Sorry I haven't written anything for a while but ff.net changed its set up and it's been down for me for a while.
Anywayz on with the next chapter
I don't own digimon.
Chapter 4
Sora's P.O.V
I walked off and sat at a nearby desk as soon as Yamato came over. 'He makes me so mad!' I thought to myself as I tried to listen to what him and Tai were talking about. I couldn't I was too far away.
I realized I had left the song I'd been working on were Yamato was but I really couldn't face another run in with him that day.
I sat on the edge of the desk and started humming to myself quietly. The guys had already written part of the music to the song, it wasn't very inspiring, but it was okay. I glanced over at Tai, he was walking away from Yamato. 'He probably pissed Tai off as well. What happened to him?'
I heard the bell go and walked back over to my desk to collect my things. I walked out of the classroom and caught up with Tai and the others. 'Only one more lesson to go.
PE.
I entered the changing room and received many angry glares from the girls at the back of the room. I shook my head and walked to my friends.
"Hey." I smiled at them as I pulled my kit out of my bag.
"Hey..." They were all looking at me strangely.
"What?" I asked.
"Erm, did you really, like, have a go at Yamato."
"Yeah, I don't see what the big deal is. We used to be friends and I don't like the way he's treating me now."
"Err, the big deal would be that all of his groupies are gonna hate you now, and you'll never be able to go out with him." I raised an eyebrow as I watched them all float off into their little dream worlds. 'They really think he's that great. I don't get it, he's a jerk.'
I didn't say anything though. I just smiled and walked away. Let them have their fantasies, there's no harm in it. Besides they knew as well as I did, Yamato doesn't go for commitment. 'It wouldn't be cool.' I sighed. 'Why'd you have to go and change?'
Yamato's P.O.V
The more I thought about what she said to me, the madder I became.
'I can't believe she'd just flip at me like that. It's not like it was me pointing and laughing at her.' I pulled my top roughly over my head. 'Face it Yamato, you could've stopped them.'
'Shut up!' I yelled at myself. There it was again that nagging voice in the back of my telling me what a prat I'm being. But I know that. I know I threw away everything. And I know it looks like I did it to be popular, but it's not true. There was a reason a very good one. There still is.
'You still hurt her.'
There it goes again. I know I hurt her. I could've told her why but no, if I'd done that she probably would've ended up dead, or at least in hospital.
I sighed. Why did I let her go, she was the best thing that could ever have happened to me.
***Flashback***
It was just before my band was due to go on stage. Gabumon came waddling through and said Sora was waiting for me outside. My heart skipped a beat. Yes this was the perfect time to tell her. To tell her everything, how I felt about her how much I wanted to be with her. And then when Gabumon told me she had cookies with her, I couldn't believe my luck. 'Maybe she likes me too.'
I got up, well that was an understatement. I leapt out of my seat to head towards the door, but that's where the reality kicked in.
A sudden pain shot up my side and stomach. I sat back down and hugged myself. Gabumon gave me a puzzled look.
"Are you okay Matt?" He asked.
'I couldn't tell him, he wouldn't understand.'
"Yeah I fine, just got up a bit too fast." I smiled and he walked off.
Holding my stomach I got back up, slowly this time.
I shook my head. I wasn't okay. The truth was I was far from okay.
My mum had just remarried a couple of weeks ago. She was head over heels in love. Every time she talked about him you could see her eyes light up. I smiled at that thought, but then, it wasn't perfect.
I went to meet him for the first time after they got back from their honeymoon. He was the perfect gentleman. Everything I would've wished for my mother. Of course I wanted her to be with my dad, but that was never going to happen, I knew that.
He was really good with TK as well, didn't push him into anything and wasn't like one of those step parents who want to be your 'best friend.'
A few weeks later I'd been back to see them tens of times. I actually kind of liked him. He knew a lot about music and it was kind of nice having someone to talk to again.
Gabumon was in the digital world and I couldn't visit him as often as I wanted to, and dad was always working.
He was like a substitute father and best friend.
Then they asked me to move in with them. I wasn't sure at first. It was nearer to school and Sora. But I didn't want to move away from my dad. Even if he was rarely at home he was still my dad, the one who had taken care of me ever since my parents got divorced. So I declined, at first.
Then dad got a job offer, which would have meant moving away from school and Sora. So I took up their offer and went to live with them. I still visited dad but now I had two parents again and I was with TK.
Everything was great for ages. We got on and I could see my mum falling more in love with him every day. I walked to school with Sora a lot, we used to talk for ages about the silliest of things. I remembered once we had a discussion that lasted two hours on which apples tasted nicer, green ones or red ones. I was falling in love too.
It wasn't hard, but it was scary.
It was after that night actually. I walked home. I was so happy. I'd had a brilliant day at school. My band had played a gig afterwards and to my surprise Sora had waited for me and offered to walk home with me. We made a detour at the park, where we had our discussion on apples and then I walked her home and went home myself.
I'd been home all of five minutes when he came stumbling through the front door. I was walking round the corner to see what the noise was all about. TK and my mum had gone away for a couple of days for TK's birthday.
I remembered it all.
He didn't take his shoes off as he came through the door. No. He looked straight at me and started to sway down the corridor towards me. I stiffened slightly and held onto the can I had been drinking from. I could smell the alcohol all over him before he even got to me.
The whole house went quiet around us. I knew what was coming. I knew I should be able to hear drunken footsteps pounding on the floor, but there was nothing. No noise, just the realization that he wasn't perfect and my life was now about to hit a new low.
Silence all around us.
Then slam, he hit me square in the jaw. I stumbled and the drink fell to ground. It broke the silence.
And it seemed, with that one spill on the carpet. That one noise that, to me, sounded like an explosion.
My whole life erupted with it.
Now I was left to live in the after mass.
Alone.
I woke up the next morning with a huge headache. I was covered in blood, mostly my own. I'd tried to take a few swings at him but he was too strong. I picked myself up and went through to the bathroom only to find him nursing a hangover.
He stopped and stared at me as I entered the bathroom.
"You'd better not tell anyone boy." Was all he said before exiting the room.
I was stuck. What could I do. I wanted to tell my mum but when she walked through the door took one look at him and ran towards him throwing her arms around his neck, covering him in kisses. All resolution in me faded. I couldn't destroy what she had. She was happy again for the first time in years.
He looked over at me as if challenging me to say anything.
"Hi Matt honey." She said as she walked to me. Her eyes were shining. TK was happy. His eyes were cold, menacing, and cruel, but never towards my mother or TK.
I had no reason to tell her. She was happy and that was all that mattered to me.
So I turned and walked away. I walked away from everything.
I walked up to Sora. I'd been cold towards her ever since that day. He'd told me he would kill her more than once, when she came round to my house.
I knew she could tell something was wrong. She always could.
She told me she didn't trust him and I guess he heard, because after that he said if he ever saw me with her again that would be the end of her.
I was crying inside. I was about to break my heart and possibly hers and at the same time, lose any hope of ever being happy again, but if she was safe...
She could deal with a knock back. Anyone could. She'd be safe though, he wouldn't be able to get to her if I had nothing to do with her.
So I told her exactly what I didn't think of her. I said she was the last person I wanted to be with and laughed in her face. I was cruel. I guess he was starting to wear off on me. But I had to get her to hate me. I had to get her to leave me alone, for good. Whatever the cost.
It did the trick. My heart literally shattered into thousands of pieces the second I saw all hope die in her eyes. I watched as she disappeared from my life forever and turned to see them all smirking.
"You did the right thing, you could do much better."
It was them. The biggest and probably toughest gang of bullies you'd ever met.
And now, I'm one of them.
It was a cover. And a reason for them to hate me.
Now there was a reason why I was acting so oddly. A reason why I was constantly covered in bruises and a reason why I broke my best friends heart.
***End Flashback***
She has every right to hate me. I hate me. But Sora you have to know. I did it for you. I just want you to be safe.
Sora's P.O.V
We played hockey today in PE. I loved hockey. It was so energetic and fun. Plus I got to hit the cheerleaders in the shins. Well I never actually did that, but it was fun thinking that I could and have a reason to do it with out getting yelled at.
I smiled, we'd won the game 3-1.
I walked back into the changing rooms. I glanced over at him. His eyes locked with mine. 'He looks so sad.' I thought to myself. 'He chose this though, he could've turned them down.' I strengthened again. I wasn't going to think about him. He hurt me so much and as far as I was concerned he got everything he deserved.
It was no use though. I could tell myself that over and over again, but it would never change the fact that I saw the pain in his eyes as he said those things to me.
'I don't care what you say Yamato. I know you're still in there.'
I averted my gaze from his and went into the changing room. Getting changed I listened to the conversation going on around me. All of them were about him. Getting over Yamato had been the hardest thing I'd ever had to do. 'But you're not over him.' I glanced down at the books sticking out of my bag and pushed them quickly out of view. 'I am.' I argued with myself. 'I am.'
I started to push the PE kit I'd been using into my bag, as I was doing this I suddenly became aware of someone standing right behind me. I turned and just as I was about to face the person looming over me I saw another hand reach round and pull one of my books out of my bag.
"Hey!" I protested, but it was too late. They had my books and now everyone would know.
Yay I finally finished it. A very long chapter for ya folks.
R+R and no flames okay!
Luv Claire
Anywayz on with the next chapter
I don't own digimon.
Chapter 4
Sora's P.O.V
I walked off and sat at a nearby desk as soon as Yamato came over. 'He makes me so mad!' I thought to myself as I tried to listen to what him and Tai were talking about. I couldn't I was too far away.
I realized I had left the song I'd been working on were Yamato was but I really couldn't face another run in with him that day.
I sat on the edge of the desk and started humming to myself quietly. The guys had already written part of the music to the song, it wasn't very inspiring, but it was okay. I glanced over at Tai, he was walking away from Yamato. 'He probably pissed Tai off as well. What happened to him?'
I heard the bell go and walked back over to my desk to collect my things. I walked out of the classroom and caught up with Tai and the others. 'Only one more lesson to go.
PE.
I entered the changing room and received many angry glares from the girls at the back of the room. I shook my head and walked to my friends.
"Hey." I smiled at them as I pulled my kit out of my bag.
"Hey..." They were all looking at me strangely.
"What?" I asked.
"Erm, did you really, like, have a go at Yamato."
"Yeah, I don't see what the big deal is. We used to be friends and I don't like the way he's treating me now."
"Err, the big deal would be that all of his groupies are gonna hate you now, and you'll never be able to go out with him." I raised an eyebrow as I watched them all float off into their little dream worlds. 'They really think he's that great. I don't get it, he's a jerk.'
I didn't say anything though. I just smiled and walked away. Let them have their fantasies, there's no harm in it. Besides they knew as well as I did, Yamato doesn't go for commitment. 'It wouldn't be cool.' I sighed. 'Why'd you have to go and change?'
Yamato's P.O.V
The more I thought about what she said to me, the madder I became.
'I can't believe she'd just flip at me like that. It's not like it was me pointing and laughing at her.' I pulled my top roughly over my head. 'Face it Yamato, you could've stopped them.'
'Shut up!' I yelled at myself. There it was again that nagging voice in the back of my telling me what a prat I'm being. But I know that. I know I threw away everything. And I know it looks like I did it to be popular, but it's not true. There was a reason a very good one. There still is.
'You still hurt her.'
There it goes again. I know I hurt her. I could've told her why but no, if I'd done that she probably would've ended up dead, or at least in hospital.
I sighed. Why did I let her go, she was the best thing that could ever have happened to me.
***Flashback***
It was just before my band was due to go on stage. Gabumon came waddling through and said Sora was waiting for me outside. My heart skipped a beat. Yes this was the perfect time to tell her. To tell her everything, how I felt about her how much I wanted to be with her. And then when Gabumon told me she had cookies with her, I couldn't believe my luck. 'Maybe she likes me too.'
I got up, well that was an understatement. I leapt out of my seat to head towards the door, but that's where the reality kicked in.
A sudden pain shot up my side and stomach. I sat back down and hugged myself. Gabumon gave me a puzzled look.
"Are you okay Matt?" He asked.
'I couldn't tell him, he wouldn't understand.'
"Yeah I fine, just got up a bit too fast." I smiled and he walked off.
Holding my stomach I got back up, slowly this time.
I shook my head. I wasn't okay. The truth was I was far from okay.
My mum had just remarried a couple of weeks ago. She was head over heels in love. Every time she talked about him you could see her eyes light up. I smiled at that thought, but then, it wasn't perfect.
I went to meet him for the first time after they got back from their honeymoon. He was the perfect gentleman. Everything I would've wished for my mother. Of course I wanted her to be with my dad, but that was never going to happen, I knew that.
He was really good with TK as well, didn't push him into anything and wasn't like one of those step parents who want to be your 'best friend.'
A few weeks later I'd been back to see them tens of times. I actually kind of liked him. He knew a lot about music and it was kind of nice having someone to talk to again.
Gabumon was in the digital world and I couldn't visit him as often as I wanted to, and dad was always working.
He was like a substitute father and best friend.
Then they asked me to move in with them. I wasn't sure at first. It was nearer to school and Sora. But I didn't want to move away from my dad. Even if he was rarely at home he was still my dad, the one who had taken care of me ever since my parents got divorced. So I declined, at first.
Then dad got a job offer, which would have meant moving away from school and Sora. So I took up their offer and went to live with them. I still visited dad but now I had two parents again and I was with TK.
Everything was great for ages. We got on and I could see my mum falling more in love with him every day. I walked to school with Sora a lot, we used to talk for ages about the silliest of things. I remembered once we had a discussion that lasted two hours on which apples tasted nicer, green ones or red ones. I was falling in love too.
It wasn't hard, but it was scary.
It was after that night actually. I walked home. I was so happy. I'd had a brilliant day at school. My band had played a gig afterwards and to my surprise Sora had waited for me and offered to walk home with me. We made a detour at the park, where we had our discussion on apples and then I walked her home and went home myself.
I'd been home all of five minutes when he came stumbling through the front door. I was walking round the corner to see what the noise was all about. TK and my mum had gone away for a couple of days for TK's birthday.
I remembered it all.
He didn't take his shoes off as he came through the door. No. He looked straight at me and started to sway down the corridor towards me. I stiffened slightly and held onto the can I had been drinking from. I could smell the alcohol all over him before he even got to me.
The whole house went quiet around us. I knew what was coming. I knew I should be able to hear drunken footsteps pounding on the floor, but there was nothing. No noise, just the realization that he wasn't perfect and my life was now about to hit a new low.
Silence all around us.
Then slam, he hit me square in the jaw. I stumbled and the drink fell to ground. It broke the silence.
And it seemed, with that one spill on the carpet. That one noise that, to me, sounded like an explosion.
My whole life erupted with it.
Now I was left to live in the after mass.
Alone.
I woke up the next morning with a huge headache. I was covered in blood, mostly my own. I'd tried to take a few swings at him but he was too strong. I picked myself up and went through to the bathroom only to find him nursing a hangover.
He stopped and stared at me as I entered the bathroom.
"You'd better not tell anyone boy." Was all he said before exiting the room.
I was stuck. What could I do. I wanted to tell my mum but when she walked through the door took one look at him and ran towards him throwing her arms around his neck, covering him in kisses. All resolution in me faded. I couldn't destroy what she had. She was happy again for the first time in years.
He looked over at me as if challenging me to say anything.
"Hi Matt honey." She said as she walked to me. Her eyes were shining. TK was happy. His eyes were cold, menacing, and cruel, but never towards my mother or TK.
I had no reason to tell her. She was happy and that was all that mattered to me.
So I turned and walked away. I walked away from everything.
I walked up to Sora. I'd been cold towards her ever since that day. He'd told me he would kill her more than once, when she came round to my house.
I knew she could tell something was wrong. She always could.
She told me she didn't trust him and I guess he heard, because after that he said if he ever saw me with her again that would be the end of her.
I was crying inside. I was about to break my heart and possibly hers and at the same time, lose any hope of ever being happy again, but if she was safe...
She could deal with a knock back. Anyone could. She'd be safe though, he wouldn't be able to get to her if I had nothing to do with her.
So I told her exactly what I didn't think of her. I said she was the last person I wanted to be with and laughed in her face. I was cruel. I guess he was starting to wear off on me. But I had to get her to hate me. I had to get her to leave me alone, for good. Whatever the cost.
It did the trick. My heart literally shattered into thousands of pieces the second I saw all hope die in her eyes. I watched as she disappeared from my life forever and turned to see them all smirking.
"You did the right thing, you could do much better."
It was them. The biggest and probably toughest gang of bullies you'd ever met.
And now, I'm one of them.
It was a cover. And a reason for them to hate me.
Now there was a reason why I was acting so oddly. A reason why I was constantly covered in bruises and a reason why I broke my best friends heart.
***End Flashback***
She has every right to hate me. I hate me. But Sora you have to know. I did it for you. I just want you to be safe.
Sora's P.O.V
We played hockey today in PE. I loved hockey. It was so energetic and fun. Plus I got to hit the cheerleaders in the shins. Well I never actually did that, but it was fun thinking that I could and have a reason to do it with out getting yelled at.
I smiled, we'd won the game 3-1.
I walked back into the changing rooms. I glanced over at him. His eyes locked with mine. 'He looks so sad.' I thought to myself. 'He chose this though, he could've turned them down.' I strengthened again. I wasn't going to think about him. He hurt me so much and as far as I was concerned he got everything he deserved.
It was no use though. I could tell myself that over and over again, but it would never change the fact that I saw the pain in his eyes as he said those things to me.
'I don't care what you say Yamato. I know you're still in there.'
I averted my gaze from his and went into the changing room. Getting changed I listened to the conversation going on around me. All of them were about him. Getting over Yamato had been the hardest thing I'd ever had to do. 'But you're not over him.' I glanced down at the books sticking out of my bag and pushed them quickly out of view. 'I am.' I argued with myself. 'I am.'
I started to push the PE kit I'd been using into my bag, as I was doing this I suddenly became aware of someone standing right behind me. I turned and just as I was about to face the person looming over me I saw another hand reach round and pull one of my books out of my bag.
"Hey!" I protested, but it was too late. They had my books and now everyone would know.
Yay I finally finished it. A very long chapter for ya folks.
R+R and no flames okay!
Luv Claire