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Chapter 6
'Man, what am I supposed to do now? She wants me to walk her home. What if I bump into one of my mates, or worse still, him?' I shuddered at the thought. 'What would he do to Sora if he saw me with her? But then again, the past couple of years had been good to her. Very good indeed.' I looked her over. She wasn't a tomboy anymore, that much was for sure. She'd changed and maybe enough so he wouldn't recognise her?
I sighed. 'I want to walk with you Sora, but how can I if it'll put you in danger?'
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'Why is he taking so long to answer me? I'd normally have been laughed at by now. And why is he looking at me like that? Oh, why did I ask him to walk with me. I know he's just going to laugh at me again and give me a look that says 'As if I'd walk with someone as unpopular as you'?
Why, did I think for one second he'd ever be the Matt I once knew? I sighed and looked down at my shoes. I wanted to cry.
Oh just answer me Matt. Please, just tell me if I have any chance of getting you back.'
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I saw her head fall. 'Why, why does life have to be like this? Why can't I just have her? Be with her, kiss her, touch her?
Hold her in my arms forever.
I want to be with you Sora, but I'd have to tell you why I've been like this and then you could get hurt. Everyone could.
I watched your pretty face and saw one single tear trace its way down your cheek and you push it roughly away. 'What am I doing to you?'
"Sora I…"
I watched as you lifted your head up, that same hopeful look in your eyes, the one that I saw in TK's eyes every time he had tried to talk to me over the years. The same one that had disappeared from his face after every conversation with me.
'What's the point in stopping them from getting hurt if I just end up hurting them myself? One walk won't hurt, surely. It's dark and it's not like anyone will see us. So I won't get any grief off anybody. Why not?' I'd reassured myself, nothing would happen…
"Sure, I'll walk with you Sora."
I saw a look of surprise in her eyes this time.
"Really?"
"Yeah, I guess I could do with earning some brownie points, even if they only get you to stop throwing sarcastic comments my way?" I smiled hopefully.
"Don't push your look Ishida!" She grinned and we turned to walk in the direction of her house.
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It's amazing, how one day can change everything in your life. If someone had told me yesterday that I'd be walking home with Ishida Yamato, acting like nothing had ever happened between us, I'd have laughed in their faces. I mean what possible things could we have to talk about anymore.
He enjoyed wild parties, drinking late into the night, and breaking numerous girls hearts'.
I on the other hand, was into sports, enjoyed working at my mums flower shop and had never got drunk in my entire life.
I sighed quietly as he brought me round to sit on a park bench.
'Wait a park bench? I don't live near the park.'
"Matt, why are we here? What's going on?"
I saw his face fall this time.
"Don't you remember when we used to come here on a night time. We'd sit here for hours at a time just staring up at the stars, talking about nothing in particular.
Do you remember that time we talked about apples?"
I laughed fondly remembering, and at the same time I noticed how he had turned to look straight at me.
I forced myself to look up, into your eyes. The one thing that gave you away.
'Is it really an act Matt, or is that just my wishful thinking?'
You caught on though, before I had the chance to see. You still knew I could tell exactly what you where thinking just by looking into those aquamarine eyes of yours.
Your only flaw.
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You could always do it. You could always tell exactly what I was thinking. I hated that, I could never hide my emotions from you. So I turned, I couldn't let you see, Sora. If you saw what was going through my head, I'd loose you for sure, I just knew it.
So I changed the subject quickly.
"You know, you look beautiful tonight."
I could tell instantly I'd caught you off-guard. I'd caught myself off-guard too. I'd actually meant it.
My one ever famous line, the line I use to get innocent, unsuspecting girls into bed with me. And I'd meant it.
'Wow, I'm a jerk now. You know it, everyone knows it. But no one more than me.'
But I had meant it. 'Of course you meant it, you idiot, when you still have feelings for the girl.' I was arguing with myself again. A nasty habit I'd picked up. I scolded myself and looked up to see you retreating into the darkness.
"Sora…" I called.
Another chapter for you all. Hope it's not too short but I know how much you all like cliff-hangers! :P
R+R please, it's Christmas!
Luv Claire
*** MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE AT FF.NET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!***
Chapter 6
'Man, what am I supposed to do now? She wants me to walk her home. What if I bump into one of my mates, or worse still, him?' I shuddered at the thought. 'What would he do to Sora if he saw me with her? But then again, the past couple of years had been good to her. Very good indeed.' I looked her over. She wasn't a tomboy anymore, that much was for sure. She'd changed and maybe enough so he wouldn't recognise her?
I sighed. 'I want to walk with you Sora, but how can I if it'll put you in danger?'
***©***
'Why is he taking so long to answer me? I'd normally have been laughed at by now. And why is he looking at me like that? Oh, why did I ask him to walk with me. I know he's just going to laugh at me again and give me a look that says 'As if I'd walk with someone as unpopular as you'?
Why, did I think for one second he'd ever be the Matt I once knew? I sighed and looked down at my shoes. I wanted to cry.
Oh just answer me Matt. Please, just tell me if I have any chance of getting you back.'
***©***
I saw her head fall. 'Why, why does life have to be like this? Why can't I just have her? Be with her, kiss her, touch her?
Hold her in my arms forever.
I want to be with you Sora, but I'd have to tell you why I've been like this and then you could get hurt. Everyone could.
I watched your pretty face and saw one single tear trace its way down your cheek and you push it roughly away. 'What am I doing to you?'
"Sora I…"
I watched as you lifted your head up, that same hopeful look in your eyes, the one that I saw in TK's eyes every time he had tried to talk to me over the years. The same one that had disappeared from his face after every conversation with me.
'What's the point in stopping them from getting hurt if I just end up hurting them myself? One walk won't hurt, surely. It's dark and it's not like anyone will see us. So I won't get any grief off anybody. Why not?' I'd reassured myself, nothing would happen…
"Sure, I'll walk with you Sora."
I saw a look of surprise in her eyes this time.
"Really?"
"Yeah, I guess I could do with earning some brownie points, even if they only get you to stop throwing sarcastic comments my way?" I smiled hopefully.
"Don't push your look Ishida!" She grinned and we turned to walk in the direction of her house.
***©***
It's amazing, how one day can change everything in your life. If someone had told me yesterday that I'd be walking home with Ishida Yamato, acting like nothing had ever happened between us, I'd have laughed in their faces. I mean what possible things could we have to talk about anymore.
He enjoyed wild parties, drinking late into the night, and breaking numerous girls hearts'.
I on the other hand, was into sports, enjoyed working at my mums flower shop and had never got drunk in my entire life.
I sighed quietly as he brought me round to sit on a park bench.
'Wait a park bench? I don't live near the park.'
"Matt, why are we here? What's going on?"
I saw his face fall this time.
"Don't you remember when we used to come here on a night time. We'd sit here for hours at a time just staring up at the stars, talking about nothing in particular.
Do you remember that time we talked about apples?"
I laughed fondly remembering, and at the same time I noticed how he had turned to look straight at me.
I forced myself to look up, into your eyes. The one thing that gave you away.
'Is it really an act Matt, or is that just my wishful thinking?'
You caught on though, before I had the chance to see. You still knew I could tell exactly what you where thinking just by looking into those aquamarine eyes of yours.
Your only flaw.
***©***
You could always do it. You could always tell exactly what I was thinking. I hated that, I could never hide my emotions from you. So I turned, I couldn't let you see, Sora. If you saw what was going through my head, I'd loose you for sure, I just knew it.
So I changed the subject quickly.
"You know, you look beautiful tonight."
I could tell instantly I'd caught you off-guard. I'd caught myself off-guard too. I'd actually meant it.
My one ever famous line, the line I use to get innocent, unsuspecting girls into bed with me. And I'd meant it.
'Wow, I'm a jerk now. You know it, everyone knows it. But no one more than me.'
But I had meant it. 'Of course you meant it, you idiot, when you still have feelings for the girl.' I was arguing with myself again. A nasty habit I'd picked up. I scolded myself and looked up to see you retreating into the darkness.
"Sora…" I called.
Another chapter for you all. Hope it's not too short but I know how much you all like cliff-hangers! :P
R+R please, it's Christmas!
Luv Claire