Chapter 6
Rating: R. Ahead will be slash and a lot of violence. And I mean a lot.
Disclaimer: Me? Own Harry Potter? I do!? YES!!!!! I can't believe it! I'm actually JK Rowling! YAY!!!!!! Um.... was that believable? Then I'm not JK Rowling, who owns Harry Potter.
Authror's Note: Crap! I forgot to fucking save when I was writing this chapter a few nights ago. So then I had to start it over again! Urgh!! It sucked. Oh well.
Anyone know a band called Simple Plan? I saw them in concert on the 29th of December AND I got to meet them!!!!!!! It was like a dream come true. I got to hug Pierre (one of THE sexiest people in the world) and David and Jeff and I'm so unbelievably happy!!! I'm wearing the shirt Pierre signed for me! Ahem. Sorry.
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What to say about this chapter? I daresay you'll like it! There's some slash at the very beginning. Remember. This fic really is rated R. There's a reason for that. I am making this fairly explicit, although I refuse to make it smut. I think it's just some much anticipated slash. If you don't like the thought of two men in "that" way, then please save me and yourself the trouble. Just don't read it. Enjoy!
Everyone had gone down to breakfast except me. It was oddly dark in the room. I lay in bed thinking about my life and the people in it, not really caring that I was nude. A blanket covered the bottom half of my body, and my arms were behind my head, pillowing it.
The door the the dormitory creaked open. I was enjoying the feeling of just lying there. So much, I forgot to wrench the hangings around my four poster shut. Not that it mattered terribly. Nothing no one in my dormitory hadn't seen before. Not that I stripped regularly, but you know.
I didn't look to see who was there. That was a very bad thing. Suddenly, I felt something slip into my bed with me. A very naked something. And the something began to plant hot, sexy kisses on the corners of my mouth. I was terrified and strangely aroused. Who was this someone? For I could tell that it was actually a person. And a boy! And I liked it!
He pinned me to the bed with his body, our erections rubbing together through the felt of the blanket. He put his hand on the back of my head, slowly pulling the blanket out from under him. I couldn't let whoever it was do anything to me until I found out who it was. But it was so dark. Which was odd, as it was morning. I pushed my hands up to meet the feel of his hair and gasped.
"Draco?" I demanded. He placed a finger to my mouth, and I knew that of course it was him. His face became visible through the glim of the room. It was a beautiful face.
"Harry," he muttered and I felt my erection throb painfully, "If you don't want me here, I'll leave. I just came to see you." Time stopped as he waited for my answer. I knew what I should have said, but what actually came out was:
"I don't want you to leave, Draco. I want you to take me, right here." Did I really? Draco smiled. He told me to relax and and entered me, gasping out my name. It was truly beautiful to hear him say my name like that. I thrust upward hard and he screamed my name.
Just when we were about to come simultaneously, I sat up in bed.
First I wondered why I had woken up before he and I had explored each other mercilessly. Then I wondered why the hell I'd had a wet dream about Draco, of all people, and not my girlfriend.
That's when I realized I was indeed attracted to guys, and perhaps even a certain Slytherin. But I was too stubbourn to admit it right then. After all, I was engaged to Ginny.
I dressed and left the Gryffindor common room, making my way down to the Great Hall. I went in to see Hermione and Ron. They were eating a piece of toast, one of them at each end. I sat down and watched them. They ate the toast and met at the end with a kiss.
"That's really not all it's cracked up to be," Ron muttered, "We both had toast in our mouths."
"Yes, that rather ruins the moment," Hermione admitted and I smirked at them.
"I hate to admit it, because you're my best friends and all, but you two really make the cutest couple at Hogwarts," I said. Hermione and Ron smiled at me and linked their hands together upon the tabletop.
"Really Harry Potter? I rather though we were the cutest," Ginny said, sitting down next to me. I put my arm around her and pulled her closer. I caught Hermione's searching look and then she turned back to Ron. I turned my face and caught her mouth with mine, all the while thinking of Draco's hot mouth and not Ginny's cold one. I pulled away because it was disturbing.
Ginny picked up an apple and bit into it.
Parvarti and Lavender suddenly quealed so loud all of us cringed. "Let us see the ring!" they screamed in unison. Ginny held it out happily and all three of them began talking about it.
"Corr," I said, "I've got a mall rat girlfriend!" Ginny whipped around and smacked me playfully.
"Oh!" Parvarti said, and she leaned in closer. For some reason all of us listened. "You'll never believe the gossip I heard last night!"
"Yes," Lavender said, "Quite shocking to be honest. Rather a shame as well."
"Did you hear?" Parvarti asked and we all leaned forward in interest, "Draco Malfoy is gay." There was silence. Then a Gryffindor who'd been sitting not too far away jumped to her feet and ran to the Ravenclaw table. She proceeded to tell some friends, who told their friends, who told the Hufflepuff table, who in turn burst out laughing and got Justin Finch- Fletchey to walk over to Pansy Parkinson and say loudly, for the whole hall to hear, "If it true you're so ugly you turned Draco Malfoy gay?" That caused everyone to crack up. Even us at our table were crying with mirth.
"I can't help but think all the good ones are taken," Parvarti said, "Draco's off limits to us now. Horrible, really. I used to imagine that he didn't wear any trousers under his robes. I remember a couple times I almost reached right up there." Hermione, Ron, Ginny, Seamus Finnigan and Dean Thomas (who had just arrived), and I stared at her.
"I didn't know you cared," said a drawling voice at my right. I glanced up to see Draco standing there, grinning widely. My hands clenched as I felt my arousal through all my clothing. I looked at Pansy and calmed down. The hall went silent. He sat down in the empty spot next to me.
"Hello," he said loudly to the hall after a few more moments of complete silence. Ron laughed and then other people followed suit. The school broke out into babble again.
"I can't believe I never realized you swing that way," Ron said, "But it's fine. As long as you're not attracted to me." Draco smirked.
"Don't flatter yourself," he said and Ron laughed again.
"He prefers black hair," Hermione said and Draco glared at her.
"Yes," he admitted, "That guy over there is rather sexy."
"So am I," Seamus said. He really was rather vain. I found myself laughing hysterically and I had to stuff some bread in my mouth. Draco glanced at me, amused, before answering.
"You're just a bit too Irish for me," Draco said.
"Hey!" Seamus shouted indignantly.
"Just kidding. You've got a sexy look about you.... especially that Irish accent. Mine's so British... nothing like yours." Seamus grinned from ear to ear.
"You know who had a great accent," Colin Creevey inquired, sitting beside Draco, "Oliver Wood. He tickled my fancy." Draco burst out laughing. The sight was amazing. I think anyone wuld agree with me. He pounded the table with his fists, laughter filling the hall. He threw his blonde head back and laughed. It was truly adorable. (A/N: Can't you just see Draco doing that? Oh that sexy body, convulsing with laughter. Right... on with the story).
"It's hard for me to imagine anyone tickling *your* fancy," Malfoy said after he'd stopped giggling, "But I agree with you. Oliver Wood was sexy. I think I fancied him in third year, even though I didn't know I was gay then."
For some reason, when he said that, I felt a little resentful. I'm not sure why. I just got a bit angry.
"I love blondes," Colin said.
"Me too," Everyone except Draco said. He smiled.
"I'm honoured, really. But I'm just not attracted to any of you," he said. Bread rolls flew at him from all directions. That was when Blaise Zabini and Pansy Parkinson came up behind Draco. Zabini smacked Draco upside the head (A/N: That's the funniest expression I've ever heard) and Draco promptly turned around.
"Blaise...." he greeted.
"Get up," Zabini ordered. Draco got up and faced Blaise.
"I know you want a piece of me, but you're not my type," Draco said. Hermione ducked under the table to hide her laughter.
"How dare you. Accuse me of being a fucking pouffe? I'm not abnormal, like you!" he spat. Snape was walking toward the Gryffindor table.
"Oh.... abnormal as in that I'm attracted to guys? Honey," he said, "I'm sorry if you're jealous, but I just don't want to lie to you." He put his hands on Zabini's shoulders in what looked like much more than just a friendly gesture.
"You fag!" he shouted. Snape stopped dead in his tracks.
"Zabini. Who are you using such language with?" Snape asked, his voice dangerously low.
"Draco! Haven't you heard? He's gay." There was silence, as Snape gave Draco a calculating look. Then Zabini gave Draco a *disgusted* look, "I can't believe you're gay."
"I can't believe you're still here," Draco shot back and Ron grinned. Zabini then shoved Draco, and Draco shoved him back. Next moment, they were rolling on the ground, throwing punches at each other. Draco rolled over on top of Zabini. I couldn't help but remember my dream.
"Bet you're loving this," Zabini gasped out, as Draco was strangling him.
"No," Draco said, panting, "Like I said, I DON'T fancy you." The comment was met with a knee in Draco's groin. Draco yelled angrily and his fist shot out, catching Zabini in the jaw. The Great Hall was a frenzy. People ran repeatedly backward from the two quarreling boys. They were fighting right in front of Snape!
"Don't bite me!" Zabini yelled and Ron cracked up laughing. Draco proceeded to smack Zabini's head on the hard floor. Snape tried to pry the Slytherin off of Draco, but Zabini was having none of it. I was watching, rather amused.
"Help me, Potter. Grab hold of Malfoy!" Snape ordered. Oh, great. I siezed Draco round the middle and pulled him upright. Unfortunately, Zabini tried to kick Draco, so his foot collided with my knee. I cursed and Snape grabbed Zabini, holding him firmly.
My crotch was brushing against Draco's back. I breathed deeply, thought of Pansy naked, imagined an orgy between lots of Slytherin girls and managed to calm my arousal.
Hermione stepped forward, and much to everyone's surprise, struck Zabini across the face. It echoed!
"If you touch Draco again, you'll have about six Gryffindors ambushing you when you least expect it."
"Yeah," Parvarti and Lavender said together and they slapped him as well.
"You three!" Snape said in a warning voice, "As much as Zabini deserved that, please don't so it again." Parvarti, Lavender and Hermione nodded and then turned their attention to Draco.
"You've got a black eye!" Hermione said in a soothing tone, putting her hand on it. She began fussing over Draco until he told her firmly to stop it.
"I'm fine," Draco insisted. Snape let go of Zabini and he sneered at Draco as he walked by. I was trying not to get intoxicated by the scent of Draco's hair. It was really getting me aroused. I snapped out of my reverie to find Hermione staring at me strangely.
"You can let go of him now," Ginny said. Oops. I quickly peeled myself from Draco and stepped back.
"Are you all right?" I whispered into his ear.
"Yes," he said in a breathless voice, "I'm fine." Ginny jumped to her feet.
"Why don't we go talk by the lake?" she asked. That was when I got another huge shock. I realized that I wanted to spend time with Draco, and not with Ginny.
I figured it was because he'd just been in a fight and told Ginny I wanted to finish eating. We kissed and she left.
I didn't know it then, but I was going to become rather stressed. About love, sex, school, friends and marriage. All of it would be because of Draco. And I wouldn't mind in the least.
*
I skipped along the hallway, humming and jumping on random stairwells. People were staring, but it didn't matter. I was getting married in a few months time, I had the best friends anyone could ask for, there was no sign of Voldemort, and I was doing well in school! Everything was going great. Except one thing.
What Draco had said months ago was beginning to get to me. He'd said that Marrying Ginny wasn't smart if I didn't love her. I was starting to wonder if I really loved Ginny. But I pushed that from my mind as I ran down the corridor. I'd just got perfect on a Potions essay, so I was skipping whether anyone cared or not.
I broke into a run and dashed out of the school. It was Friday, last day of classes before the weekend and I had no more lessons left. I hurried down the steps of the school and slowed to a walk. Ahead of me was Draco. Walking with somewhat of a limp. Come to think of it, I hadn't seen Draco during Potions.
I ran forward, and sort of wished I hadn't. He looked a fright. He was limping because his leg seemed broken. His eye was swollen shut, and his arm hung limply to his side. He had a split lip. And yet he still looked amazing. God, even when he looked like shit, he looked beautiful. Which didn't make sense, but there you are. I grabbed him by the shoulders.
"What happened, Draco?" I demanded, and I knew I sounded frantic.
"Nothing," he muttered. I let go of his shoulders and he wavered. Then he fell forward on to me.
"Don't fucking lie to me, Draco!" I yelled, holding him upright, "This is not *nothing*! Who did this to you? Was it Zabini?" I was hysterical.
"Yes. Crabbe and Goyle too."
"Ugh! And you're still walking?!"
"Hardly," Draco admitted and I put my arm around him to steady him.
"Did they beat you up 'cause you're gay?" I asked.
"No," he said disdainfully. Jesus, even after he got beat up, he could be sarcastic.
"Look. I'll take you to Madam Pomfrey and we'll see what happens. What did happen exactly?" I asked. We began hobbling back toward the school.
"Blaise, Crabbe and Goyle ambushed me before Potions and kicked the shit out of me. I managed to knock out Blaise, as he's really not as strong as he reckons. But that didn't stop Crabbe and Goyle." He was having trouble speaking but he did it anyway.
"So why did you tell people you were gay?" I wondered aloud, then cursed myself for having not thought before speaking.
"I don't really care if they hurt me...." he said, "I'm not going to go around pretending I'm attracted to girls when I'm not. Besides, this way, Pansy isn't hanging off my arm every second." We shuddered in unison, then smiled.
"You know... whenever I get aroused," I said and wondered why the hell I was saying this to Draco at all, "I think of Pansy to calm myself down."
"Me too," Draco said, a smile playing on his lips. It didn't look nearly as attractive as it did without the split lip.
"God," I said. Then I didn't know what else to say, so I didn't say anything. I wondered why he wasn't bringing up the kiss in the classroom, and why he wasn't awkward. I certainly was, practically hugging Draco as we walked into the school and toward the Hospital Wing.
"God what?" Draco asked after a minute of silence.
"Oh... I didn't really have anything planned after that." He laughed, but it was raspy and sounded nothing like the laugh I normally heard from him.
"You know... I thought perhaps you would just ignore me and keep walking," Draco said. I stopped and stared at him.
"Please. Would that be something for Harry Potter to do? Leave a defenseless boy to fend for himself. One who got his ass kicked because of some homophobic idiots. I couldn't do that. Really I couldn't." Draco smirked.
"Never miss a chance to show off, right?" Draco said.
"No. It's not that. I have this conscience (A/N: I can't spell that word) that makes me stop for anyone who's hurt. Actually, once Ron got me with that curse I've got. Part of an April Fools' Day trick I think. We were fighting and I shoved him and he made a show of falling off a flight of stairs. Turns out he'd planned it all along and I fell for it. I actually started crying because I thought he was dead. He's a good actor, that bastard. Even got Hermione in on the trick. She started crying, saying she couldn't feel a pulse. I didn't talk to them for days afterward." Draco was laughing in the entire duration of the story.
We finally reached the Hospital Wing and escorted ourselves in. I sat Draco on a bed and when I turned around, I found Zabini sitting on another bed, staring at us. Something inside me snapped. That asshole had beaten the shit out of Draco. I took two steps foward and slammed my fist into his jaw. He turned his head and his mouth started bleeding.
At that moment, Madam Pomfrey came bustling in.
"Zabini, you should be fine, you just -" she started, then paused as she caught sight of Zabini bleeding all over the place, "What in the world happened here?" She mended Zabini's jaw with a flick of her wand.
"I'm sorry Madam Pomfrey, but Zabini beat up Draco and I had to get him back."
"Twenty points from Gryffindor and be glad it's not more. You let the adults deal with the punishing. Do sit down, while I tend to Mr Malfoy." I nodded and sat down in a chair next to Draco's bed.
"No need to fuss, Madam. I'm prefectly fine."
"You're not perfectly fine! And if you were telling Potter that, then it's a good thing he took you here anyway. You leg is broken, as is your arm. And your eye looks a mess. You'll be here over night. Zabini!" She whipped around and began scolding him.
"Poppy," said a voice at the door, and I gasped when I saw it was Snape, "May I come in and see you newest patients?"
"Yes, yes. Just don't shout at them Severus. Or perhaps Zabini, but Malfoy's ears might pop if you yell at him."
"Right," Snape said and stepped up to Zabini, "I thought I made myself very clear. You are not to hurt Mr Malfoy. Fifty points taken from Slytherin. I don't care how right you think you were. Nothing gives you the right to hurt another student. You'll also be recieving a detention, which you will serve with me. I don't care what you think of Malfoy, I will not have you beating on him. Now apologize."
"I won't apologize to him. He should be punished. Being a homosexual is evil. It says so in the Bible!" Zabini said, "God shall send Draco to Hell."
"I respect your opinion, Blaise," Snape said, but it didn't sound like he did, "But I don't think it gives you the right to hurt Draco. If he is to be punished, let God get on with it. You may go. You'll receive an owl telling you when and where your detention will be." Zabini nodded, shot Draco another disgusted look and stalked out of the infirmary.
"Fool," Snape snapped, turning to Malfoy. I thught I heard him mutter 'There is no God', but the next moment he was yelling at me, "I don't care if he hurt Draco, don't you ever do that again!"
"If defending my friend means I have to get yelled at, punished or hurt in the process, so be it," I said.
"You're not to hurt Zabini again. Even if he hurts Draco."
"Draco is my friend, and I will not stand by -" I was interrupted as Draco stood up.
"Hey! Stop talking about me like I'm not here! I don't care if they want to hurt me. Zabini is merely trying to prove his point. He doesn't believe in being gay."
"But how can you not believe in it?" I exploded, and everyone in the room stared at me, "You're either gay or you're not. It's not like people choose to be gay. You could ask a gay person, and they'd probably say they'd rather not be gay!"
"Harry," Draco said, placing a hand on my arm, "We all agree with you. Tell that to the people who don't." Snape and Madam Pomfrey were nodding.
"I'm sorry," I said, and realized I was crying. I put my arms around Draco, "When I first saw you like that outside.... I just - I was so scared. How could Zabini do that to you, just because you're gay?"
"Because he's scared too," Draco replied. All I could do was hug him harder.
*
"Hermione!" Parvarti shouted, running over to where her, Ron and I were sitting. We were doing our homework.
"Yes Parvarti?" Hermione said absently, flipping through a pamphlet featuring pet food. She wanted to buy come for Crookshanks.
"Is it true you and Draco are going out?" she demanded. There was silence as Ron looked up, rather angrily, Hermione's head snapped up and the pamphlet lay forgotten in front of her. I stared at Hermione, to see her reaction.
"Um...." Hermione said and then she laughed, "Draco's gay."
"Well, there's a rumour going around that he was just pretending to be gay so you two could go out without anyone even thinking of it," Parvarti replied.
"Did you come up with that all by yourself?" Hermione asked.
"Yes. So are you two going out?"
"No, we're not," Hermione answered. Then she started laughing, "Draco really is gay. Plus I've got the perfect guy right here." Hermione linked her arm with Ron's and although he still looked slightly annoyed, he smiled.
"Well. Just so you know. There's another rumour going around that you're seeing Harry behind Ron's back," Parvarti stated.
Ron pulled his arm out of Hermione's and stared pointedly at me.
"Ron!" I said, "Don't even go there. I would never do that to you. Plus I'm with Ginny!"
"Oh.... and they're saying that Hermione's pregnant and that's why you proposed to Ginny. To hide it."
"Parvarti. Have you ever considered shutting your fucking mouth?" I demanded irritably. She looked taken aback.
"I don't really think -"
"No you don't." Hermione smirked. Parvarti sighed and strutted off, accidentally smacking into Neville. Hermione snorted and we high fived. Ron was looking suspicious.
"Oh come on Ron," Hermione snapped, "You know I only like you. I've liked you since first year."
"I know. I'm sorry," Ron said. Hermione kissed him.
"Don't worry about it. Now... I wonder how much this food is?"
I'm sorry this chapter is so short. I wrote that little scene right there because I couldn't help it. It was fun to write.
First of all, before you all jump at me about the whole Zabini believing in God thing, just listen. I know in most stories he's a Death Eater. Well like I said, this isn't going to be like most stories. We're going to be touching upon the religion thing a lot.
Zabini is going to be rather big in this story. Because I recently went to a Bible camp. The camp was retardedly (not a word, I know) conservative. I personally believe exactly what Hermione does in this story. That if two men or women love each other, let them get on with it in peace. They're not hurting anyone. But there are some people who think God thinks it's evil. I believe that God made us who we are and that if we're gay, then it's because God made us gay. I don't think it's a choice, but that's me. So please don't flame me about Zabini believing in God, or not liking that Draco is gay. This is my story, and if I want Zabini to be religious, then damn it he will be.
I put Snape in this chapter because he'll be another big part of this story. Snape's an atheist. (Remember, this is my story). There will be a reason why later on (but perhaps you will figure it out on your own). Please remember that this if Fanfiction (hense the name of this site). I sincerely doubt this will happen in the books. So don't tell me that it won't happen, as I know it won't. 8-)
This story is starting to really earn its rating. I'll be dealing with these subjects because I think they should be dealt with in society. The reason Draco gets hurt in this story is because of something similar that happened at my school. A kid there was gay, and some other kids beat the shit out of him. I think that's wrong. I will probably project lots of my thoughts into this story. Not all of them, of course. But some. I write because it makes me feel better about the things I really can't change. Instead, I write about people coming to and overcoming these obstacles. I hope you understand that. This story being a bit moral. It's a very big part of my life, thus big in my story!
Sorry this Author's Note is so long, but I wanted you to understand those things. Right. So, hope you liked the chapter! Let me know what you thought! Ciao!
Tine
Rating: R. Ahead will be slash and a lot of violence. And I mean a lot.
Disclaimer: Me? Own Harry Potter? I do!? YES!!!!! I can't believe it! I'm actually JK Rowling! YAY!!!!!! Um.... was that believable? Then I'm not JK Rowling, who owns Harry Potter.
Authror's Note: Crap! I forgot to fucking save when I was writing this chapter a few nights ago. So then I had to start it over again! Urgh!! It sucked. Oh well.
Anyone know a band called Simple Plan? I saw them in concert on the 29th of December AND I got to meet them!!!!!!! It was like a dream come true. I got to hug Pierre (one of THE sexiest people in the world) and David and Jeff and I'm so unbelievably happy!!! I'm wearing the shirt Pierre signed for me! Ahem. Sorry.
Okay. I'm not in the greatest of moods today. It is now New Year's Eve. And I got a couple rather unpleasant reviews. So whatever. Don't be surprised if I'm not that happy in my responses. It's very long.
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What to say about this chapter? I daresay you'll like it! There's some slash at the very beginning. Remember. This fic really is rated R. There's a reason for that. I am making this fairly explicit, although I refuse to make it smut. I think it's just some much anticipated slash. If you don't like the thought of two men in "that" way, then please save me and yourself the trouble. Just don't read it. Enjoy!
Everyone had gone down to breakfast except me. It was oddly dark in the room. I lay in bed thinking about my life and the people in it, not really caring that I was nude. A blanket covered the bottom half of my body, and my arms were behind my head, pillowing it.
The door the the dormitory creaked open. I was enjoying the feeling of just lying there. So much, I forgot to wrench the hangings around my four poster shut. Not that it mattered terribly. Nothing no one in my dormitory hadn't seen before. Not that I stripped regularly, but you know.
I didn't look to see who was there. That was a very bad thing. Suddenly, I felt something slip into my bed with me. A very naked something. And the something began to plant hot, sexy kisses on the corners of my mouth. I was terrified and strangely aroused. Who was this someone? For I could tell that it was actually a person. And a boy! And I liked it!
He pinned me to the bed with his body, our erections rubbing together through the felt of the blanket. He put his hand on the back of my head, slowly pulling the blanket out from under him. I couldn't let whoever it was do anything to me until I found out who it was. But it was so dark. Which was odd, as it was morning. I pushed my hands up to meet the feel of his hair and gasped.
"Draco?" I demanded. He placed a finger to my mouth, and I knew that of course it was him. His face became visible through the glim of the room. It was a beautiful face.
"Harry," he muttered and I felt my erection throb painfully, "If you don't want me here, I'll leave. I just came to see you." Time stopped as he waited for my answer. I knew what I should have said, but what actually came out was:
"I don't want you to leave, Draco. I want you to take me, right here." Did I really? Draco smiled. He told me to relax and and entered me, gasping out my name. It was truly beautiful to hear him say my name like that. I thrust upward hard and he screamed my name.
Just when we were about to come simultaneously, I sat up in bed.
First I wondered why I had woken up before he and I had explored each other mercilessly. Then I wondered why the hell I'd had a wet dream about Draco, of all people, and not my girlfriend.
That's when I realized I was indeed attracted to guys, and perhaps even a certain Slytherin. But I was too stubbourn to admit it right then. After all, I was engaged to Ginny.
I dressed and left the Gryffindor common room, making my way down to the Great Hall. I went in to see Hermione and Ron. They were eating a piece of toast, one of them at each end. I sat down and watched them. They ate the toast and met at the end with a kiss.
"That's really not all it's cracked up to be," Ron muttered, "We both had toast in our mouths."
"Yes, that rather ruins the moment," Hermione admitted and I smirked at them.
"I hate to admit it, because you're my best friends and all, but you two really make the cutest couple at Hogwarts," I said. Hermione and Ron smiled at me and linked their hands together upon the tabletop.
"Really Harry Potter? I rather though we were the cutest," Ginny said, sitting down next to me. I put my arm around her and pulled her closer. I caught Hermione's searching look and then she turned back to Ron. I turned my face and caught her mouth with mine, all the while thinking of Draco's hot mouth and not Ginny's cold one. I pulled away because it was disturbing.
Ginny picked up an apple and bit into it.
Parvarti and Lavender suddenly quealed so loud all of us cringed. "Let us see the ring!" they screamed in unison. Ginny held it out happily and all three of them began talking about it.
"Corr," I said, "I've got a mall rat girlfriend!" Ginny whipped around and smacked me playfully.
"Oh!" Parvarti said, and she leaned in closer. For some reason all of us listened. "You'll never believe the gossip I heard last night!"
"Yes," Lavender said, "Quite shocking to be honest. Rather a shame as well."
"Did you hear?" Parvarti asked and we all leaned forward in interest, "Draco Malfoy is gay." There was silence. Then a Gryffindor who'd been sitting not too far away jumped to her feet and ran to the Ravenclaw table. She proceeded to tell some friends, who told their friends, who told the Hufflepuff table, who in turn burst out laughing and got Justin Finch- Fletchey to walk over to Pansy Parkinson and say loudly, for the whole hall to hear, "If it true you're so ugly you turned Draco Malfoy gay?" That caused everyone to crack up. Even us at our table were crying with mirth.
"I can't help but think all the good ones are taken," Parvarti said, "Draco's off limits to us now. Horrible, really. I used to imagine that he didn't wear any trousers under his robes. I remember a couple times I almost reached right up there." Hermione, Ron, Ginny, Seamus Finnigan and Dean Thomas (who had just arrived), and I stared at her.
"I didn't know you cared," said a drawling voice at my right. I glanced up to see Draco standing there, grinning widely. My hands clenched as I felt my arousal through all my clothing. I looked at Pansy and calmed down. The hall went silent. He sat down in the empty spot next to me.
"Hello," he said loudly to the hall after a few more moments of complete silence. Ron laughed and then other people followed suit. The school broke out into babble again.
"I can't believe I never realized you swing that way," Ron said, "But it's fine. As long as you're not attracted to me." Draco smirked.
"Don't flatter yourself," he said and Ron laughed again.
"He prefers black hair," Hermione said and Draco glared at her.
"Yes," he admitted, "That guy over there is rather sexy."
"So am I," Seamus said. He really was rather vain. I found myself laughing hysterically and I had to stuff some bread in my mouth. Draco glanced at me, amused, before answering.
"You're just a bit too Irish for me," Draco said.
"Hey!" Seamus shouted indignantly.
"Just kidding. You've got a sexy look about you.... especially that Irish accent. Mine's so British... nothing like yours." Seamus grinned from ear to ear.
"You know who had a great accent," Colin Creevey inquired, sitting beside Draco, "Oliver Wood. He tickled my fancy." Draco burst out laughing. The sight was amazing. I think anyone wuld agree with me. He pounded the table with his fists, laughter filling the hall. He threw his blonde head back and laughed. It was truly adorable. (A/N: Can't you just see Draco doing that? Oh that sexy body, convulsing with laughter. Right... on with the story).
"It's hard for me to imagine anyone tickling *your* fancy," Malfoy said after he'd stopped giggling, "But I agree with you. Oliver Wood was sexy. I think I fancied him in third year, even though I didn't know I was gay then."
For some reason, when he said that, I felt a little resentful. I'm not sure why. I just got a bit angry.
"I love blondes," Colin said.
"Me too," Everyone except Draco said. He smiled.
"I'm honoured, really. But I'm just not attracted to any of you," he said. Bread rolls flew at him from all directions. That was when Blaise Zabini and Pansy Parkinson came up behind Draco. Zabini smacked Draco upside the head (A/N: That's the funniest expression I've ever heard) and Draco promptly turned around.
"Blaise...." he greeted.
"Get up," Zabini ordered. Draco got up and faced Blaise.
"I know you want a piece of me, but you're not my type," Draco said. Hermione ducked under the table to hide her laughter.
"How dare you. Accuse me of being a fucking pouffe? I'm not abnormal, like you!" he spat. Snape was walking toward the Gryffindor table.
"Oh.... abnormal as in that I'm attracted to guys? Honey," he said, "I'm sorry if you're jealous, but I just don't want to lie to you." He put his hands on Zabini's shoulders in what looked like much more than just a friendly gesture.
"You fag!" he shouted. Snape stopped dead in his tracks.
"Zabini. Who are you using such language with?" Snape asked, his voice dangerously low.
"Draco! Haven't you heard? He's gay." There was silence, as Snape gave Draco a calculating look. Then Zabini gave Draco a *disgusted* look, "I can't believe you're gay."
"I can't believe you're still here," Draco shot back and Ron grinned. Zabini then shoved Draco, and Draco shoved him back. Next moment, they were rolling on the ground, throwing punches at each other. Draco rolled over on top of Zabini. I couldn't help but remember my dream.
"Bet you're loving this," Zabini gasped out, as Draco was strangling him.
"No," Draco said, panting, "Like I said, I DON'T fancy you." The comment was met with a knee in Draco's groin. Draco yelled angrily and his fist shot out, catching Zabini in the jaw. The Great Hall was a frenzy. People ran repeatedly backward from the two quarreling boys. They were fighting right in front of Snape!
"Don't bite me!" Zabini yelled and Ron cracked up laughing. Draco proceeded to smack Zabini's head on the hard floor. Snape tried to pry the Slytherin off of Draco, but Zabini was having none of it. I was watching, rather amused.
"Help me, Potter. Grab hold of Malfoy!" Snape ordered. Oh, great. I siezed Draco round the middle and pulled him upright. Unfortunately, Zabini tried to kick Draco, so his foot collided with my knee. I cursed and Snape grabbed Zabini, holding him firmly.
My crotch was brushing against Draco's back. I breathed deeply, thought of Pansy naked, imagined an orgy between lots of Slytherin girls and managed to calm my arousal.
Hermione stepped forward, and much to everyone's surprise, struck Zabini across the face. It echoed!
"If you touch Draco again, you'll have about six Gryffindors ambushing you when you least expect it."
"Yeah," Parvarti and Lavender said together and they slapped him as well.
"You three!" Snape said in a warning voice, "As much as Zabini deserved that, please don't so it again." Parvarti, Lavender and Hermione nodded and then turned their attention to Draco.
"You've got a black eye!" Hermione said in a soothing tone, putting her hand on it. She began fussing over Draco until he told her firmly to stop it.
"I'm fine," Draco insisted. Snape let go of Zabini and he sneered at Draco as he walked by. I was trying not to get intoxicated by the scent of Draco's hair. It was really getting me aroused. I snapped out of my reverie to find Hermione staring at me strangely.
"You can let go of him now," Ginny said. Oops. I quickly peeled myself from Draco and stepped back.
"Are you all right?" I whispered into his ear.
"Yes," he said in a breathless voice, "I'm fine." Ginny jumped to her feet.
"Why don't we go talk by the lake?" she asked. That was when I got another huge shock. I realized that I wanted to spend time with Draco, and not with Ginny.
I figured it was because he'd just been in a fight and told Ginny I wanted to finish eating. We kissed and she left.
I didn't know it then, but I was going to become rather stressed. About love, sex, school, friends and marriage. All of it would be because of Draco. And I wouldn't mind in the least.
*
I skipped along the hallway, humming and jumping on random stairwells. People were staring, but it didn't matter. I was getting married in a few months time, I had the best friends anyone could ask for, there was no sign of Voldemort, and I was doing well in school! Everything was going great. Except one thing.
What Draco had said months ago was beginning to get to me. He'd said that Marrying Ginny wasn't smart if I didn't love her. I was starting to wonder if I really loved Ginny. But I pushed that from my mind as I ran down the corridor. I'd just got perfect on a Potions essay, so I was skipping whether anyone cared or not.
I broke into a run and dashed out of the school. It was Friday, last day of classes before the weekend and I had no more lessons left. I hurried down the steps of the school and slowed to a walk. Ahead of me was Draco. Walking with somewhat of a limp. Come to think of it, I hadn't seen Draco during Potions.
I ran forward, and sort of wished I hadn't. He looked a fright. He was limping because his leg seemed broken. His eye was swollen shut, and his arm hung limply to his side. He had a split lip. And yet he still looked amazing. God, even when he looked like shit, he looked beautiful. Which didn't make sense, but there you are. I grabbed him by the shoulders.
"What happened, Draco?" I demanded, and I knew I sounded frantic.
"Nothing," he muttered. I let go of his shoulders and he wavered. Then he fell forward on to me.
"Don't fucking lie to me, Draco!" I yelled, holding him upright, "This is not *nothing*! Who did this to you? Was it Zabini?" I was hysterical.
"Yes. Crabbe and Goyle too."
"Ugh! And you're still walking?!"
"Hardly," Draco admitted and I put my arm around him to steady him.
"Did they beat you up 'cause you're gay?" I asked.
"No," he said disdainfully. Jesus, even after he got beat up, he could be sarcastic.
"Look. I'll take you to Madam Pomfrey and we'll see what happens. What did happen exactly?" I asked. We began hobbling back toward the school.
"Blaise, Crabbe and Goyle ambushed me before Potions and kicked the shit out of me. I managed to knock out Blaise, as he's really not as strong as he reckons. But that didn't stop Crabbe and Goyle." He was having trouble speaking but he did it anyway.
"So why did you tell people you were gay?" I wondered aloud, then cursed myself for having not thought before speaking.
"I don't really care if they hurt me...." he said, "I'm not going to go around pretending I'm attracted to girls when I'm not. Besides, this way, Pansy isn't hanging off my arm every second." We shuddered in unison, then smiled.
"You know... whenever I get aroused," I said and wondered why the hell I was saying this to Draco at all, "I think of Pansy to calm myself down."
"Me too," Draco said, a smile playing on his lips. It didn't look nearly as attractive as it did without the split lip.
"God," I said. Then I didn't know what else to say, so I didn't say anything. I wondered why he wasn't bringing up the kiss in the classroom, and why he wasn't awkward. I certainly was, practically hugging Draco as we walked into the school and toward the Hospital Wing.
"God what?" Draco asked after a minute of silence.
"Oh... I didn't really have anything planned after that." He laughed, but it was raspy and sounded nothing like the laugh I normally heard from him.
"You know... I thought perhaps you would just ignore me and keep walking," Draco said. I stopped and stared at him.
"Please. Would that be something for Harry Potter to do? Leave a defenseless boy to fend for himself. One who got his ass kicked because of some homophobic idiots. I couldn't do that. Really I couldn't." Draco smirked.
"Never miss a chance to show off, right?" Draco said.
"No. It's not that. I have this conscience (A/N: I can't spell that word) that makes me stop for anyone who's hurt. Actually, once Ron got me with that curse I've got. Part of an April Fools' Day trick I think. We were fighting and I shoved him and he made a show of falling off a flight of stairs. Turns out he'd planned it all along and I fell for it. I actually started crying because I thought he was dead. He's a good actor, that bastard. Even got Hermione in on the trick. She started crying, saying she couldn't feel a pulse. I didn't talk to them for days afterward." Draco was laughing in the entire duration of the story.
We finally reached the Hospital Wing and escorted ourselves in. I sat Draco on a bed and when I turned around, I found Zabini sitting on another bed, staring at us. Something inside me snapped. That asshole had beaten the shit out of Draco. I took two steps foward and slammed my fist into his jaw. He turned his head and his mouth started bleeding.
At that moment, Madam Pomfrey came bustling in.
"Zabini, you should be fine, you just -" she started, then paused as she caught sight of Zabini bleeding all over the place, "What in the world happened here?" She mended Zabini's jaw with a flick of her wand.
"I'm sorry Madam Pomfrey, but Zabini beat up Draco and I had to get him back."
"Twenty points from Gryffindor and be glad it's not more. You let the adults deal with the punishing. Do sit down, while I tend to Mr Malfoy." I nodded and sat down in a chair next to Draco's bed.
"No need to fuss, Madam. I'm prefectly fine."
"You're not perfectly fine! And if you were telling Potter that, then it's a good thing he took you here anyway. You leg is broken, as is your arm. And your eye looks a mess. You'll be here over night. Zabini!" She whipped around and began scolding him.
"Poppy," said a voice at the door, and I gasped when I saw it was Snape, "May I come in and see you newest patients?"
"Yes, yes. Just don't shout at them Severus. Or perhaps Zabini, but Malfoy's ears might pop if you yell at him."
"Right," Snape said and stepped up to Zabini, "I thought I made myself very clear. You are not to hurt Mr Malfoy. Fifty points taken from Slytherin. I don't care how right you think you were. Nothing gives you the right to hurt another student. You'll also be recieving a detention, which you will serve with me. I don't care what you think of Malfoy, I will not have you beating on him. Now apologize."
"I won't apologize to him. He should be punished. Being a homosexual is evil. It says so in the Bible!" Zabini said, "God shall send Draco to Hell."
"I respect your opinion, Blaise," Snape said, but it didn't sound like he did, "But I don't think it gives you the right to hurt Draco. If he is to be punished, let God get on with it. You may go. You'll receive an owl telling you when and where your detention will be." Zabini nodded, shot Draco another disgusted look and stalked out of the infirmary.
"Fool," Snape snapped, turning to Malfoy. I thught I heard him mutter 'There is no God', but the next moment he was yelling at me, "I don't care if he hurt Draco, don't you ever do that again!"
"If defending my friend means I have to get yelled at, punished or hurt in the process, so be it," I said.
"You're not to hurt Zabini again. Even if he hurts Draco."
"Draco is my friend, and I will not stand by -" I was interrupted as Draco stood up.
"Hey! Stop talking about me like I'm not here! I don't care if they want to hurt me. Zabini is merely trying to prove his point. He doesn't believe in being gay."
"But how can you not believe in it?" I exploded, and everyone in the room stared at me, "You're either gay or you're not. It's not like people choose to be gay. You could ask a gay person, and they'd probably say they'd rather not be gay!"
"Harry," Draco said, placing a hand on my arm, "We all agree with you. Tell that to the people who don't." Snape and Madam Pomfrey were nodding.
"I'm sorry," I said, and realized I was crying. I put my arms around Draco, "When I first saw you like that outside.... I just - I was so scared. How could Zabini do that to you, just because you're gay?"
"Because he's scared too," Draco replied. All I could do was hug him harder.
*
"Hermione!" Parvarti shouted, running over to where her, Ron and I were sitting. We were doing our homework.
"Yes Parvarti?" Hermione said absently, flipping through a pamphlet featuring pet food. She wanted to buy come for Crookshanks.
"Is it true you and Draco are going out?" she demanded. There was silence as Ron looked up, rather angrily, Hermione's head snapped up and the pamphlet lay forgotten in front of her. I stared at Hermione, to see her reaction.
"Um...." Hermione said and then she laughed, "Draco's gay."
"Well, there's a rumour going around that he was just pretending to be gay so you two could go out without anyone even thinking of it," Parvarti replied.
"Did you come up with that all by yourself?" Hermione asked.
"Yes. So are you two going out?"
"No, we're not," Hermione answered. Then she started laughing, "Draco really is gay. Plus I've got the perfect guy right here." Hermione linked her arm with Ron's and although he still looked slightly annoyed, he smiled.
"Well. Just so you know. There's another rumour going around that you're seeing Harry behind Ron's back," Parvarti stated.
Ron pulled his arm out of Hermione's and stared pointedly at me.
"Ron!" I said, "Don't even go there. I would never do that to you. Plus I'm with Ginny!"
"Oh.... and they're saying that Hermione's pregnant and that's why you proposed to Ginny. To hide it."
"Parvarti. Have you ever considered shutting your fucking mouth?" I demanded irritably. She looked taken aback.
"I don't really think -"
"No you don't." Hermione smirked. Parvarti sighed and strutted off, accidentally smacking into Neville. Hermione snorted and we high fived. Ron was looking suspicious.
"Oh come on Ron," Hermione snapped, "You know I only like you. I've liked you since first year."
"I know. I'm sorry," Ron said. Hermione kissed him.
"Don't worry about it. Now... I wonder how much this food is?"
I'm sorry this chapter is so short. I wrote that little scene right there because I couldn't help it. It was fun to write.
First of all, before you all jump at me about the whole Zabini believing in God thing, just listen. I know in most stories he's a Death Eater. Well like I said, this isn't going to be like most stories. We're going to be touching upon the religion thing a lot.
Zabini is going to be rather big in this story. Because I recently went to a Bible camp. The camp was retardedly (not a word, I know) conservative. I personally believe exactly what Hermione does in this story. That if two men or women love each other, let them get on with it in peace. They're not hurting anyone. But there are some people who think God thinks it's evil. I believe that God made us who we are and that if we're gay, then it's because God made us gay. I don't think it's a choice, but that's me. So please don't flame me about Zabini believing in God, or not liking that Draco is gay. This is my story, and if I want Zabini to be religious, then damn it he will be.
I put Snape in this chapter because he'll be another big part of this story. Snape's an atheist. (Remember, this is my story). There will be a reason why later on (but perhaps you will figure it out on your own). Please remember that this if Fanfiction (hense the name of this site). I sincerely doubt this will happen in the books. So don't tell me that it won't happen, as I know it won't. 8-)
This story is starting to really earn its rating. I'll be dealing with these subjects because I think they should be dealt with in society. The reason Draco gets hurt in this story is because of something similar that happened at my school. A kid there was gay, and some other kids beat the shit out of him. I think that's wrong. I will probably project lots of my thoughts into this story. Not all of them, of course. But some. I write because it makes me feel better about the things I really can't change. Instead, I write about people coming to and overcoming these obstacles. I hope you understand that. This story being a bit moral. It's a very big part of my life, thus big in my story!
Sorry this Author's Note is so long, but I wanted you to understand those things. Right. So, hope you liked the chapter! Let me know what you thought! Ciao!
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