Kuchi ni dasanai nozomi [unsaid wish]
Disclaimer: Characters belong to the great Minekura-sama. I just borrowed them without permission. ^^|
Warning: Seinin-ai and OOC. Read at your own risk
Note: This is my first posted Saiyuki fic so be gentle with your criticisms.
Dozo... Otanoshimi
Chapter 1 : Ugokanai Ai
Gojyo and Hakkai were sitting on the jeep mode Hakuryuu waiting for their other two companions. Sanzo was still inside the inn paying for their overnight stay while Goku was doing an errand for Sanzo, to be more specific buying cigarette for Sanzo.
"Oi, How are you doing?" Gojyo asked with a cigarette between his teeth.
Hakkai's lips thinned to a ghostly smile then placed his forehead on the steering wheel. He knew what Gojyo was really asking.
"A love that can't be attained"
Gojyo snickered. "Oi, You can only say that after you tried" he said after he took a long drag of his cigarette.
Hakkai sighed again and leaned backward so his face was directly towards the cloudless blue sky.
"What a fine weather, isn't it?".
Hakkai heard a curse came forth from Gojyo's lips before he said dryly "Evasive aren't you?"
The brown-haired demon stretched his hand palm up towards the sun blocking the beams of sunlight hurting his eyes. He watched as beams of sunlight spilled through the space between his fingers and into his face. His voice was filled with defeat and sadness as he muttered "Even if I'll try it would still be an unattainable love. It's vexing to know that but still I hope…". Then he closed his hand as if plucking the bright sun from the blue sky "That one day such love will be attainable". He brought his clenched hand down at the same time sitting erectly. He watched as he slowly opened his hand "I will live hoping and waiting for that day".
Gojyo chuckled as he watched Hakkai's hand then he placed his hand over Hakkai's in a sympathetic manner "Who knows that day is just near or it is just tomorrow".
Hakkai in reply smiled at him. "Wish its you that I love" he stated quietly.
Gojyo smiled "I guess we're just meant to be friend. But if you want I can give you what you want" he added flirtatiously.
"I wonder what are we meant to be?…"
That question hang between them, unable to continue the conversation because Goku was already within earshot.
The conversations happened this morning and now under the shade of a fig tree they'd just eaten lunch very late. A curled Hakuryuu was sleeping peacefully between two big roots. A smoking Gojyo was sprawled on the ground in an artless sophistication while Goku was STILL eating.
"I'll be back" was all Hakkai said before he stood up and treaded the path that was treaded by a particular person just few minutes ago.
Hakkai remembered what his friend told him two nights ago.
~ FLASHBACK ~
If you're content by loving him in silence then fine. Just do whatever you want. I'll respect your decision even if it pains me" Gojyo told him sincerely.
~ END OF FLASHBACK ~
What he's about to do is his decision. At least he won't regret anything when he'll die whenever that happens.
"Sanzo, can we talk?" Hakkai asked the man sitting on the big rock, smoking and staring into space. He watched as Sanzo stubbed his cigarette on the rock's surface, tossed it to the ground and lit another cigarette. Today was one of those days when Sanzo was in a bad mood for no reason at all or so that's what they thought.
Silence between them stretched which made Hakkai nervous. Finally Sanzo looked at him expectantly and Hakkai took it as permission. He walked forward and stood in front of the monk. The second he was standing in front of Sanzo, his throat became dry as cotton. Where did his carefully prepared speech go? He wondered nervously. The green-eyed demon could make out the irritation crossing on Sanzo's face when he didn't start talking. Hakkai's lips thinned to a nervous smile.
"Sanzo" he started then inhaled deeply "with everything I have I love you. Always".
~~ Tsuzuku ~~
Author's notes: Etou... I hope you like the first part because there are 2 more parts coming.