I awoke to the morning breeze on my skin. Damp and sweet. Sun rays danced across my face, moving with the rustle of the leaves. My eyes opened and watched the trees for a long while as I lay there. I was calm.
Something I had never fully felt before.
And I was warm. I could still feel him as apart of me. Wrapped around my soul, protecting me.
I smiled. My eyes slipped shut and I laid there enjoying nothing but feel of him near me. The feel of the air and sun. And I fell into a calm bliss of nothing but. . . I didn't know what it was. But it wasnt loneliness.
And I liked it.
After the longest while, I heard Kouichi awaken from the next room and turn on his radio.
I groaned and rolled out of bed. He did this every morning and it drove me crazy.
I got dressed and headed into the kitchen for something quick to eat. I found Kouichi already up and out and listening to the radio in the kitchen while he ate. From the sound of it, he was listening to Smash Mouth. I groaned inwardly and sat down. I hated Smash Mouth. Partially because Kouichi listened to them EVERYDAY.
Kouichi sat down across from me when Dad left, and he turned off the radio and looked at me.
"What were you dreaming about last night?" He asked me.
My head shot up and looked at him. "What?"
"You were crying and whispering your digimons name" he said. "Whats wrong?"
Anger pulsed through my veins at this. And I felt Lobomons presents clearer now, trying to calm me down. But it didn't work. My anger towards Kouichi was to much. And I could feel that Lobomon was alittle irritated by this as well.
"What the hell were you doing in my room last night!?" I yelled.
Kouichi looked shocked. "I was just checking on you"
"Checking on me!?" I felt my heart beat faster, my fists clenched the table as I stood up. "God would you just leave me the hell alone!? I don't need you checking on me, and I don't want you near me!"
Kouichi shook slightly, and I was rather pleased with myself when I saw this.
I grabbed my coat and headed outside. I didn't want to be around him anymore. Kouichi would just start apologizing and things would get no where.
He wanted to be apart of my life so bad, he just didn't get the fact I didn't like him. . . at all.
I felt Lobomon urging me to calm down. Eventually I did. I couldn't resist the warm feeling that coursed over my skin like waves. Calmness replaced anger and I felt at ease again.
It was strange having something there. And I began to wonder if he was controlling my feelings now. . .
`I'm not trying to control you Kouji-kun' He soft voice came in my mind, and I winced.
I said nothing in return and neither did he.
I made my way to the one spot I knew I could be alone. It was deep in the forests near Mount. Fuji. It was actually far away but it was the weekend and I had time.
I made my way through the trees, and the mulch covered forest floor. Small streams started to appear in different places, and I felt Lobomon grow curious as to where we were going. He'd find out soon enough.
Soon a small waterfall appeared in the distance, surrounded by colorful flowers, and lush plant life.
The waterfall was about fifteen feet high, and pooled down into a small pond that turned in a river.
I didn't think anyone knew about this place. If anyone did, I never saw them.
The waterfall and rivers were quite unusual for this kind of forest but I never really cared.
Grass grew everywhere, about two inches high and soft as silk. Green blades still glinted with dew as the sun shined down everywhere, warming the air around me. I laid down under a tree, protecting myself from the sunlight. And pulled my coat off as it warmed up. I didn't know why I even brought it.
Soon I heard Lobomons voice again. `Can I come out?' he asked.
I no longer had my D-Tector and I wasnt sure what he meant by that.
`Sure' I replied, wondering what he'd do.
Lobomon appeared next to me, faded like the mists, then clearer and clearer. He laid on his side facing me, he hand reached out to touch my face then brushed back my hair. "Are you alright now Kouji-kun?"
I sighed and closed my eyes. Remembering the pain I had felt last night, being ripped apart and destroyed. I no longer felt that way. There wasnt any pain. And these new feelings were strange to me. I didn't really now how I felt.
When I didn't say anything, he smiled down at me and kissed my cheek.
He was still wearing the black cloths from the dream. I figured these were his normal cloths. But he still wore the mask.
I turned on my side facing him, and traced his face with my fingers, and he watched me silently with content eyes. Over his cheek and neck, over the brow of the mask, then fell down to his lips. I found myself fascinated with him. Wondering what he covered behind that silvery mask.
He took my hand, sensing my curiosity, and kissed my palm and each of my fingers. I just smiled. And he playfully suckled on my thumb then palm.
"What do you hide behind that mask?" I asked him after a while.
"My past" he whispered.
"Can I see?"
He paused then smiled. "Do you really want to know?"
I nodded and touched the mask again. He let me gently remove it from his face and lay it on the ground. Pale fair skin was revealed. Soft to my touch, his eyes crimson and deep. A small scare drifted down the side of his forehead, in the shape of a slash mark. His straw colored bangs hung down about his cheeks, blonde mixed with traces of blue and silver, unlike the rest of his hair. He was beautiful.
I felt his uneasiness as I stared at him. Was he scared that I thought he was hideous?
I traced the scare with my finger tip.
He was far from hideous. The discoloration of his bangs and the scar made him all the more cunning. His eyes glistened, waiting for me to comment.
I was breathless, and speechless at the same time.
"Kouji-kun?" He asked quietly.
"Your amazing" I breathed and he smiled.
"Lobomo-" I started and he hushed me.
"Please, don't call me that. Nye is my human name."
He went back to suckling on my fingers and I lay there watching him. Highly enjoying myself and very comfortable.
"Nye?" I asked. "How did you get that scar?"
He shifted and began to lazily trace imaginary lines on my arm.
"I'm not exactly proud of my past Kouji-kun."
I felt a deep sadness inside of him then and I regretted asking. But I felt his warm tug on me again, soothing my nerves.
"I wanted to join with you to make you feel better Kouji-kun. To protect you. But there are some things I'm not willing to tell you yet." He said gently. "I'm sorry"
I just snuggled up to his chest. "Its alright." And I felt the strange sensation of him softening when I spoke those words. His sadness slipped away and he pressed a small kiss to my forehead.
"Are you mad?" he asked.
"No." I whispered into his chest and closed my eyes. "Never."
There was silence after that, only the running water and the sound of birds and small animals scurrying about the forest.
It gave me time to think.
Mostly about last night. Lobo- Nye had pulled me to rock bottom. . . the one place that had been threatening to consume me over the years. And it took only a few words from him to do so.
But he was there when I did. He didn't leave me for one instant. The pain, the guilt and grief and depression would have taken me, but he didn't let that happen.
What happened last night was the most intimate thing that had ever happened to me.
And it was Nye.
I don't know if it is our bond that is drawing me to him now, or have I seen the real him?
I finally looked at him fully, no defenses or anything to block my true feelings. This was the real him, and the real me.
This bond between us wasnt as bad as I had thought at first. I had fought it so long, now I find myself enjoying every second I had with him.
We stayed there in the forest for most of the day, then moved alittle closer to home, so we wouldn't have to walk so far. And watched the sunset. It was a hillside in the park, a somewhat secret place my real mother had shown me before she was gone. There wasnt much around it, but it was a great place to watch the sunsets over the trees and the moon rise.
I was a bit surprised when Nye pulled me into his lap and kissed playfully at my neck, his arms wrapping around my waist, holding me against him. I let him, mostly because it felt good, and second because I liked having him near. Something I never felt with anyone else before. He got a few moans out of me, and seemed very pleased at this, and soon drew quiet as darkness began to fill the sky.
"Shouldn't we go back home?" he asked me after a while.
"Not yet" I murmured a bit sleepily. "I want to stay here alittle longer" And I slipped further into the comfort of his arms, resting my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes.
I dozed off alittle while later but was awaked when something dripped onto my cheek. I reached up with my hand and brushed it away and realized it was blood. I shifted slightly and looked up at Nye. He just now realized I was awake, and he gazed down at me, his face caught in the silvery glow of the moon. I caught a glimpse of a crimson streak down his pale cheek.
"I didn't mean to wake you" he said softly.
"What is it?" I questioned a bit worriedly. Nye sighed and brushed away the streak with his hand.
"Blood Tears." he said.
Blood tears. The same tears I had cried in my dream.
"Tears of Blood that are shed when your soul is in pain." he said to me. "When your soul is in pain, it bleeds. And you cry those tears."
I turned in his lap to look at him. I could now feel the immense pain that he now felt deep within him. He was weak and even alittle scared. And I desperately wanted him to feel better.
"Why are you in so much pain?"
"My past Kouji-kun. . . my past."
And I remembered the mask we had left back in the forest and I traced the scar again with my fingers. "I'm sorry. I never should have--"
He took my hand and kissed it. "Its alright Kouji. I needed you to do that."
"But- "
"Shhh. . . " He hushed me and placed his finger to my lips. "I've hid for too long now."
He removed his finger from my lips and studied my face then spoke. " If blood tears aren't shed you drown in yourself. Just as you were Kouji-kun. The mask hid my pain. Its time I faced it. As you defeated loneliness"
"You saved me." I sad quietly.
"I care about you Kouji. I missed you. . ."He admitted.
"How could you have missed me?"I asked. "I blocked you out."
"Is it so hard to believe there are some people in this word who might actually understand you and care?"
I didn't say anything. It was kind of hard to believe that anyone would care. I never gave them any reason to. Nye most all, should hate me. I gave him nothing but loneliness after everything he had given me. Yet he still cared.
He smiled and kissed me softly at first, then longingly, my lips parted and I was at his mercy as he explored my mouth. His hand slid behind my neck and pulled me fully against him, his other around my waist. "Your tired." he whispered when he broke away and pressed his forehead against mine. His deep breathing caressed my face and I gasped. I pulled him into another deep kiss before I nodded sullenly and rested my cheek on his upper chest.
Everyone was probably wondering where I was by now, but I didn't care. I rather enjoyed the thought of Kouichi beating himself up, worried that he had made me mad enough that I would never come back. And I wanted him to stay guilty for as long as possible.
I heard Nye chuckle when he picked up on my thoughts, but I didn't care anymore, I closed my eyes again.
But then again, they might night even care. I had a habit of disappearing and returning with no excuses or explanations what so ever. I never even told them were I was when I was in the Digital World. They still had no clue unless Kouichi had told them.
I sighed and pushed up closer to Nye for warmth. I didn't want to go back right now. Today had been so peaceful with Nye, and I didn't want it to end.
But soon I fell asleep again, and Nye eventually carried me back home, careful not to wake me or cause any noise in the process.
When he got there, there were no lights on in the house. It appeared everyone had gone to sleep, so he carried me to my room and laid me down on my bed without me waking.
"Goodnight Nye-kun" I whispered before he left.
He smiled and kissed my forehead. "Goodnight Kouji-kun"
And slowly disappeared back in my soul and out of sight.
* * * *
But apparently the two sets of eyes had gone unnoticed as they peered out of the creak in the door. Koujis father looked rather furious and was about to go after the strange man that had carried his son off into his room. But Koujis stepmother just smiled.
"I'm going to call the police" he said but she grabbed his arm.
"Don't do that." she whispered.
"Why not!?"
"Didn't you see the look on Koujis face. He was smiling for gods sake."
"So?" He asked rather arrogantly.
"Your son never smiles!"She tried to keep her voice low. " Are you really that dense?"
"A strange man just carried my son to his room, what am I suppose to think!?"
"If he did anything bad to Kouji, he wouldn't be smiling. Quite frankly, whoever he is, is doing Kouji some good."
"Lorraine. . ."
* okay I don't know what Koujis parents names are. If they were ever mentioned I didn't here it. Or I just plain forgot. So on my account their names are Lorraine and Rokuro*
"Let them be. I'll check on Kouji in the morning alright."
"But--"
Lorraine pushed on Rokuros shoulder lightly and smiled. "Go to bed. Everything will be fine."
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Okay I just heard a rumor that said this was the last digimon season. Is that true? because. . . OMG THEY CAN'T DO THIS TO ME!!!! THIS CANT BE THE END!!!!
IT'S NOT THE END! IT CAN'T BE!!! Or am I just totally dense? Because I havent even seen all of Digimon Frontier. On the other hand their could be a totally new digimon out there I don't even know about.
Which would make me look really stupid right now. . .
Something I had never fully felt before.
And I was warm. I could still feel him as apart of me. Wrapped around my soul, protecting me.
I smiled. My eyes slipped shut and I laid there enjoying nothing but feel of him near me. The feel of the air and sun. And I fell into a calm bliss of nothing but. . . I didn't know what it was. But it wasnt loneliness.
And I liked it.
After the longest while, I heard Kouichi awaken from the next room and turn on his radio.
I groaned and rolled out of bed. He did this every morning and it drove me crazy.
I got dressed and headed into the kitchen for something quick to eat. I found Kouichi already up and out and listening to the radio in the kitchen while he ate. From the sound of it, he was listening to Smash Mouth. I groaned inwardly and sat down. I hated Smash Mouth. Partially because Kouichi listened to them EVERYDAY.
Kouichi sat down across from me when Dad left, and he turned off the radio and looked at me.
"What were you dreaming about last night?" He asked me.
My head shot up and looked at him. "What?"
"You were crying and whispering your digimons name" he said. "Whats wrong?"
Anger pulsed through my veins at this. And I felt Lobomons presents clearer now, trying to calm me down. But it didn't work. My anger towards Kouichi was to much. And I could feel that Lobomon was alittle irritated by this as well.
"What the hell were you doing in my room last night!?" I yelled.
Kouichi looked shocked. "I was just checking on you"
"Checking on me!?" I felt my heart beat faster, my fists clenched the table as I stood up. "God would you just leave me the hell alone!? I don't need you checking on me, and I don't want you near me!"
Kouichi shook slightly, and I was rather pleased with myself when I saw this.
I grabbed my coat and headed outside. I didn't want to be around him anymore. Kouichi would just start apologizing and things would get no where.
He wanted to be apart of my life so bad, he just didn't get the fact I didn't like him. . . at all.
I felt Lobomon urging me to calm down. Eventually I did. I couldn't resist the warm feeling that coursed over my skin like waves. Calmness replaced anger and I felt at ease again.
It was strange having something there. And I began to wonder if he was controlling my feelings now. . .
`I'm not trying to control you Kouji-kun' He soft voice came in my mind, and I winced.
I said nothing in return and neither did he.
I made my way to the one spot I knew I could be alone. It was deep in the forests near Mount. Fuji. It was actually far away but it was the weekend and I had time.
I made my way through the trees, and the mulch covered forest floor. Small streams started to appear in different places, and I felt Lobomon grow curious as to where we were going. He'd find out soon enough.
Soon a small waterfall appeared in the distance, surrounded by colorful flowers, and lush plant life.
The waterfall was about fifteen feet high, and pooled down into a small pond that turned in a river.
I didn't think anyone knew about this place. If anyone did, I never saw them.
The waterfall and rivers were quite unusual for this kind of forest but I never really cared.
Grass grew everywhere, about two inches high and soft as silk. Green blades still glinted with dew as the sun shined down everywhere, warming the air around me. I laid down under a tree, protecting myself from the sunlight. And pulled my coat off as it warmed up. I didn't know why I even brought it.
Soon I heard Lobomons voice again. `Can I come out?' he asked.
I no longer had my D-Tector and I wasnt sure what he meant by that.
`Sure' I replied, wondering what he'd do.
Lobomon appeared next to me, faded like the mists, then clearer and clearer. He laid on his side facing me, he hand reached out to touch my face then brushed back my hair. "Are you alright now Kouji-kun?"
I sighed and closed my eyes. Remembering the pain I had felt last night, being ripped apart and destroyed. I no longer felt that way. There wasnt any pain. And these new feelings were strange to me. I didn't really now how I felt.
When I didn't say anything, he smiled down at me and kissed my cheek.
He was still wearing the black cloths from the dream. I figured these were his normal cloths. But he still wore the mask.
I turned on my side facing him, and traced his face with my fingers, and he watched me silently with content eyes. Over his cheek and neck, over the brow of the mask, then fell down to his lips. I found myself fascinated with him. Wondering what he covered behind that silvery mask.
He took my hand, sensing my curiosity, and kissed my palm and each of my fingers. I just smiled. And he playfully suckled on my thumb then palm.
"What do you hide behind that mask?" I asked him after a while.
"My past" he whispered.
"Can I see?"
He paused then smiled. "Do you really want to know?"
I nodded and touched the mask again. He let me gently remove it from his face and lay it on the ground. Pale fair skin was revealed. Soft to my touch, his eyes crimson and deep. A small scare drifted down the side of his forehead, in the shape of a slash mark. His straw colored bangs hung down about his cheeks, blonde mixed with traces of blue and silver, unlike the rest of his hair. He was beautiful.
I felt his uneasiness as I stared at him. Was he scared that I thought he was hideous?
I traced the scare with my finger tip.
He was far from hideous. The discoloration of his bangs and the scar made him all the more cunning. His eyes glistened, waiting for me to comment.
I was breathless, and speechless at the same time.
"Kouji-kun?" He asked quietly.
"Your amazing" I breathed and he smiled.
"Lobomo-" I started and he hushed me.
"Please, don't call me that. Nye is my human name."
He went back to suckling on my fingers and I lay there watching him. Highly enjoying myself and very comfortable.
"Nye?" I asked. "How did you get that scar?"
He shifted and began to lazily trace imaginary lines on my arm.
"I'm not exactly proud of my past Kouji-kun."
I felt a deep sadness inside of him then and I regretted asking. But I felt his warm tug on me again, soothing my nerves.
"I wanted to join with you to make you feel better Kouji-kun. To protect you. But there are some things I'm not willing to tell you yet." He said gently. "I'm sorry"
I just snuggled up to his chest. "Its alright." And I felt the strange sensation of him softening when I spoke those words. His sadness slipped away and he pressed a small kiss to my forehead.
"Are you mad?" he asked.
"No." I whispered into his chest and closed my eyes. "Never."
There was silence after that, only the running water and the sound of birds and small animals scurrying about the forest.
It gave me time to think.
Mostly about last night. Lobo- Nye had pulled me to rock bottom. . . the one place that had been threatening to consume me over the years. And it took only a few words from him to do so.
But he was there when I did. He didn't leave me for one instant. The pain, the guilt and grief and depression would have taken me, but he didn't let that happen.
What happened last night was the most intimate thing that had ever happened to me.
And it was Nye.
I don't know if it is our bond that is drawing me to him now, or have I seen the real him?
I finally looked at him fully, no defenses or anything to block my true feelings. This was the real him, and the real me.
This bond between us wasnt as bad as I had thought at first. I had fought it so long, now I find myself enjoying every second I had with him.
We stayed there in the forest for most of the day, then moved alittle closer to home, so we wouldn't have to walk so far. And watched the sunset. It was a hillside in the park, a somewhat secret place my real mother had shown me before she was gone. There wasnt much around it, but it was a great place to watch the sunsets over the trees and the moon rise.
I was a bit surprised when Nye pulled me into his lap and kissed playfully at my neck, his arms wrapping around my waist, holding me against him. I let him, mostly because it felt good, and second because I liked having him near. Something I never felt with anyone else before. He got a few moans out of me, and seemed very pleased at this, and soon drew quiet as darkness began to fill the sky.
"Shouldn't we go back home?" he asked me after a while.
"Not yet" I murmured a bit sleepily. "I want to stay here alittle longer" And I slipped further into the comfort of his arms, resting my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes.
I dozed off alittle while later but was awaked when something dripped onto my cheek. I reached up with my hand and brushed it away and realized it was blood. I shifted slightly and looked up at Nye. He just now realized I was awake, and he gazed down at me, his face caught in the silvery glow of the moon. I caught a glimpse of a crimson streak down his pale cheek.
"I didn't mean to wake you" he said softly.
"What is it?" I questioned a bit worriedly. Nye sighed and brushed away the streak with his hand.
"Blood Tears." he said.
Blood tears. The same tears I had cried in my dream.
"Tears of Blood that are shed when your soul is in pain." he said to me. "When your soul is in pain, it bleeds. And you cry those tears."
I turned in his lap to look at him. I could now feel the immense pain that he now felt deep within him. He was weak and even alittle scared. And I desperately wanted him to feel better.
"Why are you in so much pain?"
"My past Kouji-kun. . . my past."
And I remembered the mask we had left back in the forest and I traced the scar again with my fingers. "I'm sorry. I never should have--"
He took my hand and kissed it. "Its alright Kouji. I needed you to do that."
"But- "
"Shhh. . . " He hushed me and placed his finger to my lips. "I've hid for too long now."
He removed his finger from my lips and studied my face then spoke. " If blood tears aren't shed you drown in yourself. Just as you were Kouji-kun. The mask hid my pain. Its time I faced it. As you defeated loneliness"
"You saved me." I sad quietly.
"I care about you Kouji. I missed you. . ."He admitted.
"How could you have missed me?"I asked. "I blocked you out."
"Is it so hard to believe there are some people in this word who might actually understand you and care?"
I didn't say anything. It was kind of hard to believe that anyone would care. I never gave them any reason to. Nye most all, should hate me. I gave him nothing but loneliness after everything he had given me. Yet he still cared.
He smiled and kissed me softly at first, then longingly, my lips parted and I was at his mercy as he explored my mouth. His hand slid behind my neck and pulled me fully against him, his other around my waist. "Your tired." he whispered when he broke away and pressed his forehead against mine. His deep breathing caressed my face and I gasped. I pulled him into another deep kiss before I nodded sullenly and rested my cheek on his upper chest.
Everyone was probably wondering where I was by now, but I didn't care. I rather enjoyed the thought of Kouichi beating himself up, worried that he had made me mad enough that I would never come back. And I wanted him to stay guilty for as long as possible.
I heard Nye chuckle when he picked up on my thoughts, but I didn't care anymore, I closed my eyes again.
But then again, they might night even care. I had a habit of disappearing and returning with no excuses or explanations what so ever. I never even told them were I was when I was in the Digital World. They still had no clue unless Kouichi had told them.
I sighed and pushed up closer to Nye for warmth. I didn't want to go back right now. Today had been so peaceful with Nye, and I didn't want it to end.
But soon I fell asleep again, and Nye eventually carried me back home, careful not to wake me or cause any noise in the process.
When he got there, there were no lights on in the house. It appeared everyone had gone to sleep, so he carried me to my room and laid me down on my bed without me waking.
"Goodnight Nye-kun" I whispered before he left.
He smiled and kissed my forehead. "Goodnight Kouji-kun"
And slowly disappeared back in my soul and out of sight.
* * * *
But apparently the two sets of eyes had gone unnoticed as they peered out of the creak in the door. Koujis father looked rather furious and was about to go after the strange man that had carried his son off into his room. But Koujis stepmother just smiled.
"I'm going to call the police" he said but she grabbed his arm.
"Don't do that." she whispered.
"Why not!?"
"Didn't you see the look on Koujis face. He was smiling for gods sake."
"So?" He asked rather arrogantly.
"Your son never smiles!"She tried to keep her voice low. " Are you really that dense?"
"A strange man just carried my son to his room, what am I suppose to think!?"
"If he did anything bad to Kouji, he wouldn't be smiling. Quite frankly, whoever he is, is doing Kouji some good."
"Lorraine. . ."
* okay I don't know what Koujis parents names are. If they were ever mentioned I didn't here it. Or I just plain forgot. So on my account their names are Lorraine and Rokuro*
"Let them be. I'll check on Kouji in the morning alright."
"But--"
Lorraine pushed on Rokuros shoulder lightly and smiled. "Go to bed. Everything will be fine."
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Okay I just heard a rumor that said this was the last digimon season. Is that true? because. . . OMG THEY CAN'T DO THIS TO ME!!!! THIS CANT BE THE END!!!!
IT'S NOT THE END! IT CAN'T BE!!! Or am I just totally dense? Because I havent even seen all of Digimon Frontier. On the other hand their could be a totally new digimon out there I don't even know about.
Which would make me look really stupid right now. . .