At last! Here is the next chapter! I apologize profusely for the long wait.
I had this all written out and ready to post when our internet went down!
ARG!! Almost 2 weeks and no internet!
The next chapter will come sooner!
REMEMBER TO REVIEW!!! That determines post speed.
Never fear! For once it's not a cliff hanger!! And it's the longest one yet as a reward for your patience. (clears away reviewers frozen in shock."not a cliffie...")
Disclaimer: No matter how much I beg..I can't get them to give me Inu- Yasha! I...DON'T...OWN...INU...YASHA!!!
At last.the awaited.. Romance, comedy and angst ensue in
Chapter 11: Mistakes of the Past
Inu-Yasha slowly opened his eyes and was shocked to find himself staring into Kagome's deep brown orbs. Surprise registered on his features, progressed to confusion and finally settled on various forms of anguish. He closed his eyes and turned his head away from her eyes piercing gaze.
'Why is she here?' he thought anxiously. Then his thoughts turned to another important question. 'Where am I?'
He was lying on something soft while a blanket covered him. Suddenly pain kicked in and he winced as the feeling returned to his shoulder and abdomen. The action was not lost on Kagome and she squeezed his hand to bring his attention back to her.
"Does it.hurt?" Kagome asked quietly. She looked down upon the part of his face she could see. He had still not turned back to her. But, he had also not pulled his hand away.
'What does she mean.does it hurt? Of course it hurts! That was the point! Wasn't it?' Inu-Yasha thought desperately 'This is all some horrible game she's playing! She is making me put down my guard so she can hurt me again! I.I don't want to be near her! I can't take this again!' Inu-Yasha felt his eyes start to sting as her remembered the harsh words targeted at his fragile heart.
************ "It's just as well you want me to leave, because I can't stand to be in your presence for one second longer! You pathetic, worthless half-breed! Be a good dog! SIT BOY! May I never look upon your hateful face again!"
************ 'But..I don't want to be alone... again' Inu-Yasha thought even as the memories tore at his heart.
He clenched his eyes shut tighter in a vain attempt to stop the new wave of anguish he felt at her closeness. But the tears trickled out and fell once more down his pale cheeks.
Kagome's heart clenched as she saw the crystalline tears roll down his face.
'Oh Inu-Yasha' She thought 'What have I done?'
Kagome reached out her other hand and gently wiped the tears off his face.
Inu-Yasha closed his eyes tightly at her touch, as though it had physically wounded him.
"Please.don't cry Inu-Yasha. It." Kagome whispered
Inu-Yasha turned toward her, raised himself to a sitting position and fixed his pain filled golden eyes on hers.
"It what Kagome?" He asked sharply. Then he looked away again.
'What will she say? Could I..No! I couldn't have been wrong..but.maybe..she didn't mean it? No! I can't believe that.at least not yet.'
Inu-Yasha was wrenched from his thoughts by Kagome's voice.
"It.breaks my heart to see you suffer. I can't take it! I don't want to see you in pain!"
Kagome's voice was desperate, willing Inu-Yasha to believe her.
"Why? You hate me! You said so yourself!"
Inu-Yasha's voice carried anger to mask the hurt within.
'Must she continue this?' he thought desperately 'Must she continue to deceive me?'
"Inu-Yasha." Kagome's voice was tight with grief and guilt, "Inu-Yasha, I'm sorry. I didn't mean what I said. I was angry and I said those things even as my heart screamed at me to stop. I.I didn't stop to think how they would effect you. I was too angry."
Inu-Yasha's eyes snapped up. The combined hope and apprehension in them made Kagome want to do anything to make them sparkle with happiness again.
'Inu-Yasha' she thought 'I will make you laugh again!'
She was broken out of her thoughts by Inu-Yasha's tentative voice.
"Why." he said "Why were you angry?"
"Huh?" she said surprised "You don't know?"
At his silence, she began her explanation.
"I was angry because you asked me if I was going home. I reacted so.violently because as I was going up to see you I was thinking if you would want me to stay after the Shikon no Tama was complete. Your words proved my fears were correct."
It was now Inu-Yasha's turn to be surprised.
"I asked you because I did not want you to leave. I was afraid that.."
"What?" Kagome gently urged him on. He was reluctant to bear his soul and she didn't want to spook him into silence.
"I was afraid that you would leave. That you would go because your duty was over. I was afraid that I would never see you again." He trailed off into silence. Awaiting her reaction.
"Oh Inu-Yasha." she cried "I'm so sorry! I didn't mean it! Please forgive my words! You were so scared that I would leave and then I..then I spoke without heed. I saw that the words hurt.but I kept going..Please Inu-Yasha, I want to see you smile again! To chase Shippou and Miroku! I can't erase what I said..but, I can help make it right!"
She gently wrapped her arms around him, careful of his injuries. He stiffened at first, surprised, but then tentatively reached up and put his arms around her slender form.
"Kagome..I'm sorry too."
*********** Outside the hut, Miroku, Sango, Shippou and Kaede had been watching the scene unfold within. When Inu-Yasha accepted Kagome's embrace they all breathed a collective sigh of relief.
"Well, it looks as though things are finally looking up." Said Sango
"Yes," added Miroku "Yes they are."
Shippou however, was so overjoyed to see Inu-Yasha mending emotionally and physically that he ran into the room despite the others vain attempts to stop him.
"Inu-Yasha!" His voice was ecstatic with the joy he felt at seeing Inu- Yasha recovering.
"Shippou.." Inu-Yasha's eyes darkened with anger and he pulled away from Kagome and flexed his claws. "Where did you come from?"
"Outside! We were all watching you two!" Shippou said oblivious to the maniacal rage building in Inu-Yasha's eyes.
At Shippou revilation, the group outside winced and Inu-Yasha's fist made contact with Shippou's head.
"Ow! Inu-Yasha! What was that for?"
Shippou's voice was enraged.
"For eavesdropping!"
Inu-Yasha answered rising up to full height above Shippou.
Shippou gulped in fear and bolted out the door with Inu-Yasha on his tail, leaving behind a shocked Kagome.
'He's back.' She thought matter of factly and leapt to her feet to watch the scene playing out outside.
Inu-Yasha's rage increased as he found Miroku and Sango crouching outside. Kaede had wisely moved away, so she was relieved of his wrath.
"You guys.." he said his anger radiating from his very being. His bangs shadowed his eyes and his claws were out in front of his poised to strike. All three (Shippou, Sango and Miroku) backed up before his wrath. "You will pay for this.." He charged and in a dazzling show of fury bopped each of them on the head, stalked off to a nearby tree and plopped down at its base with crossed arms and an indignant expression.
'Whew' Sango thought
"That.was scary.." Shippou said to the world.
"Yeah.." Miroku agreed.
The three of them were quite shaken by the events.
"Keh!" said Inu-Yasha glancing over "That's what you get for spying!"
***********
Kaede and Kagome had watched this exchange with increasing amusement.
"I'm glad.that he's back to normal." Kagome said musingly to Kaede.
"Aye child." Kaede answered. "He is better but not completely himself yet. That will take time and unbridled kindness. Still the shadow of that moment hangs in his eyes. You must free him of this. When you have, he will be better that he ever was."
"Yes!" Kagome answered exuberantly "You're right Kaede-bachan! I will do anything it takes. Because I love Inu-Yasha more than anything."
"I know." Answered Kaede sagely her eyes sparkling at the antics of the young companions "But you must tread carefully. The hurt is still fresh. A wrong move could reopen the wound and drive him away forever. Be careful and be unreserved in your distribution of love. That is what he needs most right now."
As the two mikos, one old, one young, watched the playful fight before them they glanced to the setting sun.
The sun seemed to be saying: "This tragedy is over. Move on and begin anew once."
'Yes,' Kagome thought as her eyes rested on Inu-Yasha's face 'We will make things right again. I will always love you and be by your side.'
Inu-Yasha felt Kagome's eyes upon him and looked up. Their gazes met and both smiled sharing the promise to make the future better than the memories.
To Be Continued...
I dunno..I could end it here...It all depends on wether this gets a good reception..
REVIEW AND THE UPDATE WILL COME!!!
Don't and.I will go and sulk never to update again.
The next chapter will come sooner!
REMEMBER TO REVIEW!!! That determines post speed.
Never fear! For once it's not a cliff hanger!! And it's the longest one yet as a reward for your patience. (clears away reviewers frozen in shock."not a cliffie...")
Disclaimer: No matter how much I beg..I can't get them to give me Inu- Yasha! I...DON'T...OWN...INU...YASHA!!!
At last.the awaited.. Romance, comedy and angst ensue in
Chapter 11: Mistakes of the Past
Inu-Yasha slowly opened his eyes and was shocked to find himself staring into Kagome's deep brown orbs. Surprise registered on his features, progressed to confusion and finally settled on various forms of anguish. He closed his eyes and turned his head away from her eyes piercing gaze.
'Why is she here?' he thought anxiously. Then his thoughts turned to another important question. 'Where am I?'
He was lying on something soft while a blanket covered him. Suddenly pain kicked in and he winced as the feeling returned to his shoulder and abdomen. The action was not lost on Kagome and she squeezed his hand to bring his attention back to her.
"Does it.hurt?" Kagome asked quietly. She looked down upon the part of his face she could see. He had still not turned back to her. But, he had also not pulled his hand away.
'What does she mean.does it hurt? Of course it hurts! That was the point! Wasn't it?' Inu-Yasha thought desperately 'This is all some horrible game she's playing! She is making me put down my guard so she can hurt me again! I.I don't want to be near her! I can't take this again!' Inu-Yasha felt his eyes start to sting as her remembered the harsh words targeted at his fragile heart.
************ "It's just as well you want me to leave, because I can't stand to be in your presence for one second longer! You pathetic, worthless half-breed! Be a good dog! SIT BOY! May I never look upon your hateful face again!"
************ 'But..I don't want to be alone... again' Inu-Yasha thought even as the memories tore at his heart.
He clenched his eyes shut tighter in a vain attempt to stop the new wave of anguish he felt at her closeness. But the tears trickled out and fell once more down his pale cheeks.
Kagome's heart clenched as she saw the crystalline tears roll down his face.
'Oh Inu-Yasha' She thought 'What have I done?'
Kagome reached out her other hand and gently wiped the tears off his face.
Inu-Yasha closed his eyes tightly at her touch, as though it had physically wounded him.
"Please.don't cry Inu-Yasha. It." Kagome whispered
Inu-Yasha turned toward her, raised himself to a sitting position and fixed his pain filled golden eyes on hers.
"It what Kagome?" He asked sharply. Then he looked away again.
'What will she say? Could I..No! I couldn't have been wrong..but.maybe..she didn't mean it? No! I can't believe that.at least not yet.'
Inu-Yasha was wrenched from his thoughts by Kagome's voice.
"It.breaks my heart to see you suffer. I can't take it! I don't want to see you in pain!"
Kagome's voice was desperate, willing Inu-Yasha to believe her.
"Why? You hate me! You said so yourself!"
Inu-Yasha's voice carried anger to mask the hurt within.
'Must she continue this?' he thought desperately 'Must she continue to deceive me?'
"Inu-Yasha." Kagome's voice was tight with grief and guilt, "Inu-Yasha, I'm sorry. I didn't mean what I said. I was angry and I said those things even as my heart screamed at me to stop. I.I didn't stop to think how they would effect you. I was too angry."
Inu-Yasha's eyes snapped up. The combined hope and apprehension in them made Kagome want to do anything to make them sparkle with happiness again.
'Inu-Yasha' she thought 'I will make you laugh again!'
She was broken out of her thoughts by Inu-Yasha's tentative voice.
"Why." he said "Why were you angry?"
"Huh?" she said surprised "You don't know?"
At his silence, she began her explanation.
"I was angry because you asked me if I was going home. I reacted so.violently because as I was going up to see you I was thinking if you would want me to stay after the Shikon no Tama was complete. Your words proved my fears were correct."
It was now Inu-Yasha's turn to be surprised.
"I asked you because I did not want you to leave. I was afraid that.."
"What?" Kagome gently urged him on. He was reluctant to bear his soul and she didn't want to spook him into silence.
"I was afraid that you would leave. That you would go because your duty was over. I was afraid that I would never see you again." He trailed off into silence. Awaiting her reaction.
"Oh Inu-Yasha." she cried "I'm so sorry! I didn't mean it! Please forgive my words! You were so scared that I would leave and then I..then I spoke without heed. I saw that the words hurt.but I kept going..Please Inu-Yasha, I want to see you smile again! To chase Shippou and Miroku! I can't erase what I said..but, I can help make it right!"
She gently wrapped her arms around him, careful of his injuries. He stiffened at first, surprised, but then tentatively reached up and put his arms around her slender form.
"Kagome..I'm sorry too."
*********** Outside the hut, Miroku, Sango, Shippou and Kaede had been watching the scene unfold within. When Inu-Yasha accepted Kagome's embrace they all breathed a collective sigh of relief.
"Well, it looks as though things are finally looking up." Said Sango
"Yes," added Miroku "Yes they are."
Shippou however, was so overjoyed to see Inu-Yasha mending emotionally and physically that he ran into the room despite the others vain attempts to stop him.
"Inu-Yasha!" His voice was ecstatic with the joy he felt at seeing Inu- Yasha recovering.
"Shippou.." Inu-Yasha's eyes darkened with anger and he pulled away from Kagome and flexed his claws. "Where did you come from?"
"Outside! We were all watching you two!" Shippou said oblivious to the maniacal rage building in Inu-Yasha's eyes.
At Shippou revilation, the group outside winced and Inu-Yasha's fist made contact with Shippou's head.
"Ow! Inu-Yasha! What was that for?"
Shippou's voice was enraged.
"For eavesdropping!"
Inu-Yasha answered rising up to full height above Shippou.
Shippou gulped in fear and bolted out the door with Inu-Yasha on his tail, leaving behind a shocked Kagome.
'He's back.' She thought matter of factly and leapt to her feet to watch the scene playing out outside.
Inu-Yasha's rage increased as he found Miroku and Sango crouching outside. Kaede had wisely moved away, so she was relieved of his wrath.
"You guys.." he said his anger radiating from his very being. His bangs shadowed his eyes and his claws were out in front of his poised to strike. All three (Shippou, Sango and Miroku) backed up before his wrath. "You will pay for this.." He charged and in a dazzling show of fury bopped each of them on the head, stalked off to a nearby tree and plopped down at its base with crossed arms and an indignant expression.
'Whew' Sango thought
"That.was scary.." Shippou said to the world.
"Yeah.." Miroku agreed.
The three of them were quite shaken by the events.
"Keh!" said Inu-Yasha glancing over "That's what you get for spying!"
***********
Kaede and Kagome had watched this exchange with increasing amusement.
"I'm glad.that he's back to normal." Kagome said musingly to Kaede.
"Aye child." Kaede answered. "He is better but not completely himself yet. That will take time and unbridled kindness. Still the shadow of that moment hangs in his eyes. You must free him of this. When you have, he will be better that he ever was."
"Yes!" Kagome answered exuberantly "You're right Kaede-bachan! I will do anything it takes. Because I love Inu-Yasha more than anything."
"I know." Answered Kaede sagely her eyes sparkling at the antics of the young companions "But you must tread carefully. The hurt is still fresh. A wrong move could reopen the wound and drive him away forever. Be careful and be unreserved in your distribution of love. That is what he needs most right now."
As the two mikos, one old, one young, watched the playful fight before them they glanced to the setting sun.
The sun seemed to be saying: "This tragedy is over. Move on and begin anew once."
'Yes,' Kagome thought as her eyes rested on Inu-Yasha's face 'We will make things right again. I will always love you and be by your side.'
Inu-Yasha felt Kagome's eyes upon him and looked up. Their gazes met and both smiled sharing the promise to make the future better than the memories.
To Be Continued...
I dunno..I could end it here...It all depends on wether this gets a good reception..
REVIEW AND THE UPDATE WILL COME!!!
Don't and.I will go and sulk never to update again.