She ran up the stairs, closed her door, put on her pajamas and said her
prayers. She then turned out her light and hoped into bed. The covers
were pulled up over her head and no part her body was visible.
Underneath the covers, she took a deep breath and let the air all slowly pass out of her lungs. Her heart felt light and happy and she closed her eyes. Her face displayed her emotions of happiness and joy. As she drifted off to sleep, a wide smile was planted on her face. Everything she worried about every other night just before she fell asleep slipped from her mind and good thoughts flowed in...
Her alarm clock rang at 6:00 am, right on time. This morning, she did not awake with reluctance but instead with enthusiasm.
Her eyes opened at the buzzer and her hand reached over to turn the noise off. She threw her covers off and jumped out of bed. She walked down to the bathroom to get herself ready, though she did not trip over the box that routinely lies in the narrow hall.
For the first time in her life, she tried to look good. Instead of wearing her hair up in a knotty ponytail that looked like it had not been combed in ten years, she wore it down. She combed it through and the blonde hair of hers glistened as the light shone on it. She applied some mascara to outline her eyelashes and she applied eye shadow to her soft eyes that were still hidden behind her thick-framed glasses. She put some lip gloss on her well-defined lips and some cover up on some of the scars on her face.
She went into her room and found some of her old flare, hip-hugger, jeans that fit her well and she wore one of her old shirts that was tight and showed some of her stomach, mainly her belly button. She slid her sneakers on and went down to fix herself some breakfast.
She opened one of the cabinets, grasped the handle of a frying pan and made herself some fried eggs and some bacon. Bacon was her all time favorite food.
She sat down at the table and shoveled it all into her mouth. She wiped her mouth with the back of her hand and placed the plate in the dishwasher.
She went into the downstairs bathroom and checked herself in the mirror.
"Not too bad" she said to herself.
She turned toward the toilet and reached into the back of her throat. Her two fingers touched the soft tissue in the back of her throat and her once- eggs-and-bacon came out of her mouth. Several splashes could be heard but no one took notice of it. She rinsed her mouth and face off and made sure she was ready.
Antonio's car pulled up into the driveway as the headlights shone in through the front window. He beeped his horn at her and she hustled to grab her book bag and leave without making a sound. She quietly shut the door behind her and walked towards his car. He got out before she got there and opened the door for her. He then walked back around to the driver's side of the car and got in himself.
He switched on the radio as he looked over at her. He had this look of innocence and sincerity in his eyes like she had never seen before. She looked back into his eyes and he was the first to break contact. He turned to look in the rearview mirror to back out of the driveway and then back at her.
"Thanks for the ride" she whispered to him with a smile on her face.
"No problem. Why are we whispering?"
"I dunno" she said as she laughed a little.
He turned his eyes back onto the road as they pulled up to the school. He parked his car in his designated parking spot according to the school.
"Don't move" he said to her.
She nodded and did what she was told. He got out of the car and walked around to open the door for her. She stepped out and he closed behind her.
"You look great" he said as he looked into her eyes.
She felt her face start to blush and looked towards the ground.
"Thank you" she said in a barely audible voice.
He stopped and she followed. He turned toward her and she still had her face downwards.
He lifted his hand up and lifted her chin up so he was looking straight into her eyes. He took her glasses off and stared deep into her eyes. They were an emerald green like he had never seen before. He put his hand on her cheek and said, "You don't have to be afraid of me. It's alright" as he rubbed his thumb over her cheek.
She could just barely make out the look on his face when he said that and she nodded with her face expressing some confusion. He gently put her glasses back on her face so that she could see again and walked her to her locker and then her first class.
Each class went by slower than the last. They all seemed like they would never end. She wanted to see him and his face so badly that it slowed down time. She felt a build up of anxiety in her stomach as 5th period ended and lunch started.
She walked to her locker, not expecting to see him until lunch started. As she went to shut her locker, he appeared to her right and leaned up against the locker.
Every one of his toned muscles on his chest, stomach and arms showed. They bulged under his dark but not black skin. He looked so sexy standing that way, his dark hair slicked back and his blue eyes twinkling madly.
"Ready to go?"
She stood bewildered and sort of dazed.
"Ready to go?" he asked again.
She snapped back into reality and to attention.
"Yeah, sorry" she said with innocence.
"It's ok" he replied.
They walked side by side to his locker and then to lunch.
They talked the whole lunch period up until the point where she excused herself for a moment. She walked into one of the stalls of the bathroom and made sure no one was around. Her fingers reached into her throat. When she was done, she came out and rinsed her mouth off. It was now becoming a habit after each meal for her. She came back and they talked for the rest of lunch. The time passed by extremely fast and then the bell rang, signaling the end of lunch.
"Whoa, what happened to the time?!"
"I wish I knew" she said.
"Yeah, me too."
He walked her to her next class and watched her enter the room. He watched the invisible air behind her swirl and suddenly his eyes were drawn uncontrollably to her ass.
He realized so and turned away to go to his class.
Her afternoon classes, much like her morning classes dragged on and on. All she could think about was him.
His afternoon classes were the same as both her morning classes and afternoon classes. They dragged on forever and seemed like they would never end. All he could think about was her.
When their classes finally did end, he found her at her locker. He walked up behind her and rested his chin on her shoulder. She wanted to notice but didn't know how to react so she pretended as if he did nothing. She shut her locker and looked at him. Every time she looked at him, a lump formulated in her throat and her stomach flipped upside down.
They walked to his locker without a word and then to his car.
"Ready to go home?"
She just nodded.
He opened her door for her once more and walked to his side of the car. He started the car and put some heat on. He looked over at her and then took notice of her breasts. They were very nicely shaped according to him. He realized he was doing so and looked back at her eyes quickly, hoping she didn't notice. Apparently she hadn't which was a relief to him. Her hand lay on the seat between them and he put his masculine hand on her small, petite one. She did not pull away as he drove her home with only one hand. He got out and opened the door for her once again and when she was about to walk away to go inside, he pulled her close to him and gave her a hug. She did not pull away and embraced him back.
"I don't need a ride into school tomorrow. I'm going to a doctor's appointment tomorrow early in the morning. I'll drive myself in."
"Okay, you're still gunna be in school tomorrow though, right?"
"Of course. I'll probably be in before lunch."
She smiled at him and turned toward her house.
He watched her step up onto her front porch and go inside and then he got in his car and pulled away. She watched his car disappear down the road through the window in the front of her house.
She turned around and went into the kitchen to grab a snack and went up to her room to occupy herself with homework while she listened to some music by Saliva.
~~~ I hear... a voice say "Don't be so blind"...
it's telling me all these things...
that you would probably hide...
am I... your one and only desire...
am I the reason you breathe...
or am I the reason you cry...
Always... always... always... always... always... always... always...
I just can't live without you...
I love you...
I hate you...
I can't get around you...
I breathe you...
I taste you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take any more...
this life of solitude...
I guess that i'm out the door...
and now i'm done with you...
I feel... like you don't want me around...
I guess i'll pack all my things...
I guess i'll see you around...
Its all... been bottled up until now...
as I walk out your door...
all I hear is the sound...
Always... always... always... always... always... always... always...
I just can't live without you...
I love you...
I hate you...
I can't get around you...
I breathe you...
I taste you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take any more...
this life of solitude...
I guess that i'm out the door...
and now i'm done with you...
I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...
I left my head around your heart...
Why would you tear my world apart...
Always... always... always... always...
I see... the blood all over your hands...
does it make you feel... more like a man...
was it all... just a part of your plan...
the pistol's shakin' in my hands...
and all I hear is the sound...
I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...
I breathe you...
I taste you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take any more...
this life of solitude...
I guess that i'm out the door...
and now i'm done with you...
I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...
I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take any more...
this life of solitude...
I pick myself off the floor...
and now i'm done with you...
Always...
Always...
Always...
~~~ She sang along with it as she worked steadily at her homework.
She glanced over at her clock that read 10:30 pm and she got ready for bed. She brushed her teeth and shut her lights off in her room. She jumped into bed and slipped into a peaceful, dreamful sleep...
Underneath the covers, she took a deep breath and let the air all slowly pass out of her lungs. Her heart felt light and happy and she closed her eyes. Her face displayed her emotions of happiness and joy. As she drifted off to sleep, a wide smile was planted on her face. Everything she worried about every other night just before she fell asleep slipped from her mind and good thoughts flowed in...
Her alarm clock rang at 6:00 am, right on time. This morning, she did not awake with reluctance but instead with enthusiasm.
Her eyes opened at the buzzer and her hand reached over to turn the noise off. She threw her covers off and jumped out of bed. She walked down to the bathroom to get herself ready, though she did not trip over the box that routinely lies in the narrow hall.
For the first time in her life, she tried to look good. Instead of wearing her hair up in a knotty ponytail that looked like it had not been combed in ten years, she wore it down. She combed it through and the blonde hair of hers glistened as the light shone on it. She applied some mascara to outline her eyelashes and she applied eye shadow to her soft eyes that were still hidden behind her thick-framed glasses. She put some lip gloss on her well-defined lips and some cover up on some of the scars on her face.
She went into her room and found some of her old flare, hip-hugger, jeans that fit her well and she wore one of her old shirts that was tight and showed some of her stomach, mainly her belly button. She slid her sneakers on and went down to fix herself some breakfast.
She opened one of the cabinets, grasped the handle of a frying pan and made herself some fried eggs and some bacon. Bacon was her all time favorite food.
She sat down at the table and shoveled it all into her mouth. She wiped her mouth with the back of her hand and placed the plate in the dishwasher.
She went into the downstairs bathroom and checked herself in the mirror.
"Not too bad" she said to herself.
She turned toward the toilet and reached into the back of her throat. Her two fingers touched the soft tissue in the back of her throat and her once- eggs-and-bacon came out of her mouth. Several splashes could be heard but no one took notice of it. She rinsed her mouth and face off and made sure she was ready.
Antonio's car pulled up into the driveway as the headlights shone in through the front window. He beeped his horn at her and she hustled to grab her book bag and leave without making a sound. She quietly shut the door behind her and walked towards his car. He got out before she got there and opened the door for her. He then walked back around to the driver's side of the car and got in himself.
He switched on the radio as he looked over at her. He had this look of innocence and sincerity in his eyes like she had never seen before. She looked back into his eyes and he was the first to break contact. He turned to look in the rearview mirror to back out of the driveway and then back at her.
"Thanks for the ride" she whispered to him with a smile on her face.
"No problem. Why are we whispering?"
"I dunno" she said as she laughed a little.
He turned his eyes back onto the road as they pulled up to the school. He parked his car in his designated parking spot according to the school.
"Don't move" he said to her.
She nodded and did what she was told. He got out of the car and walked around to open the door for her. She stepped out and he closed behind her.
"You look great" he said as he looked into her eyes.
She felt her face start to blush and looked towards the ground.
"Thank you" she said in a barely audible voice.
He stopped and she followed. He turned toward her and she still had her face downwards.
He lifted his hand up and lifted her chin up so he was looking straight into her eyes. He took her glasses off and stared deep into her eyes. They were an emerald green like he had never seen before. He put his hand on her cheek and said, "You don't have to be afraid of me. It's alright" as he rubbed his thumb over her cheek.
She could just barely make out the look on his face when he said that and she nodded with her face expressing some confusion. He gently put her glasses back on her face so that she could see again and walked her to her locker and then her first class.
Each class went by slower than the last. They all seemed like they would never end. She wanted to see him and his face so badly that it slowed down time. She felt a build up of anxiety in her stomach as 5th period ended and lunch started.
She walked to her locker, not expecting to see him until lunch started. As she went to shut her locker, he appeared to her right and leaned up against the locker.
Every one of his toned muscles on his chest, stomach and arms showed. They bulged under his dark but not black skin. He looked so sexy standing that way, his dark hair slicked back and his blue eyes twinkling madly.
"Ready to go?"
She stood bewildered and sort of dazed.
"Ready to go?" he asked again.
She snapped back into reality and to attention.
"Yeah, sorry" she said with innocence.
"It's ok" he replied.
They walked side by side to his locker and then to lunch.
They talked the whole lunch period up until the point where she excused herself for a moment. She walked into one of the stalls of the bathroom and made sure no one was around. Her fingers reached into her throat. When she was done, she came out and rinsed her mouth off. It was now becoming a habit after each meal for her. She came back and they talked for the rest of lunch. The time passed by extremely fast and then the bell rang, signaling the end of lunch.
"Whoa, what happened to the time?!"
"I wish I knew" she said.
"Yeah, me too."
He walked her to her next class and watched her enter the room. He watched the invisible air behind her swirl and suddenly his eyes were drawn uncontrollably to her ass.
He realized so and turned away to go to his class.
Her afternoon classes, much like her morning classes dragged on and on. All she could think about was him.
His afternoon classes were the same as both her morning classes and afternoon classes. They dragged on forever and seemed like they would never end. All he could think about was her.
When their classes finally did end, he found her at her locker. He walked up behind her and rested his chin on her shoulder. She wanted to notice but didn't know how to react so she pretended as if he did nothing. She shut her locker and looked at him. Every time she looked at him, a lump formulated in her throat and her stomach flipped upside down.
They walked to his locker without a word and then to his car.
"Ready to go home?"
She just nodded.
He opened her door for her once more and walked to his side of the car. He started the car and put some heat on. He looked over at her and then took notice of her breasts. They were very nicely shaped according to him. He realized he was doing so and looked back at her eyes quickly, hoping she didn't notice. Apparently she hadn't which was a relief to him. Her hand lay on the seat between them and he put his masculine hand on her small, petite one. She did not pull away as he drove her home with only one hand. He got out and opened the door for her once again and when she was about to walk away to go inside, he pulled her close to him and gave her a hug. She did not pull away and embraced him back.
"I don't need a ride into school tomorrow. I'm going to a doctor's appointment tomorrow early in the morning. I'll drive myself in."
"Okay, you're still gunna be in school tomorrow though, right?"
"Of course. I'll probably be in before lunch."
She smiled at him and turned toward her house.
He watched her step up onto her front porch and go inside and then he got in his car and pulled away. She watched his car disappear down the road through the window in the front of her house.
She turned around and went into the kitchen to grab a snack and went up to her room to occupy herself with homework while she listened to some music by Saliva.
~~~ I hear... a voice say "Don't be so blind"...
it's telling me all these things...
that you would probably hide...
am I... your one and only desire...
am I the reason you breathe...
or am I the reason you cry...
Always... always... always... always... always... always... always...
I just can't live without you...
I love you...
I hate you...
I can't get around you...
I breathe you...
I taste you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take any more...
this life of solitude...
I guess that i'm out the door...
and now i'm done with you...
I feel... like you don't want me around...
I guess i'll pack all my things...
I guess i'll see you around...
Its all... been bottled up until now...
as I walk out your door...
all I hear is the sound...
Always... always... always... always... always... always... always...
I just can't live without you...
I love you...
I hate you...
I can't get around you...
I breathe you...
I taste you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take any more...
this life of solitude...
I guess that i'm out the door...
and now i'm done with you...
I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...
I left my head around your heart...
Why would you tear my world apart...
Always... always... always... always...
I see... the blood all over your hands...
does it make you feel... more like a man...
was it all... just a part of your plan...
the pistol's shakin' in my hands...
and all I hear is the sound...
I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...
I breathe you...
I taste you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take any more...
this life of solitude...
I guess that i'm out the door...
and now i'm done with you...
I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...
I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take any more...
this life of solitude...
I pick myself off the floor...
and now i'm done with you...
Always...
Always...
Always...
~~~ She sang along with it as she worked steadily at her homework.
She glanced over at her clock that read 10:30 pm and she got ready for bed. She brushed her teeth and shut her lights off in her room. She jumped into bed and slipped into a peaceful, dreamful sleep...