to and never imagined.
He held his head in his hands and quietly sobbed. He cried for the first time since he had gotten beat that summer. The tears didn't leave for an hour after they started. It was good to cry, Harry thought. He needed his other emotions back besides anger. 'If I can get sadness back,' Harry thought, 'there's got to be hope for me to be happy again.'
"I'm killing myself," Harry said out loud. His tone had changed from the hard, cold voice he had grown accustomed to over the summer. Now, it was weak and tired. He felt so empty, so cold.
"I wanna go home. I don't want to turn into my uncle," And Harry cried himself to sleep, acting totally unlike the teenager that he had become that summer. The teenager that felt nothing and let nothing hurt him because he had pushed everyone aside. But now? Now Harry felt nothing but guilt and loneliness that had been threatening to overtake him since he had begun stopping the emotions. He had hoped before that pushing everyone away would make everything easier and better. Now he saw that he was tearing himself apart and he was slowly falling into the same position that Voldermont had found himself in over 50 years ago. What was he doing? He knew he had to stop.
The last thing Harry thought before he drifted into dreams, was that he hoped he could still be the boy he had once been before all the pain.
A/N: Ok.....I dunno...that chapter kinda scares me, it's really weird.....this does NOT mean Harry is totally healed and better and normal. And it DOES NOT mean that Harry is back on the 'good' side. Things change. And I know this chapter was really short...I'M SORRY!
I promise, later on in a different chapter, everything will be explained, so just give it time. I'm not just going to leave it at Harry has freaky powers. I'll get into them more if this story is still good and people still like it...And you know how I'll know if people like it?! REVIEWS!!! So, wanna drop one in my box and make me feel good??? Pretty please??? Oh, and here's some thanks to past reviewers! (I'm sorry, I'm only gonna do it for last chapter, and I feel like a ditz because I don't remember if I ever did this for other chapters... Sorry if I haven't thanked you for reviewing, but ya know I really appreciate it, right?) This would be thanks to the reviewers of chapter 10!! Here they are folks:
Sophie W. -Wow! I guess you like it, huh? Well, I know it wasn't soon(Sorry! I really am!) but, I gave it to ya!
Ratgirl: Thank you! OK, you want to know how Ginny,Ron, and Hermoine are effected by this, right? I just might do a chapter focused on them next. I might have to retrace my steps and go back in time, but I can do that....Good suggestion! Thanks!
Lyn: Thanks! I personally thought the prophecy needed major help because I didn't try very hard and I think it came out horrible.. But I'm glad you don't mind it!!! Thanks, really. I didn't know the story was that great.
Slinky: Thanks!!!!! LoL. running out of chapters would be a problem. But here! A gift from me to you! Another chapter!!!
A Fallen Child: I'm glad you think it's interesting...I'm still not saying if Harry if good or evil yet... you'll find out eventually...Ah, the voice...hehe.... Haven't got many insights on that yet... Just as I said in the other Authors note, all the answers are coming and I'll try to get you the answers soon.
MajesticAngel: Thank you!!! Do you really think its a good story??? I must sound like a bimbo because I keep asking that, but as you can see I don't really think I have very much talent.....I'm continuing and I'm starting the next chapter as soon as I finish these comments.
Amy: Geesh!! I dunno about that! The prophecy was pretty pathetic....It actually made me laugh when I went back and read it....ok, I'm ok...Thank you so much for reviewing..
Ok...Well, what can I say?! Just review more and tell me if the chapter was as sappy as I think it was.... By the way, I got a request for a Beta-reader for my other story, "Breaking Pont" if anyone's interested....maybe for this story too......
Oh, and I got a comment that I need to learn how to indent...LoL. I DO know how to indent people. I just have a messed up computer with a messed up program that makes uploading very difficult and I have yet to learn how to make it stay indented when it's up for all to read.....Seriously.