WARNING*WARNING*WARNING*WARNING*WA . . . oh you get the picture
In this fic there will be Yaoi (not explicit but it will still be there),
this means male/male relationship. There is also mention of violence.
It's very angesty. I like it that way.
PI ~OK I have finally decided this will be my first fanfic that I will post on fanfiction.
And~ Finally. Gla! You have like a ton written but nnnnnnoooooooooooooo! You have to write one for your new favorite song.
PI ~ Yea but I love that song
Susysunshine ~ What about that one that you started and never finshed?
PI ~ I'm working on it.
Susysunshine ~ But you haven't even finished the first chapter *wapps PI on the back of her head* go work on it!
PI ~ No! I like this one better.
Susysunshine ~ Fine be that way, but if you get flamed don't come crying to me.
PI ~ NNNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! *Wimpers* but I love you!
And ~ What about me?
PI ~ What about you? OH, oh, yea . . . right. Well you can go torch the bananas and marshmallows so we can all have a snack together.
And ~ OKAY! *runs off towards the bon-fire with bananas in one hand and marshmallows in the other.*
Susysunshine ~ Get on with the fic already before I tell the readers, *(whispers to And) if there are any* what your real name is.
PI ~ Ack! No don't do that! Okay okay, disclaimer time
Disclaimer
I, Pure Insanity, do here by denounce any rumors that I own Yugioh, its characters, the song Always, or any of the band members of saliva. I will also never own them, I barely own the books I need for my classes. So . . . read the poem below (which incidently I don't own either) Me no own, You no sue!
Happy reading!
"Always"
"What are you doing?"
"Leaving."
"Why"
". . ."
"Answer Me!"
"Don't be so blind!"
"What do you mean by that?" You shout at me. God I don't believe you. I know your secret. Didn't think I knew it did you. Well I do. Every night, after we go to bed and you think I'm asleep, you leave. You always come back, but where do you go? I was tempted the first night I felt you leave, but I thought that would betray your trust so I stayed. That first night was a year ago today. I still don't know where you go. But I do know one thing. I know who you go to.
I can't comprehend life if you weren't by my side, but I'm going to find out. I still love you with all my heart. That's why when you would leave l cried. I lie in bed, our bed, and cry. I wouldn't be surprised if you knew that I did that. Mokuba knows. He knows more than he should, but that's my fault.
He found me one morning with the tears. You had gone to work and I was just standing there crying, in the same spot where you kissed me goodbye before you left. He hugged me, but didn't say a word. I think he's lost faith that we'll get through this.
Now you stand there, with that look. You know the one that you give when you want an answer. So I'll give you one along with one tear as it trails down my face. "Don't be so blind."
I hear... a voice say, "Don't be so blind"...
it's telling me all these things...
that you would probably hide...
am I... your one and only desire...
am I the reason you breathe...
or am I the reason you cry...
Always... always... always... always... always... always... always...
I just can't live without you...
Someone has to be the first. The first to make a move, you were the first. You started this; you made the first move in our game. But now it's my turn and I am going to make my move, I hate you for this. You are my one true love, and it hurts me that you make me cry. YOU of all people that I trusted made me cry.
So this is what it feels like to have your heart broken by the one person that you truly love.
I love you...
I hate you...
I can't get around you...
I breathe you...
I taste you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take any more...
this life of solitude...
I guess that I'm out the door...
and now I'm done with you...
I zip up my bag and turn towards the door, and turn away from you. You grab my arm harshly and spin me to face you. I look to your eyes, when mine make contact with yours your grasp brutally tightens as you realize I'm really going to leave.
"You . . your. . . your really leaving"
"You don't want me around"
". . ."
"Goodbye Seto."
I turn from you and pick up my bag. That's when I hear it.
I feel... like you don't want me around...
I guess I'll pack all my things...
I guess I'll see you around...
Its all... been bottled up until now...
as I walk out your door...
all I hear is the sound...
Always... always... always... always... always... always... always...
I just can't live without you...
You know I gave you my heart. My whole life was yours and you tore it apart. All I wanted was for you to love me back. You said you did, but why did you leave and go to him? I cannot take it anymore, being left alone, separated from the one person who I can't live without. But you forced my hand. So I'm taking my turn. I'm going to find out how to live without you. It's my choice, you helped me make it, and it's the last one.
I love you...
I hate you...
I can't get around you...
I breathe you...
I taste you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take any more...
this life of solitude...
I guess that i'm out the door...
and now i'm done with you...
I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...
I left my head around your heart...
Why would you tear my world apart...
Always... always... always... always...
I look up at you. My vision is a little hazy around the edges but I still can see blood all over your clothes, and on your hands. Are you satisfied? Do you feel like a man now that I'm not leaving? Is this what you wanted?
You cradle me to you and I look down at myself. Blood. That's all I see. I can't see exactly where it's coming from, I just know its mine and I don't want to be alone anymore. Next to my hand is the gun. I guess you forgot about it. I pick it up, but you don't notice. You still don't notice that I have the gun, and my hand starts to shake as I raise it. Your hand covers mine before I drop it. I guess you did notice. You turn the gun so the barrel is facing your chest. You cock it for me before letting go. You lean down and kiss me and before you pull away I pull the trigger.
I see... the blood all over your hands...
does it make you feel... more like a man...
was it all... just a part of your plan...
the pistol's shakin' in my hands...
and all I hear is the sound...
I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...
I breathe you...
I taste you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take any more...
this life of solitude...
I guess that I'm out the door...
and now I'm done with you...
I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...
I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take any more...
this life of solitude...
I pick myself off the floor...
and now I'm done with you...
Always...
Always...
Always...
. . . end
PI ~OK I have finally decided this will be my first fanfic that I will post on fanfiction.
And~ Finally. Gla! You have like a ton written but nnnnnnoooooooooooooo! You have to write one for your new favorite song.
PI ~ Yea but I love that song
Susysunshine ~ What about that one that you started and never finshed?
PI ~ I'm working on it.
Susysunshine ~ But you haven't even finished the first chapter *wapps PI on the back of her head* go work on it!
PI ~ No! I like this one better.
Susysunshine ~ Fine be that way, but if you get flamed don't come crying to me.
PI ~ NNNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! *Wimpers* but I love you!
And ~ What about me?
PI ~ What about you? OH, oh, yea . . . right. Well you can go torch the bananas and marshmallows so we can all have a snack together.
And ~ OKAY! *runs off towards the bon-fire with bananas in one hand and marshmallows in the other.*
Susysunshine ~ Get on with the fic already before I tell the readers, *(whispers to And) if there are any* what your real name is.
PI ~ Ack! No don't do that! Okay okay, disclaimer time
Disclaimer
I, Pure Insanity, do here by denounce any rumors that I own Yugioh, its characters, the song Always, or any of the band members of saliva. I will also never own them, I barely own the books I need for my classes. So . . . read the poem below (which incidently I don't own either) Me no own, You no sue!
Happy reading!
"Always"
"What are you doing?"
"Leaving."
"Why"
". . ."
"Answer Me!"
"Don't be so blind!"
"What do you mean by that?" You shout at me. God I don't believe you. I know your secret. Didn't think I knew it did you. Well I do. Every night, after we go to bed and you think I'm asleep, you leave. You always come back, but where do you go? I was tempted the first night I felt you leave, but I thought that would betray your trust so I stayed. That first night was a year ago today. I still don't know where you go. But I do know one thing. I know who you go to.
I can't comprehend life if you weren't by my side, but I'm going to find out. I still love you with all my heart. That's why when you would leave l cried. I lie in bed, our bed, and cry. I wouldn't be surprised if you knew that I did that. Mokuba knows. He knows more than he should, but that's my fault.
He found me one morning with the tears. You had gone to work and I was just standing there crying, in the same spot where you kissed me goodbye before you left. He hugged me, but didn't say a word. I think he's lost faith that we'll get through this.
Now you stand there, with that look. You know the one that you give when you want an answer. So I'll give you one along with one tear as it trails down my face. "Don't be so blind."
I hear... a voice say, "Don't be so blind"...
it's telling me all these things...
that you would probably hide...
am I... your one and only desire...
am I the reason you breathe...
or am I the reason you cry...
Always... always... always... always... always... always... always...
I just can't live without you...
Someone has to be the first. The first to make a move, you were the first. You started this; you made the first move in our game. But now it's my turn and I am going to make my move, I hate you for this. You are my one true love, and it hurts me that you make me cry. YOU of all people that I trusted made me cry.
So this is what it feels like to have your heart broken by the one person that you truly love.
I love you...
I hate you...
I can't get around you...
I breathe you...
I taste you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take any more...
this life of solitude...
I guess that I'm out the door...
and now I'm done with you...
I zip up my bag and turn towards the door, and turn away from you. You grab my arm harshly and spin me to face you. I look to your eyes, when mine make contact with yours your grasp brutally tightens as you realize I'm really going to leave.
"You . . your. . . your really leaving"
"You don't want me around"
". . ."
"Goodbye Seto."
I turn from you and pick up my bag. That's when I hear it.
I feel... like you don't want me around...
I guess I'll pack all my things...
I guess I'll see you around...
Its all... been bottled up until now...
as I walk out your door...
all I hear is the sound...
Always... always... always... always... always... always... always...
I just can't live without you...
You know I gave you my heart. My whole life was yours and you tore it apart. All I wanted was for you to love me back. You said you did, but why did you leave and go to him? I cannot take it anymore, being left alone, separated from the one person who I can't live without. But you forced my hand. So I'm taking my turn. I'm going to find out how to live without you. It's my choice, you helped me make it, and it's the last one.
I love you...
I hate you...
I can't get around you...
I breathe you...
I taste you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take any more...
this life of solitude...
I guess that i'm out the door...
and now i'm done with you...
I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...
I left my head around your heart...
Why would you tear my world apart...
Always... always... always... always...
I look up at you. My vision is a little hazy around the edges but I still can see blood all over your clothes, and on your hands. Are you satisfied? Do you feel like a man now that I'm not leaving? Is this what you wanted?
You cradle me to you and I look down at myself. Blood. That's all I see. I can't see exactly where it's coming from, I just know its mine and I don't want to be alone anymore. Next to my hand is the gun. I guess you forgot about it. I pick it up, but you don't notice. You still don't notice that I have the gun, and my hand starts to shake as I raise it. Your hand covers mine before I drop it. I guess you did notice. You turn the gun so the barrel is facing your chest. You cock it for me before letting go. You lean down and kiss me and before you pull away I pull the trigger.
I see... the blood all over your hands...
does it make you feel... more like a man...
was it all... just a part of your plan...
the pistol's shakin' in my hands...
and all I hear is the sound...
I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...
I breathe you...
I taste you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take any more...
this life of solitude...
I guess that I'm out the door...
and now I'm done with you...
I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...
I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take any more...
this life of solitude...
I pick myself off the floor...
and now I'm done with you...
Always...
Always...
Always...
. . . end