I still don't won them. Dawn and co belong to joss, Anyone involved with the WWE belongs to them. The lyrics belong to Saliva.

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I love you

I hate you

I can't live without you

I breathe you

I taste you

I can't live without you

I just can't take anymore,

this life of solitude

I guess that I'm out the door

Now that I'm done with you

~~~~~~


Willow and Jeff were waiting in the change room. Jeff hugged Dawn and ruffled her hair.

"That was perfect kid." He said. Dawn rolled her eyes at him and hugged Willow.

"I ain't a kid." She replied, she looked at Willow. "Edge stopped us in the hallway. He wants an explanation." Willow sighed.

"Did he get one?" She asked. Faith stepped into the room and smiled at all.

"Nope. Just me." Faith said grinning impishly.

"I'm really sorry." Willow said. "Maybe I should end it.. he's getting paranoid." She shook her head. "I just, can't."

"I don't mind," Dawn interjected. I told you before, it was his decision to make." She walked over to her locker and opened it.

"Yeah well, I should go." Willow said. "He'll want his 'pep' talk. He and Chris have a match." She slipped out, and Faith headed for the showers, leaving Jeff and Dawn behind.

Dawn pulled out her bag and smiled at Jeff.

"No match to get ready for?" She asked him softly.

"Nope," he replied with a grin. "I'm just here for you, thought you'd like some company." She sighed and he stuck his tongue out at her.

"Not really." she said. "i was thinking about heading back to the hotel." She smiled softly at him.

"Cool." He said. "Let me get my stuff and i'll drive. Faiths got a match later, and you don't want to put up with waiting for a cab." He grabbed her bad and tossed her coat at her.

"Jeff." She said firmly.

"Dawn.." He replied just as firmly. "I'm not letting you take off on your own. Faith would kick my ass." Dawn sighed and nodded.

"Ok, lets get moving." She said, pulling on her jacket. Or more accurately, as she liked to think, her sisters jacket. It was Buffys favorite winter coat. It was light blue, and Dawn had the matching scarf and glove set.  It was snug on her now. She frowned, and sighed. It had always fit, been a bit to big, but now it was snug. She shook her head and smiled at Jeff. He led her through the hallways, as the crowd cheered for the match in the ring.  They stopped at his locker room,  and he grabbed his gear, waving good night to the other wrestlers.

In his car, Dawn rifled through his cds, and popped in Saliva, switching it to the song, Always. Jeff peeled out of the parking lot, smiling at her horrified shriek.

"Jeff, drive like a normal human!" She screamed over the music.

"You like the way I drive." He retaliated.

"Not anymore." She shot back, tears welling unexpectedly in her eyes.  Jeff slowed down and pulled out of traffic onto a smaller street. He turned the music down.

"Dawn?" He asked, "Whats wrong?" She started to sob, clutching at her stomach.

"Everything." She replied.

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I feel like you don't want me around

I guess I'll pack all my things

I guess I'll see you around

Inside it bottles up until now

As i walk out the door

All i can hear is the sound

Always, always always, always

Always, always, always,

I just can't live without you.

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Jeff stopped the car completely, and turned it off.

"Dawn?" He asked softly. "What's going on? Are you ok?"

"I'm sorry." She whispered through sobs. "Can you take me to the hotel?"

"Dawn, what's wrong?" Jeff pressed. "You know I'm here for you." Dawn shook her head and looked out the window.

"I'm sorry," She said again. "I just.. I.."

"OK, We'll go, but i want to know what's wrong." Jeff said. the Drive to the hotel was long, and at Dawns request, he put the song on repeat, and turned it up.

At the hotel, he took her to his room. Dawn curled up on the couch, and wiped awkwardly at her face.  He tossed his stuff on the bed and headed for the mini-bar.

"Dawn?" He asked gently, "Can I get you something?" She shook her head, and he grabbed a random cooler and sat beside her. "Dawn, you wanna talk about it?" He asked, taking a drink.

"I'm sorry i freaked." She whispered. He took her hands.

"Its ok, i mean, whats else am I good for?" He replied. "So you wanna tell me why you freaked?"

"I am so scared." She said softly. Jeff opened his mouth, then shut it as she went on. "I just don't know what to do. Everything's gone wrong. I just wish things could go back to the way they were. When Buffy was alive, and Mom was alive. Before Glory. Before everything went bad." She was crying again. "Before I met Edge, before he fucked me. Before he lied to me, lied to Willow. Before she fell for him." She took a ragged breath. "Before this." She shuddered and looked at him. "I don't sleep. The doctor, gave me these pills, and now i can't take them, so i don't sleep. Can't sleep, can't work. I can't do anything."

"Dawn?" Jeff asked. She moved closer to him.

"I hate him so much. I hate her. I can't tell them." She said raggedly. "She my sister, Buffys best friend. Buffy's gone, no coming back now. So shes my sister. Shes family." Something clicked in Jeffs mind.

"Whats happened that involves Edge and Willow?" He asked carefully. Dawn choked on a sob. "What can't you tell them?"

"How do you tell someone?" She asked "How do you tell them that your pregnant with her boyfriends baby?"