Title: Without You Part Six

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Somewhere over Nebraska

2:09 p.m.

I've always hated airplanes. I remember the first time that Mulder swept me out of the office and onto a plane heading for Oregon. That was the beginning of many last minute flights or early morning plane rides to who knows where.

But as I turn my head to look at the person next to me all I see is John Doggett. He sleeps with his head leaning on the back of his seat, slightly snoring. It amazes me that he can sleep on a plane.

I haven't been able to sleep well in the past few weeks and I know that flying in a plane only makes my paranoia worse. I place my hand on my abdomen and gently rub. It takes me closer to the two infants that grow in my womb. These kids will never have a father to raise them. All they'll have is pictures and memories of mine. They'll never know the older brother that proceeded them or the older sister that I hardly knew myself.

Somewhere along the way tears must have been flowing down my face. I sniffle, wiping them away.

I'm afraid of what we are going to find in Nevada. I'm afraid of what that couple might have went through and I'm scared of what emotions it will bring back to me. Memories and emotions of William and of Mulder.

I wipe way the tears that continue to flow, trying to stifle back my sobs. Doggett's eyes open and he turns to me hearing the muffled sobbing on my part.

"Dana, you okay?" Doggett asks obviously concerned that it has something to do with the twins considering the fact that my hand was still on my abdomen.

I just nod my head.

He puts an arm around me trying to reassure me and pulls me into his chest. I try to hold back the sobs. In my mind I've done enough crying for the rest of my life and I hate feeling so vulnerable.

"It's okay, Dana, cry if you have to. Scream. You need to let your emotions out. It can't be good for the babies if you hold it all in," he pauses, "Or for you."

I nod and fall exhausted into his chest. The world around me starts to get hazy and I feel safe in his arms. It is the safeness that I used to feel in Mulder's arms...or any man's arms. Even though on the outside I'm tough, I have always been afraid of being abandoned...of being alone and in danger.

At first the dream world that I often retreat to is unusually dark, but then out of the darkness Mulder emerges.

"Scully," he whispers.

I just smile at him and run into his arms. He pulls me back placing his hand on my expanding stomach.

"How're you doing?" Mulder inquires.

"I miss you so much, Mulder. And I miss William," I tell him smiling because I'm so happy to see him in my dream world again.

"We miss you too, Scully, but you've got to keep on. You can't give up. Even when it seems impossible you have to remember that you'll have someone to lean on. John's there for you. Let him in," Mulder tells me as if he is giving his blessing for me to start to let go of him and let Doggett into my barricaded heart.

"I'm not ready to let go, Mulder. I don't want to forget you," I say.

"You don't have to forget, Scully. I don't want you to forget, but I want you to laugh again, to smile, and to work again."

Mulder holds me for a long time. Neither of us speak. We don't have to. Even in my dream world no words are needed for us. Words were hardly ever needed.

Mulder starts to fade away along with his gentle voice and the laughter of our son goes into the darkness of my mind. Bright lights hurt my eyes and I start to wake up.

"Please, fasten, your seatbelts. We are making our final descent into Reno, Nevada," the stewardess says over the loud speaker.

Doggett turns to me, "You ready for this?"

"Ready as I'll ever be."

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