Mamoite Ageru: I'll Protect You
Chapter One
By BlueRaven
Rating PG-13
Pairing: Riku X Sora
WARNING: may have violence in later chapters. SHOUNEN-AI/YAOI story, (SLASH, for all ye dummies out there) don't like, don't read.
Disclaimer: I don't own Kingdom Hearts, lucky Squaresoft (soon to be Enix Square) and Disney does. Wish I worked there...
A/n: O_o and that if you don't like the YAOI theme of this story then bug off, FLAMES are stupid and shows lack of intelligence, so there! Constructive Criticisms are always welcomed, as well as other reviews. Thank you! /BlueRaven.
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have you ever wondered how something like friendship can turn into something more? I have... because my feelings for Sora, my best friend in the whole world, has taken that turn.
I am desperate for him, his childish innocence teasing me into bad thoughts. And that's scaring me. What if I would ever hurt him... again? I'm sure I hurt him bad when I was on 'the bad-guy's' side. I did that for Kairi... and for him... I think. I'm not sure, Ansem hurt me pretty bad, screwed with my mind and things like that. But that's beside the point, what I mean is that I'm afraid /I/ might try something... Like rape. Yes, I distrust myself that bad.
I'm sitting on my Island, well everyone says it's my Island as I hang out so much by the Paopu Fruit Tree, and I'm watching Sora having a go against Tidus, Wakka and Selphie. He's not doing so bad... But hey, he's beaten Ansem, why would he have a problem against them? Really, I need to start realising he's a big boy now. And stronger then me... both mentally and, perhaps, physically. I really don't know since we haven't play-fought since before the whole Kingdom Hearts incidence. I guess neither of us are feeling comfortable fighting eachother anymore.
That whole episode of our lives is two years back now... we both came back here about eight months ago, everyone was so happy to have us back, even to have me back. I was happy too, I never thought I would miss this place but I did, badly. I'm just glad we're home again!
"Sora!?" Selphie and Tidus' worried voices calls my attention and I look up to them to set what's going on.
Sora is standing, stiff as a board, on the sand. His hands balled into fists. He's staring off into space and seems to be there as well. What has happened?
I decide to go over to them and stand up. I make my way over the bridge when suddenly Sora collapses to the ground. This gets my legs going and I jump off the bridge and run up to my fallen friend.
"Get out of my way! Sora!?" I order as I rush up to him and kneel beside him. I lift him into my arms and turn to Wakka, who's staring at me angrily. Don't mind my tone now!
"Get a boat ready, we need to get him home!" I tell him and he nods before rushing off. I walk slowly after, casting Cureaga just in case he's injured... I sure hope not.
"Sora!!? What has happened to him, Riku!?" Kairi's shrill voice cry out behind me, I half turn to her and look her in the eyes as she hurry up to me and place a hand on Sora's head. She looks at me with tears in her blue eyes and... accusation!? What the... does she think this is my fault?!
"I don't know! Ask Selphie and the others, /they/ were the ones fighting with him!" I answer a bit too coldly. She flinches back about a step and a half and look at me with a hurt expression, it's soon replaced with a pout, though and she turn away angrily. I mean seriously, sometimes I could swear that Sora and Kairi were brother and sister.
With a sigh I hurry after Wakka, with Sora pressed tightly to my chest. He's really pale and warm... he's burning up! I reach the small 'harbour' where we have our boats, and as the true friend Wakka is, he has prepared one of the bigger boats for me and Sora.
I gently place my unconscious friend in it and jump in as well, I turn to Wakka, who's regarding me rather coldly, and give him a smile and a nod as thanks. He merely wave me to go, to hurry, which I do.
I set out and start paddling towards the larger island where our town is located, when Sora give out this blood-chilling cry and sit up in the boat, making it rock dangerously, he turn to me wide eyed and hyperventilating. He reach out a shaking hand towards me and opened his mouth, forming words, but nothing come out.
"Sora! What are you saying! I can't hear you!" I tell him, panic sounding in my voice, I know. He close his eyes hard and press the same hand he had reached out to me, to his chest, over his heart. He's looking pitiful this way...
"...darkness... my heart... Ri... ku..." he press forth with seemingly much effort, this is freaking me out. What's wrong with my best friend?!
"In... me... Riku... Dark... ness..." he gasp out and fall on top of me. He passed out again!? "Sora!" I cry, as he begins to shake violently, scaring the hell out of me. I need to get him home!
I start to paddle again and harder this time. Soon we reach the shore of the big island. I pick up the still shaking Sora and hurry up the street to his house.
I press Sora securely to me as I knock on the door to his house while calling his mother, please, oh please let her be home.
"Mrs Yuy!! Please let me in, it's Sora, he's..." I call as I bang harder against the door, no one is answering... Damn it!!
I've been banging on this damn door for an eternity now and no one's answering... what to do..? My house. Yes that's it! I turn away from the offending evil door and run down the steps leading to Sora's door and run further up the street, I turn left at the intersection and reach my house. I run up the two sets of steps, the first one leading up to the small garden just below the porch and the other to the door itself.
I kick at the door violently as i can feel tears start to gather in my eyes. Isn't there anyone home? "Mom, open the door!!" I call and soon I hear someone come to the door, it fly open to reveal my mother with a confused, sad expression on her face. Oh, Sora.
"Mom, Sora, he collapsed and no one's home at his place. I've gotta help him!" she watch me confused then it seems to dawn on her and she moves out of the way to permit entrance. I kick my shoes off and hear mom close the door behind me. She hurries past me into the living room with a, "Bring him with you!" and then she disappears behind the wall.
I do as I'm told and take the now calm but still unconscious Sora into the living-room. Mom's by the couch preparing a pillow and a blanket to tuck around Sora. Gently I place him on the couch and mom place the blanket over him and leave the room.
I sit down on the floor next to the couch and take Sora's hand in my right and look at him, he looks so innocent and calm, almost as if he's sleeping... "My Sora, my dearest friend..." I whisper as I stroke away some of his milk-chocolate hair from his face.
Mom comes back with a thermometer to take Sora's temperature with. She smiles at me, a reassuring smile, and put the thing on the table.
"I'm sure he's fine, Riku-chan. He's a strong boy. It's probably just exhaustion..." I couldn't help but to hear the doubt in my mother's voice, and that brought chills to me. What about what he said to me in the boat? '...darkness... my heart... Ri... ku... in... me... Riku... dark... ness...' was he trying to tell me that darkness was in his heart... or trying to get to his heart? Was that it?
"Sora..." I whisper and my mother gives me a knowing look, does she know how I feel for him?
"I'll make some tea, want some, Riku-chan?" she say absently and I nod so she'll leave, and so she does. I turn my gaze back to Sora and look at him, his eyes are closed, there's a small frown on his face, otherwise he seems fine. So... pure... beautiful. Sure I heard that I was supposed to be the Keyblade Master, but that the Keyblade chose Sora instead because of the darkness in my heart, but I actually think that Sora were the right choice. I would never be able to do it. I am the one carrying the Key to unlock peoples Hearts, the selfish Keyblade... /I/ am the selfish Keybearer...
"Riku..?" I hear Sora whisper suddenly and I stare back up at him. My eyes having wandered off. He looks at me with a weak smile on his face. God he's so cute! (a/n: I REALLLY do think Sora's so KAWAII! ^^;; and Riku's the sexiest O.O;;)
"I'm here Sora!" I say and rise to my knees, taking his hand in both of mine, squeezing lightly. I'm so happy he's awake again.
"Where am I?" he ask and look around in confusement... Now that I think of it... He hasn't been to my house since before the Kingdom Hearts thing, and my mom's been re-decorating since then.
"You're at my place... there were no one home at your house so I took you home to me... Okay with you..?" he nod and smile at me, it looks so sweet I could die, his eyes are sad though, and I can feel it hurt my heart.
"Sankyuu, Riku... why am I feeling so weird?" Wha... what..? you can't remember!? I know I must be looking dumbfounded right now...
"Wha..?" I manage to squeak out, my eyes blinking rapidly. Sora's only regarding me with wonder.
"What happened, I remember fighting with Selphie, Wakka and Tidus and then it became black... And then I woke up here..." he gives me a long stare before he lay back and continues looking at me.
"I don't know... You just, kinda, collapsed on the sand, it was really creepy! Don't ever do that again! I cry and my angry tears fall, silently. I can't stop them... He place his hand on his stomach and look at it. Please look at me! I want you to look at me!
"Riku..." he say suddenly, his faint smile gone. "I'm not well... I haven't been well for a while..." I stare at him dumbfounded. That... What does he mean? Is he ill or something?
"Sora..?" I hear myself squeak out, I'm sounding so... so weird... He turn to me and grab my hand, gently rising it to his chest above his heart. He can't mean..!?
"When I found you... nine months ago I gave something up for you... I made a bargain with the darkness in your heart to release you. In exchange for my own... I've got a strong heart so I've been able to keep it locked away and from letting you guys know." He say calmly, I feel my body freeze, my mind is so... confused.
Sora did that for me!? But why would he after all I've done to him and Kairi and everyone else too... why!? Is it taking him over, conquering over the light in his heart? Destroying my Sora!?
"It's my fault... It's all my..." I can't finish my sentence because he clasp his hand over my mouth, silencing me.
"No! I chose it myself, you are not to blame. It's just that... it's getting harder to keep it in line... to keep it from spreading. I gave it up, my light, because I didn't want to loose you... Riku my dearest friend." He say and smile. God, do you know how much I love you, how much you mean to me? Sora, I... I love you... so much.
"Sora... how can I help you..?" I know it's a crazy thing to say but I want to help him, /I/ were suppose to wield the Keyblade after all, so /I/ ought to be able to help Sora. I am strong enough, and this time I just know that I have a strong heart!
"I... I don't know... why Riku... why do you wish to help me?" why!? Because you helped me, baka! And... because I owe y'all.
"Because... I owe it to you." I say and give him a smile, I will save you!
"Thank you Riku... I love... you..."
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*Blink blink*
What..?! you... wha... what?!
"Huh?" but he doesn't answer as he's unconscious again. My Sora... loves me... I can't help but to hope it's /that/ way. It has to be!
I sit back up and watch him, I pick up the thermometer that mom brought earlier and place it carefully in Sora's mouth. I let it be there until it biped, so I reach out my hand and looks at it.
'40.2 degrees Celsius', damn he's burning up!! He really has a dangerous fever, I take the object with me and rush out into the kitchen and up to my mom, tears in my eyes again, but I don't care, what if Sora dies!?
"Mom look!" I hand her the thermometer, she takes it and look at it a long time, I can see her face grow paler. Suddenly she throws the thing on the counter and rushes over to the phone. She dials so quick I can't see the number.
"Yes hello, Dr Yoshikai? Yes it's Mrs Sares, I have Sora Yuy here and he's having a bad, mean really bad, fever. Do you mind coming over?... Yes... Yes... Oh thank you, I'll see you." She hangs up the phone and turn to me, I've never seen that kind of expression on her face before in my life. She's pale and dark around the eyes, as if she's been crying, what has happened..? I know she looked like this earlier but...
"Riku, come here..." No 'chan'? Okay something serious has happened... But what?
"Mom..?" I move to her, hesitantly, and take a seat by our dinner table. She takes the one opposite me and reach out her hand and take mine.
"There has happened something... Sora-kun's mother, Sara, she... she's died... she was in an accident. A... and she was killed... that's why there where no one home at Sora-kun's place. He has no one to go home to anymore... He's going to live here from today... But this, he's ill... And these news might upset him..." I stop listening there. Oh god, Sora. How can this be happening to him? I mean, Sora's never had a dad, as he died when Sora wasn't even born and now... Why? How will Sora take this, why is this. Why now!?
SORA!!
T-B-C
He hehehe... I'm evil... Poor Sora. Will Riku be able to help him, and how? R&R and tell me what you think, Next chapter up in a bit ^^V.
~/BlueRaven\~
Chapter One
By BlueRaven
Rating PG-13
Pairing: Riku X Sora
WARNING: may have violence in later chapters. SHOUNEN-AI/YAOI story, (SLASH, for all ye dummies out there) don't like, don't read.
Disclaimer: I don't own Kingdom Hearts, lucky Squaresoft (soon to be Enix Square) and Disney does. Wish I worked there...
A/n: O_o and that if you don't like the YAOI theme of this story then bug off, FLAMES are stupid and shows lack of intelligence, so there! Constructive Criticisms are always welcomed, as well as other reviews. Thank you! /BlueRaven.
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have you ever wondered how something like friendship can turn into something more? I have... because my feelings for Sora, my best friend in the whole world, has taken that turn.
I am desperate for him, his childish innocence teasing me into bad thoughts. And that's scaring me. What if I would ever hurt him... again? I'm sure I hurt him bad when I was on 'the bad-guy's' side. I did that for Kairi... and for him... I think. I'm not sure, Ansem hurt me pretty bad, screwed with my mind and things like that. But that's beside the point, what I mean is that I'm afraid /I/ might try something... Like rape. Yes, I distrust myself that bad.
I'm sitting on my Island, well everyone says it's my Island as I hang out so much by the Paopu Fruit Tree, and I'm watching Sora having a go against Tidus, Wakka and Selphie. He's not doing so bad... But hey, he's beaten Ansem, why would he have a problem against them? Really, I need to start realising he's a big boy now. And stronger then me... both mentally and, perhaps, physically. I really don't know since we haven't play-fought since before the whole Kingdom Hearts incidence. I guess neither of us are feeling comfortable fighting eachother anymore.
That whole episode of our lives is two years back now... we both came back here about eight months ago, everyone was so happy to have us back, even to have me back. I was happy too, I never thought I would miss this place but I did, badly. I'm just glad we're home again!
"Sora!?" Selphie and Tidus' worried voices calls my attention and I look up to them to set what's going on.
Sora is standing, stiff as a board, on the sand. His hands balled into fists. He's staring off into space and seems to be there as well. What has happened?
I decide to go over to them and stand up. I make my way over the bridge when suddenly Sora collapses to the ground. This gets my legs going and I jump off the bridge and run up to my fallen friend.
"Get out of my way! Sora!?" I order as I rush up to him and kneel beside him. I lift him into my arms and turn to Wakka, who's staring at me angrily. Don't mind my tone now!
"Get a boat ready, we need to get him home!" I tell him and he nods before rushing off. I walk slowly after, casting Cureaga just in case he's injured... I sure hope not.
"Sora!!? What has happened to him, Riku!?" Kairi's shrill voice cry out behind me, I half turn to her and look her in the eyes as she hurry up to me and place a hand on Sora's head. She looks at me with tears in her blue eyes and... accusation!? What the... does she think this is my fault?!
"I don't know! Ask Selphie and the others, /they/ were the ones fighting with him!" I answer a bit too coldly. She flinches back about a step and a half and look at me with a hurt expression, it's soon replaced with a pout, though and she turn away angrily. I mean seriously, sometimes I could swear that Sora and Kairi were brother and sister.
With a sigh I hurry after Wakka, with Sora pressed tightly to my chest. He's really pale and warm... he's burning up! I reach the small 'harbour' where we have our boats, and as the true friend Wakka is, he has prepared one of the bigger boats for me and Sora.
I gently place my unconscious friend in it and jump in as well, I turn to Wakka, who's regarding me rather coldly, and give him a smile and a nod as thanks. He merely wave me to go, to hurry, which I do.
I set out and start paddling towards the larger island where our town is located, when Sora give out this blood-chilling cry and sit up in the boat, making it rock dangerously, he turn to me wide eyed and hyperventilating. He reach out a shaking hand towards me and opened his mouth, forming words, but nothing come out.
"Sora! What are you saying! I can't hear you!" I tell him, panic sounding in my voice, I know. He close his eyes hard and press the same hand he had reached out to me, to his chest, over his heart. He's looking pitiful this way...
"...darkness... my heart... Ri... ku..." he press forth with seemingly much effort, this is freaking me out. What's wrong with my best friend?!
"In... me... Riku... Dark... ness..." he gasp out and fall on top of me. He passed out again!? "Sora!" I cry, as he begins to shake violently, scaring the hell out of me. I need to get him home!
I start to paddle again and harder this time. Soon we reach the shore of the big island. I pick up the still shaking Sora and hurry up the street to his house.
I press Sora securely to me as I knock on the door to his house while calling his mother, please, oh please let her be home.
"Mrs Yuy!! Please let me in, it's Sora, he's..." I call as I bang harder against the door, no one is answering... Damn it!!
I've been banging on this damn door for an eternity now and no one's answering... what to do..? My house. Yes that's it! I turn away from the offending evil door and run down the steps leading to Sora's door and run further up the street, I turn left at the intersection and reach my house. I run up the two sets of steps, the first one leading up to the small garden just below the porch and the other to the door itself.
I kick at the door violently as i can feel tears start to gather in my eyes. Isn't there anyone home? "Mom, open the door!!" I call and soon I hear someone come to the door, it fly open to reveal my mother with a confused, sad expression on her face. Oh, Sora.
"Mom, Sora, he collapsed and no one's home at his place. I've gotta help him!" she watch me confused then it seems to dawn on her and she moves out of the way to permit entrance. I kick my shoes off and hear mom close the door behind me. She hurries past me into the living room with a, "Bring him with you!" and then she disappears behind the wall.
I do as I'm told and take the now calm but still unconscious Sora into the living-room. Mom's by the couch preparing a pillow and a blanket to tuck around Sora. Gently I place him on the couch and mom place the blanket over him and leave the room.
I sit down on the floor next to the couch and take Sora's hand in my right and look at him, he looks so innocent and calm, almost as if he's sleeping... "My Sora, my dearest friend..." I whisper as I stroke away some of his milk-chocolate hair from his face.
Mom comes back with a thermometer to take Sora's temperature with. She smiles at me, a reassuring smile, and put the thing on the table.
"I'm sure he's fine, Riku-chan. He's a strong boy. It's probably just exhaustion..." I couldn't help but to hear the doubt in my mother's voice, and that brought chills to me. What about what he said to me in the boat? '...darkness... my heart... Ri... ku... in... me... Riku... dark... ness...' was he trying to tell me that darkness was in his heart... or trying to get to his heart? Was that it?
"Sora..." I whisper and my mother gives me a knowing look, does she know how I feel for him?
"I'll make some tea, want some, Riku-chan?" she say absently and I nod so she'll leave, and so she does. I turn my gaze back to Sora and look at him, his eyes are closed, there's a small frown on his face, otherwise he seems fine. So... pure... beautiful. Sure I heard that I was supposed to be the Keyblade Master, but that the Keyblade chose Sora instead because of the darkness in my heart, but I actually think that Sora were the right choice. I would never be able to do it. I am the one carrying the Key to unlock peoples Hearts, the selfish Keyblade... /I/ am the selfish Keybearer...
"Riku..?" I hear Sora whisper suddenly and I stare back up at him. My eyes having wandered off. He looks at me with a weak smile on his face. God he's so cute! (a/n: I REALLLY do think Sora's so KAWAII! ^^;; and Riku's the sexiest O.O;;)
"I'm here Sora!" I say and rise to my knees, taking his hand in both of mine, squeezing lightly. I'm so happy he's awake again.
"Where am I?" he ask and look around in confusement... Now that I think of it... He hasn't been to my house since before the Kingdom Hearts thing, and my mom's been re-decorating since then.
"You're at my place... there were no one home at your house so I took you home to me... Okay with you..?" he nod and smile at me, it looks so sweet I could die, his eyes are sad though, and I can feel it hurt my heart.
"Sankyuu, Riku... why am I feeling so weird?" Wha... what..? you can't remember!? I know I must be looking dumbfounded right now...
"Wha..?" I manage to squeak out, my eyes blinking rapidly. Sora's only regarding me with wonder.
"What happened, I remember fighting with Selphie, Wakka and Tidus and then it became black... And then I woke up here..." he gives me a long stare before he lay back and continues looking at me.
"I don't know... You just, kinda, collapsed on the sand, it was really creepy! Don't ever do that again! I cry and my angry tears fall, silently. I can't stop them... He place his hand on his stomach and look at it. Please look at me! I want you to look at me!
"Riku..." he say suddenly, his faint smile gone. "I'm not well... I haven't been well for a while..." I stare at him dumbfounded. That... What does he mean? Is he ill or something?
"Sora..?" I hear myself squeak out, I'm sounding so... so weird... He turn to me and grab my hand, gently rising it to his chest above his heart. He can't mean..!?
"When I found you... nine months ago I gave something up for you... I made a bargain with the darkness in your heart to release you. In exchange for my own... I've got a strong heart so I've been able to keep it locked away and from letting you guys know." He say calmly, I feel my body freeze, my mind is so... confused.
Sora did that for me!? But why would he after all I've done to him and Kairi and everyone else too... why!? Is it taking him over, conquering over the light in his heart? Destroying my Sora!?
"It's my fault... It's all my..." I can't finish my sentence because he clasp his hand over my mouth, silencing me.
"No! I chose it myself, you are not to blame. It's just that... it's getting harder to keep it in line... to keep it from spreading. I gave it up, my light, because I didn't want to loose you... Riku my dearest friend." He say and smile. God, do you know how much I love you, how much you mean to me? Sora, I... I love you... so much.
"Sora... how can I help you..?" I know it's a crazy thing to say but I want to help him, /I/ were suppose to wield the Keyblade after all, so /I/ ought to be able to help Sora. I am strong enough, and this time I just know that I have a strong heart!
"I... I don't know... why Riku... why do you wish to help me?" why!? Because you helped me, baka! And... because I owe y'all.
"Because... I owe it to you." I say and give him a smile, I will save you!
"Thank you Riku... I love... you..."
....
*Blink blink*
What..?! you... wha... what?!
"Huh?" but he doesn't answer as he's unconscious again. My Sora... loves me... I can't help but to hope it's /that/ way. It has to be!
I sit back up and watch him, I pick up the thermometer that mom brought earlier and place it carefully in Sora's mouth. I let it be there until it biped, so I reach out my hand and looks at it.
'40.2 degrees Celsius', damn he's burning up!! He really has a dangerous fever, I take the object with me and rush out into the kitchen and up to my mom, tears in my eyes again, but I don't care, what if Sora dies!?
"Mom look!" I hand her the thermometer, she takes it and look at it a long time, I can see her face grow paler. Suddenly she throws the thing on the counter and rushes over to the phone. She dials so quick I can't see the number.
"Yes hello, Dr Yoshikai? Yes it's Mrs Sares, I have Sora Yuy here and he's having a bad, mean really bad, fever. Do you mind coming over?... Yes... Yes... Oh thank you, I'll see you." She hangs up the phone and turn to me, I've never seen that kind of expression on her face before in my life. She's pale and dark around the eyes, as if she's been crying, what has happened..? I know she looked like this earlier but...
"Riku, come here..." No 'chan'? Okay something serious has happened... But what?
"Mom..?" I move to her, hesitantly, and take a seat by our dinner table. She takes the one opposite me and reach out her hand and take mine.
"There has happened something... Sora-kun's mother, Sara, she... she's died... she was in an accident. A... and she was killed... that's why there where no one home at Sora-kun's place. He has no one to go home to anymore... He's going to live here from today... But this, he's ill... And these news might upset him..." I stop listening there. Oh god, Sora. How can this be happening to him? I mean, Sora's never had a dad, as he died when Sora wasn't even born and now... Why? How will Sora take this, why is this. Why now!?
SORA!!
T-B-C
He hehehe... I'm evil... Poor Sora. Will Riku be able to help him, and how? R&R and tell me what you think, Next chapter up in a bit ^^V.
~/BlueRaven\~