Duo sat at his desk writing up the report on the day he'd just finished. Everyone was careful around him. He wasn't wearing a smile and many times when he was asked what was wrong he just ignored them. Duo stared at the finished report.
'Hit send and you can go home!...Hit send and you have to go home to Heero and tell him what the doctors said when he gets home....decisions decisions.'Duo thought drumming his fingers.
'Damn it all! I'm being a chicken!'Duo thought hitting send. The report sent and Duo shut down the computer before grabbing up his stuff and walking to the door. Duo drove home in silence. He picked Solo up from school. Duo hardly realized so much time had passed when he ended up driving into the drive way at home.
'Good Heero's not home yet...I get a few minuets to compose myself before.'Duo thought getting out of the car and walking up the steps and into the house.
"Daddy play with me," Solo said as Duo dropped his stuff on the couch.
"Not now baby. I'm really tired. I'm going to go to sleep for a while. When Papa gets home....tell him to come and get me," Duo said walking up the stairs and into his and Heero's room. Duo laid on his stomach on the bed and pillowed his head in his arms before he started to cry.'This can't be happening again.'Duo thought. A few minuets later when Duo had drifted off to sleep a soft knock sounded on the door.
"Duo," Heero said at the door.
"Its open," Duo said.
"Duo what's going on. I didn't see you at work and Solo said you were tired," Heero said sitting down on the bed next to Duo's legs.
"Sorry...its just been a long day," Duo said lifting his face from his arms to look at Heero.
"Duo!? Why've you been crying," Heero asked wiping a new tear from Duo's eye. Duo sighed and decided now was a good time as any.
"Heero....God this is harder than I thought," Duo smiled.
"Duo tell me what's going on," Heero insisted.
"I...I'm....pregnant," Duo said with new tears.
"Duo...don't cry. That's great news love," Heero said hugging Duo close.
"You aren't going to freak out on me," Duo smiled returning the hug.
"No," Heero replied.
"I was worried you were," Duo said.
"Its that why you were crying," Heero asked pulling Duo away to look at him.
"That and...God how could this happen again," Duo asked tears flowing down his cheeks.
"I don't know love, but it truly is amazing," Heero said.
"I guess," Duo smiled. Heero leaned forward and kissed Duo softly.
"Is Daddy alright now," Solo asked from the bedroom door.
"Yeah baby I'm ok," Duo said.
"Can we play now," Solo asked.
"Sure," Duo said.
"Yay...but can Papa play too," Solo asked. Duo glanced at Heero quickly.
"Sounds like a plan to me," Heero said.
"Yay," Solo jumped.
"I'm going to get a shower first alright So," Duo said.
"Alwight," Solo said running down the hall. Duo kissed Heero on the cheek and got up with Heero by his side.
"When are we going to tell Solo," Heero asked.
"When ever the time is right," Duo shrugged. Heero simply nodded and followed Duo out of the room.
Duo stood in the shower and let the water flow over him.
'I've got to get it together.'Duo thought turning off the water. He quickly dried off and threw on his white jeans. Duo looked himself over in the mirror.
'Hair.?'Duo thought taking his brush he stared working on untangling the long chestnut mass. Once the task was finished Duo found a green, baggy, long sleeved shirt and pulled it on. Duo shrugged at his reflection in the mirror before leaving the bathroom. It was a little hot in the house so Duo pulled the sleeves on his shirt up. Duo stopped on the last step to smile at his husband and son rolling around on the carpet. Heero ended up with Solo sitting on his stomach. Duo couldn't help but laugh at the two.
"Daddy," Solo yelled running into Duo's waiting arms. Duo picked Solo up and carried him back to where Heero now laid on his stomach watching. Duo set Solo down so he could lay by Heero's side. Their bodies made a V shape on the carpet and Solo ended up sitting on Duo's back.
"Miss me," Duo asked nuzzling Heero's neck.
"Always," Heero replied. Solo just looked with bright eyes at his parents actions.
"Ewww," Solo laughed as Duo and Heero shared a small kiss. Duo and Heero both laughed.
"You're silly So," Duo said.
"I wonder where he gets it," Heero smirked nudging Duo.
"Hey! Be nice," Duo smiled.
"Daddy give me a horsy back ride," Duo said kicking Duo in the sides.
"Solo don't kick your dad," Heero scolded.
"But I's want a horsy back ride," Solo whined.
"Later So. Its been a long day and I don't have enough energy to give Horsey back rides right now," Duo said. Solo just whined.
"Come on Solo be fair," Heero said. Solo just looked at Heero with watery eyes and a trembling lower lip.
"You've been spending way too much time with your dad," Heero said.
"Solo why don't you see if Papa will give you a ride," Duo suggested. Heero just sighed.
"Will you Papa," Solo asked.
"Sure, but if I wake up with a crick I'll tickle you to death," Heero said as Solo crawled on Heero's back. Duo just laughed and watched the two play around. A few minuets later Heero collapsed down in his original spot on the flood.
"First thing tomorrow...I'm going to the gym," Heero panted.
"Have fun," Duo smiled Heero just stuck his tongue out at Duo.
That night Duo laid awake staring at the ceiling. Solo lay snuggled asleep against the sleeping Heero. Duo ached for Heero's arms wrapped around him, but of course that wasn't going to happen tonight. Duo sighed and turned on his side to ignore the sleeping pair. Shini shifted in his sleep down by Duo's feet. Duo smiled remembering when he first got Shini. Duo had argued about letting the dog sleep in the bed with them. Duo sighed again.
'I'm not going to get any sleep tonight.'Duo thought sliding out of the bed. Duo gently opened the door and walked down the stairs after closing the bedroom door. Duo sat down on the couch and rested his elbows against his knees and his face in his hands.
'What's wrong with me?'Duo asked himself.'I guess my emotions are already over reacting. But why do I feel depressed? Heero didn't react badly. Solo not knowing isn't bothering me. Then what's wrong?'Duo was snapped out of his thoughts when he felt something lean on his leg.'Shini? How'd he get out. I could of sworn I shut the door unless someone got up.'Duo looked up to see Heero standing on the last step, leaning up against the wall staring. Once Heero knew he was noticed he walked over to the couch and sat down by Duo.
"How long have you been up," Heero asked. Duo looked at the clock on the DVD player.
"About 5 hours," Duo shrugged.
"Couldn't sleep," Heero asked.
"No and I don't know why either," Duo sighed rubbing his hands over his face.
"Is something bothering you," Heero asked.
"I don't know," Duo sighed again.
"It may just be shock," Heero said squeezing Duo's thigh.
"Maybe, but Heero do me a favor and don't think I'm weak for this either," Duo said.
"You're the strongest person I know. You'll never be weak to me. Whatever you want I'll do," Heero replied.
"Hold me," Duo asked. Duo was answered by two strong arms wrapping around him and pulling him close to Heero's chest.
"This is what was bothering me," Duo said feeling very tired all of the sudden.
"What was," Heero asked.
"It was bothering me not to have your arms around me and that's how I feel safe enough to fall asleep," Duo yawned.
"Why didn't you say something then," Heero asked.
"I couldn't say anything with Solo there," Duo answered.
"We're going to have to get him a nightlight or something because he won't be able to sleep with us much longer," Heero said.
"True," Duo smiled finally letting sleep take him.
'Hit send and you can go home!...Hit send and you have to go home to Heero and tell him what the doctors said when he gets home....decisions decisions.'Duo thought drumming his fingers.
'Damn it all! I'm being a chicken!'Duo thought hitting send. The report sent and Duo shut down the computer before grabbing up his stuff and walking to the door. Duo drove home in silence. He picked Solo up from school. Duo hardly realized so much time had passed when he ended up driving into the drive way at home.
'Good Heero's not home yet...I get a few minuets to compose myself before.'Duo thought getting out of the car and walking up the steps and into the house.
"Daddy play with me," Solo said as Duo dropped his stuff on the couch.
"Not now baby. I'm really tired. I'm going to go to sleep for a while. When Papa gets home....tell him to come and get me," Duo said walking up the stairs and into his and Heero's room. Duo laid on his stomach on the bed and pillowed his head in his arms before he started to cry.'This can't be happening again.'Duo thought. A few minuets later when Duo had drifted off to sleep a soft knock sounded on the door.
"Duo," Heero said at the door.
"Its open," Duo said.
"Duo what's going on. I didn't see you at work and Solo said you were tired," Heero said sitting down on the bed next to Duo's legs.
"Sorry...its just been a long day," Duo said lifting his face from his arms to look at Heero.
"Duo!? Why've you been crying," Heero asked wiping a new tear from Duo's eye. Duo sighed and decided now was a good time as any.
"Heero....God this is harder than I thought," Duo smiled.
"Duo tell me what's going on," Heero insisted.
"I...I'm....pregnant," Duo said with new tears.
"Duo...don't cry. That's great news love," Heero said hugging Duo close.
"You aren't going to freak out on me," Duo smiled returning the hug.
"No," Heero replied.
"I was worried you were," Duo said.
"Its that why you were crying," Heero asked pulling Duo away to look at him.
"That and...God how could this happen again," Duo asked tears flowing down his cheeks.
"I don't know love, but it truly is amazing," Heero said.
"I guess," Duo smiled. Heero leaned forward and kissed Duo softly.
"Is Daddy alright now," Solo asked from the bedroom door.
"Yeah baby I'm ok," Duo said.
"Can we play now," Solo asked.
"Sure," Duo said.
"Yay...but can Papa play too," Solo asked. Duo glanced at Heero quickly.
"Sounds like a plan to me," Heero said.
"Yay," Solo jumped.
"I'm going to get a shower first alright So," Duo said.
"Alwight," Solo said running down the hall. Duo kissed Heero on the cheek and got up with Heero by his side.
"When are we going to tell Solo," Heero asked.
"When ever the time is right," Duo shrugged. Heero simply nodded and followed Duo out of the room.
Duo stood in the shower and let the water flow over him.
'I've got to get it together.'Duo thought turning off the water. He quickly dried off and threw on his white jeans. Duo looked himself over in the mirror.
'Hair.?'Duo thought taking his brush he stared working on untangling the long chestnut mass. Once the task was finished Duo found a green, baggy, long sleeved shirt and pulled it on. Duo shrugged at his reflection in the mirror before leaving the bathroom. It was a little hot in the house so Duo pulled the sleeves on his shirt up. Duo stopped on the last step to smile at his husband and son rolling around on the carpet. Heero ended up with Solo sitting on his stomach. Duo couldn't help but laugh at the two.
"Daddy," Solo yelled running into Duo's waiting arms. Duo picked Solo up and carried him back to where Heero now laid on his stomach watching. Duo set Solo down so he could lay by Heero's side. Their bodies made a V shape on the carpet and Solo ended up sitting on Duo's back.
"Miss me," Duo asked nuzzling Heero's neck.
"Always," Heero replied. Solo just looked with bright eyes at his parents actions.
"Ewww," Solo laughed as Duo and Heero shared a small kiss. Duo and Heero both laughed.
"You're silly So," Duo said.
"I wonder where he gets it," Heero smirked nudging Duo.
"Hey! Be nice," Duo smiled.
"Daddy give me a horsy back ride," Duo said kicking Duo in the sides.
"Solo don't kick your dad," Heero scolded.
"But I's want a horsy back ride," Solo whined.
"Later So. Its been a long day and I don't have enough energy to give Horsey back rides right now," Duo said. Solo just whined.
"Come on Solo be fair," Heero said. Solo just looked at Heero with watery eyes and a trembling lower lip.
"You've been spending way too much time with your dad," Heero said.
"Solo why don't you see if Papa will give you a ride," Duo suggested. Heero just sighed.
"Will you Papa," Solo asked.
"Sure, but if I wake up with a crick I'll tickle you to death," Heero said as Solo crawled on Heero's back. Duo just laughed and watched the two play around. A few minuets later Heero collapsed down in his original spot on the flood.
"First thing tomorrow...I'm going to the gym," Heero panted.
"Have fun," Duo smiled Heero just stuck his tongue out at Duo.
That night Duo laid awake staring at the ceiling. Solo lay snuggled asleep against the sleeping Heero. Duo ached for Heero's arms wrapped around him, but of course that wasn't going to happen tonight. Duo sighed and turned on his side to ignore the sleeping pair. Shini shifted in his sleep down by Duo's feet. Duo smiled remembering when he first got Shini. Duo had argued about letting the dog sleep in the bed with them. Duo sighed again.
'I'm not going to get any sleep tonight.'Duo thought sliding out of the bed. Duo gently opened the door and walked down the stairs after closing the bedroom door. Duo sat down on the couch and rested his elbows against his knees and his face in his hands.
'What's wrong with me?'Duo asked himself.'I guess my emotions are already over reacting. But why do I feel depressed? Heero didn't react badly. Solo not knowing isn't bothering me. Then what's wrong?'Duo was snapped out of his thoughts when he felt something lean on his leg.'Shini? How'd he get out. I could of sworn I shut the door unless someone got up.'Duo looked up to see Heero standing on the last step, leaning up against the wall staring. Once Heero knew he was noticed he walked over to the couch and sat down by Duo.
"How long have you been up," Heero asked. Duo looked at the clock on the DVD player.
"About 5 hours," Duo shrugged.
"Couldn't sleep," Heero asked.
"No and I don't know why either," Duo sighed rubbing his hands over his face.
"Is something bothering you," Heero asked.
"I don't know," Duo sighed again.
"It may just be shock," Heero said squeezing Duo's thigh.
"Maybe, but Heero do me a favor and don't think I'm weak for this either," Duo said.
"You're the strongest person I know. You'll never be weak to me. Whatever you want I'll do," Heero replied.
"Hold me," Duo asked. Duo was answered by two strong arms wrapping around him and pulling him close to Heero's chest.
"This is what was bothering me," Duo said feeling very tired all of the sudden.
"What was," Heero asked.
"It was bothering me not to have your arms around me and that's how I feel safe enough to fall asleep," Duo yawned.
"Why didn't you say something then," Heero asked.
"I couldn't say anything with Solo there," Duo answered.
"We're going to have to get him a nightlight or something because he won't be able to sleep with us much longer," Heero said.
"True," Duo smiled finally letting sleep take him.