Disclaimer: I do not own the Characters of Squaresoft nor their concept but
I wish I did :þ
Authors note: In my last chapter I hadn't written in a while so it became very messy to read. For that I apologize but I think that I will try to release at least one chapter a week as I'm in school now there is nothing to do in the breaks, I will also try to keep the chapters between 2500-3000 words no less no more. (I said I'd try) HEY this is more like a bonus chapter as I want to publish it before the weekend so you get the other half plus the next chapter next week hope you enjoy it.
Dating and preparations
Quistis tried to find her panties she had looked after them for nearly an hour where are they It was her favorite panties, they where made of the smoothest silk satin and she had paid a fortune for them so she had no intention of leaving them behind.
She was utterly frustrated when she finally found them hiding in the tumbler.
"There you are" She picked them up, ironed them and put them on, it had fantastic feeling putting them on just after they had been ironed. The stress began to subside and instead it was changed to ominous anticipation.
The blond woman giggled a bit, she hadn't been so happy since, since. When she came to think of she had never been really happy. Sure she had been glad when she had been with her friends she had have fun with them but she had never been happy for real.
So lonely, I've been so lonely at last someone to share my loneliness with Quistis looked herself in the mirror and smiled, the mirror was still misty from the shower she had just taken so it was hard to see any details.
But after a couple of minutes of brushing her hair, and still smiling she saw a beautiful face, it looked so much younger than face that used to have lessons in Garden and always hid her loneliness and her despair after to have someone to love.
She could see fine lines tracing her down her cheeks and she could not see a trace of wrinkles under her eyes nor any discolorations from restless nights of worrying that use to be there when she was at Garden. Although her face wasn't heart shaped it was still delicate and seemed very fragile but radiated glamour.
Wonder if I should wear lenses or if I should stick with glasses She thought as she looked at her sapphire blue eyes they where like the bluest velvet sky any man had seen. She brooded some over the matter and then decided that it would look better not to have the glasses on.
She still felt kind of lonely though, she hadn't said goodbye to any of them, the touch of sadness disappeared when she thought about the truth. They wouldn't even have cared. I can manage without them her lips became a horizontal line tightly shut, but she felt bad not having said goodbye to Selphie, the brunet with her lack of patience and never ending energy had been her best friend. She stopped with the make up for a while "I'm sorry Selph it was either me or that witch and Squall choose her over me, it has to be this way"
Normally that way of thinking would have set her down made her feel sad or other but this evening even Squall and his she bitch couldn't change that NO, because tonight she had a date.
A date with a man that looked almost like Squall but he had better manner he had treated her like she had really meant something and that was really something. She frowned and tried not to get upset but it was no use she always got upset whenever she thought of Garden.
They always took me for granted She tugged a tangle harder than it had to be tugged some hair fell and her eyes started filling with tears, but she welcomed the pain. Never a word of appreciation, never a smile Quistis understood where this was leading to and she refused to let Garden win over her again she had left and that was that, she never ever wanted to have something to do with Garden ever again.
I have had my shares of those thoughts She told herself that from now on there would be no more brooding no more depressed thoughts. She stopped and looked at herself and tried to convince the girl in the mirror that she would never have those brooding like moments again.
When she looked closer she a very sensitive and frail girl that hadn't seen her twentieth birthday. The girl bore a resemblance of a maid that had yet to see the harsh world and it's terms. Quistis cried for that girl that had hid under the instructor façade.
She put her hands to her face and started crying more of relief than real sorrow. She had missed out on so much never going to parties never being the friend you could talk to when one thought that the teacher was a jerk. I was the teacher It struck her know, she had missed out on the best part in her short life.
Never a boy friend no real close friends instead she had had a fanclub called the Trepies. She stopped crying sorrow subsided and replaced by anger, clenching her fist she hit the palm with on her left hand with her right. "I will take what I've lost starting with this first date."
A determination that was rarely seen could be seen in her face. Quistis calmed herself down and pondered what she had just decided, and the more she thought about it the more she liked it. No more would she think about what had happened in the past she would start from scratch.
She smiled, and smile lit up the room for anyone that would have seen it. Yes I'll start from scratch, beginning my life from now she made up her mind.
She wouldn't look back. Her past had never existed nor her friends nor her way of thinking and behaving she would become a whole new person even her name she thought was about to never exist. But the smile faded when the complication of the whole plan began to unravel.
To do all that she had planned she would have to indoctrinate herself from thinking as she did reacting and smiling forgetting her past, she bit her lip insecure and unsure about the whole event. It would be really hard to forget that and when she pondered some more she came to the conclusion that changing her name and indoctrinate herself to a whole new personality would take a lot of money and time not to speak of dedication.
She looked around her compartment. It was a comfortable little place with a hall where you could hang your clothes and take of your shoes. Next to the hall was the bathroom, which she was most proud of, it was really big and it had a shower AND a bathtub in but what she was most appreciative of was the man-sized mirror. She could look into it for hours they never had anything like this in Garden. Next the Bathroom came the living room, which wasn't big but big enough. She hadn't had the time furnish it but there was a three-piece-suit in the room to begin with. And she had a TV on a small little desk. Of course the apartment had a living room and a sleeping room, but they did not offer much. The sleeping room had a bed and some furniture and kitchen had what a kitchen needed. Sighing and recollecting her mind this was all she could afford for now is she were to forget her life.
She needed a really large fund, which she had considering she hadn't spent much in her time in SEED there was never time for shopping or pleasures. And the fact that she had worked as Instructor was really good because they made twice the money ordinary SEEDs did.
So mesmerized was she of her plan that she got a pen and paper and started writing down what needed to be done I have the funds I have the will, it's only a matter of where to start She looked up and grinned she had it she would start of with getting rid of her personality. She wanted be like any other teenager girl would be party like good looking and carefree. The blonde smiled as she thought Check on good looking Quistis knew what she did to the male gender, men did stare at her like morons, giggling to herself she concluded that the best way of forgetting and getting a new personality was to hypnotize and a lot therapy. The name was simple it was only a matter of money.
She could see it know sweet teenage. "O yes baby here I came and you good looking guys better watch out. Now to come up with a name, how can anyone name a girl to Quistis."
The blonde girl had completely forgotten the time as she was thinking of how to forget painful memories and get away from it all. So entranced was she by the thoughts and the planning that she forgot that she had agreed on a date with a man named Gary Striker.
Authors note: In my last chapter I hadn't written in a while so it became very messy to read. For that I apologize but I think that I will try to release at least one chapter a week as I'm in school now there is nothing to do in the breaks, I will also try to keep the chapters between 2500-3000 words no less no more. (I said I'd try) HEY this is more like a bonus chapter as I want to publish it before the weekend so you get the other half plus the next chapter next week hope you enjoy it.
Dating and preparations
Quistis tried to find her panties she had looked after them for nearly an hour where are they It was her favorite panties, they where made of the smoothest silk satin and she had paid a fortune for them so she had no intention of leaving them behind.
She was utterly frustrated when she finally found them hiding in the tumbler.
"There you are" She picked them up, ironed them and put them on, it had fantastic feeling putting them on just after they had been ironed. The stress began to subside and instead it was changed to ominous anticipation.
The blond woman giggled a bit, she hadn't been so happy since, since. When she came to think of she had never been really happy. Sure she had been glad when she had been with her friends she had have fun with them but she had never been happy for real.
So lonely, I've been so lonely at last someone to share my loneliness with Quistis looked herself in the mirror and smiled, the mirror was still misty from the shower she had just taken so it was hard to see any details.
But after a couple of minutes of brushing her hair, and still smiling she saw a beautiful face, it looked so much younger than face that used to have lessons in Garden and always hid her loneliness and her despair after to have someone to love.
She could see fine lines tracing her down her cheeks and she could not see a trace of wrinkles under her eyes nor any discolorations from restless nights of worrying that use to be there when she was at Garden. Although her face wasn't heart shaped it was still delicate and seemed very fragile but radiated glamour.
Wonder if I should wear lenses or if I should stick with glasses She thought as she looked at her sapphire blue eyes they where like the bluest velvet sky any man had seen. She brooded some over the matter and then decided that it would look better not to have the glasses on.
She still felt kind of lonely though, she hadn't said goodbye to any of them, the touch of sadness disappeared when she thought about the truth. They wouldn't even have cared. I can manage without them her lips became a horizontal line tightly shut, but she felt bad not having said goodbye to Selphie, the brunet with her lack of patience and never ending energy had been her best friend. She stopped with the make up for a while "I'm sorry Selph it was either me or that witch and Squall choose her over me, it has to be this way"
Normally that way of thinking would have set her down made her feel sad or other but this evening even Squall and his she bitch couldn't change that NO, because tonight she had a date.
A date with a man that looked almost like Squall but he had better manner he had treated her like she had really meant something and that was really something. She frowned and tried not to get upset but it was no use she always got upset whenever she thought of Garden.
They always took me for granted She tugged a tangle harder than it had to be tugged some hair fell and her eyes started filling with tears, but she welcomed the pain. Never a word of appreciation, never a smile Quistis understood where this was leading to and she refused to let Garden win over her again she had left and that was that, she never ever wanted to have something to do with Garden ever again.
I have had my shares of those thoughts She told herself that from now on there would be no more brooding no more depressed thoughts. She stopped and looked at herself and tried to convince the girl in the mirror that she would never have those brooding like moments again.
When she looked closer she a very sensitive and frail girl that hadn't seen her twentieth birthday. The girl bore a resemblance of a maid that had yet to see the harsh world and it's terms. Quistis cried for that girl that had hid under the instructor façade.
She put her hands to her face and started crying more of relief than real sorrow. She had missed out on so much never going to parties never being the friend you could talk to when one thought that the teacher was a jerk. I was the teacher It struck her know, she had missed out on the best part in her short life.
Never a boy friend no real close friends instead she had had a fanclub called the Trepies. She stopped crying sorrow subsided and replaced by anger, clenching her fist she hit the palm with on her left hand with her right. "I will take what I've lost starting with this first date."
A determination that was rarely seen could be seen in her face. Quistis calmed herself down and pondered what she had just decided, and the more she thought about it the more she liked it. No more would she think about what had happened in the past she would start from scratch.
She smiled, and smile lit up the room for anyone that would have seen it. Yes I'll start from scratch, beginning my life from now she made up her mind.
She wouldn't look back. Her past had never existed nor her friends nor her way of thinking and behaving she would become a whole new person even her name she thought was about to never exist. But the smile faded when the complication of the whole plan began to unravel.
To do all that she had planned she would have to indoctrinate herself from thinking as she did reacting and smiling forgetting her past, she bit her lip insecure and unsure about the whole event. It would be really hard to forget that and when she pondered some more she came to the conclusion that changing her name and indoctrinate herself to a whole new personality would take a lot of money and time not to speak of dedication.
She looked around her compartment. It was a comfortable little place with a hall where you could hang your clothes and take of your shoes. Next to the hall was the bathroom, which she was most proud of, it was really big and it had a shower AND a bathtub in but what she was most appreciative of was the man-sized mirror. She could look into it for hours they never had anything like this in Garden. Next the Bathroom came the living room, which wasn't big but big enough. She hadn't had the time furnish it but there was a three-piece-suit in the room to begin with. And she had a TV on a small little desk. Of course the apartment had a living room and a sleeping room, but they did not offer much. The sleeping room had a bed and some furniture and kitchen had what a kitchen needed. Sighing and recollecting her mind this was all she could afford for now is she were to forget her life.
She needed a really large fund, which she had considering she hadn't spent much in her time in SEED there was never time for shopping or pleasures. And the fact that she had worked as Instructor was really good because they made twice the money ordinary SEEDs did.
So mesmerized was she of her plan that she got a pen and paper and started writing down what needed to be done I have the funds I have the will, it's only a matter of where to start She looked up and grinned she had it she would start of with getting rid of her personality. She wanted be like any other teenager girl would be party like good looking and carefree. The blonde smiled as she thought Check on good looking Quistis knew what she did to the male gender, men did stare at her like morons, giggling to herself she concluded that the best way of forgetting and getting a new personality was to hypnotize and a lot therapy. The name was simple it was only a matter of money.
She could see it know sweet teenage. "O yes baby here I came and you good looking guys better watch out. Now to come up with a name, how can anyone name a girl to Quistis."
The blonde girl had completely forgotten the time as she was thinking of how to forget painful memories and get away from it all. So entranced was she by the thoughts and the planning that she forgot that she had agreed on a date with a man named Gary Striker.