Summary/Disclaimer: See Prologue
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Chapter 10
The next week continued to be eventful for Buffy. After the drama of telling Spike she loved him and the subsequent emotional breakdown, their relationship was happier than it had ever been when she was sleeping with him. They hadn't made love yet, they both knew she wasn't ready for that and Spike had told her that he wouldn't push the issue until she was ready. That didn't mean they hadn't kissed, in fact they spent most of their time making out, much to the horror of a shocked and appalled Xander. Buffy realised that a major factor as to why her new relationship with Spike felt so right was they she hadn't tried to hide it from everyone.
Dawn of course had already known, being crucial in getting the couple together after the first night. She was thrilled, not only was Buffy looking happier than she had not just since the attack, but probably since before their mother had taken ill. Not only was she happy for her sister but she was ecstatic for Spike. She had watched him suffer so much in the last year, torture at the hands of Glory, having to bury the woman he loved, and then the emotional pain of what Buffy had put him through. That was the only part Dawn had a problem with. After the initial hugging and congratulating, Buffy had sat Dawn down and explained everything that had happened since she was brought back to life. Dawn had been unable to look at Buffy as her sister explained that the wounds on Spike's face on her birthday had in fact been caused by her hands, and how she had used Spike and pushed him aside when her feelings became too complicated. After Buffy had finished talking, Dawn had stood up and walked out of the house, unable to trust herself not to loose control with her sister. It had taken a conversation with Spike and six hours before she calmed down enough to even look at Buffy. Dawn had eventually decided that while she was now happy for Buffy and Spike and their new relationship, she was along way from forgiving Buffy for her past deeds.
The Scoobies had been informed of Buffy and Spike's relationship with Buffy adding "accept it or you won't be part of my life." It had been pointed out to her just how much they controlled her life by Spike's sarcastic comment on how her life was run by committee and his enquiring how he could become a member and get a vote. Instead of just telling him to shut up she had sat down and thought about what he said. She realised she wasn't in control of her own life and things had to change. She was sick of trying to live according to how her friends wanted her to. Of course, after her ultimatum her friends had accepted her choice without protest.
One of the main highlights of the week for Buffy was that she had been fitted with a prosthetic leg. At the moment she could just about stand on her own and could walk a few steps with the aid of someone. She realised her mobility was still far from what she had before the attack but it gave her a sliver of hope that things could get better.
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Spike thought about the woman lying in his arms. They had shared a bed ever since her declaration of love, of course all that had happened in it was sleeping but that wasn't the point.
Spike knew that she was happy. Their new relationship, her taking control of her life and her new prosthetic limb had all combined to lessen the depression she felt after the attack. But he knew that something else was bothering her. He had a fair idea what it was, but he wanted to hear it from her in case he was wrong, plus he thought that admitting it would do her good.
"Buffy luv?" at his words Buffy looked up at him and gave him a smile that was becoming more frequent as the days wore on. She swathe serious look on Spike's face and was curious.
"Spike? What is it?"
"Pet, I want to ask you something, and I want you to be honest with me. What's wrong? Ever since the attack something's been bothering you. And it's not the fact that you have been.injured. Not exactly anyway."
"You're right. At first it was because I thought I would be in that damn chair for the rest of my life. But I'm starting to learn to walk again, soon I won't need the chair at all. The demon took something from me that night Spike, and I don't mean just my leg. It's taken away the Slayer.
"I used to dream about not being the Slayer, not having to go out and kill monsters. But now that it's gone I realise that it was a big part of who I am. Without it I feel.incomplete."
Spike wrapped his arms around the woman he loved as she broke down and cried onto his chest.
TBC
AN: So sorry for the delay! My comp completely broke and I had to buy a new one! If you are following 'Flee' then you will b glad t know a new chap for that will be out tomorrow!
Review me!
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Chapter 10
The next week continued to be eventful for Buffy. After the drama of telling Spike she loved him and the subsequent emotional breakdown, their relationship was happier than it had ever been when she was sleeping with him. They hadn't made love yet, they both knew she wasn't ready for that and Spike had told her that he wouldn't push the issue until she was ready. That didn't mean they hadn't kissed, in fact they spent most of their time making out, much to the horror of a shocked and appalled Xander. Buffy realised that a major factor as to why her new relationship with Spike felt so right was they she hadn't tried to hide it from everyone.
Dawn of course had already known, being crucial in getting the couple together after the first night. She was thrilled, not only was Buffy looking happier than she had not just since the attack, but probably since before their mother had taken ill. Not only was she happy for her sister but she was ecstatic for Spike. She had watched him suffer so much in the last year, torture at the hands of Glory, having to bury the woman he loved, and then the emotional pain of what Buffy had put him through. That was the only part Dawn had a problem with. After the initial hugging and congratulating, Buffy had sat Dawn down and explained everything that had happened since she was brought back to life. Dawn had been unable to look at Buffy as her sister explained that the wounds on Spike's face on her birthday had in fact been caused by her hands, and how she had used Spike and pushed him aside when her feelings became too complicated. After Buffy had finished talking, Dawn had stood up and walked out of the house, unable to trust herself not to loose control with her sister. It had taken a conversation with Spike and six hours before she calmed down enough to even look at Buffy. Dawn had eventually decided that while she was now happy for Buffy and Spike and their new relationship, she was along way from forgiving Buffy for her past deeds.
The Scoobies had been informed of Buffy and Spike's relationship with Buffy adding "accept it or you won't be part of my life." It had been pointed out to her just how much they controlled her life by Spike's sarcastic comment on how her life was run by committee and his enquiring how he could become a member and get a vote. Instead of just telling him to shut up she had sat down and thought about what he said. She realised she wasn't in control of her own life and things had to change. She was sick of trying to live according to how her friends wanted her to. Of course, after her ultimatum her friends had accepted her choice without protest.
One of the main highlights of the week for Buffy was that she had been fitted with a prosthetic leg. At the moment she could just about stand on her own and could walk a few steps with the aid of someone. She realised her mobility was still far from what she had before the attack but it gave her a sliver of hope that things could get better.
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Spike thought about the woman lying in his arms. They had shared a bed ever since her declaration of love, of course all that had happened in it was sleeping but that wasn't the point.
Spike knew that she was happy. Their new relationship, her taking control of her life and her new prosthetic limb had all combined to lessen the depression she felt after the attack. But he knew that something else was bothering her. He had a fair idea what it was, but he wanted to hear it from her in case he was wrong, plus he thought that admitting it would do her good.
"Buffy luv?" at his words Buffy looked up at him and gave him a smile that was becoming more frequent as the days wore on. She swathe serious look on Spike's face and was curious.
"Spike? What is it?"
"Pet, I want to ask you something, and I want you to be honest with me. What's wrong? Ever since the attack something's been bothering you. And it's not the fact that you have been.injured. Not exactly anyway."
"You're right. At first it was because I thought I would be in that damn chair for the rest of my life. But I'm starting to learn to walk again, soon I won't need the chair at all. The demon took something from me that night Spike, and I don't mean just my leg. It's taken away the Slayer.
"I used to dream about not being the Slayer, not having to go out and kill monsters. But now that it's gone I realise that it was a big part of who I am. Without it I feel.incomplete."
Spike wrapped his arms around the woman he loved as she broke down and cried onto his chest.
TBC
AN: So sorry for the delay! My comp completely broke and I had to buy a new one! If you are following 'Flee' then you will b glad t know a new chap for that will be out tomorrow!
Review me!