Will You Ever?
Disclaimers: The closest thing I have of owning QaF is the Season 1 DVD set, Season 1 and 2 Soundtracks, autographed picture of Gale Harold, a magazine with Gale Harold on the cover (Advocate), and a QaF promo ad with Gale and Randy. Anyways, QaF belongs to Showtime, Russell T. Davies (the creator/genius), and Ron Cowen and Daniel Lipman. I would however like to own Brian Kinney and Justin Taylor, but that's just a dream.
Rating: PG-13…for now.
Paring: Brian/Justin mainly. There's also Ben/Michael and Emmett/Ted.
Overall Summary: Two months after the Rage party, Justin returns to Liberty Ave., and guess who he sees? *Set right after "I'll Never Tell." Justin goes to Michael's store and sees Brian there and he doesn't know what to do. Justin's POV.
Spoilers: Season 1 and 2, Post 220 spoilers. Also the previous chapters.
Notes: Thank you's and many, many cookies goes to Calmardaa for telling me how to do Bold, Italics, and Underline. You are the best!!!
A/N: I realized after I posted "I'll Never Tell" (Part 4) that I made a lot of mistakes. For example, I labeled it as Part 3 and named the chapter "I Need Your Help" which was the former title of that chapter. Oops. Well, I re-posted the chapter. I guess this is why I need a Beta…anyone know where I can find one? *Hopeful look*
More A/N: I'm so sorry that I haven't updated for a really long time! I've lost my muse for writing…it's (I don't know if my muse is a he or she…so let's call it 'it') off on vacation somewhere probably. Also, I haven't had access to my computer and ff.net in a while, with the power outage and the technicalities with AOL. Well, I'm back and hopefully I can continue writing…and my damned muse better get back and inspire me! And because my muse is 'missing in action', this chapter might seem different than the other chapters, so I'm sorry about that too. **I also had trouble logging on ff.net for anything other than to leave reviews. Check my review on my fic…weird as it sounds.
Well, on with the show…
Part 5
[-I Have Some News – Part 1-]
Recap: And Daphne drove off and I went into Michael's store. I saw Michael and Ben talking near the back and I saw one other that made my heart sing and my face to smile. It was Brian.
My lungs stopped breathing and my heart stopped pumping. Seeing Brian made me even happier but why is he here, right now? Did Michael tell him that I would come by his shop a lot more often, working on Rage? I thought about the possibilities and something came to mind. What if Brian found out that Ethan and I broke up? No one knows except for Debbie, Vic, and Daphne…unless one of them told Brian, but they wouldn't tell him. And there's no way that he would know…I did get out of Babylon pretty fast last night to catch up with Ethan.
"Hey." I said as I gave a half-smile. I was a little nervous about seeing Brian right now.
"Hey Justin. Don't stand there by the door, come in." Michael said.
"Anyways, Michael…I have to go, but I'll see you later tonight at my place?" Ben said, as he was getting to leave.
"Yeah, um…7:30?"
"That's great. See you later." Ben kissed Michael and turn to Brian and me. "Bye."
"Bye Ben." I said, looking over at Brian.
"See ya." Brian said in reply.
"So…hi." I said to Brian. He looked at me and gave a slight smile. I, of course, gave a smile back to him. I could feel Michael staring at the two of us right now, giving off a knowing look. He's always been a nosy prat, in my opinion.
"Hey. You alright?" He asked, giving me a stare. I know he's asking about what happened last night, I can see it in his eyes.
"Yeah, everything's fine." I lied. I know that I shouldn't lie to Brian, learning from past experience, but I can't tell him just yet. When the time feels right, I'll tell him. It's either that or someone's going to tell him eventually…mostly likely Deb or Daphne. God knows they can't keep a secret.
"That's good. I've got to go back to the agency. I'm supposed to meet a client in an hour, got to get ready for my brilliant presentation." Brian said. "I'll talk to you later?"
"Yeah, later. I'll drop by?"
"Sure, later. Bye Mikey."
"Bye Brian!" Michael yelled to Brian's back. Then Brian left. "So, Boy Wonder, what's going on?"
"Nothing much, why?"
"Well, the last few nights, you know? I just think it's weird that you come back to Liberty Ave. after two months from breaking it off with Brian and now you're suddenly back again."
"Nothing's going on, I just missed Liberty Ave. Is that so wrong? And I missed you guys too."
"Oh. Well, I don't know what to say. Still, it's nice seeing you around again, annoying as you are."
"You're saying that I'm annoying? How about you, you think you're not annoying?"
We both looked at each other and laughed.
For a while, we talked about some more ideas for 'Rage'. I wanted to go in deeper about Rage and JT's relationship while Michael wanted to do more on defending queers of Gayopolis.
"Maybe we'll put JT in trouble again, this time not because of gay bashers but because of Rage. He'll see how Rage gets when he's jealous, he'll experience Rage's weakness!" Michael said.
"Gee, thanks. Rub it in my face, will you?" I said, sarcastically – except that was the truth and it hurt.
"I'm just saying that it makes a good plot. It's a combination of both our ideas."
"Yeah! And we could have Zephyr go cry in the corner." I said as a joke. Michael's face puffed up a little, as he sometimes does when he gets offended. "Michael…it was a joke. Relax."
"I knew that." Michael scowled.
***
We went on about couple of the sketches I brought over to Michael the other day. We spent about two hours talking about the drawings and new plots for the comic.
"I forgot to tell you something." I said suddenly.
Michael looked at me. "What?"
"I'm leaving for San Francisco soon. I got accepted into the Art Festival over there. I'll be there from July 15th to September 1st, just in time for school to begin."
"That's great!" Then Michael had a horrible look on his face. "What about Rage?"
"We could still work on it…I could fax you the drawings, and there's always the phone and e-mail."
"Yeah. What will Brian say?"
"I don't know…I haven't told him yet."
"You should, you're meeting him later today, aren't you?"
"Yeah, hopefully I will. I gotta go see my mom, though. I need to tell her too."
"Alright. See ya."
"Bye." And I walked out of Michael's store.
Mom will be thrilled to hear that I got accepted into the festival. That'll be the good news. I wonder how she will take the bad news. I think that when I went to see her yesterday and talked to her about the fight that Ethan and I had, she probably had a feeling that the relationship wasn't going to last. The thing that's on my mind the most is how and when I would tell Brian the news. He'll be happy for me about the festival but I don't know how he's going to react to the break up.
So here I am, on the bus again. I really do need a car, taking the bus is a bitch, but it doesn't matter right now. Facing Brian is my biggest concern. When I saw him at Michael's store doesn't count, really. I barely talked to him. God, he looked gorgeous, like always. I miss him so much; it's like missing half of my soul. Now I know how all those other couples feel.
I got off of the bus and walked a couple of blocks to my mom's Condo. Her car's parked in the driveway but there's another car. I don't recognize it but it's a new car. I go up to the door and ring the bell and my mom answers the door. She's happy to see me I guess; she gave me a hug. Something's wrong though, she has that look in her eyes and she let out a sigh as she hugged me.
"Hi Justin. Come in."
"Hi mom, I have some news."
"I do too. I'm glad you came."
"Thanks. Whose car is that outside?"
"Umm…it's your father's."
I was silent for a minute, waiting for what my mom had just said to sink in. "Maybe I should just go. I don't want to see him." I didn't want to face that prick, not now, not ever. Seeing him is just going to make everything worse. And to think I thought that nothing could ruin my good mood.
"No, don't go. You wouldn't even have to talk to him." My mom let me in and she closed the door behind me. I went into the living room and the bastard who wished he wasn't my father was there.
I didn't even bother speaking to him. He's just going to ask me if I grew out of the faggot stage. He keeps on staring at me. I hate that.
"So, you're still a fag, Justin?" Fuck, he's talking to me. I would ignore him but I have to defend myself and I want to make his life miserable.
"Yeah I'm still a fag. What are you going to do about it? You know you can't change who I am." I couldn't help but smirk at what I said. It's something around the lines to what Brian said once. After that little spat, we didn't even talk for the rest of his stay. I was glad of it too.
My dad, or as I like to call him, the heartless asshole, left after sorting some things out with my mom. I didn't really pay attention; I walked out the room and left them to their business. My mind was on Brian anyways. When he left, my mom came into my old room to talk to me.
"So, what's this good news?" She asked. I could hear in her voice that she wasn't in such a great mood. Who would be, after seeing him?
"You remember that application I sent a while ago, about the art festival in San Francisco? The letter came today." I paused. "And I got accepted."
"I know, and I'm so proud of you Justin. I'm sure that you'll do great at the festival. You'll remember to call every once in a while?"
"Of course." I paused again. I had to think about what I would say about my break up with Ethan. "I have some bad news too."
"Oh? What is it? I'm sure it can't be that bad."
"I…um, broke up with Ethan last night. Or more likely he dumped me after he saw me and Brian together at Babylon."
"Justin…"
"I know, I feel bad about it. I think I have some kind of a cheating streak."
"I don't think you have such a thing. I'm not saying that cheating is a good thing. Learn from your mistakes, Justin. Don't hurt other people just to get what you want. I think it's great that you're following your heart where it's leading you, but take into account of how it would affect others."
"So…what's your good news? And how did you know that I got accepted into the festival?"
"I found out because I'm your mother. They sent me a letter too. And my good news is that I sold two houses!"
"Mom, that's great! That'll tide you and Molly over for a long time." I was proud of my mom. She's worked so hard for Molly and me since the divorce.
"And I've got you a present for getting accepted." She smiled.
"You shouldn't have. You and Molly need the money, you shouldn't have spent any on me." I couldn't believe that she would spend her hard-earned money just like that, for me.
"Since when do you not like getting presents? Plus, you're not going to get it until you get back from San Francisco, so don't worry about it."
"Alright. I just hope that you didn't spend too much money on it." Just then, my cell phone rang. "Hello?" I answered.
"Hey Justin."
It was Brian. "Hi. What's up?"
"I've finished my meeting with the client and I wanted to know if you're going to come over today?"
"Yeah, of course, unless you've got other plans?" My mom looked at my and mouthed, 'Who is it?' I mouthed back, 'Brian.' She nodded expectantly.
"Not really, other than going to Woody's and Babylon to meet with the boys. Where are you?"
"Oh. Well, I need to talk to you, I have some news. I'm at my mom's right now."
"Are you going to be there for long?"
"No. I'm going to leave soon."
"I'll come and pick you up then."
"Sure. That'll be great. I'll see you in a little bit?"
"Yeah, bye." And he hung up.
I put my phone away and turned to my mom. "Brian's coming to pick me up."
"Are you going to tell him?"
"I should. But I'm afraid of how he will react."
"If he loves you, Justin – which I'm sure that he does, he'll understand."
"I sure hope so."
My mom and I went downstairs when the doorbell rang. I hoped that it was who I thought it was. But it turned out to be Molly coming home from her friend's house. I didn't quite catch the name; it was sort of like 'Kelly' or 'Kathy'. I was disappointed that it wasn't Brian who was at the door, but at the same time relieved. I hate having mixed feelings.
I went into the living room and turned on the TV. The movie 'Moulin Rouge' was on the channel that was set. Since I couldn't find the remote, I decided to watch it. It wasn't that of a bad movie, the cinematography was very good and Ewan McGregor was hot. He was in the middle of a song when the doorbell rang again. I turned off the TV and went to answer the door.
My mom got to the door before me and I could hear those two talking. I stood behind the wall to overhear their conversation.
"Hello Brian." My mom said.
"Hello Jennifer, how are you?"
"I'm fine, thank you. How about you?"
"Not that bad. Is Justin still here?"
I chose that moment to come into view. "Hey."
Brian smiled. "You ready?"
I grabbed my bag and put my shoes on. "Yeah." I turned to my mom. "I'll call you. Tell Molly I said bye and that I'll try to get her something."
My mom smiled at me. "I hope you have fun there, but be safe, alright? Bye Justin."
"Bye mom." I hugged her goodbye.
Brian didn't say anything while my mom and I were exchanging 'good-bye's'. He walked out the door with me when I was done. It was silent between us when we were getting into his car, so I decided to break the ice.
"How did the presentation go?"
"Not bad, we got the account."
"That's good."
"Yeah."
That was about the whole conversation during the drive from my mom's condo to Brian's loft. I was worried. By the looks of how this whole situation is going, I don't know if I'll have the courage to tell Brian what really happened last night. We'll see soon.
To Be Continued…
A/N: I suppose that a lot of people are upset with me…I mean I would be too. I'm not that proud of this chapter, I don't think it has that spark that the other chapters had. And I realize that Season 3 is coming soon (in March! I'm so excited!), so I need to hurry up and finish this fic! I hope all of you aren't disappointed in this chapter, with how short it is and how long it took me to update it. I'm so sorry! If I get flames, I know I deserve them! _
Thank You's:
Jessica – I'm sure you reviewed for this chapter, I don't remember…but since you've reviewed since I first posted, I want to thank you for sticking with this fic!
Amr – I felt that Justin was a little too demanding of Brian, and didn't think that it was fair that the blame for that was going to Brian. We'll see about the happy ending though…hehe. Thanks for liking my fic! I've been getting a little lazy…
Lucille – Like I said to Amr, I didn't think that Brian deserved the blame, instead, Justin should have realized that he was throwing away. And yes, Justin is going to San Francisco…but about Brian following him there, we'll see about that. *Muhahahaha!*
Jasper – I'm sorry that it was a little slow, but here's the next chapter…I'm afraid that it's also slow. I love Justin and Daphne's friendship also. It's always nice to have a friend you can rely on.
Grandiose – Thank you for commenting on my writing, I get worried on how other people will feel about my writing, that's why I was so reluctant on posting this fic in the first place. I still think that I need a beta for this fic though. A lot of people seem to think that Justin's realization is a great thing, which I agree. If I didn't, I wouldn't have put that there! ^_^
Jeanie – Thank you! I hope you enjoy this chapter! It's been a while since I've updated, I hope none of my readers have forgotten about me! I'd like to do a sex scene, but since it'll be my first one, it won't be as lemony.
Glossy – So sorry for leaving a cliffhanger, but I figured that if I leave a cliffhanger, readers would come back for more! Hehe. We'll find out in the next chapter whether or not Justin tells Brian about the break up…and Brian's reaction, of course! ^_~
ShadowCatFan – Well, thank you for stumbling upon my fic! I hope you enjoy this chap!
Ravyn – Wow, that's a really big complement! Although some episodes of QAF are not very good, there is still quite a lot that is very good, the season finale of Season 1, for example. Very heartbreaking.
Tom Violence – I was trying to keep all the chapters in character, I hope I haven't gone OOC anywhere in the fic. ^_^ I'm glad that you like it! Keep reading and reviewing!
Jessewriter – Thank you for reading and reviewing. It's always nice to get reviews, isn't it? And I'll try to keep up the good work…I'm still not sure if it's good or not. ^_^ And nice try on hypnotizing! Here's another chapter for the effort!
Snap – Yes, Ethan is evil and Justin and Brian is the best pairing! ^_^ Thank you for the complement!
Danielle – Oh, I'm so glad that you like my fic! You called it your favorite (of the 10 fics that you've read in 2 hours…*grin*), thank you! I'm sorry for the cliffhanger in this chapter too, but just think of what will come later. I hope you keep reading!
Calmardaa – I know that you reviewed for my fic, and I was so very happy, although when I read my review page, your review was nowhere to be found! *Oh no!* The great Calmardaa reviewing for my fic! I love your fics; of course you know that by my constant reviewing. ^_^ I will join your yahoo! Group soon. Yes, ff.net is getting on my nerves too.
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