TITLE: Past
AUTHOR: Carrie
DISTRIBUTION: Anywhere, just let me know so I can visit
DISCLAIMER: I don't own Alias or any of the characters that appear on the show.
NOTE: Read and review please. I really want any constructive comments as well. If there's something that doesn't make sense (even in past chapters) please let me know, or if there's wording that doesn't make sense. Please email me: Ghanygirl1@aol.com Thanks.Enjoy!
CHAPTER SEVEN
Vaughn walked into Devlin's office, not really sure what to expect.
"You wanted to see me sir?" He asked.
"Agent Vaughn. Come in." Devlin waved him into his office.
"Jeff Richards came to see me yesterday." He said, waiting for Vaughn's reaction. He only nodded. "He told me that you are ready to go back into the field. Physically at least."
Vaughn had known this was coming. He had recused himself so abruptly from active duty that Devlin was now questioning his mental state.
"I'm just wondering if you are really ready to go back." Devlin told him. "Since I'm not fully qualified to assess your emotional state, I'm recommending that you talk to Dr. Barnett, and I will make my decision based on her evaluation."
"Okay." Vaughn nodded, not wanting to see Barnett, but knowing that this was the only way he was going to pass.
"If you're not busy now, she can see you." Devlin said.
"Thank you." Vaughn stood and walked out the door. He got on the elevator and went down to Barnett's office, knocking on the door lightly before going in.
"Ah. Mr. Vaughn. I was expecting you. How have you been?" Dr. Barnett asked, smiling.
"Good. I've been really good." Vaughn reassured her.
"Please, take a seat." Dr. Barnett motioned towards the couch.
"Thank you." Vaughn said.
"Sydney was in here a while ago, very concerned about you when you were in Taipei." She commented.
Vaughn was somewhat surprised that Sydney had talked to Barnett, but didn't say anything.
"She assured me, though, that you two had a very professional relationship, and I had nothing to worry about." Dr. Barnett smiled.
Vaughn thought back to the kiss the night before, and immediately felt guilty as he muttered, "You don't."
"Good." She replied, and smiled again. "Devlin tells me that you are interested in being a field agent." She started.
"Yes, that's right." Vaughn replied.
"You were in the field before?" She asked.
"Yes."
"But this ended badly." She paused. "Tell me about it."
"I was exposed on a long term assignment and tortured before returning to the US." Vaughn said briefly.
"Yes, I know that, it was in your file. But I need to know what else happened. This was a traumatic mission and I need to know what happened that made you leave active duty. If it was your capture and torture, I want specifics." Barnett said, looking smug and waiting for an answer.
"I was tortured, severely, for nine days. If you really want specifics, most of the time, they'd start at dawn. They'd tie me up to a wall and kick, or punch, or hit me with something until they got tired. I took so many hits to the head that doctors were surprised I didn't have brain damage. By the time I got back to the US, I was bleeding internally. After they'd beat me, they would try and think of creative ways to try and make me suffer as much as possible without killing me. They got a real kick out of cutting me in certain places, and making me think that they were going to take out my bones. They'd stop when the sun went down, unless they were drunk, in which case they would continue until they passed out. A lot of what they did to me I don't remember." Vaughn finished, pleased with himself that he wasn't getting emotional.
"And you seem okay talking about this." Dr. Barnett commented.
"It was along time ago. I've made my peace with it. One of the reasons I want to go back into the field is to stop people like that from making others go through what I did." Vaughn said.
Dr. Barnett nodded. "Does Sydney know about this?"
Vaughn was confused. "I don't see why that is relevant." Vaughn challenged.
"I was just wondering if she knew about your past." She said coolly.
"Yes. She does. Not the specifics about my torture, but the rest of it, yes." Vaughn replied.
"How did that come up?" she asked.
Vaughn was getting frustrated with her questions, but cooperated. "She asked."
"She asked you if you were a field agent?"
"No. We went on a mission together, and I was put in a position where I had to fight. Sydney questioned why I knew how to fight so well if I was not a field agent. When I told her that I was a field agent, she wanted to know the rest of the story." Vaughn said calmly.
"And you told her."
"Yes."
"Do you think it's strange that you would share something so personal with your agent?" Dr. Barnett asked.
"No. The relationship that Sydney and I have requires a lot of trust, and if she asks me something, I am going to tell her to help keep that trust." Vaughn replied, trying to be firm.
Dr. Barnett simply nodded.
"Okay. Well, Devlin was mostly concerned that you had not gotten over your mission in the Ukraine, and that you were still caught up in what happened there. In my opinion, you have settled all of your issues on that subject and are in fine condition to return to work as an operations officer." Dr. Barnett smiled.
Vaughn smiled as well. "Thank you." He told her, standing up.
"Good luck, Agent Vaughn." She said as he walked out the door.
Vaughn felt completely relieved that he had passes Barnett's little examination. All he wanted right now was to share his joy with Sydney, but he knew that couldn't happen. First, he wasn't her handler anymore, and second, it would just be too awkward. Being one step further to the field meant being one step further away from her.
The next day, Vaughn met with Devlin, and was given two missions. If these were completed, then he would be moved officially into operations agent status. He also used his meeting with Devlin to suggest that Weiss, being almost fully recovered, take his place as Sydney's handler. Devlin seemed to accept this suggestion.
Vaughn couldn't wait for his missions to start. Although they were relatively simple, he still felt that rush that he always got before a mission. He was anxious to see what would happen next.
AUTHOR: Carrie
DISTRIBUTION: Anywhere, just let me know so I can visit
DISCLAIMER: I don't own Alias or any of the characters that appear on the show.
NOTE: Read and review please. I really want any constructive comments as well. If there's something that doesn't make sense (even in past chapters) please let me know, or if there's wording that doesn't make sense. Please email me: Ghanygirl1@aol.com Thanks.Enjoy!
CHAPTER SEVEN
Vaughn walked into Devlin's office, not really sure what to expect.
"You wanted to see me sir?" He asked.
"Agent Vaughn. Come in." Devlin waved him into his office.
"Jeff Richards came to see me yesterday." He said, waiting for Vaughn's reaction. He only nodded. "He told me that you are ready to go back into the field. Physically at least."
Vaughn had known this was coming. He had recused himself so abruptly from active duty that Devlin was now questioning his mental state.
"I'm just wondering if you are really ready to go back." Devlin told him. "Since I'm not fully qualified to assess your emotional state, I'm recommending that you talk to Dr. Barnett, and I will make my decision based on her evaluation."
"Okay." Vaughn nodded, not wanting to see Barnett, but knowing that this was the only way he was going to pass.
"If you're not busy now, she can see you." Devlin said.
"Thank you." Vaughn stood and walked out the door. He got on the elevator and went down to Barnett's office, knocking on the door lightly before going in.
"Ah. Mr. Vaughn. I was expecting you. How have you been?" Dr. Barnett asked, smiling.
"Good. I've been really good." Vaughn reassured her.
"Please, take a seat." Dr. Barnett motioned towards the couch.
"Thank you." Vaughn said.
"Sydney was in here a while ago, very concerned about you when you were in Taipei." She commented.
Vaughn was somewhat surprised that Sydney had talked to Barnett, but didn't say anything.
"She assured me, though, that you two had a very professional relationship, and I had nothing to worry about." Dr. Barnett smiled.
Vaughn thought back to the kiss the night before, and immediately felt guilty as he muttered, "You don't."
"Good." She replied, and smiled again. "Devlin tells me that you are interested in being a field agent." She started.
"Yes, that's right." Vaughn replied.
"You were in the field before?" She asked.
"Yes."
"But this ended badly." She paused. "Tell me about it."
"I was exposed on a long term assignment and tortured before returning to the US." Vaughn said briefly.
"Yes, I know that, it was in your file. But I need to know what else happened. This was a traumatic mission and I need to know what happened that made you leave active duty. If it was your capture and torture, I want specifics." Barnett said, looking smug and waiting for an answer.
"I was tortured, severely, for nine days. If you really want specifics, most of the time, they'd start at dawn. They'd tie me up to a wall and kick, or punch, or hit me with something until they got tired. I took so many hits to the head that doctors were surprised I didn't have brain damage. By the time I got back to the US, I was bleeding internally. After they'd beat me, they would try and think of creative ways to try and make me suffer as much as possible without killing me. They got a real kick out of cutting me in certain places, and making me think that they were going to take out my bones. They'd stop when the sun went down, unless they were drunk, in which case they would continue until they passed out. A lot of what they did to me I don't remember." Vaughn finished, pleased with himself that he wasn't getting emotional.
"And you seem okay talking about this." Dr. Barnett commented.
"It was along time ago. I've made my peace with it. One of the reasons I want to go back into the field is to stop people like that from making others go through what I did." Vaughn said.
Dr. Barnett nodded. "Does Sydney know about this?"
Vaughn was confused. "I don't see why that is relevant." Vaughn challenged.
"I was just wondering if she knew about your past." She said coolly.
"Yes. She does. Not the specifics about my torture, but the rest of it, yes." Vaughn replied.
"How did that come up?" she asked.
Vaughn was getting frustrated with her questions, but cooperated. "She asked."
"She asked you if you were a field agent?"
"No. We went on a mission together, and I was put in a position where I had to fight. Sydney questioned why I knew how to fight so well if I was not a field agent. When I told her that I was a field agent, she wanted to know the rest of the story." Vaughn said calmly.
"And you told her."
"Yes."
"Do you think it's strange that you would share something so personal with your agent?" Dr. Barnett asked.
"No. The relationship that Sydney and I have requires a lot of trust, and if she asks me something, I am going to tell her to help keep that trust." Vaughn replied, trying to be firm.
Dr. Barnett simply nodded.
"Okay. Well, Devlin was mostly concerned that you had not gotten over your mission in the Ukraine, and that you were still caught up in what happened there. In my opinion, you have settled all of your issues on that subject and are in fine condition to return to work as an operations officer." Dr. Barnett smiled.
Vaughn smiled as well. "Thank you." He told her, standing up.
"Good luck, Agent Vaughn." She said as he walked out the door.
Vaughn felt completely relieved that he had passes Barnett's little examination. All he wanted right now was to share his joy with Sydney, but he knew that couldn't happen. First, he wasn't her handler anymore, and second, it would just be too awkward. Being one step further to the field meant being one step further away from her.
The next day, Vaughn met with Devlin, and was given two missions. If these were completed, then he would be moved officially into operations agent status. He also used his meeting with Devlin to suggest that Weiss, being almost fully recovered, take his place as Sydney's handler. Devlin seemed to accept this suggestion.
Vaughn couldn't wait for his missions to start. Although they were relatively simple, he still felt that rush that he always got before a mission. He was anxious to see what would happen next.