I dun own CCS.

Meiling's POV

I picked myself up, leaving a very stunned Sakura behind. If she was the old Sakura, she would say,"Wait! Don't stay mad at me. Let's go home together." Of course she didn't. I snuck a look back when she was not looking. I so enjoyed making her angry. But then, she was shocked, and stood there like the swying flag in the parade square. All of a sudden i felt bad for making her angry. It wasn't her fault that Tomoyo changed. It wasn't her fault that we couldn't remain as one. It was also not her fault that they stopped hanging out together.

Flashback.

"Why did you and Sakura stopped hanging out?" I asked Tomoyo, trying to be casual, observing her put her things in her locker.

"I dunno." She replied, and was lost in thoughts. The plastered a fake smile over her face and said, "We just stopped."

"And you're happy?"

"What makes... you think so?"

I remember that I totally lost it.

"What is wrong with you? Youc changed, she changed and you guys stopped hanging out together. What the heck is going on!"

End of flashback

I sighed, and started to walk home instead of take the bus. .

On the way home, I was having all these thoughts.

Why did we separate in the first place? Why aren't we close anymore? Were we really happy together, as a crowd of friends? What happened when we got here? Why did Tomoyo stop video taping us? Why did Meiling stop saying that she was the best at everything? How come she stopped clinging onto Syaoran? Am I really happy with Ginger and gang? Why did Syaoran stop hanging out with us? What happened to Rika, Naoko, Chiharu, ans Yamazaki? Why did Syaoran say he did not like me? Does he like me? Should I tell him?What is wrong with us?Why did all of his happen?

I got into my house that i shared with a cousin whom I loved (as a brother ) and hated.

"Oh. you're back."

"Surprisingly you show concern for your dear cousin who happens to be biting everyone's heads off."

There was no answer. But I was so mad.

"Why can't you answer me? Why cant there be an answer? Why did all of us stop hanging out together? What's wrong with you? Why are you such a goody goody?"

He lifted his head from his homework. "Meling, please stop. Go have tea or sit in front of the fan. You're angry. Calm down."

"I won't!" by now I was yelling like a spoilt brat. "Everything changed! You didn't use to be such a goody-goody. You used to bea guy. A guy with guts. You like Sakura but you don't even dare tell her. You begged Auntie to stay just because of her. Show some guts, will you? Where is the old Syaoran?"

"Meiling!" he yelled back, with his voice breaking he sounded funny but both were too angry to laugh."Whether I like Sakura or not is none of your business! So what if I have changed... at least its for the better. By the way, I'm not feeling all mushy inside for someone like her."

"Liar!" Meiling said. "You know you liked Sakura. You have always liked her. What is your problem? Why can't you just tell her?"

"Will you stop that?"

"Will you stop lying?"

That stupid cousin of mine makes me so sick. After my last statement I went to my room and slammed the door.

"Damn you Syaoran!"

"Damn you Meiling!"

I heard him say that after the door slammed. Why do we cousins always say things similar to each other's?