Will You Ever?
Disclaimers: Do I look like I have enough money to own Queer as Folk? Well I wish that I could own Brian Kinney and Justin Taylor.hehe. Don't sue me, I'm just a poor, poor writer.
A/N: Oops, I forgot to put the disclaimers on Part 1, but everyone knows that I don't own these fabulous boys so it works out. Please review on my stories, they help me improve! Does anyone know how to do Italics and the "..."? I tried doing it but ff.net screwed it up somehow. I'm not dissing ff.net, I swear! Also, I wrote this before the season 2 finale aired, so I'm sorry if I didn't clarify before.
Rating: PG-13..for now
Paring: Brian/Justin and Justin/Ethan
Summary: Justin comes home and gets in a fight with Ethan; he storms off and sees Mikey. His mom has some news for him and Justin goes to find Brian, but what happens?
Part 2
[-I Want to Be With You-]
"So who did you see last night?"
"Just the guys and Deb."
"Did you see Brian?"
"Jesus Ethan! What if I did? Are you that insecure that I would go back to him? I thought that you trusted me!"
"I do! It's just that."
"Because if I wanted to go back to Brian, I would have already." I picked up the Rage drawings and stuffed them in my bag. "I need to take these to Michael. I'll be back later."
I grabbed my jacket and scarf and rushed out the door. Behind me, I heard Ethan yelling after me. I just couldn't stand him. In the beginning he was so loving and sweet, always there for me when I needed him. After I broke up with Brian, one night when he heard me say Brian's name in my sleep. After that, he kept tabs on where I went, whom I was with. The one night that I thought he actually trusted me enough, I get a fucking lecture the next day. I meant it when I said that Ethan's worse than Brian. I just need to go and vent. After I take these to Michael, I think I'll go to Babylon or Woody's. The thing that bothered me the most was that Ethan was right. I would go back to Brian in a heartbeat if he just changed.
I walked into Michael's store and there were some customers going out with a Rage comic book in their hands.
"I guess they're still selling big, huh?"
"Hey Justin. Yeah I guess so. Did you bring the drawings?"
"Yeah I did." I took them out of my bag. "Here."
"These are great. Thanks. So.how's things with Ethan?"
"Not bad I guess. He smothers me so much, it's starting to get annoying."
"I know what that's like. That's what it was like with David." Michael took out more copies of Rage behind the counter and set them up for display. "I saw you and Brian leaving together last night."
"Yeah I know. I needed to talk to him in private." Michael gave me this weird, disbelieving look. "Nothing happened, Michael. We just talked."
"Oh." Michael put on that same face that he had on last night when Brian and I drove away. "You know, I'm sorry that you and Brian broke up, but I had to tell him about you and Ethan. I'm his best friend."
"I know Michael, I didn't mean to blame you. I'm sorry I was mad at you for telling him, I shouldn't have slept with Ethan in the first place. If I didn't, none of this would have ever happened." The memory of the night when Brian found out came creeping back. I had to shut my eyes to push the memory away. I opened my eyes and looked at Michael. "So, what are you and the guys doing tonight?"
"We're going to grab dinner at the diner and then to Babylon. You want to go?"
"Fuck! I completely forgot! No, I can't. I promised my mom that I'd come over and have dinner."
"All right. See if you can stop by at Babylon later."
"Ok. Bye Michael. Say hi to the guys for me."
I walked out of the store and caught a cab and went to my mom's house. I forgot all about it when I stormed out of the apartment leaving Ethan behind until Michael mentioned dinner. I was supposed to bring Ethan so my mom can meet him. What am I going to tell her? 'Sorry mom, Ethan couldn't come. We had a fight again because he fucking wouldn't trust me.' She wanted to meet him for months and when we finally have the time, we get into a fight. My life's a fucking mess! The cab stopped in front of my mom's condo and I knocked on the door. I heard someone running downstairs and it was Molly who opened the door.
"Mom! Justin's here!"
My mom came to the door and hugged me. "Hi sweety. How have you been? Where's Ethan?"
"Um, he couldn't come. We kind of."
"You don't have to explain, your father and I went through it already. I know. Well, come in. Let's eat."
During dinner, we didn't talk much. I could tell that my mom was upset that Ethan didn't come. She was looking forward to meet him. She'd always say that she wanted me to find someone my own age when I was with Brian and now that I'm with Ethan, we get in fights. Most of the talking during dinner was conversations drawn up by Molly, how she wants the new Barbie Princess collection for her birthday. Thankfully, we didn't talk about Ethan or Brian during dinner.
After dinner, we all went into the living room to watch some TV. When Molly went to the bathroom, my mom told me something that completely shocked me.
"You know Justin, I haven't seen you this unhappy and agitated since you were hit. Is this because you're in a fight with Ethan or because you miss Brian?"
"I don't know. I do miss Brian, but Ethan can love me in ways that he can't."
"Justin, Brian does love you. If he didn't, he wouldn't have come to the hospital every night to see that you were ok."
"What? He came to the hospital? Why didn't you tell me before?"
"He didn't want anyone to know. He does love you Justin. More than he loved anyone else, anyone who knows him can tell you that."
"I know that he loves me. I just need him to tell me that he loves me."
"Give him time Justin, he'll eventually tell you. I know that at first I didn't approve you and him being together and that I pleaded with you to find someone your own age. But being with him makes you happy. That's what matters."
"Thanks mom. I've got to get going. Tell Molly that I said bye. I love you mom."
"I love you too, Justin. Visit once in a while."
I was stunned at what my mom had told me about Brian. She's known all this time that Brian had came to see me every night that I was in the hospital after the bashing and she never told me. Why didn't Brian tell me? Now I know why he didn't answer me right away when I asked him why he never came to see me. I've got to go to the diner or Babylon to talk to him, I don't care if he's in the middle of getting a blow job from a trick, I need to talk to him. This time, I took the bus back to Liberty Ave. I didn't have that much money to take another cab ride. Good thing that I still look younger than I really am, I didn't have to pay that much for the bus ride.
I walked into the diner and Debbie was there. I spent a few minutes talking to her because I didn't want to be rude. It has been a while actually talking to her. Last night I just said hi to Debbie because the diner was so busy. I asked her where the guys were and she told me that they already went to Babylon. I told her that I needed to talk to Brian and she understood. I said goodbye to Debbie and she told me to visit more often. I walked into Babylon and it was same as the last time I've been here, except for the Rage decorations, of course. The club had its loud dance music and it was filled with hot dancing guys. I can't exactly say that I've missed this, but it's good to be back.
I went up to the catwalk and tried to look for Brian or the guys. I saw Ted and Emmett dancing together and so were Michael and Ben. Brian was dancing with a guy with blond hair. I walked down from the catwalk and over to Brian.
"Hey, sunshine."
"Hey. I need to talk to you."
"We talked yesterday. Now, excuse me, I'm dancing."
"Hey you, fuck off."
The blond guy got irritated of me. "Hey, I'm dancing here! You fuck off!" He grabbed my shirt and shoved me. I tripped over some guy and fell hard on the floor.
"What the fuck is your problem? Piss off." Brian came over to me and helped me up. "What is so important that you had to get thrown to the dance floor?"
"Can we go outside and talk?"
"Jesus, we're doing a lot of talking since you've been back."
"Let's go outside."
Brian and I went outside to the alley where the entrance of Babylon was. We walked a little further down the alley before we stopped.
"So, what did you want to talk about?" I was about to talk when I felt something on my right arm. When I looked at my elbow, it was bleeding and the blood had dripped down the sleeve of my shirt. "Let's go, you need to get that checked."
"I'm fine, Brian. I don't need to go to the hospital."
"Fine, we won't go to a hospital." Once again, Brian and I went into his jeep and we headed for his loft. It was sort of a déjà vu. We didn't talk to each other in the car again. When we got to the loft, Brian took off his jacket and led me to the bathroom. "Take off your shirt and put it in the water. It's soaked with blood."
I did as he asked and when I turned around, he was holding a wet towel and he gave it to me to clean up my cut.
"It doesn't look too bad."
Brian walked out of the bathroom and into the bedroom where he took off his shoes. I followed him out.
"So you wanted to talk to me about something?"
"I saw my mom today."
"Really? How is Jennifer?"
"She's fine. She told me something about you."
"And what's that, may I ask?"
"I think you already know what I'm talking about. Why didn't you tell me that you came to see me every night at the hospital after I was bashed?"
"Fuck. Justin, I." Brian cleared his throat. He always did that when he didn't have anything to say. "I just didn't want you or anyone to know."
"You came because you cared about what happens to me. You came because you thought that it was your fault, but Brian like I said, it's not your fault. You coming was a hint that you actually gave a shit about me."
Brian sat on the bed silently.
"Brian, I know that you love me and that you care about me. I love you too and I want to be with you no matter what. I just wish that you could change." I sank onto my knees in front of him. "Brian, look at me." He looked up and his eyes met mine. "I still want to be with you."
Then it happened - we kissed. It felt so right to feel his lips on mine. I let the towel drop from my hand and I grabbed Brian's silky hair. It seemed like an eternity before we had to part for breath.
"I missed you, Justin."
"I missed you too. Brian."
"Yeah?" He looked at me in my eyes and I knew that he was sincere when he said that he missed me. It pained me to say what I had to say next because I didn't want to.
"I.I have to go."
Brian looked disappointed. "What about your shirt? Its still wet."
"I've got an over-shirt in my bag. I can wear that."
"Do you have to go?"
"Ethan and I had a fight, I should get back and apologize, he didn't really do anything wrong."
"Justin."
"Yeah, Brian?"
"I'll call you."
A big smile lit upon my face and that made him smile too. I missed his smile, so much. I retrieved my bag, took out my over-shirt, and put it on. I walked over to Brian and smiled, "I'll keep my cell on." I grabbed the back of his neck and we kissed again. "And I'll be back for my shirt."
I walked out of the loft once again, but this time, with a sense of hope that Brian and I could be on our way to be together again. I went down the stairs and out the building. I looked up to the window of Brian's loft and I saw him standing there, in front of the window, with a smile.
TBC.
More A/N: Thank you to all who reviewed! It made me so happy! Now I know what all the other authors were talking about. ^_^ How the heck do you do bold and italics??
Memarkw, Evangeline, Glossy, and Jessica: I'm continuing! I'm working on part 3 right now! I should have it up soon. Anyone know where I can find a good Beta??
Lookie down here.the review button!!!
Disclaimers: Do I look like I have enough money to own Queer as Folk? Well I wish that I could own Brian Kinney and Justin Taylor.hehe. Don't sue me, I'm just a poor, poor writer.
A/N: Oops, I forgot to put the disclaimers on Part 1, but everyone knows that I don't own these fabulous boys so it works out. Please review on my stories, they help me improve! Does anyone know how to do Italics and the "..."? I tried doing it but ff.net screwed it up somehow. I'm not dissing ff.net, I swear! Also, I wrote this before the season 2 finale aired, so I'm sorry if I didn't clarify before.
Rating: PG-13..for now
Paring: Brian/Justin and Justin/Ethan
Summary: Justin comes home and gets in a fight with Ethan; he storms off and sees Mikey. His mom has some news for him and Justin goes to find Brian, but what happens?
Part 2
[-I Want to Be With You-]
"So who did you see last night?"
"Just the guys and Deb."
"Did you see Brian?"
"Jesus Ethan! What if I did? Are you that insecure that I would go back to him? I thought that you trusted me!"
"I do! It's just that."
"Because if I wanted to go back to Brian, I would have already." I picked up the Rage drawings and stuffed them in my bag. "I need to take these to Michael. I'll be back later."
I grabbed my jacket and scarf and rushed out the door. Behind me, I heard Ethan yelling after me. I just couldn't stand him. In the beginning he was so loving and sweet, always there for me when I needed him. After I broke up with Brian, one night when he heard me say Brian's name in my sleep. After that, he kept tabs on where I went, whom I was with. The one night that I thought he actually trusted me enough, I get a fucking lecture the next day. I meant it when I said that Ethan's worse than Brian. I just need to go and vent. After I take these to Michael, I think I'll go to Babylon or Woody's. The thing that bothered me the most was that Ethan was right. I would go back to Brian in a heartbeat if he just changed.
I walked into Michael's store and there were some customers going out with a Rage comic book in their hands.
"I guess they're still selling big, huh?"
"Hey Justin. Yeah I guess so. Did you bring the drawings?"
"Yeah I did." I took them out of my bag. "Here."
"These are great. Thanks. So.how's things with Ethan?"
"Not bad I guess. He smothers me so much, it's starting to get annoying."
"I know what that's like. That's what it was like with David." Michael took out more copies of Rage behind the counter and set them up for display. "I saw you and Brian leaving together last night."
"Yeah I know. I needed to talk to him in private." Michael gave me this weird, disbelieving look. "Nothing happened, Michael. We just talked."
"Oh." Michael put on that same face that he had on last night when Brian and I drove away. "You know, I'm sorry that you and Brian broke up, but I had to tell him about you and Ethan. I'm his best friend."
"I know Michael, I didn't mean to blame you. I'm sorry I was mad at you for telling him, I shouldn't have slept with Ethan in the first place. If I didn't, none of this would have ever happened." The memory of the night when Brian found out came creeping back. I had to shut my eyes to push the memory away. I opened my eyes and looked at Michael. "So, what are you and the guys doing tonight?"
"We're going to grab dinner at the diner and then to Babylon. You want to go?"
"Fuck! I completely forgot! No, I can't. I promised my mom that I'd come over and have dinner."
"All right. See if you can stop by at Babylon later."
"Ok. Bye Michael. Say hi to the guys for me."
I walked out of the store and caught a cab and went to my mom's house. I forgot all about it when I stormed out of the apartment leaving Ethan behind until Michael mentioned dinner. I was supposed to bring Ethan so my mom can meet him. What am I going to tell her? 'Sorry mom, Ethan couldn't come. We had a fight again because he fucking wouldn't trust me.' She wanted to meet him for months and when we finally have the time, we get into a fight. My life's a fucking mess! The cab stopped in front of my mom's condo and I knocked on the door. I heard someone running downstairs and it was Molly who opened the door.
"Mom! Justin's here!"
My mom came to the door and hugged me. "Hi sweety. How have you been? Where's Ethan?"
"Um, he couldn't come. We kind of."
"You don't have to explain, your father and I went through it already. I know. Well, come in. Let's eat."
During dinner, we didn't talk much. I could tell that my mom was upset that Ethan didn't come. She was looking forward to meet him. She'd always say that she wanted me to find someone my own age when I was with Brian and now that I'm with Ethan, we get in fights. Most of the talking during dinner was conversations drawn up by Molly, how she wants the new Barbie Princess collection for her birthday. Thankfully, we didn't talk about Ethan or Brian during dinner.
After dinner, we all went into the living room to watch some TV. When Molly went to the bathroom, my mom told me something that completely shocked me.
"You know Justin, I haven't seen you this unhappy and agitated since you were hit. Is this because you're in a fight with Ethan or because you miss Brian?"
"I don't know. I do miss Brian, but Ethan can love me in ways that he can't."
"Justin, Brian does love you. If he didn't, he wouldn't have come to the hospital every night to see that you were ok."
"What? He came to the hospital? Why didn't you tell me before?"
"He didn't want anyone to know. He does love you Justin. More than he loved anyone else, anyone who knows him can tell you that."
"I know that he loves me. I just need him to tell me that he loves me."
"Give him time Justin, he'll eventually tell you. I know that at first I didn't approve you and him being together and that I pleaded with you to find someone your own age. But being with him makes you happy. That's what matters."
"Thanks mom. I've got to get going. Tell Molly that I said bye. I love you mom."
"I love you too, Justin. Visit once in a while."
I was stunned at what my mom had told me about Brian. She's known all this time that Brian had came to see me every night that I was in the hospital after the bashing and she never told me. Why didn't Brian tell me? Now I know why he didn't answer me right away when I asked him why he never came to see me. I've got to go to the diner or Babylon to talk to him, I don't care if he's in the middle of getting a blow job from a trick, I need to talk to him. This time, I took the bus back to Liberty Ave. I didn't have that much money to take another cab ride. Good thing that I still look younger than I really am, I didn't have to pay that much for the bus ride.
I walked into the diner and Debbie was there. I spent a few minutes talking to her because I didn't want to be rude. It has been a while actually talking to her. Last night I just said hi to Debbie because the diner was so busy. I asked her where the guys were and she told me that they already went to Babylon. I told her that I needed to talk to Brian and she understood. I said goodbye to Debbie and she told me to visit more often. I walked into Babylon and it was same as the last time I've been here, except for the Rage decorations, of course. The club had its loud dance music and it was filled with hot dancing guys. I can't exactly say that I've missed this, but it's good to be back.
I went up to the catwalk and tried to look for Brian or the guys. I saw Ted and Emmett dancing together and so were Michael and Ben. Brian was dancing with a guy with blond hair. I walked down from the catwalk and over to Brian.
"Hey, sunshine."
"Hey. I need to talk to you."
"We talked yesterday. Now, excuse me, I'm dancing."
"Hey you, fuck off."
The blond guy got irritated of me. "Hey, I'm dancing here! You fuck off!" He grabbed my shirt and shoved me. I tripped over some guy and fell hard on the floor.
"What the fuck is your problem? Piss off." Brian came over to me and helped me up. "What is so important that you had to get thrown to the dance floor?"
"Can we go outside and talk?"
"Jesus, we're doing a lot of talking since you've been back."
"Let's go outside."
Brian and I went outside to the alley where the entrance of Babylon was. We walked a little further down the alley before we stopped.
"So, what did you want to talk about?" I was about to talk when I felt something on my right arm. When I looked at my elbow, it was bleeding and the blood had dripped down the sleeve of my shirt. "Let's go, you need to get that checked."
"I'm fine, Brian. I don't need to go to the hospital."
"Fine, we won't go to a hospital." Once again, Brian and I went into his jeep and we headed for his loft. It was sort of a déjà vu. We didn't talk to each other in the car again. When we got to the loft, Brian took off his jacket and led me to the bathroom. "Take off your shirt and put it in the water. It's soaked with blood."
I did as he asked and when I turned around, he was holding a wet towel and he gave it to me to clean up my cut.
"It doesn't look too bad."
Brian walked out of the bathroom and into the bedroom where he took off his shoes. I followed him out.
"So you wanted to talk to me about something?"
"I saw my mom today."
"Really? How is Jennifer?"
"She's fine. She told me something about you."
"And what's that, may I ask?"
"I think you already know what I'm talking about. Why didn't you tell me that you came to see me every night at the hospital after I was bashed?"
"Fuck. Justin, I." Brian cleared his throat. He always did that when he didn't have anything to say. "I just didn't want you or anyone to know."
"You came because you cared about what happens to me. You came because you thought that it was your fault, but Brian like I said, it's not your fault. You coming was a hint that you actually gave a shit about me."
Brian sat on the bed silently.
"Brian, I know that you love me and that you care about me. I love you too and I want to be with you no matter what. I just wish that you could change." I sank onto my knees in front of him. "Brian, look at me." He looked up and his eyes met mine. "I still want to be with you."
Then it happened - we kissed. It felt so right to feel his lips on mine. I let the towel drop from my hand and I grabbed Brian's silky hair. It seemed like an eternity before we had to part for breath.
"I missed you, Justin."
"I missed you too. Brian."
"Yeah?" He looked at me in my eyes and I knew that he was sincere when he said that he missed me. It pained me to say what I had to say next because I didn't want to.
"I.I have to go."
Brian looked disappointed. "What about your shirt? Its still wet."
"I've got an over-shirt in my bag. I can wear that."
"Do you have to go?"
"Ethan and I had a fight, I should get back and apologize, he didn't really do anything wrong."
"Justin."
"Yeah, Brian?"
"I'll call you."
A big smile lit upon my face and that made him smile too. I missed his smile, so much. I retrieved my bag, took out my over-shirt, and put it on. I walked over to Brian and smiled, "I'll keep my cell on." I grabbed the back of his neck and we kissed again. "And I'll be back for my shirt."
I walked out of the loft once again, but this time, with a sense of hope that Brian and I could be on our way to be together again. I went down the stairs and out the building. I looked up to the window of Brian's loft and I saw him standing there, in front of the window, with a smile.
TBC.
More A/N: Thank you to all who reviewed! It made me so happy! Now I know what all the other authors were talking about. ^_^ How the heck do you do bold and italics??
Memarkw, Evangeline, Glossy, and Jessica: I'm continuing! I'm working on part 3 right now! I should have it up soon. Anyone know where I can find a good Beta??
Lookie down here.the review button!!!