*prologue*
Sometimes I still dream of that day. I can't help it, it just pops into my head when i am asleep. It was about three years ago, When i was 15 years old. It still hurts to think that I could have saved him. He drown because of me. I locked my arms around him, the day before he drown. Because I knew what was going to happen. But I did nothing. I did nothing to stop him. About 20 minuts before it happened, I had gotten so angry with him, that it hurts to remember what i said to him, and it only happened about 20 minuts before he drown. Now, it i had another chance, i would surly take it, to either save his life, or our relationship as friends.
Ever since the fifth grade, I liked him. But he never knew. I never told him, and nobody else. I kept most of my secret to myself those years. I had few friends, he was basically my only friend. He was my best friend. I still can't beleive he is gone. Nothing has ever hurt more than what what i know, and what i didn't do. I replay it in my head every night when i sleep. I can't controll my feelings. Sometimes for no reason i would burst out in tears for no apparent reason.
Starting the Tenth grade was difficult, but he was ALWAYS there. By then, I had the biggest crush on him, and he still didn't know. If i didn't know better, i would say i was in love with him then. But i wasn't, untill the second week in febuary. I remember I had no valentine. I was feeling so sorry for myself. I was sad and he , being my best friend , Saw i was sad. I was walking so slow, but not on purpose...well, I guess i should tell the story from the beginning....
Sometimes I still dream of that day. I can't help it, it just pops into my head when i am asleep. It was about three years ago, When i was 15 years old. It still hurts to think that I could have saved him. He drown because of me. I locked my arms around him, the day before he drown. Because I knew what was going to happen. But I did nothing. I did nothing to stop him. About 20 minuts before it happened, I had gotten so angry with him, that it hurts to remember what i said to him, and it only happened about 20 minuts before he drown. Now, it i had another chance, i would surly take it, to either save his life, or our relationship as friends.
Ever since the fifth grade, I liked him. But he never knew. I never told him, and nobody else. I kept most of my secret to myself those years. I had few friends, he was basically my only friend. He was my best friend. I still can't beleive he is gone. Nothing has ever hurt more than what what i know, and what i didn't do. I replay it in my head every night when i sleep. I can't controll my feelings. Sometimes for no reason i would burst out in tears for no apparent reason.
Starting the Tenth grade was difficult, but he was ALWAYS there. By then, I had the biggest crush on him, and he still didn't know. If i didn't know better, i would say i was in love with him then. But i wasn't, untill the second week in febuary. I remember I had no valentine. I was feeling so sorry for myself. I was sad and he , being my best friend , Saw i was sad. I was walking so slow, but not on purpose...well, I guess i should tell the story from the beginning....