TITLE : Between hate and love
AUTHOR : Hollyva
EMAIL: Estelle@mic.fr
RATING : PG-13
PAIRING : Harry/Draco
SUMMARY : Harry finds Draco depressed and about to jump of the astronomy tower . They talk, and discover they have more things in common than they thought
AUTHOR NOTES : I'm looking for a beta . E-mail me if you are interested
DISCLAIMER : All the characters in this story belong to JK Rowling
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CHAPTER 3 : SACRIFICE
Harry stayed in the classroom for a while, just looking at the door where was standing Draco a few minutes before
He couldn't believe what happened . Draco had told him he would do anything to be with him . Now, he seemed to think the contrary
' I can't blame him' Harry thought ' Every single person I know ended up being hurt one way or another .'
Harry was absolutely sure it was his fault, something he did . Maybe he was to enthusiastic . Maybe not enough .
Before he could realise it, tears were flowing freely on his face . Staying in this classroom was doing him no good . He wanted to leave , but where to go ?
It would be only worse in the Gryffindor common room, and he didn't want to face any student
The quidditch pitch came to his mind . He quickly made his way to the Gryffindor Tower, hoping he won't meet any of his 'friends' .
He sighed in relief when he arrived and almost no one was here . He picked his firebolt, a gift from his godfather
Harry's thought went to Sirius . He was his only family . How would he react ? Will he be mad at his godson ? Will he mind terribly that Harry is gay ?
Harry was so preoccupied by his godfather he didn't even notice Hermione calling him .
" HARRY ! " she finally screamed
" What ? Oh Hermione " Harry didn't know how to react . She probably wanted to insult too .
Unless Hermione hadn't really reacted last night when The-Boy-Who-Lived told her he was gay . Maybe she was okay with it
" I didn't see you all day " Hermione told him " Where were you ? "
" Well, I did go in class but then I tried to avoid as much Gryffindors as possible " Harry admitted
" oh . Is it because of what happened with Ron last night ? " she asked . Harry was surprised . Usually, Hermione was much more clever .
" No Hermione it's because Snape took points from me in potions . You know how much that hurts me when he does ! " Harry replied sarcastically
Hermione looked uneasy for a moment
" Harry, do you mind if we talk for a while ? " she said
" Oh, if you want "
They both sat down, waiting for the other to talk . Hermione, being the one who suggered the talk, speaked first
" You know Harry, I don't mind about you being gay "
Harry looked at her, surprised, but happy to have somebody who didn't hate him
" Last time, Ron was screaming so much, I couldn't even think . But you're my best friend, and this doesn't change who you are .
And I guess that means I can talk to you about guys now " Hermione said with a smile
Harry smiled back, glad he had Hermione back and told her
" It's good to know you don't hate me . I don't know if I could bear my two best friends not talking to me . But I guess if I have you, I can't stand Ron's insults "
" I can try to talk to him, you know he can be really stupid sometimes. " Herrmione asked
Harry thought about it and replied " No, I don't think that's a good idea . I think we should wait some time . Wait until he calms down "
Hermione nodded
" You're probably right " she said " But talking about insults, I didn't hear Malfoy making fun of you " hermione added, not knowing she was hitting a sensible subject
" Hum well Maybe he didn't hear it . Or maybe he doesn't care " Harry lied . Hermione didn't mind the fact harry was gay but she would probably mind the fact he liked Malfoy .
" That's better this way. " She said, believing Harry
" Yeah, I guess "
***********
Draco Malfoy was in the Slytherin dorm . After talking with Harry, he ran to the dungeons and locked himself in his room
He couldn't believe what he had done . After the beatings, he thought his father would leave him alone, disown him or anything . he surely didn't expect that
*** FLASH BACK ***
Draco was in his room, making himself ready . He was supposed to meet Harry in a few minutes .
He was happy . He had never been this happy in his life . And that was because of one person . One person he had hated during more than two years . One person he had loved during the last couple of years, and still loved , but who hated him
But everything had changed in one night . And Draco had never felt that good . His fucked-up life was going to be alright
Draco was going to get out of the dungeons when a man came into this room . A man he knew very well . Too well
" Father ? What are you doing here ? " Draco said . His father was going to ruin all his chances . And in this moment, he sweared himself that no matter what he wanted, the older Malfoy wouldn't hurt Harry .
" I received an interesting owl from Mister Parkinson this morning . It seems that his daughter saw you kissing Potter in the astronomy tower . Do you have anything to say about that ? "
' Pansy . I hate that girl . She was probably pissed off I was gay and not interested in her she went to tell her father everything . She doesn't realise that even a straight man wouldn't want her'
Draco had to think about something to say . Was he going to lie and say Pansy had lied ? Or was he going to say the truth ?
Draco looked at his father and said " Yes , it's true . I'm in love with Harry and your beatings won't do anything about it "
It probably wasn't the most sensible think to do, but Draco wouldn't give his father the satisfaction to know he won . If there were beatings to come, he would take them .
" I see the beatings didn't bring some sense into you . " draco's father said , a sneer forming one his face . " Maybe we could try something else " Lucius added, looking at his only son with a cold expression
He took out his wand and pointed it at draco . The youngest Malfoy knew what was to come. But he was determinated not to show any weakness
" Crucio ! " shouted Lucius
Draco fell onto the floor, aching all over his body . ' I won't scream . I won't cry . I won't scream . i won't ' but the pain was too big and Draco let out a moan of pain, which quickly morphed into a scream
" Finite Incantatem " Lucius Malfoy was satisfacted , so he stopped the hex .
Draco tried to get up, but found out he didn't have the strength .
" You will stop that relationship you have with Potter right now . I don't care how you do it . I want it to be done tonight .
If you don't, I will make sure your little boyfriend gets hurt . And believe me, what you just went through , is a picnic, compared to what he will go through if you don't know what I say . Understood ? "
Draco found the strength to whisper " yes " before moaning in pain again . The hex was stopped, but he still felt the pain .
" I will send you a letter with instructions tomorrow, and you will follow them "
After those hateful words, Lucius Malfoy exited the room, not looking back a his son
Draco didn't like it. He didn't like the fact he was going to hurt harry . But it would be better in the long run, he was sure .
The blond boy would probably suffer some more in the next month, but it will be okay , because his beloved will be safe .
*** END FLASHBACK ***
Draco took the letter his father had just sent . Like he said the day before, there were instructions, which were in fact orders
Draco
I trust you did what I told you. Therefore, here are the instructions . I talked about you to Our Lord . He has some plans for you . Plans I won't reveal right now .
You will take the dark mark in a few weeks and you will join the death eaters . According to the Dark Lord, another student in Hogwarts working for the death eaters will be useful to watch Potter .
You will be given some more details soon
Your father Lucius
Draco threw the letter on the floor . He couldn't believe it . He didn't want to be a Death-Eater . He never liked those people . They often came to the Malfoy Manor, and Draco did his best not to been seen in these occasions .
Watching Potter . Strangely, Draco had a feeling he won't be just watching .
He didn't knwo what to do . If he refused, he would probably be killed and they would find someone else to 'watch' Harry . Someone who would have no problem using unforgivables on Harry .
'It would probably be better if I accepted' Draco thought ' This way, I would know their plans , and I could prevent them from hurting harry'
Draco raised his head in resignation . He was going to do it . He wouldn't be easy . But he needed to do it .
For Harry
And there's nothing he wouldn't do for Harry
TO BE CONTINUED
Well I hope you liked this chapter . I finished it earlier than I thought but I'm sure you don't mind .
Anyway, you have more on why Draco turned Harry down . How can you be angry at him now ? J
Expect chapter 4 by Wednesday .
And don't forget to review please . It's because of all the reviews I keep writing . Thanks a lot
And I'm looking for someone who could beta the chapters quickly . Interested ? email me - estelle@mic.fr
Hollyva
AUTHOR : Hollyva
EMAIL: Estelle@mic.fr
RATING : PG-13
PAIRING : Harry/Draco
SUMMARY : Harry finds Draco depressed and about to jump of the astronomy tower . They talk, and discover they have more things in common than they thought
AUTHOR NOTES : I'm looking for a beta . E-mail me if you are interested
DISCLAIMER : All the characters in this story belong to JK Rowling
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CHAPTER 3 : SACRIFICE
Harry stayed in the classroom for a while, just looking at the door where was standing Draco a few minutes before
He couldn't believe what happened . Draco had told him he would do anything to be with him . Now, he seemed to think the contrary
' I can't blame him' Harry thought ' Every single person I know ended up being hurt one way or another .'
Harry was absolutely sure it was his fault, something he did . Maybe he was to enthusiastic . Maybe not enough .
Before he could realise it, tears were flowing freely on his face . Staying in this classroom was doing him no good . He wanted to leave , but where to go ?
It would be only worse in the Gryffindor common room, and he didn't want to face any student
The quidditch pitch came to his mind . He quickly made his way to the Gryffindor Tower, hoping he won't meet any of his 'friends' .
He sighed in relief when he arrived and almost no one was here . He picked his firebolt, a gift from his godfather
Harry's thought went to Sirius . He was his only family . How would he react ? Will he be mad at his godson ? Will he mind terribly that Harry is gay ?
Harry was so preoccupied by his godfather he didn't even notice Hermione calling him .
" HARRY ! " she finally screamed
" What ? Oh Hermione " Harry didn't know how to react . She probably wanted to insult too .
Unless Hermione hadn't really reacted last night when The-Boy-Who-Lived told her he was gay . Maybe she was okay with it
" I didn't see you all day " Hermione told him " Where were you ? "
" Well, I did go in class but then I tried to avoid as much Gryffindors as possible " Harry admitted
" oh . Is it because of what happened with Ron last night ? " she asked . Harry was surprised . Usually, Hermione was much more clever .
" No Hermione it's because Snape took points from me in potions . You know how much that hurts me when he does ! " Harry replied sarcastically
Hermione looked uneasy for a moment
" Harry, do you mind if we talk for a while ? " she said
" Oh, if you want "
They both sat down, waiting for the other to talk . Hermione, being the one who suggered the talk, speaked first
" You know Harry, I don't mind about you being gay "
Harry looked at her, surprised, but happy to have somebody who didn't hate him
" Last time, Ron was screaming so much, I couldn't even think . But you're my best friend, and this doesn't change who you are .
And I guess that means I can talk to you about guys now " Hermione said with a smile
Harry smiled back, glad he had Hermione back and told her
" It's good to know you don't hate me . I don't know if I could bear my two best friends not talking to me . But I guess if I have you, I can't stand Ron's insults "
" I can try to talk to him, you know he can be really stupid sometimes. " Herrmione asked
Harry thought about it and replied " No, I don't think that's a good idea . I think we should wait some time . Wait until he calms down "
Hermione nodded
" You're probably right " she said " But talking about insults, I didn't hear Malfoy making fun of you " hermione added, not knowing she was hitting a sensible subject
" Hum well Maybe he didn't hear it . Or maybe he doesn't care " Harry lied . Hermione didn't mind the fact harry was gay but she would probably mind the fact he liked Malfoy .
" That's better this way. " She said, believing Harry
" Yeah, I guess "
***********
Draco Malfoy was in the Slytherin dorm . After talking with Harry, he ran to the dungeons and locked himself in his room
He couldn't believe what he had done . After the beatings, he thought his father would leave him alone, disown him or anything . he surely didn't expect that
*** FLASH BACK ***
Draco was in his room, making himself ready . He was supposed to meet Harry in a few minutes .
He was happy . He had never been this happy in his life . And that was because of one person . One person he had hated during more than two years . One person he had loved during the last couple of years, and still loved , but who hated him
But everything had changed in one night . And Draco had never felt that good . His fucked-up life was going to be alright
Draco was going to get out of the dungeons when a man came into this room . A man he knew very well . Too well
" Father ? What are you doing here ? " Draco said . His father was going to ruin all his chances . And in this moment, he sweared himself that no matter what he wanted, the older Malfoy wouldn't hurt Harry .
" I received an interesting owl from Mister Parkinson this morning . It seems that his daughter saw you kissing Potter in the astronomy tower . Do you have anything to say about that ? "
' Pansy . I hate that girl . She was probably pissed off I was gay and not interested in her she went to tell her father everything . She doesn't realise that even a straight man wouldn't want her'
Draco had to think about something to say . Was he going to lie and say Pansy had lied ? Or was he going to say the truth ?
Draco looked at his father and said " Yes , it's true . I'm in love with Harry and your beatings won't do anything about it "
It probably wasn't the most sensible think to do, but Draco wouldn't give his father the satisfaction to know he won . If there were beatings to come, he would take them .
" I see the beatings didn't bring some sense into you . " draco's father said , a sneer forming one his face . " Maybe we could try something else " Lucius added, looking at his only son with a cold expression
He took out his wand and pointed it at draco . The youngest Malfoy knew what was to come. But he was determinated not to show any weakness
" Crucio ! " shouted Lucius
Draco fell onto the floor, aching all over his body . ' I won't scream . I won't cry . I won't scream . i won't ' but the pain was too big and Draco let out a moan of pain, which quickly morphed into a scream
" Finite Incantatem " Lucius Malfoy was satisfacted , so he stopped the hex .
Draco tried to get up, but found out he didn't have the strength .
" You will stop that relationship you have with Potter right now . I don't care how you do it . I want it to be done tonight .
If you don't, I will make sure your little boyfriend gets hurt . And believe me, what you just went through , is a picnic, compared to what he will go through if you don't know what I say . Understood ? "
Draco found the strength to whisper " yes " before moaning in pain again . The hex was stopped, but he still felt the pain .
" I will send you a letter with instructions tomorrow, and you will follow them "
After those hateful words, Lucius Malfoy exited the room, not looking back a his son
Draco didn't like it. He didn't like the fact he was going to hurt harry . But it would be better in the long run, he was sure .
The blond boy would probably suffer some more in the next month, but it will be okay , because his beloved will be safe .
*** END FLASHBACK ***
Draco took the letter his father had just sent . Like he said the day before, there were instructions, which were in fact orders
Draco
I trust you did what I told you. Therefore, here are the instructions . I talked about you to Our Lord . He has some plans for you . Plans I won't reveal right now .
You will take the dark mark in a few weeks and you will join the death eaters . According to the Dark Lord, another student in Hogwarts working for the death eaters will be useful to watch Potter .
You will be given some more details soon
Your father Lucius
Draco threw the letter on the floor . He couldn't believe it . He didn't want to be a Death-Eater . He never liked those people . They often came to the Malfoy Manor, and Draco did his best not to been seen in these occasions .
Watching Potter . Strangely, Draco had a feeling he won't be just watching .
He didn't knwo what to do . If he refused, he would probably be killed and they would find someone else to 'watch' Harry . Someone who would have no problem using unforgivables on Harry .
'It would probably be better if I accepted' Draco thought ' This way, I would know their plans , and I could prevent them from hurting harry'
Draco raised his head in resignation . He was going to do it . He wouldn't be easy . But he needed to do it .
For Harry
And there's nothing he wouldn't do for Harry
TO BE CONTINUED
Well I hope you liked this chapter . I finished it earlier than I thought but I'm sure you don't mind .
Anyway, you have more on why Draco turned Harry down . How can you be angry at him now ? J
Expect chapter 4 by Wednesday .
And don't forget to review please . It's because of all the reviews I keep writing . Thanks a lot
And I'm looking for someone who could beta the chapters quickly . Interested ? email me - estelle@mic.fr
Hollyva