Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha or any other cast members, but he owns my
heart. (hehe) Anyway, I hope you all enjoyed my first chapter, and I hope
you all reviewed. I really enjoy getting reviews; it makes me so happy to
know that you all picked to read my story, even if you were just browsing.
Well, I hope you enjoy the second chapter too, and don't forget to review!
Chapter 2: Pains of the Heart
Inuyasha stood there, unable to move, mesmerized from the three powerful words that had just escaped her mouth. He couldn't believe the sounds that he heard in his ears. Those three words made his whole body shiver.
'Is this real?'
He couldn't find the strength to move nor speak. His thoughts were spinning out of control, his heart began to race, and it even skipped a few beats. His head slowly began to sweat. Several images of him and Kagome, even him and Kikyo flashed before his eyes.
'Does she really love me?'
His amber eyes starred into the peaceful evening.
Kagome glanced up at him to see his reaction. She gazed into his eyes; they seemed clouded with pain. She carefully studied the expression on his face. She thought hard for a moment, and then was hit with a horrible thought.
'What if, what if he doesn't love me? What if he hates me now for saying that? What if...oh know.'
Kagome's eyes became glazed with a sheet of tears. She tried to blink them back, but to no avail. She then decided to speak. The eerie silence was scarring her.
"Inuyasha, please say something?"
She held her hands together, hoping for some kind of response. Nothing. She looked him deeply into his eyes.
'He seems lost, troubled. Have I done this?'
Her eyes swelled up with tears once more.
'Does she really love me? Or is this her idea of a sick joke?'
He sighed, and then realized that it wasn't a joke. His heart began to beat faster, and his palms became sweaty. He slowly blinked his eyes as his mind was brought back to reality. He noticed that Kagome's eyes were gazing deeply into his. His heart filled with pain when he saw her crying.
"Inuyasha, why won't you speak? You're...you're scarring me."
Kagome leaned forward, extending her arm. She reached for Inuyasha, but was rejected when he moved it away from her reach. He didn't want to, but something inside his body forced him to. She let her arm drop to her side. She watched in horror as Inuyasha turned from her.
"Inuyasha! Don't you even care?! I love you! And I mean every word of it!"
She starred as he took a few steps, then came to a halt. The next few words devastated her.
"I can't be loved."
Her whole world crashed around her. It seemed as if there was only a world left of pain, a black world filled with silence. She felt as if her heart split in two. She struggled to find the courage to speak over her cries.
"Is this your way of telling me that you don't love me?"
She was barely able to stand up, but she wouldn't prove to be weak before him. She managed to make her way to where he had moved. Inuyasha just stood there, still and silent, as Kagome positioned herself in front of him. He slightly titled his head towards his shoulder, but was stopped by a feather soft touch. Kagome gently cupped her hand around his face and guided his head towards hers. Their eyes locked.
"Please, tell me."
She then gasped.
'Huh?'
She watched as a single tear strolled down his cheek.
'He's...he's crying.'
She slowly raised her other hand to dry the tear.
"Kagome, don't."
Inuyasha began to pull away, but was stopped dead in his tracks. Kagome had leaned forward on her toes, and placed her lips on his. His eyes widened as he gazed into her tear stained face.
'Kagome.'
He then got a feeling, a feeling he had never felt before, even when Kikyo had kissed him. He felt as if he were melting, his whole body feeling warm, especially his lips, and his heart. He wanted so greatly to kiss her back. He felt a new type of passion burning inside of him, one that he needed to be calmed. He closed his eyes, and thought.
'She'll just get hurt if I love her back, just like Kikyo. Kikyo died because of me, and I can't lose Kagome.'
He fought so hard to move back, but his heart wouldn't let him. His body wanted to leave, but not his mind, not his soul, and not his heart. Kagome made the kiss deeper, making it harder for Inuyasha to resist. He fought one last time, but failed when Kagome wrapped her arms around him and held him close. He carefully placed his arms around her body, holding her in a delicate brace. He kissed her back with equal passion. When Kagome felt his reaction, she gasped, but continued. She wouldn't let this chance go, this chance to make him see how she really felt. She made the kiss even more passionate. He replied. Cherry blossoms danced all around them, making the scenery looked dazzling. They embraced each other as they shared a kiss of true love.
'What am I doing? I must stop, before this goes too far. Kagome mustn't get hurt because of me. I'll die inside if anything ever happened to her.'
Inuyasha broke the kiss. Kagome starred at him confused, wondering what he was doing.
"I'm sorry. I can't be loved. You'll just get hurt, and I couldn't live with myself if anything ever happened to you. Before anything else happens, you must leave. Go back to your own time, there, where you won't get hurt. I don't want you coming back here anymore. Now go."
He closed his eyes as they began to swell with tears, he couldn't let her see them. He took a step back. When he glanced at her face, he felt as if his heart shattered into a million pieces. The pain in her eyes was unbearable.
"Please, you must go now."
"Inuyasha! I can't, I won't! I love you too much to just leave you alone here!"
She began to move forward, but then came to a halt when she saw the serious glare he shot at her.
"Leave."
His voice was cold and serious, yet caring at the same time. She wanted to ignore him, but she couldn't. Her eyes filled with tears and poured down her face. Blinded by her tears, she didn't notice his. He was just as hurt as she, if not worse. He hated to do this, but he would rather see in her world, then here fighting for her life constantly. He knew that it was the best for her, that's the only thing that allowed him to do it. He cared for her deeply, but he couldn't see her die. He knew that she would if they were to be lovers. He wouldn't risk it. Because of his half demon side, thousands of other demons tried to kill him. He knew that he couldn't protect Kagome forever, so this was for the best. He was removed from his thoughts when he heard her voice yelling at him.
"Inuyasha, I...YOU'RE RIGHT! I should go. I was wrong to think I loved you. You're nothing more then a...then a...then a canine who deserves nothing! You don't deserve to be loved because you don't have any feelings of your own! You're just a cold heartless beast! Now I see why Kikyo hates you so..."
Her voice trailed off as she gasped at what she just spoke. She covered her mouth in horror as she watched his amber eyes fill with pain and sorrow. She couldn't figure out where that had come from. Her heart broke again.
"I...I..."
She quickly turned around and ran. Tears blinded her eyes, so she didn't notice the small rock in her way. She crashed to the ground. Inuyasha starred at her, his eyes filling with tears. He jumped into the air, landing carelessly on the tree branch above him. He lowered his head and wept silently. His white hair covered his face in a veil. Kagome lay on the ground, crying. She slowly rose to her knees and curled into a ball. She buried her head in her lap and cried more. Inuyasha covered his face. He couldn't bare seeing Kagome cry, but if she died, that would break his spirit, crush his heart, and kill his soul. He quietly spoke to himself.
"Kagome...I...I'm sorry."
The sun's bright rays peeked through the leaves as it lowered below the horizon.
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So, whatcha think? I hope you all liked it. I know it may seem weird on what's going on, but you'll get it at the end. If it's not confusing, then great! I'll be posting up the third chapter when I get a chance. I've got to write it, then type it! Well, that's all for now. Please don't forget to review! Ja, matta ne!
Chapter 2: Pains of the Heart
Inuyasha stood there, unable to move, mesmerized from the three powerful words that had just escaped her mouth. He couldn't believe the sounds that he heard in his ears. Those three words made his whole body shiver.
'Is this real?'
He couldn't find the strength to move nor speak. His thoughts were spinning out of control, his heart began to race, and it even skipped a few beats. His head slowly began to sweat. Several images of him and Kagome, even him and Kikyo flashed before his eyes.
'Does she really love me?'
His amber eyes starred into the peaceful evening.
Kagome glanced up at him to see his reaction. She gazed into his eyes; they seemed clouded with pain. She carefully studied the expression on his face. She thought hard for a moment, and then was hit with a horrible thought.
'What if, what if he doesn't love me? What if he hates me now for saying that? What if...oh know.'
Kagome's eyes became glazed with a sheet of tears. She tried to blink them back, but to no avail. She then decided to speak. The eerie silence was scarring her.
"Inuyasha, please say something?"
She held her hands together, hoping for some kind of response. Nothing. She looked him deeply into his eyes.
'He seems lost, troubled. Have I done this?'
Her eyes swelled up with tears once more.
'Does she really love me? Or is this her idea of a sick joke?'
He sighed, and then realized that it wasn't a joke. His heart began to beat faster, and his palms became sweaty. He slowly blinked his eyes as his mind was brought back to reality. He noticed that Kagome's eyes were gazing deeply into his. His heart filled with pain when he saw her crying.
"Inuyasha, why won't you speak? You're...you're scarring me."
Kagome leaned forward, extending her arm. She reached for Inuyasha, but was rejected when he moved it away from her reach. He didn't want to, but something inside his body forced him to. She let her arm drop to her side. She watched in horror as Inuyasha turned from her.
"Inuyasha! Don't you even care?! I love you! And I mean every word of it!"
She starred as he took a few steps, then came to a halt. The next few words devastated her.
"I can't be loved."
Her whole world crashed around her. It seemed as if there was only a world left of pain, a black world filled with silence. She felt as if her heart split in two. She struggled to find the courage to speak over her cries.
"Is this your way of telling me that you don't love me?"
She was barely able to stand up, but she wouldn't prove to be weak before him. She managed to make her way to where he had moved. Inuyasha just stood there, still and silent, as Kagome positioned herself in front of him. He slightly titled his head towards his shoulder, but was stopped by a feather soft touch. Kagome gently cupped her hand around his face and guided his head towards hers. Their eyes locked.
"Please, tell me."
She then gasped.
'Huh?'
She watched as a single tear strolled down his cheek.
'He's...he's crying.'
She slowly raised her other hand to dry the tear.
"Kagome, don't."
Inuyasha began to pull away, but was stopped dead in his tracks. Kagome had leaned forward on her toes, and placed her lips on his. His eyes widened as he gazed into her tear stained face.
'Kagome.'
He then got a feeling, a feeling he had never felt before, even when Kikyo had kissed him. He felt as if he were melting, his whole body feeling warm, especially his lips, and his heart. He wanted so greatly to kiss her back. He felt a new type of passion burning inside of him, one that he needed to be calmed. He closed his eyes, and thought.
'She'll just get hurt if I love her back, just like Kikyo. Kikyo died because of me, and I can't lose Kagome.'
He fought so hard to move back, but his heart wouldn't let him. His body wanted to leave, but not his mind, not his soul, and not his heart. Kagome made the kiss deeper, making it harder for Inuyasha to resist. He fought one last time, but failed when Kagome wrapped her arms around him and held him close. He carefully placed his arms around her body, holding her in a delicate brace. He kissed her back with equal passion. When Kagome felt his reaction, she gasped, but continued. She wouldn't let this chance go, this chance to make him see how she really felt. She made the kiss even more passionate. He replied. Cherry blossoms danced all around them, making the scenery looked dazzling. They embraced each other as they shared a kiss of true love.
'What am I doing? I must stop, before this goes too far. Kagome mustn't get hurt because of me. I'll die inside if anything ever happened to her.'
Inuyasha broke the kiss. Kagome starred at him confused, wondering what he was doing.
"I'm sorry. I can't be loved. You'll just get hurt, and I couldn't live with myself if anything ever happened to you. Before anything else happens, you must leave. Go back to your own time, there, where you won't get hurt. I don't want you coming back here anymore. Now go."
He closed his eyes as they began to swell with tears, he couldn't let her see them. He took a step back. When he glanced at her face, he felt as if his heart shattered into a million pieces. The pain in her eyes was unbearable.
"Please, you must go now."
"Inuyasha! I can't, I won't! I love you too much to just leave you alone here!"
She began to move forward, but then came to a halt when she saw the serious glare he shot at her.
"Leave."
His voice was cold and serious, yet caring at the same time. She wanted to ignore him, but she couldn't. Her eyes filled with tears and poured down her face. Blinded by her tears, she didn't notice his. He was just as hurt as she, if not worse. He hated to do this, but he would rather see in her world, then here fighting for her life constantly. He knew that it was the best for her, that's the only thing that allowed him to do it. He cared for her deeply, but he couldn't see her die. He knew that she would if they were to be lovers. He wouldn't risk it. Because of his half demon side, thousands of other demons tried to kill him. He knew that he couldn't protect Kagome forever, so this was for the best. He was removed from his thoughts when he heard her voice yelling at him.
"Inuyasha, I...YOU'RE RIGHT! I should go. I was wrong to think I loved you. You're nothing more then a...then a...then a canine who deserves nothing! You don't deserve to be loved because you don't have any feelings of your own! You're just a cold heartless beast! Now I see why Kikyo hates you so..."
Her voice trailed off as she gasped at what she just spoke. She covered her mouth in horror as she watched his amber eyes fill with pain and sorrow. She couldn't figure out where that had come from. Her heart broke again.
"I...I..."
She quickly turned around and ran. Tears blinded her eyes, so she didn't notice the small rock in her way. She crashed to the ground. Inuyasha starred at her, his eyes filling with tears. He jumped into the air, landing carelessly on the tree branch above him. He lowered his head and wept silently. His white hair covered his face in a veil. Kagome lay on the ground, crying. She slowly rose to her knees and curled into a ball. She buried her head in her lap and cried more. Inuyasha covered his face. He couldn't bare seeing Kagome cry, but if she died, that would break his spirit, crush his heart, and kill his soul. He quietly spoke to himself.
"Kagome...I...I'm sorry."
The sun's bright rays peeked through the leaves as it lowered below the horizon.
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So, whatcha think? I hope you all liked it. I know it may seem weird on what's going on, but you'll get it at the end. If it's not confusing, then great! I'll be posting up the third chapter when I get a chance. I've got to write it, then type it! Well, that's all for now. Please don't forget to review! Ja, matta ne!