Benefits Chapter 4
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I woke up around eleven o' clock the next morning and ate my breakfast in silence. My parents did suspect something was wrong, but didn't say speak up about it. Of course I wouldn't tell them what had happened last night I'd be in so much trouble. Lately now I'm starting to think I should stop thinking about all the bad things in my life and what could happen and just have fun. Go ahead with the feelings and choices placed on my plate, and eat them up.
"What time is Adam coming home Mom?" I asked eating a spoonful of Lucky Charms.
"You know your brother he comes home when he pleases, why?" She gave me that questioning look like all parents do, don't you hate that? Thinking your up to something when half the time you know you are?
"Just wondering." I replied getting up and placing my bowl and cup in the sink and heading downstairs to check my email and talk to my friends. I get online and Jeff's online, and decide to talk to him.
LeeLee22- Hey Jeff
JHardy002-Yo What's up?
LeeLee22-n/m just woke up, u?
LeeLee22-About last night are we going to keep doing that or was it just a one time thing?
JHardy002-me too, its up to u I guess it dont matter to me
I'm a little hurt by his comment, why would it not matter to him but then go along with something so intimate and emotional? Sometimes I really want to strangle guys.
LeeLee22-I dunno, I dont wanna be a slut or anythin cause that aint me and I really dont want Adam to find out!!
JHardy002-Yeah I understand you, but u were a good kisser!
LeeLee22-Haha thanks!
LeeLee22-g2g bye.
JHardy002-Bye, think about it
That's what I did most of the day. Think. I mostly sat in my room reading and having my stereo on listening to the radio thinking. I honestly didn't have a clue. I don't want to be used, but I like him and I liked what happened last night. My heart kept telling me to go with my feelings and do what I feel, but my brain kept telling me do what your conscience tells you. You'll be used, Adam will find out.
Later that night I was playing Crash Bandicoot with Alex when the basement door swung open and the blast of cold air come rushing in. I turned around and saw it was Adam and a group of his friends including Jeff and blushed. Alex turned around and saw my face turned red and asked what was wrong.
"Nothing, un pause it." I said turning my head back to the game. I was about to win when Adam walked right in front of the TV and turned off our video game.
"HEY!" Alex and I yelled at the same time. "What the fuck do you think your doing? We're in the middle of a game asswhole!" I yelled at my brother.
"Chill the hell out!" He turned around. "You know its our night to watch wrestling." He said while turning on the channel.
"Whatever shithead." I grumbled sitting on the couch. The rest of the group gathered in the room and sat in front of the TV with there chips and soda's while Alex and I were laughing at these people on TV. Adam was on the floor with Shane, Matt and Alex while Jeff, Shannon, and I shared the couch. I looked down at Alex and saw that she was flirting with Adam. I got so angry I wanted to scream at her. I don't know why I was angry, but I knew Adam didn't like her like that. He would always tell me she was hot but how he would never go out with her. Jeff saw the look on my face and rubbed my knee. I looked at him and smiled and relaxed back on the couch. During the commercial Alex looked up at me and saw me very close to Jeff with his hand on my knee and us laughing about something she couldn't make out. I looked at her and she gave me that look of jealousy. I turned away and watched the show as it came on and started laughing at it.
"Why are you guys so crazy about this stuff anyway?" I asked.
"Because its so cool!" Shane replied
"I can't wait till I start my training to become a real wrestler!" Matt added.
"So you all want to become wrestlers and join the WWE?" I asked them all.
"Why not?" Jeff asked back looking at me.
After the show was over all of Adams friends left, but Alex stayed to spend the night. Jeff even hugged me good-bye. He still smells so good I thought. I looked turned around after closing the door and saw Adam and Alex whispering to each other.
"What you two talking about?" I asked curious.
"Nothing just talking, why'd Jeff hug you bye? He's never done that before." Adam asked getting a little angry.
"What's it to you? Your over here with my best friend hitting on her!" I yelled my temper rising. He can always be so nosey sometimes.
"Chill Leah its just a question." Alex defended him.
"Why are you defending Adam? You don't even know him!" My temper was rising and I didn't know if it would stop.
"Whatever Leah I'm going on the computer." Adam said getting up from the floor and signing on. Alex and I went upstairs to change on our PJ's and bring our stuff back down to sleep on the floor and watch movies. About half way through the second movie I was so tired I turned away from the TV and tried to go to sleep. I was almost out when I heard voices in the back round, I could recognize that it was Adam and Leah, so I didn't move.
"She asleep?" I heard my brother whisper. I could feel something hovering over me so I kept still.
"I think." Was Leah's reply.
"Wanna go upstairs to my room?" Again my brother. I'm shocked, is my best friend and brother sneaking around behind my back?!
"Yeah, I brought the condoms!" I heard her whisper. What the fuck?! There having sex? How long has this shit been going down? I was getting so angry that my breathing started to get faster.
"Sweet." I heard Adam getting up and walking over me to the stairs. I didn't dare move. I could hear Alex quietly slip out of her sleeping bag and walk upstairs with Adam. Finally I opened my eyes hoping all that was a dream. I sat up and looked around the room to see I was all alone in the darkness. I laid my head back on my pillow and let the tears threatening to fall coming crashing down.