Rainne awoke still wrapped in Crais' embrace.  He was still sleeping and snoring softly.  She noticed he was wearing only his pants.  She could see the small scars on his chest and arm.  She smiled as she watched him sleep.  She raised her arm to push the hair from his face.  The movement caused the bruise to start aching again.  It was then she remembered why she was there.  She carefully extracted herself from his grasp and got up from the bed.  She walked over to the table, and sat on the bench.  The horror of the day before came back to her and she began sobbing.  Crais awoke to the sound of her crying.  He got up from the bed and attempted to soothe her.  Rainne moved away from him.  He moved toward her again.

"Stop."  She said as she moved away again.

"As you wish."  He replied.  Unsure of what her problem was, and how he could help, he got up and walked from the room.

Rainne put her head on her arms and sobbed.  Talyn began whistling at her but she did not reply.  She was distraught.  She felt as if her life was coming apart.  She could see the rift forming between Crais and the others.

~~~

Aeryn was coming down the corridor as Crais emerged from his quarters wearing only his pants, his hair still unbound.  Aeryn realized that Rainne was in the room that Crais had just emerged from.  He was uncharacteristically moody.  She was also aware that he was more undressed than she had ever seen him.

"Captain Crais."

"Officer Sun."  He grumbled through clenched teeth.

"How is Rainne this morning?"

"I do not know.  She will not talk to me."  He said matter-of-factly pulling his shirt over his head.  "She had another nightmare and this morning she is inconsolable."

"Perhaps I will speak with her."

"You can try."  Crais said as he sat on the bunk to put his boots on.  "I will be in command.  I need to find a commerce planet for some supplies."  With that, he walked away from her.

~~~

Aeryn returned to the room she was sharing with Crichton.  John was sitting on the small bunk wearing only his boxers. 

"Morning gorgeous."  He said as she entered the room.

"Good morning John."

"Did you happen to run into the illustrious Captain this morning?"

"How did you know?" Aeryn asked, raising her eyebrow at John.

"You are frowning way too early, even for you."  He retorted.

Aeryn smiled at him.  "I will never understand the male species."  She sat on the bunk next to him.  "Crais emerged from his quarters wearing only his pants.  I know Rainne was in there but…"

"Whoa our boy Crais works fast."  John laughed, "Guess he's over you huh?"  John said as he playfully grabbed for her waist.

"John, he was very terse, I think someone who had recreated would be happier."  She kissed Crichton just once, while pulling his hands away.  "Even a former peacekeeper.  He said Rainne was inconsolable this morning."

"What did he do now?"

"I don't know but I intend to find out.  I came back to tell you I am going to spend some time with Rainne.  I want to know what happened, with D'Argo and Crais.  Do you think you can stay out of trouble for a while?"

"I can try."

"Perhaps you could go down to the commerce planet with Crais, take Stark with you."

"Do I have to take Astro?" John whined pulling on his pants.

"Why do you call him that, oh forget it must be a humanism."

"Yeah."  John grabbed her one last time, and smacked her on the butt.  "Okay I will take him, but he better behave…or I'm leaving him there."

~~~

Crais reluctantly took Crichton and Stark with him.  The only emotion visible on his face was the constant clenching of his jaw.  John tried to get him to talk on the way down to the commerce planet.

"Desperado, why don't you come to your senses?  Come down from your fences, open the gate It may be rainin', but there's a rainbow above you.  You better let somebody love you, before it's too late."  Crichton said quoting the old Eagles song.  Crais just glared at him.

"Drop it, Crichton."  Crais said and refused to speak to Crichton again.

~~~

Aeryn requested Talyn let her in Crais' quarters.  The younger leviathan opened the door.  Rainne was still sitting at the table with her head on her arms.  She was no longer sobbing but was still distraught, she was taking gasping breaths.  Aeryn entered and sat down next to her.  She noticed that Rainne was wearing one of Crais' shirts and her underpants and nothing else.  Aeryn placed her hand on Rainne's shoulder.  Rainne tried to shrug it away.

"Rainne."  Aeryn said.  "You need to talk to someone.  I am willing to listen.  I already spoke with Crais this morning.  He said you had another nightmare."  Aeryn lifted Rainne's face.  She could see that the younger woman's face was swollen and it looked like she had been crying for a very long time.  "We are alone right now.  I have sent John, Crais and Stark to the commerce planet for some supplies.  Now talk to me."

"What is there to talk about.  Dorian is dead.  I am possibly dangerous.  Look happened with D'Argo."  Rainne looked at Aeryn with desperation in her eyes.  "I don't know what to do.  Look at the hurt I am causing." 

"I know that D'Argo did not mean to hurt you.  I believe that your being telepathic magnified his hyper rage.  He cares deeply for you.  He has told me such."

"Why won't he tell me?"  Rainne asked.  "He bosses me around, he calls me back to Moya when I come to Talyn.  I know about Chiana and Jothee, but this is different.  I have never done anything to lead him on.  I just wanted to be his friend.  He does not see what is right in front of him."

"Luxan's are a very paternal warrior race.  He is trying to watch over you and conquer you, if you understand my meaning.  He sees Crais as a threat.  If anything has happened between you and Crais, especially now, seeing your state of dress and seeing Crais without some portions of his clothing this morning… you can tell me to mind my own business…"  Aeryn started uncomfortably.

"No I have not recreated with Crais.  I had a nightmare last night, he came in and comforted me."

"So have you learned anything while joined with Talyn."  Aeryn asked. 

"I feel Dorian was my soul-mate.  I know he kissed me but I do not know if it went any further.  I am unable to stay in the neural cluster without some sort of buffer.  However I am afraid of what I may uncover."

"Well if you need anything, please let me know."  Aeryn patted Rainne's hand.  Just then Talyn chirped at them.  "They have returned.  I will let you clean up.  I will go and greet them.  Would you like me to send Captain Crais back to speak with you?"

"Yes."

~~~

When Crais returned Rainne was dressed and cleaned up, sitting on the bench at the table.  She seemed to be staring off into space, her eyes were still swollen, but she was calmer.  Crais sat on the table next to her.

"I understand you spoke with Aeryn."

"Yes."

"Do you feel any better?"

"A bit."  Rainne put her hand on Crais' arm.  "I will not lie to you."  She paused drawing a deep breath.  "I loved Dorian, but I feel he is lost to me."  She paused again.  "I am sure that I killed him, that he was the monster in my dream."  Rainne put her head on Crais' leg.  "I feel like I am losing my mind."

"Self reflection is often difficult."  He replied.