Who am I? Where am? Why am I here?
I stood in the terminal of the Raleigh airport watching the arrival monitor. I sighed as I watched his flight number continue to say 6:30. I glanced down at my watch and realized that it was 15 minutes late. I looked out at the dark sky and watched as the freezing rain poured down from the sky.
"They must be late cause of the weather. This is so unusual that North Carolina is getting this in October," I said to myself. "Happy Birthday to me!" I laughed as I watched a plane skid down the runway in a landing form. I looked at the screen as his plane number blinked. I smiled brightly as I ran towards the gate. I looked over the heads of the people standing waiting for their family members and friends. Thankfully I was taller than most at my 5'9" height with the boots I wore. I pushed my way through as I watched him walked through with his book bag hung on his shoulder. He glanced at me and we immediately ran towards each other. I jumped into his open arms and he lifted me off the floor. I knocked his hat off as I wrapped my arms around his neck. I kissed his lips passionately and smiled when we parted.
"I missed you baby," he said softly, taking me into his memory.
"I missed you too. I was afraid your plane wasn't ever gonna get here!" I said as I hugged him tightly. His long colorful hair fell into my face and I breathed in his smell. That unique smell of a mixture of different colognes that he wore. He was still very secretive about what he put in that concoction, but I didn't mind the mystery. It gave me something that I could recognize him and only him by.
"Are we ready to go get some food for your 22 birthday dinner?" he smiled as he took my hand to walk to the baggage claim.
"Did you thank Vince for me? For letting him let you take the weekend off to be with me?" I asked.
"Yeah, he said it wasn't that big of a problem as long as I was back for RAW Monday nite," he replied as he grabbed his duffle bag. "How are my animals doing?"
"They're great. Witty misses you," I said.
"I miss Witty too," he laughed. "Liger's alright? He's not tearin up the house or terrorizing you?"
"No way. He and I have made a very good connection," I smiled as he looked at me. "What?" He gave me this little tiny smirk as I could see thoughts running through his mind.
"Nothing, I just missed your smile," he said bringing my hand up to his lips.
"If you miss it that much you can always look at my brother. We do have the same smile," I joked.
"Oh God! That's a horrible thought! It's gonna give me pictures when we have sex now! I'm gonna see Adam under me instead of you!" he spazed trying to act all grossed out. I made a disgusted face and slapped his arm playfully.
"That's so wrong on so many levels," I laughed.
"Yeah it is!" Jeff laughed as I slid into the diver's seat of my Mustang. "What the hell is up with this weather?"
"I don't know. Figures it'd do this shit on my birthday though," I said as I pulled onto the back roads.
"Just don't go crazy with the speed tonite," Jeff pleaded as he glanced at the speedometer.
"Don't worry baby, I got it under control," I smiled as I put my foot on the pedal harder, pushing the needle to 70 mph.
"T, I'm serious. The weather is horrible."
"I know but I've got it under control! Come on Jeff! Where's your sense of adventure. Your live for the moment spirit!?" I laughed as I watched the needle move to 80.
"I still have it, but I'm not ready to die!" Jeff exclaimed as he gripped the "Oh Jesus Handle". He kept his eyes on the road that was kept lit up by my headlights and the very few street lights. "T! SLOW DOWN!"
"Chill Jeffrey!" I said.
"Shit! Did you just see that car in front of you slide?" Jeff asked.
"Yes, I saw it. But that person obviously doesn't know how to drive in this stuff. You forget, I learned to drive in Canada! I think I can handle a little bit of freezing rain!" I said with irritation in my voice.
"T! I'm so fuckin serious! Slow down or let me drive!" Jeff yelled.
"Fine!" I screamed as I pulled off to the side of the road. "Get your ass over here."
"Thank you," he said angrily as he threw open the door. He slammed it shut and ran to the other side as I slid over to the passenger side. I fastened my seat belt and crossed my arms tightly over my chest.
"Are you happy now?" I asked looking over at him.
"Yes, as a matter of fact, I am." He looked over his shoulder and slowly pulled into the light traffic of the nite.
We rode down the road in silence, the speedometer barely reaching 50. I turned on the radio quietly to listen to my Rob Zombie cd. I locked my eyes on the road as we continued to travel into the horrible weather. "Is that snow?" Jeff asked breaking the silence.
"Yeah, right!" I laughed as he squinted his eyes.
"No, I think it is," he said seriously. I rolled my eyes at him and looked out the window onto the road where the headlights hit. Falling lightly in the light was white flakes of snow.
"Oh my God. You're right. What hell is goin on?!" I exclaimed. "It's like it's the end of the world or something.
"Hmmm.......maybe we should just go home before we get really hit," Jeff suggested. "Do you mind? I could make you dinner at home."
"Jeff, there's like nothing at home, but I think it might be for the best," I said with a smile. He looked over at me and smiled as he gripped my hand tightly. He placed his concentration on the road as we continued to drive on.
I leaned forward to open the glove compartment to look for another cd when I felt the car wheels spin a bit. I looked up at Jeff who had a death grip on the steering wheel and his foot lightly on the brake, trying to keep the car steady. "What happened?" I asked as he got control of the car.
"I guess it was a slick piece of road. Where fine now though," he smiled. I let out a sigh of relief as I went back to my cd search. I had my head down for about 5 minutes when I felt the car slip out of control. "SHIT!!! T, HOLD ON!!!!" I looked up and out of the window as we slammed head first into a tree.
I heard the crash as my head bounced off the dash board. It was my 22 birthday. Nothing bad was supposed to happen to me, or at least that's what I thought. I felt the blood flow down my face as I drifted off into the unconscious world of a permanent dream.
"T," I heard Jeff's faint voice echo in my head. He sounded like he was in pain. But I couldn't really tell and I couldn't move. "Oh my God. Baby, wake up. Come on, wake up." I heard his pleas, and I tried to do what he asked but I couldn't no matter how hard I tried.
"Is she gonna be alright?" Jeff cried. I tried to reach for him, but I couldn't see him. I heard voices all around me, but I only recognized a few.
"Jeff! What the fuck happened to my baby sister?!" That was Adam screaming at Jeff. How could I convince them that I was alright? I couldn't even move or speak or open my eyes for heaven's sake.
"I don't know, we hit a patch of ice on the road and hit a tree. I'm so sorry Adam. I love her so much, she can't leave me."
"Jeff, I understand. It's not your fault. I know," Adam said. I heard him cry silently as more people ran into my ears.
"Oh shit!" Amy cried. I knew she Matt must have been with her cause I could hear her muffled cries, she was no doubt buried into his shoulder.
"T......." Jay was there, but his voice trailed off into tears. Why was everyone crying? What had happened that made them so upset?"
"My baby!"
"MOM!!" I tried to yell out, but my voice made no sound.
"Mom, shhh, you have to calm down," Adam said trying to sooth her.
"MOM!!" I called out again, but still no sound.
"Why isn't my baby getting up?!" my mom cried.
"She's in a coma ma'am," an unfamiliar voice spoke up.
"Who's in a coma? Me? It can't be me!" I tried to scream.
"Will she.......will she ever wake up?" Jeff asked.
"I can't be sure right now. It's still too early. She has many injuries to the head. If she wakes she may not be able to remember anything or anyone. She may have amnesia and not be able to get her memory back. Or she could stay in the coma from now until her body gives up. But she seems to be a fighter, so I can almost bet she'll wake up."
"I will! I'm trying!" I screamed.
"Baby, I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry! I wish it was me lying in that bed right now instead of you. I love you with all my heart. And as soon as you wake up, I'm gonna make you Mrs. Jeff Hardy," he cried as he held my hand in his tightly. I could feel him place a kiss on my forehead and I tried to scream to him but he couldn't hear me. So, I just laid back and relaxed saying to him 'I love you too' and drifted away.
I stood in the terminal of the Raleigh airport watching the arrival monitor. I sighed as I watched his flight number continue to say 6:30. I glanced down at my watch and realized that it was 15 minutes late. I looked out at the dark sky and watched as the freezing rain poured down from the sky.
"They must be late cause of the weather. This is so unusual that North Carolina is getting this in October," I said to myself. "Happy Birthday to me!" I laughed as I watched a plane skid down the runway in a landing form. I looked at the screen as his plane number blinked. I smiled brightly as I ran towards the gate. I looked over the heads of the people standing waiting for their family members and friends. Thankfully I was taller than most at my 5'9" height with the boots I wore. I pushed my way through as I watched him walked through with his book bag hung on his shoulder. He glanced at me and we immediately ran towards each other. I jumped into his open arms and he lifted me off the floor. I knocked his hat off as I wrapped my arms around his neck. I kissed his lips passionately and smiled when we parted.
"I missed you baby," he said softly, taking me into his memory.
"I missed you too. I was afraid your plane wasn't ever gonna get here!" I said as I hugged him tightly. His long colorful hair fell into my face and I breathed in his smell. That unique smell of a mixture of different colognes that he wore. He was still very secretive about what he put in that concoction, but I didn't mind the mystery. It gave me something that I could recognize him and only him by.
"Are we ready to go get some food for your 22 birthday dinner?" he smiled as he took my hand to walk to the baggage claim.
"Did you thank Vince for me? For letting him let you take the weekend off to be with me?" I asked.
"Yeah, he said it wasn't that big of a problem as long as I was back for RAW Monday nite," he replied as he grabbed his duffle bag. "How are my animals doing?"
"They're great. Witty misses you," I said.
"I miss Witty too," he laughed. "Liger's alright? He's not tearin up the house or terrorizing you?"
"No way. He and I have made a very good connection," I smiled as he looked at me. "What?" He gave me this little tiny smirk as I could see thoughts running through his mind.
"Nothing, I just missed your smile," he said bringing my hand up to his lips.
"If you miss it that much you can always look at my brother. We do have the same smile," I joked.
"Oh God! That's a horrible thought! It's gonna give me pictures when we have sex now! I'm gonna see Adam under me instead of you!" he spazed trying to act all grossed out. I made a disgusted face and slapped his arm playfully.
"That's so wrong on so many levels," I laughed.
"Yeah it is!" Jeff laughed as I slid into the diver's seat of my Mustang. "What the hell is up with this weather?"
"I don't know. Figures it'd do this shit on my birthday though," I said as I pulled onto the back roads.
"Just don't go crazy with the speed tonite," Jeff pleaded as he glanced at the speedometer.
"Don't worry baby, I got it under control," I smiled as I put my foot on the pedal harder, pushing the needle to 70 mph.
"T, I'm serious. The weather is horrible."
"I know but I've got it under control! Come on Jeff! Where's your sense of adventure. Your live for the moment spirit!?" I laughed as I watched the needle move to 80.
"I still have it, but I'm not ready to die!" Jeff exclaimed as he gripped the "Oh Jesus Handle". He kept his eyes on the road that was kept lit up by my headlights and the very few street lights. "T! SLOW DOWN!"
"Chill Jeffrey!" I said.
"Shit! Did you just see that car in front of you slide?" Jeff asked.
"Yes, I saw it. But that person obviously doesn't know how to drive in this stuff. You forget, I learned to drive in Canada! I think I can handle a little bit of freezing rain!" I said with irritation in my voice.
"T! I'm so fuckin serious! Slow down or let me drive!" Jeff yelled.
"Fine!" I screamed as I pulled off to the side of the road. "Get your ass over here."
"Thank you," he said angrily as he threw open the door. He slammed it shut and ran to the other side as I slid over to the passenger side. I fastened my seat belt and crossed my arms tightly over my chest.
"Are you happy now?" I asked looking over at him.
"Yes, as a matter of fact, I am." He looked over his shoulder and slowly pulled into the light traffic of the nite.
We rode down the road in silence, the speedometer barely reaching 50. I turned on the radio quietly to listen to my Rob Zombie cd. I locked my eyes on the road as we continued to travel into the horrible weather. "Is that snow?" Jeff asked breaking the silence.
"Yeah, right!" I laughed as he squinted his eyes.
"No, I think it is," he said seriously. I rolled my eyes at him and looked out the window onto the road where the headlights hit. Falling lightly in the light was white flakes of snow.
"Oh my God. You're right. What hell is goin on?!" I exclaimed. "It's like it's the end of the world or something.
"Hmmm.......maybe we should just go home before we get really hit," Jeff suggested. "Do you mind? I could make you dinner at home."
"Jeff, there's like nothing at home, but I think it might be for the best," I said with a smile. He looked over at me and smiled as he gripped my hand tightly. He placed his concentration on the road as we continued to drive on.
I leaned forward to open the glove compartment to look for another cd when I felt the car wheels spin a bit. I looked up at Jeff who had a death grip on the steering wheel and his foot lightly on the brake, trying to keep the car steady. "What happened?" I asked as he got control of the car.
"I guess it was a slick piece of road. Where fine now though," he smiled. I let out a sigh of relief as I went back to my cd search. I had my head down for about 5 minutes when I felt the car slip out of control. "SHIT!!! T, HOLD ON!!!!" I looked up and out of the window as we slammed head first into a tree.
I heard the crash as my head bounced off the dash board. It was my 22 birthday. Nothing bad was supposed to happen to me, or at least that's what I thought. I felt the blood flow down my face as I drifted off into the unconscious world of a permanent dream.
"T," I heard Jeff's faint voice echo in my head. He sounded like he was in pain. But I couldn't really tell and I couldn't move. "Oh my God. Baby, wake up. Come on, wake up." I heard his pleas, and I tried to do what he asked but I couldn't no matter how hard I tried.
"Is she gonna be alright?" Jeff cried. I tried to reach for him, but I couldn't see him. I heard voices all around me, but I only recognized a few.
"Jeff! What the fuck happened to my baby sister?!" That was Adam screaming at Jeff. How could I convince them that I was alright? I couldn't even move or speak or open my eyes for heaven's sake.
"I don't know, we hit a patch of ice on the road and hit a tree. I'm so sorry Adam. I love her so much, she can't leave me."
"Jeff, I understand. It's not your fault. I know," Adam said. I heard him cry silently as more people ran into my ears.
"Oh shit!" Amy cried. I knew she Matt must have been with her cause I could hear her muffled cries, she was no doubt buried into his shoulder.
"T......." Jay was there, but his voice trailed off into tears. Why was everyone crying? What had happened that made them so upset?"
"My baby!"
"MOM!!" I tried to yell out, but my voice made no sound.
"Mom, shhh, you have to calm down," Adam said trying to sooth her.
"MOM!!" I called out again, but still no sound.
"Why isn't my baby getting up?!" my mom cried.
"She's in a coma ma'am," an unfamiliar voice spoke up.
"Who's in a coma? Me? It can't be me!" I tried to scream.
"Will she.......will she ever wake up?" Jeff asked.
"I can't be sure right now. It's still too early. She has many injuries to the head. If she wakes she may not be able to remember anything or anyone. She may have amnesia and not be able to get her memory back. Or she could stay in the coma from now until her body gives up. But she seems to be a fighter, so I can almost bet she'll wake up."
"I will! I'm trying!" I screamed.
"Baby, I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry! I wish it was me lying in that bed right now instead of you. I love you with all my heart. And as soon as you wake up, I'm gonna make you Mrs. Jeff Hardy," he cried as he held my hand in his tightly. I could feel him place a kiss on my forehead and I tried to scream to him but he couldn't hear me. So, I just laid back and relaxed saying to him 'I love you too' and drifted away.