I woke up and looked at the time. It was 10:00AM. I got up and showered. We had checked in about 4:00AM this morning. I threw on some jeans and a white t-shirt. I laced up my black boots and tied on a do rag. I turned on the radio. My favorite song came on. I laughed hell it was my theme song. I started singing along to it while I hit the web on my laptop.
Never win first place, I don't support the team
I can't take direction, and my socks are never
clean
Teachers dated me, my parents hated me
I was always in a fight cuz I can't do nothin'
right
Everyday I fight a war against the mirror
I can't take the person starin' back at me
I'm a hazard to myself
Everyday I fight a war against the mirror
I can't take the person starin' back at me
I'm a hazard to myself
Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy
Its bad when you annoy yourself
So irritating
Don't wanna be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else
I wanna be somebody else, yeah
LA told me, "You'll be a pop star,
All you have to change is everything you are."
Tired of being compared to damn Britney Spears
She's so pretty, that just ain't me
Doctor, doctor won't you please prescribe
somethin
A day in the life of someone else?
Cuz I'm a hazard to myself
Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy
Its bad when you annoy yourself
So irritating
Don't wanna be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else
Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy
Its bad when you annoy yourself
So irritating
Don't wanna be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else
Doctor, doctor won't you please prescribe
somethin
A day in the life of someone else?
Don't let me get me
Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy
Its bad when you annoy yourself
So irritating
Don't wanna be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else
I looked up and Mark was standing in the doorway. "Starting a new career?" he asked grinning. "Hey I like the song." I said. "Breakfast will be here in a few minutes." He said. "I'll be out in a minute." I said. Mark nodded and closed the door. I got up and grabbed my smokes and went to light one. Then a funny thing happened. I started feeling bad. God I hate guilt as far as I'm concerned it a very unproductive feeling. I had never been bothered with it before. I sat down hard on the bed. I looked at the smokes in my hand. I wasn't really that addicted and I knew it. I was doing it for the simple fact I wasn't supposed to. You know it's really hard being a genius and 10 years old to. I mean I could set here and analyze my self all day and figure out why I was so fucked up. Most kids if you ask them why they do something they give you the typical kid answers. 'I don't know'. But I did know. Mark hadn't tried to change me or nothing just told me to quit smoking. He had been nice to me, nicer than anyone ever had, yet here I was fucking this up to. If he decided to dump me I had nowhere to go. Okay I could have just thrown the cigarettes out and Mark would have never known. That would have been the intelligent thing to do. But I didn't. Don't ask me why. I must have been having a stupid attack that day. I got the other pack and walked into Mark's room. He was sitting at the table going over his match for tonight. I threw the smokes on the middle of the table. He looked at them and then looked up at me. "I got them yesterday at the mall." I said. He just stared at them and then back at me. "I told you no smoking. So why did ya go get more cigarettes?" Mark asked. I figured I would use the kid response. "I don't know." I said. Mark gave me a look. I don't think he liked the answer. "Okay then why did you show them to me?" he asked. "I don't know." I said again. "You don't know much this morning do ya?" he asked. By this time I was realizing I had done a really dumb thing; see what I mean about guilt. Bad bad idea. "I'm not going to smoke no more." I said. "Well I'm glad to hear that." He said. "I guess your going to do something really horrible to me?" I asked. I looked at him and he was smiling. "Well not to horrible." He said. He up and went to my room and came back with my CD player. "I'll be holding on to this for a week. No computer for a week either except for your classes." Mark said. "What!" I yelled. "That's not fair." I said. "It's fair." He said. "Jeez I'd rather just take a beating." I grumbled. A whole week without my tunes. I would be nuts. "Shit." I said kicking the table. There was knocking at the door. It was room service with the food. Mark put the food on the table and sat down. Mark started eating and I just sat there with my arms crossed. Mark didn't say anything hell I guess he didn't care if I starved myself. "Ya know I'm really proud of you." Mark said. "Why cause I'm really really stupid." I said. "No, it took a lot of guts to do what ya did." Mark said. "Yea guts and stupidity." I said. Mark just laughed. I picked up my fork and started eating. "So why did ya decide to quit smoking?" he asked. "Well it aint cause you told me to. I just don't want to no more." I said giving him my best mean look. Mark grinned and kept eating. "You know ya smile way to much its very irritating." I said. Mark burst out laughing. "You're real funny Hailey." He said. I just shook my head. "You got major issues dude." I said. But I found myself smiling back at him.
The lyrics in this fic is 'Don't Let Me Get Me' By Pink.