Author's notes: This is my first Inuyasha fanfiction, so be nice.
^_^ I came up with this idea for a fic when I heard my sister playing Christina
Aguilera's song So Emotional. So needless to say this fic uses that song
and I do not own the song. This is also a one shot (unless for some reason
I get inspired to write a series). Oh, and these > represent someones
thoughts. Now sit back, relax, and enjoy!
So Emotional
By Rekka's Angel
It was a beautiful warm night as Inuyasha
and the group decided to stop and make camp. The stars were shining brightly
in the night sky and the moon lit the camp site of the tired group. Everyone
was peacefully asleep, enjoying the chance to catch up on some much needed
rest. Well, all except one.
Kagome sat up in her sleeping bag and
looked around. Shippo was cuddled up next to Kagome's waist in her sleeping
bag, Sango was asleep on the ground a few feet away, and Miroku was asleep
leaning against a tree. Kagome quietly giggled as she saw Miroku's hand
flex every once in a while.
"No doubt dreaming about groping
Sango with that silly smirk on his face."> Kagome thought. "I wish
those two would just tell each other how they feel."> Kagome made up her
mind that starting the next day she was going to try to get the two closer.
Her gaze swept once more around the site, then up to the tree she knew
Inuyasha was in. She smiled sadly as she looked up and saw him asleep on
a tree limb holding the Tetsusaiga possessively.
Kagome sighed, knowing she wasn't going
to get to sleep anytime soon. Too many things plagued her tired mind, and
the thoughts relentlessly ran through her head. Her thought's consisted
of the Shikon no tama and what would happen when it was once again whole,
Inuyasha and what exactly she was to him, her friends and family, and Kikyo.
She glared angrily at the ground at the thought of Kikyo. She was so sick
of hearing that name. It was always Kikyo this and Kikyo that. Kagome wished
just once Inuyasha would stop comparing her to Kikyo. Sure there were similarities,
but she was NOT Kikyo.
Deciding enough was enough, she reached
into her pack and searched for her portable CD player. Perhaps some music
would get her mind off of things and make her sleepy. She finally found
what she was looking for and popped a CD into it. Putting the headphones
around her neck she kissed Shippo on the forehead, got up slowly, and quietly
headed for the small lake on the other side of the trees.
Little did she know a certain dog demon
had heard her movement. Inuyasha's ears twitched as he heard rustling below
him. He lazily opened one amber eye and looked down. He saw Kagome quietly
get up from her sleeping bag and leave with some strange contraption in
her hands. He silently cursed as he got up to follow her.
"Stupid wench, what could she possibly
need to get up for at this hour?" Inuyasha whispered. He silently followed
and sat in a tree not far from the spot she had chosen to sit down at by
the lake. He sat down on the branch and watched her from his hiding place.
Kagome sat down on a grassy ledge a
couple feet above the water. She looked over into it at her reflection
and saw the stars sparkling around her face. The crescent moon hung in
the sky and created just enough light for her to see herself in the water.
Her raven hair flowed around her shoulders and her deep chocolate brown
pools stared back at her. She sighed.
"No wonder he's always comparing. I'm
no where near as pretty as Kikyo." She shook her head as if to banish the
negative thoughts, but they still lingered at the back of her mind, constantly
teasing her.
She leaned back and got into a comfortable
sitting position before turning on the CD player. She sat there and hummed
until a song that rang a bit too true started to play. She smiled sadly
and sang with it.
"It's either black or white, that's right
we're making love or we're in a fight
Sometimes you make me so blue"
Kagome thought about all the fights and silly petty arguments they were always getting into, but then there were also those rare occasions when he would be so sweet. Then again it always ended up with him denying it ever happened or bringing up Kikyo.
"But then it feels so good, I knew it would
You do the things that make me crazy
I want to give it to you."
Inuyasha's ears perked at the sound of her voice. The wind carried her beautiful singing to his ears. He listened carefully to the words as her song was carried through the woods.
"You make me feel so emotional
I can't let go I'm so emotional
I'm sinking fast into an ocean full of you
I'm so emotional
You take me high and low, ya know
I'm never sure which way you're gonna go
You're such a mystery to me"
A lone tear found it's way down her cheek
as she thought about Inuyasha and how she wasn't sure what he felt about
her. Did he even care about her, or was he just nice sometimes because
she was his shard detector. She couldn't tell. And then throwing Kikyo
into the mix didn't help. He was stuck on the past with her. Couldn't he
see the Kikyo walking around now was nothing more than dirt and bones with
Kikyo's hatred and revenge fueling the bodies desire to live. All that
could come of his attraction to the priestess was misery. The past Kikyo
was gone, and there was nothing Inuyasha could do to bring her back.
"But baby hot or cold, you got a hold
Of my imagination
I think you know what I mean"
Another tear slid down her face as the
realization of her own feelings towards him came to the forefront. She
loved him. But he was in love with someone else. Someone who had long ago
been dead and now brought back to life because of her. If she hadn't of
been captured by that stupid witch, none of this would have happened. Maybe
Inuyasha would have fallen in love with her and forgotten about Kikyo.
Kagome shook her head sadly, knowing that if she were Kikyo she wouldn't
want Inuyasha to forget about her so easily.
"I guess she got what she wanted. He'll
never forget her, and I'll always be second place. I'll always be the look-a-like,
reminding him constantly of his past love." Tears began falling faster
and heavier as her thoughts trailed on with the song.
"You make me feel so emotional
I can't let go I'm so emotional
I'm sinking fast into an ocean full of you
I'm so emotional"
Inuyasha was entranced by Kagome's singing
until he caught a whiff of salt. He looked closer and was shocked to see
Kagome crying. With the smell and the moon shinning enough to make the
tears on her cheeks glisten as they made their way down her face, it was
undeniable that she was crying. A stab of pain ran through his heart at
the sight. He hated seeing her cry and just the thought of it being because
of him made him feel incredibly guilty.
And what was she talking about? Who
got what they wanted and who was the heshe was talking about. Thinking
she was talking and crying about some guy from her time made him angry,
and surprisingly jealous. He glared down at the tree's limb. How could
he be jealous, and why? What was it that made him so possessive of her.
It's not like he had claimed her as his. But deep down a voice subconsciously
knew that she was his, and no one was going to take her away.
Inuyasha felt a chill run down his spine
as he turn back to watch and listen to Kagome. What was it that he was
feeling. It wasn't l...lo, the L word was it?
"Stupid wench, making me so damn confused."
Inuyasha grumbled.
"Rain is falling down on me
Suddenly the sun comes out
Sometimes north or south of love
But I'm never out
Never out, I'm so emotional"
Kagome smirked at the last line. No matter what happened or who Inuyasha chose, she would always love him and nothing could change that. Not even the half dead miko. She would just have to be patient. And perhaps sometime soon she could tell him how she felt. It had been bottled up for such a long time, and now that she realized her feelings, they were just bursting to come out. Kagome laid back on the soft grass and closed her eyes, listening to the end of the song. She knew she should go back to camp before closing her eyes, but something told her it was ok.
"You make me feel so emotional
I can't let go I'm so emotional
I'm sinking fast into an ocean full of you
I'm so emotional....."
Kagome's last thought before the welcoming
darkness of sleep over came her was of Inuyasha and her whispered words.
"I love you."
Inuyasha watched as she laid down on
the grass and fell asleep. He strained to hear what she whispered, but
even his demon senses couldn't hear it. He sighed, jumped down quietly
from the tree, and started walking over to the sleeping girl.
"Wench, don't you know it's not safe
sleeping out here alone." He whispered harshly to her still figure. He
bent down and looked at her. She was smiling in her sleep. Her silken hair
flowed around her, her eyelashes kissed her cheeks, and one hand laid by
her face. Inuyasha's golden eyes softened as he gazed at Kagome.
She looked so innocent and helpless
laying there before him. He slowly reached out and brushed a lock of hair
away from her face and tucked it behind her ear. As soon as he realized
what he was doing he quickly pulled his hand back as if it were burnt.
He sighed knowing he would have to take her back to camp before he was
able to go back to sleep. Inuyasha gently scooped her up into his arms
bridle style and quickly made his way back to camp.
As he reached their site, he scooted
Shippo over from his place in the middle of Kagome's sleeping bag, and
tucked her in. He tenderly touched her cheek before standing up and making
his way back to the tree he was originally in. He hadn't gone more then
two feet when he stopped as he heard movement behind him. He smiled when
he saw Kagome pull Shippo against her and snuggle in deeper under the blanket.
He finally made it to the tree and jumped up. He gave one last look at
Kagome and the others and then settled back in for the night.
**********
It had been two days since that night
and the group was on its way back to Kaede's village after finding another
shard. The shard they found was surprisingly easy to get. A kuma youkai
had had it, and for Inuyasha using the Tetsusaiga, it was very easily dealt
with, with one good swing. The kuma youkai had a lot of brute strength,
but it wasn't very smart.
Kagome walked beside Sango with Shippo
riding on her shoulder as she looked at the shards. Inuyasha was in the
lead and Miroku was slightly behind Sango.
"Kagome-chan is anything wrong?" Sango
asked. Kagome looked up at Sango and smiled slightly. Inuyasha, Shippo,
and Miroku looked at Kagome, waiting for an answer. She blushed at the
attention and nodded her head no.
"No, I'm fine Sango-chan." This seemed
to satisfy the men, but Sango wasn't convinced. Kagome wasn't usually so
quiet and reserved, especially after finding a jewel shard. She looked at Kagome with a worried expression. Kagome gave her a look that said she'd
tell her later, and Sango nodded.
"Oi, Kagome why are you so quiet?" Inuyasha
asked with an annoyed tone. Apparently Inuyasha also noticed her silence.
Of course not that Inuyasha was worried about her. *cough cough* yeah right.
"Yes, Kagome-sama I must inquire as
well." Miroku added.
"No reason really. I'm just a bit tired
I guess." Inuyasha glanced at Kagome before turning back forward. He knew
why she was tired, but there wasn't much he could do about it. She hadn't
been sleeping very much because something was obviously bugging her. He
shrugged, thinking to himself that he'd ask Sango about it after one of
her and Kagome's "girl talks".
Later that day they finally made it to
Kaede's village.
"I trust your trip went well seeing
as no one is injured." Kaede said with a smile. Everyone nodded. "Well,
dinner will be ready in a little bit so you have a chance to relax until
then." Sango jumped at the chance to get Kagome alone and grabbed the girl
by the hand and made her way to the hot spring.
"Gah! Sango hold up!" Kagome shouted.
"Don't worry about us, we'll be back
in time for dinner!" Sango yelled as the two girls disappeared from sight.
Inuyasha, Shippo, and Miroku just blinked.
"What the hell was that all about?"
Inuyasha asked grumpily. Kaede just smiled and walked out of the hut.
"I don't know, why don't we go find
out." Miroku answered with a gleam in his eye. He started walking away
until he was yanked back by the collar of his robe and turned towards an
angry looking Inuyasha.
"Oh no you don't. What if they're taking
a bath, huh." Inuyasha said with a glare. Miroku nodded sagely in agreement
and closed his eyes. Inuyasha sighed and dropped Miroku unceremoniously
on the ground. Bad idea. "All the more reason for us to find out what's
going on." Miroku yelled as he took off in the direction the girls had
wandered off to.
"Hey get back here you pervert!" Inuyasha
called as he too took off. Shippo just stood there with a bored expression.
"Those idiots." With a resigning sigh
Shippo went off to make sure they stayed out of trouble. Besides, he didn't
want to listen to a whiny Inuyasha after being sat a billion times.
meanwhile...
"Ahhh." Kagome sighed contently as she
soaked in the hot water. Sango sat down next to her and smiled. Kirara
sat on a nearby rock and kept a close watch for anything that would threaten
the girls.
"So, what's going on Kagome-chan. You
haven't exactly been yourself lately." Sango said. Kagome sighed. She knew
she'd have to tell Sango sooner or later. There wasn't much she could keep
secret from the demon exterminator.
"I just haven't been getting much sleep
lately." Kagome answered. Sango arched a delicate eyebrow.
"And..." Kagome laughed.
"Looks like I can't keep anything from
you Sango-chan." Sango nodded in agreement.
"Nope. Especially not if something is
bothering my best friend." Sango answered with a smile. Kagome smiled back.
"So what's made it so hard to sleep? Nightmares, worries, what?"
"Well, I guess worries mainly. Like
what's going to happen after we find all of the shards, then what? And..."
A rosy tint painted Kagome's cheeks as she paused. This made Sango quite
interested in the rest of the problem.
"And what!?" Sango asked impatiently.
"I want to know what Inuyasha thinks
of me. Am I just some shard detector, friend, or a nuisance." Tears sprang
to the corners of Kagome's eyes, but she held them at bay. Sango looked
at Kagome with sympathy and gathered her into her arms.
"Kagome-chan you're not a nuisance.
Inuyasha does not think of you that way. He cares a lot about you. He may
not always show it, but if he didn't care why would he have saved you all
those times and promised to protect you."
"I've got two reasons for that. One,
I look like Kikyo," She spit the name out as if it were something dirty.
"And two, I detect the jewel shards." Sango just sat there with Kagome
in her embrace not knowing what to say to that.
"Poor Kagome. She loves him so much,
but there's so many obstacles standing in the way, it's hard to tell what
he feels for her. I know he cares about her, but the question is in what
way."> Sango was brought out of her thoughts when she heard sniffling coming
from Kagome.
"I'm sorry Sango." Kagome cried. "I
don't mean to be such a cry baby." Kagome hugged Sango tighter as the tears
streamed down her face. Sango smiled and rocked her back and forth, stroking
Kagome's hair in attempt to came her down. She held her to her like a mother
comforting her distraught child.
"It's ok Kagome-chan. It's alright to
cry. You've been strong for a long time and now it's time to let go." Kagome
did just that and sobbed into Sango's shoulder. Sango just held her as
Kagome cried herself out.
After a few minutes only a few occasional
sniffles were heard.
"There, feel better?" Kagome nodded
and smiled her thanks.
"Thank you Sango-chan, I really needed
that."
"No problem." The girls stopped and
listened for a moment after hearing something in the distance. "Eh, must
be my imagination." Sango stated. Kirara looked up and scanned some nearby
trees, but ignored it. Besides, she had a pretty good idea who it was,
and it would be entertaining to see them get in trouble.
Off in the trees Miroku and Inuyasha
were holding their breath. They let out sighs when the threat of being
found out was over. Inuyasha glared at Miroku and bopped him on the head.
"Ouch, what was that for."
"For almost getting us caught, that's
what!" Inuyasha growled.
"Anyway, I wonder what could have gotten
Kagome-sama so upset." Miroku said.
"How should I know." Inuyasha answered
nonchalantly. Secretly though, Inuyasha was worriedly wondering what could
be so bad it made Kagome cry. He hated seeing her cry. Every tear was like
being stabbed with a knife. Miroku raised an eyebrow and looked away.
"Aren't you the least bit curious?"
"Not curious enough to get sat a million
times. And quite trying to look you pervert!" Inuyasha hissed as he hit
him on the head again.
"Shhh, I heard them say my name."
"Anyway, so how are things between you
and Miroku?" Kagome asked with a grin. Sango looked surprised and
blushed at Kagome's question.
"Wha...what do you mean!?"
"Oh come on Sango, it's so obvious you
like him and vice versa." Kagome teased.
"Me, like that lecher. Get real." Kagome
giggled.
"Yeah right. I know you like him. Even
if he is a bit of a lecher, you've gotta admit he can be really sweet and
thoughtful." Sango sighed and nodded in agreement.
"You're right. So I have a bit of a
crush on the dummy, big deal." They both went silent as they heard whispering
then a thud. Both girls grew incredibly red.
"They wouldn't dare." Sango growled.
Kagome smacked her forehead and sighed.
"They would." Kirara jumped up and ran
over to the commotion. A minute later a transformed Kirara had a grumpy
hanyou and grinning Miroku hanging from her mouth. Kagome and Sango sunk
in the water and fumed.
"Now now ladies, we were only worried
about you." Sango gave a withering glare to Miroku promising much pain.
Miroku winced and took off running.
"Well, see you at supper!" Inuyasha
stood and yelled back.
"You coward!" He started running off
after Miroku.
"Oh no you don't. You don't get off
that easy." Kagome bellowed. Inuyasha groaned knowing this was gonna hurt.
"Sit, sit, sit, sit, SIT!!!" Kagome yelled. Inuyasha crashed to the ground
in pain and just laid there as the punishment continued. He growled as
he looked at the direction Miroku had fled earlier.
"Oh just you wait monk. When I get
my claws on you, you're dead!">
**********
Ok so I lied. ^_^ It looks like this one will be a couple chapters long. I think I might have it finished in two chapters, I don't know. You'll just have to wait and see. What will happen next? And will Kagome admit her fellings to Inuyasha? Find out in the next chapter! Please tell me what you think about this so far and review for me! ^.~ Until next time, ja ne!
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