Chapter 5 EVERYTHING FOR THE ONE THING I
CAN'T HAVE
Author's Notes: Konnichiwa minna-san!! It's been long..@.@ I've been kindda stuck…writers block…but I'll try to make this chapter better…I have gotten some complaints about my messy chapter..=P Arigato for telling me my mistakes, for those who pointed things out. I'll try and make this chapter better. ^^
Legend:
Italics-Thoughts of a character.
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Author's notes: well, Here's da story minna-san!! ((walks away to get a popsicle))
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They came
inches close to death, when…windy disappeared back into a card. Syaoran slowly opened his eyes again, as the Sakura Card
flew back into Sakura's bag. He turned to Sakura, and stroked her hair lightly.
She was unconscious. Yue, whom was now turned into Yukito, was still injured, but he placed Kero, now in smaller form, on his shoulder, and picked up Tomoyo. He walked over to Syaoran
and Sakura, and told Syaoran to take Sakura home, and
he'll manage Tomoyo and Kero.
*author's notes: ya..i kno…tiz is so stupid…*sighs* T.T*
Syaoran's House:
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Syaoran gently laid a hot towel on Sakura's Forehead. He knew Touya and Fujitaka wouldn't be home that night, so nobody could take care of Sakura, so he brought her to his apartment. Sakura was still unconscious, from using so much energy. Syaoran just stared at Sakura's face, memorizing every curve and lines, as if he can never see the beauty ever again. He wanted so bad to forget everything that happened, he wished that he'd never come back to Japan, and he wanted to forgive Sakura, but the selfish part of him, the stubborn part of him couldn't let go. He could've gone back to Hong Kong, but again, a part of him couldn't let him do that. He held his head in his hands, and tears came to his eyes. He'd never thought there'd be the day, when the strongest, coldest person, could break down and…cry. The Word "cry" wasn't built into his system, it was supposed to be something he's not supposed to do. Something he doesn't KNOW how to do. He lifted his head, to face Sakura's gentle face, and her pure heart. The Clan taught him everything in Martial Arts, in being strong and faithful, but what Sakura taught him, was how to live…how to be a person, that somethings in life is more than being strong.
He found her house key in her bag, and carried Sakura home. He laid her down on her bed, and tucked her in. She'd be fine tomorrow, and Touya and Fujitaka would be back the next morning. So he left, and went home.
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"WAKE UP KAIJUU!!" Touya yelled in Sakura's ears. Sakura bolted up, and screamed in shock. Then she turned red, and whacked Touya on the head.
"YOU DON'T HAVE TO YELL, AND I'M NOT A KAIJUU!!!!" Sakura screamed angrily. Touya rolled his eyes.
"Whatever…kaijuu" he said, and left, leaving a very angry Sakura. Then Sakura was confused. All she could remember, was the fight with Windy, and huddling in Syaoran's arms as Windy was about to hit, and she fell unconscious. How did I end up in my room? She thought. She shrugged, o well.. Then her eyes widened.
"HOOOOEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, I'M LATE FOR SCHOOL!!!" Sakura Screamed, and quickly got up, and got dressed. Kero flew out from his drawer, sleepily, rubbing his eyes, looking at Sakura, running all over the room, getting ready. He was tired from yesterday, and didn't bother to ask Sakura what happened last night, he flew back inside to sleep. Sakura rumbled down the stairs.
"Ohayo Otou-san, Ohayo Onii-chan, Ohayo Okaa-san" Sakura greeted everyone, and smiled at the framed picture, Nadeshiko, her passed away okaa-san. ((for those who didn't kno)) She sat down, and gulped down her breakfast quickly.
"Sayonara!!" Sakura said, and left for School, roller skating down the path.
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"Ohayo Tomoyo-Chan!" Sakura greeted Tomoyo.
"Onaji…Sakura-Chan, Daijoubo desu ka?" Tomoyo asked. Sakura looked confused, but then remembered about the incident with Windy yesterday.
"I'm Ok…Are you? I just remember being held in Syaoran's arms, and then everything went black. This morning, I woke up in my own bed," Sakura said. Maybe Yukito-san took me home, Sakura thought. She turned around to see Syaoran slumped on his desk, looking really tired. Sakura looked worried, but class was going to start.
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After school, Sakura ran home first thing, and observed the Windy card. Yukito came over to Sakura's house with Touya.
"Yukito-san!! Arigato for bringing me home yesterday after what happened with the Windy" Sakura said. Yukito smiled.
"I didn't bring you home, I brought Kero and Tomoyo home, Li-kun brought you home," he said. Sakura's eyes widened, and blushed furiously.
"Did I just hear the Chinese gaki's name?!" Touya said angrily from behind them. Sakura Jumped, her face turning red in anger.
"HE'S NOT A GAKI!!" Sakura yelled, and held up a fist playfully. Touya rolled his eyes.
"Kaijuu," He hissed. Sakura stomped on his feet, making Touya jump around holding his foot.
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Sakura sat at her desk with Kero on her shoulder. She observed the Windy card, she couldn't see anything different on it. But half of her wasn't really on the card, she couldn't stop thinking about Syaoran. I wonder if he's still mad at me…. If he is, then why did he save me? But…how can I really expect him to forgive me, when he's tried his best, and I broke my promise? Sakura sighed. She yawned tiredly. She was still weak from the fight. Her eyes wandered around the room until it fell on the phone. She sighed. She walked over to the phone and picked it up. She slowly dialed the first number hesitantly. She dialed the second number, but she couldn't go on, so she slammed the phone down. She stared at the phone longer, and picked it up again. She tried again, and failed. AHHHH it's just a phone call, what's the matter with me?!?! Sakura thought angrily to herself. Kero stared at Sakura, puzzled. He did a face *author's notes: like tis (-.^)* and went to play his video games.
Finally, which seemed like forever, she picked it up, about the billionth time, and this time, dialed all his numbers. She suddenly felt hot, and blood rising up her head, her face was red. She felt the urge to quickly cut the connection, but it was too late, he picked it up.
"Moshi Moshi, Li residence," A tired voice came onto the phone.
"ehhh…Konnichiwa Li-Kun," Sakura said, still blushing.
"Sakura?" Syaoran asked, surprised.
"Hai…" Sakura replied.
"Ohh…ehh...ano..what can I help you with?" he said, while blushing.
"Ano…I just wanted to say domo arigato for taking me home yesterday," Sakura said quietly. Syaoran's face turned bright red.
"H-h-how'd you know it was me?" He asked.
"Yukito-San told me," Sakura said.
"O.-oh…" he said.
"…." They were silent.
"Li-kun…watashi…watashi.." Sakura studdered,…unsure of what she should say.
"Watashi-," Sakura was going to say something, when.
"Gomen Nasai, got to go now, Ja ne," Syaoran quickly said. Sakura felt disappointed, but relieved at the same time. Syaoran was going to hang up, when,
"Li-kun?" Sakura asked in a small voice
"hai?" Syaoran replied.
"…never mind…oyasumi," Sakura said, and hung up. She sighed.
Syaoran stared at the phone in his hand. He knew Sakura couldn't love him, and she was happy with Tasaoran. Syaoran felt anger boil his blood when he thought of Tasaoran. He wanted to forgive her, but he couldn't find it in him to do so.
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That night, Syaoran was in his bed,
Where am I? Syaoran looked around the darkness. Then he saw
a person walking up to him. "Who are you?!" Syaoran yelled. Then the person came closer to him. Syaoran's eyes widened as he saw the figure staring back at him……… It was himself. There, stood a Syaoran. "What is going on?! WHO ARE YOU?!" Syaoran yelled. The person just smiled. "Who do you think I am? I'm exactly what you see" He said softly. Syaoran shook his head violently. "IIE!! Can't be! I'm Right Here, There can't be 2 me!"
"I'm you…I'm the person that you've kept in yourself for so long. Do you love Sakura?" He asked. Syaoran said, "h-h-hai…I mean iie…ahhhhhh", he said in frustration. The person smiled. "You Do….so if you really do…then why are you being so selfish?? Why are you locking away Sakura's happiness? If you really love her…. It shouldn't matter what she did, it shouldn't matter if she will be with you….it should matter if she's happy. Right now you don't have the right to say you love her. You don't have the right to say that at all, because if you DO love her you'd reach the highest level of love, whcih is to learn to let go…….".
The person finished, and disappeared.
Syaoran woke up in a cold sweat. He breathed sharp breaths, and reflected on what the dream meant. You Don't have the right to say you love her. You don't have the right to say that at all, because if you DO love her, the highest level of love, is to learn to let go. Let go….let go…let go… Syaoran kept thinking about it the whole night.
To let go?
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Author's notes: wow I'm done…I know to some of you, it's short…I'm sorry about that, but I'm trying. I'll get the next chapter started after this. The last part of this chapter, in the dream Syaoran had, I'm sorry if it's a little confusing, if anyone doesn't understand, I'd be happy to explain. Plz review, and any comments is accepted. ^^
Japanese Translations:
Kaijuu: Monster
Gaki- Brat
Hoe- Sakura's made up expression
Ohayo- Good morning
Otou-san- father
Onii-chan -Older brother
Okaa-san- mother
Sayonara- Good Bye
Onaji- Same
Daijoubo desu ka- Are you ok?
Moshi Moshi- Hello, on the telephone, e.x Cantonese- Wai
Konnichiwa- Hi
Ano- Umm
Watashi- me/I
Gomen Nasai- So Sorry
Hai- Yes
Oyasumi-Good night
Iie-No