Disclaimer: All characters except for Meagan, Sasha and a few minor other characters, belong to George Lucas, and we are not receiving any profit off this work of fiction.

This is written in first person point of view of Meagan unless otherwise noted.

From Earth to Star Wars

Part One: Pre-TPM

Meagan travels from Earth to Star Wars and becomes friends with Qui-Gon Jinn and

Obi-Wan Kenobi

Chapter Fourteen

"COMPLICATED"

(Carolyn Dawn Johnson, Shaye Smith)

I'm so scared that the way that I feel,

Is written all over my face,

When you walk into the room I wanna find a hiding place,

We used to laugh, we used to hug,

The way that old friends do,

But now a smile and a touch of your hand,

Just make me come unglued,

It's such a contradiction, do I lie or tell the truth,

Is it fact or fiction the way I feel for you.

It's so complicated, I'm so frustrated,

I wanna hold you close, I wanna push you away,

I wanna make you go, I wanna make you stay,

Should I say it, should I tell you how I feel,

Oh, I want you to know,

But then again I don't,

It's so complicated.

Just when I think I'm under control,

I think I finally got a grip,

Another friend tells me that,

My name is always on your lips,

They say I'm more than just a friend,

They say I must be blind,

Well I admit that I've seen you watch me,

From the corner of your eye,

Oh it's so confusing I wish you'd just confess,

But think of what I'd be losing,

If your answer wasn't yes.

It's so complicated, I'm so frustrated,

I wanna hold you close, I wanna push you away,

I wanna make you go, I wanna make you stay,

Should I say it, should I tell you how I feel,

Oh, I want you to know,

But then again I don't,

It's so complicated.

I hate it 'cause I've waited so long for someone like you,

Should I say it,

Should I tell you how I feel,

Oh I want you to know,

But then again I don't,

It's so complicated.

Note: This first scene with Meagan and Nallyie takes place at the same time that Obi-Wan and Qui-Gon are at the plant.

I awoke slowly, fighting a headache. I groaned slightly, trying to sit up in bed. Everything came back to me in sudden flashes. The blaster fire, Obi-Wan sliding down the banister and the man that took me out with a swift blow to the head.

"Easy, Meagan." I turned at the soft voice and saw Nallyie Confrod sitting close by. "Drink this."

I managed to hold the glass in my hands and drink a few sips. "So, you know my name?"

She nodded as she stood, coming to stand close to the bed. "Your Jedi husband called you Meagan."

I sighed, well knowing an explanation would be in order. "Are they alright?"

She nodded again. "We escorted you over here and he left again. Last I heard they were going over to the Deguanie Mineral Plant with security forces."

"Well, I guess I'd better explain all of this to you." I wasn't quite sure where to start.

"Does this mean you are a Jedi too?" Nallyie's eyes were wide either in shock or surprise.

I shook my head. "No I'm not, though both of them are." At her confusion, I confessed. "I'm extremely Force sensitive and can use it, as you saw today, but I'm not a fully trained Jedi Knight. I did first meet them on a ship taken over by pirates and they did save my life, but neither of us is married."

"And I take it, the other one isn't your father-in-law either."

I shook my head. "Obi-Wan is actually Qui-Gon's apprentice. They're relationship is a lot like a father and son's."

"Then how did you get mixed up in this?"

"I'm good friends to both of them and possess some skills, so I was elected to come along as Obi-Wan's wife." I shrugged my shoulders. "I'm sorry that we deceived you, but it was necessary to the mission."

Nallyie shook her head. "I'm more shocked than hurt and I understand why. You three seemed to have figured this out a lot quicker than coming in here as tourists than Jedi."

"That's what we thought too." I paused for a second as I continued to sip my water, slightly easing the headache. "What shocked you the most?"

She looked me in the eyes. "The fact that you and …." She nearly said his fake name, but quickly remembered. "Obi-Wan aren't husband and wife."

I grew puzzled, many had thought we made a cute couple, but I didn't think it went really beyond that. "Why do you say that?"

"You two might have been undercover, but you certainly are close."

I acknowledged that. "I work at the Temple. Of course I'm close to the Jedi."

Nallyie shook her head. "I'm not talking that way honey, that man's deeply in love with you."

Her words shocked me at first, but I managed to recover. "You don't know what you are talking about."

She held up her hands. "I may not know a lot about the life of a Jedi, but I know love in a man's eyes when I see it. When you went down, he came over as soon as he could and cradled you in his arms…."

"He was just concerned about a friend…" I tried to write it off, but my heart was pounding. I thought we had decided not to fall in love with each other. I had known he cared deeply about me, but I had always kept it to the back of my mind. Now, it was hitting me straight between the eyes.

"Honey, he called you Meagan, my love, more than once I might add. And when he brought you in here, he didn't want to leave you." She paused as she studied my face, which was turning red by now. "You love him too don't you?"

I felt tears come to my eyes, knowing it was never to be. "Yes, but it's complicated."

"What's so complicated about it? You love him and he loves you."

I sighed, not wanting to get into all of that, but she immediately picked up on it.

"Maybe someday honey. If it's supposed to work out it will, but you can be content in knowing you have his love." She paused and handed me another cup. "You'd better rest from your concussion. This will help you sleep better."

I drank the cup. "Thank you, for everything."

She nodded. "Before you leave, if you need to talk to anyone about this, I'm here."

I smiled, the medication already kicking in. She turned off the light and quietly left. Then, seconds before I fell asleep, all I could think of was that the same man that slay a sith and watched over a young boy in a desert was in love with me.

*******

**Qui-Gon's point of view**

I leaned down, placing a hand on Meagan's forehead; pleased she was now conscious and sleeping peacefully. I was more than relieved she wasn't seriously injured during the attack. I had felt her light fade from the Force when she was hit and I knew she went down. It had concerned me terribly, but the anger that flooded through Obi-Wan at that moment, nearly unraveling him was more of a concern. I had been watching them closely the last few days, feeling that that this was becoming more than a game with them. Their attitude and actions were becoming more natural, not that it was forced before, but there was a notable difference. Maybe, now I thought, that this wasn't such a good idea after all. They were becoming too close.

Now, don't get me wrong, I think the world of Meagan and after just a short time of knowing her, I value her as a dear and close friend. She was extremely strong to have dealt with everything that life threw her way.

And Obi-Wan is my son. He came into my life unexpectedly, finding his way into my grief filled heart and didn't leave. I was supposed to be the Master, but Obi-Wan taught me to love and live again and for that alone, I will always be grateful. I look forward to the day he becomes a knight and we can work and fight side by side as Jedi Knights, as equals, as friends and as Father and Son. But I have to admit, I will miss his nearly daily presence in my life very much.

"How is she?" My Padawan's voice broke into my thoughts. He glanced down at her, concern written all over his features. On the way in here from the Deguanie Mineral Plant, Nallyie had stopped to talk to him for a moment or two.

"Sleeping peacefully." I told him. "With everything under control, we'd best get some rest ourselves."

Obi-Wan nodded and almost reluctantly turned and followed me from the room.

'I must speak to him about this.' I thought to myself as we headed back to our rooms. Their relationship was beginning to move beyond friendship and right now, that would be devastating to him. His trials were coming soon and one thing that would ruin his dedication to that would be the love of a woman.

I smiled to myself, Obi-Wan was one of the most dedicated, determined young men I have ever known. He wouldn't let anything come between being a Jedi Knight now, not after all he's been through. Sure, he and Cerasi were close but he was just thirteen at the time. Now, in his early twenties, a love like this would be real and the outcome could be disastrous for both of them.

Yes, I decided, as I entered my quarters, I would discuss this with him after we returned to the Temple in a couple of days.

*******

Later that night, as I lay in bed, I thought about what happened. But even before I could even begin to process it all, exhaustion set in and I fell asleep before I knew it.

In my dreams, I could see two young Jedi Knights fighting an enemy that was well trained in the Jedi Arts. He was dressed all in black, complete with a cape and a mask. One Knight was a young human male, obviously trained and strong in the Force. However, it was the young woman that caught my attention the most. Her dark curly hair and facial expressions instantly reminded me of Meagan. At first I thought it was her, but she's not trained to fight like that, not against what seemed to be a fully trained Sith Lord.

Maybe her daughter? I mused as I watched the battle progress. At one point in time, I found her looking straight into my eyes and it was like looking at my Obi-Wan. I awoke with a start. Was the Force telling me something? Was Meagan and Obi-Wan destined to be? Even though I knew dreams and visions were often the concerns of the unconscious, they didn't always come true. This dream could simple be a result of my concerns about the relationship between Obi-Wan and Meagan. The dream itself wasn't what kept me up, but the closeness that I saw between the two. As I finally fell back asleep, I pondered what to do.

*******

It was the next morning that I went into the infirmary to check on Meagan. Obi-Wan had just gotten there moments before and was talking to a medic.

"She'll be fine since it's just a slight concussion."

"Will she be able to travel by tomorrow?" Obi-Wan asked as I came up to stand beside my Padawan.

He glanced from one of us to the other. "I don't see why not. As long as she rests and drinks plenty of fluids. You are going straight back and not making any stops?"

I nodded. "Yes."

"Good." He paused for a second and glanced to the room where Meagan was. "Though I would like to keep her here most of the day so we can keep an eye on her just to make sure."

Both of us nodded and the medic left to do his other duties. Obi-Wan turned to me and was just about to say something when Meagan stepped out of her room.

"Thanks for bringing some stuff over here, but I don't see the point since I'm not staying here any longer."

I raised my eyebrows and Obi-Wan crossed his arms across his chest. She immediately got the point.

"No, please don't make me stay here. I'm going stir crazy already."

Both of us gave her a stern look and she sighed, well knowing she wasn't getting anywhere.

Obi-Wan took a step closer and handed her a small ring and the locket I gave her. "Nallyie found these and I knew they were yours."

She smiled. "I was wondering what happened to them."

I took a step closer and looked at the ring. "What are the names of the stones?"

She quickly explained that one was her birthstone and the other was just one she thought looked pretty and stood for a certain month in Earth's calendar. However, the strangest part was when we translated both of them to our time, we discovered Obi-Wan's birthday was in that month. We were shocked and the way they started looking at each other firmed my resolve to talk to them about this.

"Come Obi-Wan we have much to do." He nodded as I glanced to Meagan. "You get some rest."

She smiled slightly. "I'll be good. I won't leave."

Obi-Wan and I glanced at each other then back to her, before he spoke. "Promise? I don't want you getting hurt again."

She nearly looked annoyed now. "Promise."

I nodded and the two of us turned to leave.

*******

Obi-Wan and I immediately left to go to the plant to see what the staff had found the day before. After shifting through boxes of stuff with them, we were finally beginning to really piece together what exactly happened.

"Master." I finally heard Obi-Wan call over to me. "I think I might have found the piece we are looking for."

I glanced over at the document and smiled. It was exactly what we were looking for. A short memo from one manager to the next, saying that Gull's actions weren't doing the job at the resort and needed some help. The response was to hire someone from the outside to take care of the rest. At the top, was also listed the other managers that received it. The one mistake they made was forgetting to destroy the evidence.

We turned the physical evidence over to the local authority since nothing intersystem was involved in the Deguanie Mineral Plant. However, we did order local authority to conduct a full scale investigation of the plant since we weren't sure how much more scheming the managers had done in acquiring their property.

I then contacted the Temple and gave them a full report. Since there was nothing else that we could do, the Masters ordered us to return back home as soon as Meagan was able to travel.

We then headed back to the resort for the night. After informing a much relieved and thankful Cavorino about the wrap up in the case, we quickly checked on Meagan and turned into our rooms for the night.

It was pretty early the next morning as I started packing that I heard a soft knocking on my door. "Come in Padawan."

Obi-Wan opened the door and entered, pulling back the hood of his outer robe, clumps of snow and ice falling off it. "Next transport leaves in three standard hours."

I nodded. "Good. Where's Meagan?"

"Packing since I checked her out of the infirmary." He answered and I could tell he was agitated about something.

I kept packing as Obi-Wan began to pace. "Obi-Wan, what's wrong? I haven't seen you this nervous since we tried to locate the Sith hologram."

He chuckled softly, but he still appeared worried. "I'm not sure what to do Master….about Meagan."

Interesting, I thought. At least now I wouldn't have to bring up the topic back at the Temple. I zipped up my bag and sat down, motioning for him to continue.

After a moment, he continued. "When she was knocked out, all I wanted to was protect and take care of her."

"She's proven herself more than once that she is more than capable of taking care of herself."

Obi-Wan finally sat down. "I know she can and that's one thing I like about her the most, but I still feel this desire to take care of her."

I nodded as he continued, knowing for the moment, all he needed was someone to listen to him.

"I've always liked her, but we've spent a great deal of time together on this mission and sometimes she's all I can think about." He rose and began to pace again, describing his feelings. "But it scares me Master. This connection I feel with her, through the Force is different but incredibly strong. It's like we can read each other's minds and feelings. You are the only one I've felt that connected to."

He paused and I knew he wanted me to speak. "And you are not quite sure what to think about this?"

"Yes, the Force brought the two of us together as master and apprentice on Bandomeer and I can't help, but think the same about Meagan and I." He sighed and gazed out the window briefly before turning back to me. "I know attachment and love are forbidden until knighthood and I've worked too hard and too long to throw it all away now, but the more I try not to care for her, the more I do."

"I want to care for her, but I know how disastrous that would be for both of us if we pledged ourselves to each other. I can't afford to let it happen, but a part of me wants to be extremely close to her. On the coldest mornings, I wake up holding her in my arms, and nothing except being a Jedi, feels so right."

I sat up straighter, hoping the two didn't do more than actually sleep together, but if they did and she conceived, he would be disbanded from the Order and who knows what would happen to Meagan and the baby. Suddenly my dream returned and the determined face of the young Jedi swam before my eyes.

Before I could voice my concerns about this, Obi-Wan spoke again, following my thoughts. "We only briefly kissed in the woods several days ago."

I sighed with relief his words, but his growing relationship to Meagan still concerned me. However, I couldn't tell him not to love her. I loved Tahl with everything in me and we would have married eventually. Even though she died years ago, I still cherished her love and memory. How could I tell Obi-Wan not to care for Meagan, but yet he still is my responsibility.

"Obi-Wan." I began as we sat in silence for a few long moments. "I can't tell you what your destiny is. It could or couldn't be with Meagan. Neither the Council, nor we knows why the Force has brought her to us. You must not assume that a deep relationship between you two is it."

I paused as he considered my words. When he looked back up to me, I continued. "I know how a wonderful, strong woman can all of a sudden mean more to you than anything else in the world and all you want to do is take care of her and would do anything for her, but be careful Padawan. You are treading on dangerous ground with caring for Meagan like that."

"But what do I do about this?" He almost sounded panicked.

As much as I wanted to, he would have to make that decision. "I wish I could tell you what to do, but you must follow your own path Obi-Wan. Trust your instincts."

Obi-Wan nodded, beginning to know what he needed to do. "I think I'm going to talk a long walk."

I nodded as we walked toward the door. "Obi-Wan, I have the utmost confidence that you will do what is right and follow the path the Force tells you to follow." I placed my hand on his shoulder. "I'm always here for you."

He nodded. "Thank you Master." With that he picked up his hood, opened the door and left.

After Obi-Wan left, I mediated for a while and then headed toward to ship. I had just gotten my stuff settled when I saw Meagan heading toward me. She had her bag thrown over her shoulder and slowly made her way across the snow and ice.

When she neared the ship, she looked up and smiled. "I'll be glad to get back to the Temple and actually be able to walk."

I laughed at her statement, knowing exactly why my young Padawan was falling for the young woman. She had more insight than most, had a lot of spunk, but did everything she could to help others. "Me too and it's supposed to be getting colder. This is their warm season."

"Warm season?" She asked as we walked down the corridors of the ship toward our rooms. "I don't think I want to see their cold season. It sounds worse than Antarctica."

"Antarctica?" I asked as she deposited her stuff in her room. "Is that a place on Earth?"

She nodded her head. "It's the coldest place on Earth. Never gets warm enough to melt the snow and ice. No one lives there." She paused for a second, not turning and leaving the room. "Where's Obi-Wan?"

"Talking a walk." I suddenly got the feeling that she knew full well what the two of us had talked about just earlier today.

She nodded, turning to leave, but stopped and turned back to me. "I don't want to get in the way."

I sighed. "So you know?"

She shrugged slightly. "How could I not? I can't explain how we can read each other's minds and feelings. My own parents never could read me that well." Her voice wavered and I could feel her fear of the relationship, just like Obi-Wan. "I know he cares for me and I feel the same way, but I know how wrong it could be for both of us if anything more happened between us."

I placed my hands on her shoulders. "Meagan, I can't tell either of you what to do or how to react to this. I know both of you fully know what could happen if you two became attached to each other. I trust both of you to make the right decisions and follow the will of the Force."

Meagan nodded as we slowly walked back towards the cockpit. "But what if the will of Force is bringing us together?"

I shook my head at this, not wanting to believe how parallel their thoughts were running. They were already beginning to sound like Tahl and I did a lot of the times. "Then that will happen, when the time is right." I patted her shoulder as the pilot came up to us.

Meagan excused herself and as I turned my attention to the pilot, I assumed she was going to find a quiet place to think and meditate.

I was with the crew when Obi-Wan boarded the ship. I could tell he was more peacefully about the situation with Meagan. I knew they would still struggle, but both of them would not let their personal feelings come between his job or her's.

**Meagan's point of view**

After Qui-Gon and I talked about Obi-Wan and I, I managed to find a quiet place in the cargo hold of the ship. I pulled me knees up my chest, thinking deeply. I still found myself falling for this man that seemed to know me better than almost anyone. It scared me how close we seemed to be getting, but I was beginning to cherish the comfort I was getting from the strength of our relationship. Shaking my head, I knew these feelings I was having for him were not right, at least now, not while I was still so new to this world and while Obi-Wan was training and studying to be a Jedi Knight. Reaching deep within myself, I made a decision, even if I would fall deeper in love with him, I would not act on it or force him to pick between me or his life as a Jedi. I knew it meant too much to him and I cared for him entirely too much to put him through that struggle.

Later that evening, when we all stood in the dinning area with the rest of the passengers, I knew as Obi-Wan and I looked at each other, he made the exact same decision. How we would remain just friends was something I would continue to struggle with.

*******

A.N: Please, please don't hate us!!!! Despite the fact Meagan and Obi-Wan have fallen in love with each other, they both know they can't be together. Since Meagan truly loves him, she doesn't want to see the part she loves about him the most to be taken away, especially if she was the reason behind it. And we all know how dedicated Obi-Wan is to his life as a Jedi. (Remember this is the same guy that said: Master he's too old to yes Master I'll train him with in a mere few days!!!!!!) We had decided we wanted to keep their characters true from the sketches we receive in the movies (all of them) and the different post and pre literature. And we both agreed, no matter how much he was in love with someone, he wouldn't marry her unless it was allowed for him to do so. However, Part Two is shortly coming up and anything still can happen.

As for "Complicated," that is also another one of our favorites. After first hearing it on the country radio stations, we heard it in a TV show called "Doc." (It's on Pax Sunday nights at seven and the cute Billy Ray Cyrus is the main doctor.) That particular episode was one that centered on several different love triangles and the confusion of feelings. After watching it again, in a rerun, we realized, though our story only has one love relationship, the song fit here as well. Meagan and Obi-Wan both want to be together and to freely love each other, but they also, on the other hand, don't want it………