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I love you
I hate you
I can't live without you
I breathe you
I taste you
I can't live without you
I just can't take anymore
This life of solitude
I guess that I'm out the door
Now that I'm done with you
I love you
I hate you
I can't live without you
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Jeff took a shocked breath.
"Dawn?" He asked softly.
"I'm sorry," She said again, crying, standing. "I'll go. I'll leave. I'm sorry."
"Dawn?" He asked, grabbing her wrist. "What?"
"You think I'm a slut don't you?" She asked softly, trying to pull away.
"Dawn, no, no your not a slut." Jeff said firmly.
"What else am I?" She asked piteously. "I'm having his baby? He's sleeping with Willow, who is the closest thing I've got to a sister. He screwed me royally. He hates me, and I.." Her breath caught on a sob. "and I can't help but." another sob, "wish he loved me, not her." Jeff tugged her back to him gently and pulled her down into his arms. She cried against his shoulder and he whispered soothing words in her ear. After a while she calmed down, and stopped crying.
"I'm sorry." She said for about the fiftieth time. Jeff rolled his eyes.
"Will you stop saying that?' He demanded. "You have no reason to be sorry. None at all."
"I cried all over you, got your shirt soaked, and burdened you with my problems." Dawn replied.
"Its just water, it'll dry." He said. "And as for the second part. It doesn't have to be just your problem. I can help, if you'll let me." Dawn blinked and looked at him. "I mean," Jeff began and stopped. "Look Dawn, I really like you. And this is the worst time I could choose to tell you. But damn it, I've liked you for the past year and a half. All the problems with Edge and the way you managed to get through it just made me like you more." He grabbed her hand. "And I know, its gonna sound stupid. But I want to be there for you, any way I can. You and the baby. No matter what, I want to be there." He finished, and blushed.
"Jeff." Dawn said. "I don't know if its just because I'm pregnant, or because I haven't had the break to get over him, because I see him very day. I still have feelings for Edge." Jeff's face fell, but his eyes remained locked on hers. "I won't lie to you, and say I don't like you at all." she said. "But I need to work this out with Edge before I can even think of starting anything with you." His face lit up again, and she smiled.
"Hey it works for me. If a things worth it," Jeff said, "its worth waiting for. And you, are worth it." Dawn blushed, and Jeff pulled her towards him. "Now I want all the details." He demanded.
"You sound like Torrie or Stacy. Gossip Gossip Gossip." Dawn said, taking a deep breath ok. "I'm three months along. I haven't had an ultrasound yet. But I have one Scheduled for when we hit LA in two weeks. I found out last week and I told Faith and Stephanie yesterday."
"When did you tell Vince and Linda?" Jeff asked, prodding for more details.
"The day after I found out. The doc was going to tell them anyways, so I asked that I get to break the news." Dawn explained.
"So that's why you didn't have a match last Thursday." Jeff exclaimed, Dawn nodded. "So baby names?" He asked, "Have you thought about Jeffery if it's a boy?" Dawn hit him with a pillow. "What?" Jeff asked innocently. "Its a good name."
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I left my head around your heart
Why would you tear my world apart?
Always, Always, Always.. Always...
I see the blood all over your hands
Does it make you feel more like a man?
Was it all just a part of your plan?
This pistols shaking in my hands
And all I hear is the sound...
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Dawn awoke warm, and comfortable and feeling safe. She blinked sleepily, and realized there was an arm wrapped around her. She rolled over to come face to face with a sleeping Jeff Hardy. She replayed last night in her mind and remembered falling asleep watching a really old and really bad made for TV movie. She sighed and close her eyes, then opened them to see that Jeff was awake and watching her. She smiled uncertainly at him.
"Morning." he said softly. "How are you feeling?"
"Ok I guess. Certainly comfy, and warm." Dawn replied a little shyly.
"You hungry?" Jeff asked. She nodded. "Why don't you hop in the shower, and I'll order some breakfast."
"Clothes?" She asked, crawling out of the bed. "Mine are wrinkly, and why aren't I wearing my pants?" She shot Jeff a look.
"You took em off." Jeff replied. "Muttered something about not-comfy and threw them at me." He pointed at the coffee table, where her pants resided, neatly folded. "I put em there."
"Sorry." Dawn replied, and grabbed the offending pants.
"Its ok. You can wear one of my shirts," Jeff replied, grabbing the phone. Dawn grabbed a shirt and dashed into the washroom, glad that her t-shirt was long enough to cover her butt. Jeff ordered breakfast and brushed his hair. He changed, and settled down on the couch to wait for breakfast and Dawn. Remembering all the hell Edge had put her through he felt strangely protective. Dawn needed to be taken care of. To be loved. No one could do it better than him.
After a shower and a breakfast of strawberry crepes Dawn was ready to get to her own room. At her own request she was going to staying with the crew until half way through her second trimester. Jeff was on his way to the shower when she left, backpack in hands. As Dawn stepped into the hallway the door across the way opened, and she came face to face with Edge.
"Spreading your legs for Hardy already?" He sneered. "its only been three weeks.. over me so soon?"
"You were fucking Willow before you dumped me." Dawn retorted, wishing she was still in bed. "Why should I bother to wait?" She turned to go but Edge grabbed her arm.
"I've had it up to here with your little games." He hissed. "What Willow and I do is none of your business."
"Willow is my friend." Dawn replied her voice even. "So it makes it my business. You gonna screw her over too Edge?" She asked, pulling her arm from his hand.
"You were sniffing after Spike like a bitch in heat. You fucked me over first." Edge replied, glaring at her.
"You cheated on me, because of Spike? Because of my best friend?" Dawn asked incredulously, feeling her anger and her breakfast rise. A door down the hall opened up, and Chris Jeracho stuck his head out into the hall.
"You ok Dawn?" He asked, a frown marring his face. Dawn shot him a glace then turned back to Edge.
"You son of a bitch. I gave you a god-damned year. The one time I pay any attention to a guy in a friendly way, you think I cheated on you? So then you convince Willow that I dumped you, and you fuck her? Then when I walk in on you, you act like its nothing? Now you think I'm a slut?" Dawn slapped Edge, as hard as she could and was pleased to see his head fly back. "For your information, I was a virgin the first time we had sex, and you were to drunk to notice." She hissed. Edge mouth flew open, and she hit him again. "And now I'm pregnant." She shouted, tears spilling down her cheeks. "And your happily fucking my best friend."