I'm alone here in the forest
pondering over what
is to become of me
That worthless brother of mine
humiliated me again
And it won't ever end
Not only that...
my useless sword is what
protected me
I couldn't stop him on my own
The damn things seems
to have its own free will
Am I not supposed to be
the better brother?
The older, wiser, more powerful
pure-bred brother?
He's a mutt, a mix, a little bastard,
yet Father loves him more
It just seems wrong to me
I was the good son
the perfect son
I did what was asked of me
And for what?
The sword that won't kill
The sword I am ashamed to posses
While he, miserable wretch,
gets the coveted steel-cleaving fang
The sought after weapon
Which he could not even use
to its full extent until now
When he tried to strike me down
and destroy me
all because I wanted to claim it
Father did not trust me
He cared more about his
half-mortal child
He must have;
to leave him such a gift
And mine...it is more of a joke
What can a demon like myself
possibly do with a sword like this?
I cannot even injure anything
It kept me alive when
I could have had an honorable death
Pointless
And yet...Did I really want to die?
No...No, I did not.
Then I would never own the sword
I would never have revenge
But is that really what I want?
Perhaps my own sword
could be of some use
Just maybe...It is not so
worthless after all
Perhaps Father knew what he
was doing after all
With the Tensaiga protecting me
I am invincible
I can kill him for his desire
to destroy me
But...Do I want to?
I am uncertain in my desires
Why sudden hesitation fills me,
why my heart has become soft,
why I care...I know not
But the heart that I lost
that I tried so hard to hide
has found its way out
and love comes running to me
through the empty forest
in the form of a small child
Then her life robbed from her
and for some reason
I am moved to pity
The it acts of its own will
and decides to help her out
Her soul returned...
I wander away into destiny
stronger now
for having let in the light
love has found me
***
I wrote this after seeing the first Inu Yasha eppie with Rin. I love Sesshomaru soooo much and this is his thoughts after Inu Yasha beat him up.
pondering over what
is to become of me
That worthless brother of mine
humiliated me again
And it won't ever end
Not only that...
my useless sword is what
protected me
I couldn't stop him on my own
The damn things seems
to have its own free will
Am I not supposed to be
the better brother?
The older, wiser, more powerful
pure-bred brother?
He's a mutt, a mix, a little bastard,
yet Father loves him more
It just seems wrong to me
I was the good son
the perfect son
I did what was asked of me
And for what?
The sword that won't kill
The sword I am ashamed to posses
While he, miserable wretch,
gets the coveted steel-cleaving fang
The sought after weapon
Which he could not even use
to its full extent until now
When he tried to strike me down
and destroy me
all because I wanted to claim it
Father did not trust me
He cared more about his
half-mortal child
He must have;
to leave him such a gift
And mine...it is more of a joke
What can a demon like myself
possibly do with a sword like this?
I cannot even injure anything
It kept me alive when
I could have had an honorable death
Pointless
And yet...Did I really want to die?
No...No, I did not.
Then I would never own the sword
I would never have revenge
But is that really what I want?
Perhaps my own sword
could be of some use
Just maybe...It is not so
worthless after all
Perhaps Father knew what he
was doing after all
With the Tensaiga protecting me
I am invincible
I can kill him for his desire
to destroy me
But...Do I want to?
I am uncertain in my desires
Why sudden hesitation fills me,
why my heart has become soft,
why I care...I know not
But the heart that I lost
that I tried so hard to hide
has found its way out
and love comes running to me
through the empty forest
in the form of a small child
Then her life robbed from her
and for some reason
I am moved to pity
The it acts of its own will
and decides to help her out
Her soul returned...
I wander away into destiny
stronger now
for having let in the light
love has found me
***
I wrote this after seeing the first Inu Yasha eppie with Rin. I love Sesshomaru soooo much and this is his thoughts after Inu Yasha beat him up.