Dangerous Emotions
Disclaimer:I do not own Utena.
Authors note- This is my first fanfic, so please be gentle.
You sleep so peacefully at night, with sweet dreams of a prince on a white horse. You breath so even with no guilt and such serenity. The moonlight glows upon your pale skin, your noble face, your bright pink hair making an unearthly look, an angel. Utena-sama, you may not be a prince, but an angel, you definite are.
Why...Why...WHY...
I cannot take the feelings you install in me with your gentle kindness, naive innocence, and your princely noble nature. These emotions, I haven't felt for so long, dangerous, treacherous feelings, which should have died a long time ago. I have played the part of dreams for so long, I have manipulated countless faces with the devil himself to doing things so horrible, so terrible, so unforgivable. And I have felt nothing, they have whored me, beat me, and enslaved me, but they never touched my soul, my heart, if I still have such a thing. Why do you have to be so beautiful, so kind like my Prince Dios?
"Why" I whisper to you with broken sobs.
You seem to hear me, you always hear me when I need help.
"Himemiya...Himemiya are you crying"
You don't hesitate to come down to my bed and take me into strong, comforting arms. You hold me so firmly, but oh so gently. You rock me, you hold me as if I'm the most important person in the world to you.
"What's wrong?" you ask, after my sobs stop.
"Nothing Utena-sama, just a bad dream"
You suddenly look disappointed and a sharp pang goes through my heart. But you smile, just as quickly and say with such conviction "Ne Himemiya, don't be so sad, cause I'll always be there, I'll always be your friend" You hold me softly in your arms and I know you won't leave until your sure I'm happy. I hate you, I hate you so much for making me fall in love with you.
Disclaimer:I do not own Utena.
Authors note- This is my first fanfic, so please be gentle.
You sleep so peacefully at night, with sweet dreams of a prince on a white horse. You breath so even with no guilt and such serenity. The moonlight glows upon your pale skin, your noble face, your bright pink hair making an unearthly look, an angel. Utena-sama, you may not be a prince, but an angel, you definite are.
Why...Why...WHY...
I cannot take the feelings you install in me with your gentle kindness, naive innocence, and your princely noble nature. These emotions, I haven't felt for so long, dangerous, treacherous feelings, which should have died a long time ago. I have played the part of dreams for so long, I have manipulated countless faces with the devil himself to doing things so horrible, so terrible, so unforgivable. And I have felt nothing, they have whored me, beat me, and enslaved me, but they never touched my soul, my heart, if I still have such a thing. Why do you have to be so beautiful, so kind like my Prince Dios?
"Why" I whisper to you with broken sobs.
You seem to hear me, you always hear me when I need help.
"Himemiya...Himemiya are you crying"
You don't hesitate to come down to my bed and take me into strong, comforting arms. You hold me so firmly, but oh so gently. You rock me, you hold me as if I'm the most important person in the world to you.
"What's wrong?" you ask, after my sobs stop.
"Nothing Utena-sama, just a bad dream"
You suddenly look disappointed and a sharp pang goes through my heart. But you smile, just as quickly and say with such conviction "Ne Himemiya, don't be so sad, cause I'll always be there, I'll always be your friend" You hold me softly in your arms and I know you won't leave until your sure I'm happy. I hate you, I hate you so much for making me fall in love with you.