A/N: Don't own a single thing!! Thanks to all the wonderful reviews!
It's done! Completed! This is it, the end, the last chapter! This chapter is to a song called "Why" by Avril Lavigne.
Chapter 15: Why (The End)
Lizzie had only talked to Gordo once since the little blackout incident. She thought long and hard about her final decision.
She loved Ethan, she was sure of it but that moment with Gordo made her doubt her feelings for a quick second. Maybe she wasn't truly in love if she doubted her feelings once in a while.
She got entered the high school and looked for him. He seemed impossible to find through the crowds. She found him and stared for a while.
He had noticed her looking at him blankly and approached her.
"What?" he asked her.
Lizzie looked at her shoes, "can we talk?"
He did the opposite, staring up at the ceiling, "fine." He wasn't sure he really wanted to talk to her, after what she'd done and all.
*~*"Why. Do you always do this to me? Why. couldn't you just see right through me? How come. You act like this? Like you just don't care at all."*~*
"I." she stammered, "I.."
He looked at her oddly. He ignored her for a second he didn't want to hear her petty apologizes. They couldn't mend what had been broken.
She moved closer to him and looked into his eyes, "I.. Love you.."
*~*"I can feel I can feel you near me you near me, Even though you're far away I can feel I can feel you baby, why."*~*
He looked back at her into her eyes. They shimmered even in the florescent light. He didn't want to forgive her, it hurt, but even through what all he thought, deep down he knew that he loved her.
*~*"It's not supposed to feel this way, I need you I need you, More and more each day, It's not supposed to hurt this way, I need you I need you I need you, Why."*~*
She knew he was thinking. Even though he wasn't one to really think that hard about things. She blinked as he kept thinking. Her mind swirled with thoughts.
*~* "Are you and me still together? Tell me, Do you think that we could last forever? Tell me, Why."*~*
He wasn't sure how he could reply to what she just said to him. He couldn't figure it out. She had put him through hell. Now he had the chance to get his one and only back but for some reason it didn't seem as appealing. What he had thought about over the past few days, how much he loved her was now just lost in a hazy fog.
*~*"Hey, listen to what we're not saying, Let's play a different game then what we're playing, Try. to look at me and really see my heart, Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart?"*~*
Lizzie bit her lip. He opened his mouth to say something, "I know, I love you too."
She sighed a sign a sign of relief. But then frowned when he said, "but."
She knew that but. Nothing good was going to come from that but.
He moved farther away from her and turned away, preparing for what he was about to say.
*~* "I can feel I can feel you near me, Even when you're far away, I can feel I can feel you baby Why."*~*
He brushed his hands through hair, "Lizzie, do you have any idea of what sort of hell you've put me through?"
Lizzie wrung her hands, "I don't really know."
"Well", he said sounding hurt and angry, "you should."
*~* "It's not supposed to feel this way, I need you I need you, More and more each day, It's not supposed to hurt this way, I need I need you I need you Why.."*~*
"Lizzie", he continued, "I love you, yes but I mean you kiss another guy, hate me, put me through emotional hell and you think that once you've finally decided your true feelings that I can just come back to you!"
Lizzie gulped, "I'm sorry."
"Sorry isn't enough!" he yelled. He looked at the hurt expression on her face, like a child after being yelled at. He felt sorry in the pit of his stomach but he wanted her to know what it was like to love someone you can't have.
Lizzie brushed her fingers through her blonde bangs, "Does this mean we're. Over?"
*~*"Are you and me still together? Tell me, Do you think we could last forever? Tell me, Why."*~*
He looked at her, dreading the words he was about to say, but they had to be said.
"Yes, Lizzie we're over."
Lizzie wanted to break down.
"Are you okay?" he asked.
"I just need to think about what was just said", she said wanting to hide or run but couldn't because she seemed glued to that spot on the floor.
* ~ *"So go on and think about whatever you need to think about, "Go on and dream about whatever you need to dream about, "And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel."*~*
"I'm sorry", he said, "it's just something that I have to do."
"And what's that exactly?" Lizzie shot back at him, "breaking my heart?"
He turned to Lizzie, "you don't understand", he muttered.
*~*"I can feel, I can feel you near me, Even though you're far away I can feel, I can feel you baby Why...
It's not supposed to hurt this way, I need you I need you More and more each day It's not supposed to hurt this way, I need you, I need you, I need you Tell me"*~*
Lizzie stood there frozen. "Ethan!" she called out to him.
Ethan turned to see his poor little Lizzie distraught by his words.
"What do you mean, I can't understand?" she asked.
She needed to know. She loved him. She had even broken the news to Gordo before. He took it surprisingly well but Ethan just looked at her.
"Bye", he said coolly.
*~*"It's not supposed to hurt this way, I need you I need you More and more each day It's not supposed to hurt this way, I need you, I need you, I need you Tell me"*~*
She grabbed him by the hand so that he couldn't leave, "Tell me why I can't understand."
*~*"Are you and me still together? Tell me Do you think we could last forever? Tell me"*~*
He looked at her. He knew that this would be the last time they would ever have be like this if just ended it now.
"As I said", he looked away, "you've toyed with me and Gordon's emotions long enough.."
She looked at him blankly. "I hope you know that I truly did love you."
Lizzie could bring herself to cry. Not anymore. There was no use. Nothing made sense. She had lost it all. All this was a waste of her time. She just pushed open the door of the school and out into the clear, spring day.
She sat on a bench and thought about what she lost, what she was unable to gain back.
She thought about her meeting she had earlier with Gordo. It was then when she remember how they were the best friends and not to let that happen to her anymore.
*~*"Why."*~*
So in the end neither Gordo nor Ethan ended up being her "soulmate". That was a quest she'd still have to venture on to find out.
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THE END
A/N: Thanks to anyone at all who reviewed this story, especially keeponwritin and Angelic Demon16 (you reviewed the most, thanks!). Basically if you reviewed my story at all, I thank you. If you're wondering why I didn't pair Lizzie up with Ethan or Gordo, there's a simple explanation for that.
At first I though maybe Gordo and then I got tired of L/G's so then I thought maybe Ethan. Then it came to the point where I wasn't sure so I thought it'd be better to leave it this way. I like the ending though, hope you did too.
The reason I ended it was because this story was becoming more and more of a hassle. I have two other stories, "I Left My Heart In Boston" and "Signed, More Then Just Good Hair" and this one was just getting in the way. Besides I hate it when stories just go on and on so I thought fifteen chapters was a good limit.
Again, thanks to all, and happy writing!
Peace 'n Luv,
*~*Miss Angel*~*
It's done! Completed! This is it, the end, the last chapter! This chapter is to a song called "Why" by Avril Lavigne.
Chapter 15: Why (The End)
Lizzie had only talked to Gordo once since the little blackout incident. She thought long and hard about her final decision.
She loved Ethan, she was sure of it but that moment with Gordo made her doubt her feelings for a quick second. Maybe she wasn't truly in love if she doubted her feelings once in a while.
She got entered the high school and looked for him. He seemed impossible to find through the crowds. She found him and stared for a while.
He had noticed her looking at him blankly and approached her.
"What?" he asked her.
Lizzie looked at her shoes, "can we talk?"
He did the opposite, staring up at the ceiling, "fine." He wasn't sure he really wanted to talk to her, after what she'd done and all.
*~*"Why. Do you always do this to me? Why. couldn't you just see right through me? How come. You act like this? Like you just don't care at all."*~*
"I." she stammered, "I.."
He looked at her oddly. He ignored her for a second he didn't want to hear her petty apologizes. They couldn't mend what had been broken.
She moved closer to him and looked into his eyes, "I.. Love you.."
*~*"I can feel I can feel you near me you near me, Even though you're far away I can feel I can feel you baby, why."*~*
He looked back at her into her eyes. They shimmered even in the florescent light. He didn't want to forgive her, it hurt, but even through what all he thought, deep down he knew that he loved her.
*~*"It's not supposed to feel this way, I need you I need you, More and more each day, It's not supposed to hurt this way, I need you I need you I need you, Why."*~*
She knew he was thinking. Even though he wasn't one to really think that hard about things. She blinked as he kept thinking. Her mind swirled with thoughts.
*~* "Are you and me still together? Tell me, Do you think that we could last forever? Tell me, Why."*~*
He wasn't sure how he could reply to what she just said to him. He couldn't figure it out. She had put him through hell. Now he had the chance to get his one and only back but for some reason it didn't seem as appealing. What he had thought about over the past few days, how much he loved her was now just lost in a hazy fog.
*~*"Hey, listen to what we're not saying, Let's play a different game then what we're playing, Try. to look at me and really see my heart, Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart?"*~*
Lizzie bit her lip. He opened his mouth to say something, "I know, I love you too."
She sighed a sign a sign of relief. But then frowned when he said, "but."
She knew that but. Nothing good was going to come from that but.
He moved farther away from her and turned away, preparing for what he was about to say.
*~* "I can feel I can feel you near me, Even when you're far away, I can feel I can feel you baby Why."*~*
He brushed his hands through hair, "Lizzie, do you have any idea of what sort of hell you've put me through?"
Lizzie wrung her hands, "I don't really know."
"Well", he said sounding hurt and angry, "you should."
*~* "It's not supposed to feel this way, I need you I need you, More and more each day, It's not supposed to hurt this way, I need I need you I need you Why.."*~*
"Lizzie", he continued, "I love you, yes but I mean you kiss another guy, hate me, put me through emotional hell and you think that once you've finally decided your true feelings that I can just come back to you!"
Lizzie gulped, "I'm sorry."
"Sorry isn't enough!" he yelled. He looked at the hurt expression on her face, like a child after being yelled at. He felt sorry in the pit of his stomach but he wanted her to know what it was like to love someone you can't have.
Lizzie brushed her fingers through her blonde bangs, "Does this mean we're. Over?"
*~*"Are you and me still together? Tell me, Do you think we could last forever? Tell me, Why."*~*
He looked at her, dreading the words he was about to say, but they had to be said.
"Yes, Lizzie we're over."
Lizzie wanted to break down.
"Are you okay?" he asked.
"I just need to think about what was just said", she said wanting to hide or run but couldn't because she seemed glued to that spot on the floor.
* ~ *"So go on and think about whatever you need to think about, "Go on and dream about whatever you need to dream about, "And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel."*~*
"I'm sorry", he said, "it's just something that I have to do."
"And what's that exactly?" Lizzie shot back at him, "breaking my heart?"
He turned to Lizzie, "you don't understand", he muttered.
*~*"I can feel, I can feel you near me, Even though you're far away I can feel, I can feel you baby Why...
It's not supposed to hurt this way, I need you I need you More and more each day It's not supposed to hurt this way, I need you, I need you, I need you Tell me"*~*
Lizzie stood there frozen. "Ethan!" she called out to him.
Ethan turned to see his poor little Lizzie distraught by his words.
"What do you mean, I can't understand?" she asked.
She needed to know. She loved him. She had even broken the news to Gordo before. He took it surprisingly well but Ethan just looked at her.
"Bye", he said coolly.
*~*"It's not supposed to hurt this way, I need you I need you More and more each day It's not supposed to hurt this way, I need you, I need you, I need you Tell me"*~*
She grabbed him by the hand so that he couldn't leave, "Tell me why I can't understand."
*~*"Are you and me still together? Tell me Do you think we could last forever? Tell me"*~*
He looked at her. He knew that this would be the last time they would ever have be like this if just ended it now.
"As I said", he looked away, "you've toyed with me and Gordon's emotions long enough.."
She looked at him blankly. "I hope you know that I truly did love you."
Lizzie could bring herself to cry. Not anymore. There was no use. Nothing made sense. She had lost it all. All this was a waste of her time. She just pushed open the door of the school and out into the clear, spring day.
She sat on a bench and thought about what she lost, what she was unable to gain back.
She thought about her meeting she had earlier with Gordo. It was then when she remember how they were the best friends and not to let that happen to her anymore.
*~*"Why."*~*
So in the end neither Gordo nor Ethan ended up being her "soulmate". That was a quest she'd still have to venture on to find out.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~@~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
THE END
A/N: Thanks to anyone at all who reviewed this story, especially keeponwritin and Angelic Demon16 (you reviewed the most, thanks!). Basically if you reviewed my story at all, I thank you. If you're wondering why I didn't pair Lizzie up with Ethan or Gordo, there's a simple explanation for that.
At first I though maybe Gordo and then I got tired of L/G's so then I thought maybe Ethan. Then it came to the point where I wasn't sure so I thought it'd be better to leave it this way. I like the ending though, hope you did too.
The reason I ended it was because this story was becoming more and more of a hassle. I have two other stories, "I Left My Heart In Boston" and "Signed, More Then Just Good Hair" and this one was just getting in the way. Besides I hate it when stories just go on and on so I thought fifteen chapters was a good limit.
Again, thanks to all, and happy writing!
Peace 'n Luv,
*~*Miss Angel*~*