Take my hand and let me be your light.
By summer heat
Im so happy you guys are confused that what I wanted. Lol. Ok guys ull find out how he broke his ribs and a lil bit more about Ying Fa in this chappii. And final Sakuras in it. Lol. I cant up date all the time only like ones a week. Because I started school again ( and now I have a job .sigh. So much work to do. But ill up date as fast as I can. Sorri I took so long
Thanx for reviewing to:
Moonbeam020290: im so glad my story is confusing you lol.
EcuaGirl: yeah sorri, I forgot to explain why he broke is ribs, but I will in this chapii and Sakuras going to be in this one as well!! Final lol.
animegirl breezy: no there not the same person, and I told u what was going through my head, lol.
THE-CANADIAN-GAKI: yeah I did say more reviews that ill up date faster, but with skool my lifes been hella busy sorri. and im sorri to say ur predictions wrong, I would never make my storys so predictable (^_^) and Eroil is meant to be an ass in this story, but he will get better as the story goes on.
Pink Cherry Blossom: yeah I know its confusing but ull understand as the story goes on. and I know I love Syaos personality to, I based him around a frend of mine. ^^
Me: no that wasn't the ending of the dream it wasn't a flashback, it will continue in this chappii.
The Chicken Always Dances...I am Pixie Bubbles!: thanx for taking the time to review.
Moonlight-Dancer: its ok I understand, and this story is meant to confuse u sorri, its just the way I planned it.
Chapter 5 The Truth Hits Hard
"Syaoran is everything all right" yelled Lin as she and a bunch of people ran down the corridor towards Syaoran who was siting in the waiting room with his head in his hands.
He looked up at them as they reached where he was "No, its not." his voice was dry with no emotion what so ever.
"What's wrong is Ying Fa ok?" ask a girl. She was Ying Fa's best friend Riya. She looked at him nervously.
Something in her eye told Syaoran she new something that he didn't or thought he didn't. But before he could make her tell him, the doctor came out. 'Mr Li', he said looking at the bunch of teens in front of him, there must have been at least, 10 or more. "Yes" Syaoran said, his voice full of anger and both fear.
"May I speck to you alone this is very important" he nodded and followed the doctor in to the room were Ying Fa was. He saw her lying in the hospital bed, all around her was mechanics. It broke his heart to see her like, 'know I know how she feels every time I get my self hurt so badly'. He gently caressed her face moving same ger out of her face.
"Li you should know something.." but he was cut short by Syaoran.
"If your going to tell me that she's pregnant, I already know that" he said shocking the doctor.
"I didn't think you new"
"she told me just before she fainted" he was still caressing her faces sitting on the age of the bed. "is she going to be all right" he asked in a nerves voice "are - are they - going to-to be al--l-right" he barely got out.
The doctor out his hand on Syaorans shoulder "she fainted because she had an abortion a this morning."
Syaoran was frozen 'why would she do that. It was are baby', his head screaming a million things at the same time.
"I was amazed she was up and walking today" he went on. Syaoran felt numbed in side.
"why didn't she want to keep it" his voice was dry, full of hate and anger, toward this girl that he loved so much. why didn't she want to keep something just made together, why did she have to throw it away. "why didn't she tell me"
he looked at the doctor, his eyes cold and hard. "Maybe you should ask her that, I think she was scared what her parents would say and that you didn't want it" Whatever Syaoran was going to say was shut of because of Ying Fa moving her hand, "ill leave you to alone" with that he was out of the door.
Syaorans eyes fell on the girl before him, he didn't know her any more, Ying slowly opened her eyes to see him looking at her. "hey" she said giving him a weak smile.
He didn't say anything just looked at her, then in a cold voice he asked "why didn't you tell me, you were pregnant, and why the hell didn't you have a abortion, you could have been killed doing that."
She looked at him trying to get up, but he pushed her down. 'answer me' his voice was numb, his eyes flashing dangerously, he'd never been like that to her before. "I-I-didn't-think you --- want it" she mumbled tears rolling down her cheeks "and my ---parents. I didn't want to do it you know, I didn't want to get throw away that baby. But it was the only thing to do"
"what you think I wouldn't have wanted it" he looked at her, his eyes cold and hard. "hell Ying it wasn't just you baby it was ours, unless you fucking cheated on me is that it? is that it Ying Fa"
"NO, No its not, I would never do that you. how could you ever think that" her voice full of sadness and sorrow.
His heart broke at the sadness of his voice, what was he doing couldn't he see that she didn't for the better. "you know I would have wanted to keep it" he said wiping away her tears. "it was something we made together and I would have wanted it" he hugged her to him.
Caressing her hair, he pulled back placing a kiss on her forehead.
Hey are you ok wake up
Wake up
End of Dream
Syaoran slowly opened his eyes, coming faces to faces with two pools of emblem. "hey are you ok, I saw you fall and trying to wake you up for a while now"
Syaoran looked at her then closed his eyes again, "yeah im fine"
"well that's good, I was worry for a second there"
He sat up looking at her, she has long honey brown hair and was dressed in a short skirt and light pink tank top. "yeah thanx" he mumbled looking up at the sky. 'What was that a dream? But it seemed so real. Ying Fa were you hiding something from me -'
"hello, earth to you" he snapped out of the line of thought he was in and looked at her. 'Yeah' he said kind of getting annoyed with her. Here he wanted to figure out what Ying Fa was really pregnant and all that shit happened and this girl was bothering him. But she did remind him a lot of Ying Fa; the hair, the voice, the worrying nature.
He smiled to him self and shook his head, "im fine, thank any way" a small smile tugging at the corner of his mouth. "im Syaoran, and you are?"
"Oh' sorry how rude of me, im Sakura." As she said that, he looked at her in shock. "is there something wrong, you seem like you seen a ghost." She said laughing nervously.
"Cherry Blossom" he whispered. She saw a great sadness fall over his chocolate brown eyes when he said that.
"yeah that's what it means--- what's wrong you seem really sad, is everything ok"
"yeah im fine" he said shacking his head. A grin formed on his lips. "do you know where a guy could skate?" he asked getting up and grabbing his board that was on the ground a few feet away.
"ummmm-your not allowed to skate on school grounds but a few people do, but not this late." She said while getting up her self.
"oh` ok, so then what do you do for fun here." He asked as they started to walk back toward the school.
She laughed at that and looked up at the sky "well nothing really. Just hang around talk with friends--" he made a face that, which made her laugh.
"that's all, I think im going to die from boredom here"
"so which year are you going to be in. I mean you are new right" he nodded at that.
"well year 10 im meant to be in" he said giving her a wicked smile "how about you, girl"
"yup the same" she said cheerfully
.Later else where.
A girl with curly red hair a golden yellow eyes sat in her room watching TV when the telephone rang. She picked it up and all most dropped it when she heard the voice on the other end.
"Hello Riya, its Syaoran" his voice has changed a lot, it sounded lonelier and sadder.
"Sy-aor-an" she said with a shacky voice.
"yeah, hey how have you been"
"taking it day by day, how are you doing. I know it must have been hard on you"
Syaorans mouth tighten from the other, his voice cold and hard "I need to know something Riya" he paused for a few seconds, she nodded even though he couldn't see her. Then he went on.
"when I broke my ribs, remember, from wakeboarding" he closed his eyes trying to fined the strength to go on. "was Ying hiding anything from me"
She moved the phone from his ear and looked at it, then whispered to her self "could he know". Then put it on her ear again "no - Syao. What gave you that idea."
"Riya, im not a fool. Tell me the truth." He paused again. " Was she pregnant" he screamed in to his cell phone. He was alone in his dorm room, Eroil was out and Sakura had left after they had talked for a while. He felt like he could really trust he maybe it was because she was a lot like Ying Fa. And he liked been around her.
"Syaoran!! - how -how did you - find out". He didn't know what to think. Who the hell did he know. Ying Fa only told her and Lin, then it hit her Lin!! "did Lin tell you" she spate out. "I told Ying not to trust that little bitch with it"
"don't you dare talk about my best friend like that!" he stated angrily. But wait Lin new what the hell, did the hole world know but him. "and she didn't tell me"
"then how the hell did you fined out" he was angry, could he just leave it all in the past. Did he lose his heart she wondered what happen to the Syaoran that they all loved and adored. "cant you just leave it in the past" she spate angry.
"don't tell me what to leave in the past. I had a right to know, she shouldn't have kept it from me, I would have wanted to keep it, she shouldn't have had an abortion"
"how do you know all this" he was so confused how would he have know.
"how I know is not of your business"
"Syaoran leave it in the past, you cant do anything now, face it okay! Face it. She's goon and you cant have her again, no one can. I would have loved it if she kept the baby, we would always have a pieces of her that would remind us of Ying Fa. But we don't. And know she's dead do you hear me dead!!" with that she slammed the phone and dove in to bed crying.
A tear around Syaorans cheek, Riya was right she was gone. He would never hold her again. Never tell her how much he loves her, small her hair, taste her sweet lips, feel her touch. Never again, maybe if she had the baby there baby, he would have something to remind him of her.
He layed in bed looking up at the ceiling, tears streaming down his faces. 'Ying Fa' he whispered before falling asleep.
SH: owww I hope you guys like this chappii (^_^) im so tired how, I stayed up till almost 12 at night writing this and I have skool tomorrow lol. Plz tell me what you think in dieing to know. Well like promised Sakura and well the ppl that said Ying Fa was dead was right, but there is more to know about her, and well I promise a lot more of sakura in the up coming chapters. Ill up date as soon as I can about a week I think. Ne wy thanx 4 reviewing it mean a lot to me. Well till next time buhbye.
By summer heat
Im so happy you guys are confused that what I wanted. Lol. Ok guys ull find out how he broke his ribs and a lil bit more about Ying Fa in this chappii. And final Sakuras in it. Lol. I cant up date all the time only like ones a week. Because I started school again ( and now I have a job .sigh. So much work to do. But ill up date as fast as I can. Sorri I took so long
Thanx for reviewing to:
Moonbeam020290: im so glad my story is confusing you lol.
EcuaGirl: yeah sorri, I forgot to explain why he broke is ribs, but I will in this chapii and Sakuras going to be in this one as well!! Final lol.
animegirl breezy: no there not the same person, and I told u what was going through my head, lol.
THE-CANADIAN-GAKI: yeah I did say more reviews that ill up date faster, but with skool my lifes been hella busy sorri. and im sorri to say ur predictions wrong, I would never make my storys so predictable (^_^) and Eroil is meant to be an ass in this story, but he will get better as the story goes on.
Pink Cherry Blossom: yeah I know its confusing but ull understand as the story goes on. and I know I love Syaos personality to, I based him around a frend of mine. ^^
Me: no that wasn't the ending of the dream it wasn't a flashback, it will continue in this chappii.
The Chicken Always Dances...I am Pixie Bubbles!: thanx for taking the time to review.
Moonlight-Dancer: its ok I understand, and this story is meant to confuse u sorri, its just the way I planned it.
Chapter 5 The Truth Hits Hard
"Syaoran is everything all right" yelled Lin as she and a bunch of people ran down the corridor towards Syaoran who was siting in the waiting room with his head in his hands.
He looked up at them as they reached where he was "No, its not." his voice was dry with no emotion what so ever.
"What's wrong is Ying Fa ok?" ask a girl. She was Ying Fa's best friend Riya. She looked at him nervously.
Something in her eye told Syaoran she new something that he didn't or thought he didn't. But before he could make her tell him, the doctor came out. 'Mr Li', he said looking at the bunch of teens in front of him, there must have been at least, 10 or more. "Yes" Syaoran said, his voice full of anger and both fear.
"May I speck to you alone this is very important" he nodded and followed the doctor in to the room were Ying Fa was. He saw her lying in the hospital bed, all around her was mechanics. It broke his heart to see her like, 'know I know how she feels every time I get my self hurt so badly'. He gently caressed her face moving same ger out of her face.
"Li you should know something.." but he was cut short by Syaoran.
"If your going to tell me that she's pregnant, I already know that" he said shocking the doctor.
"I didn't think you new"
"she told me just before she fainted" he was still caressing her faces sitting on the age of the bed. "is she going to be all right" he asked in a nerves voice "are - are they - going to-to be al--l-right" he barely got out.
The doctor out his hand on Syaorans shoulder "she fainted because she had an abortion a this morning."
Syaoran was frozen 'why would she do that. It was are baby', his head screaming a million things at the same time.
"I was amazed she was up and walking today" he went on. Syaoran felt numbed in side.
"why didn't she want to keep it" his voice was dry, full of hate and anger, toward this girl that he loved so much. why didn't she want to keep something just made together, why did she have to throw it away. "why didn't she tell me"
he looked at the doctor, his eyes cold and hard. "Maybe you should ask her that, I think she was scared what her parents would say and that you didn't want it" Whatever Syaoran was going to say was shut of because of Ying Fa moving her hand, "ill leave you to alone" with that he was out of the door.
Syaorans eyes fell on the girl before him, he didn't know her any more, Ying slowly opened her eyes to see him looking at her. "hey" she said giving him a weak smile.
He didn't say anything just looked at her, then in a cold voice he asked "why didn't you tell me, you were pregnant, and why the hell didn't you have a abortion, you could have been killed doing that."
She looked at him trying to get up, but he pushed her down. 'answer me' his voice was numb, his eyes flashing dangerously, he'd never been like that to her before. "I-I-didn't-think you --- want it" she mumbled tears rolling down her cheeks "and my ---parents. I didn't want to do it you know, I didn't want to get throw away that baby. But it was the only thing to do"
"what you think I wouldn't have wanted it" he looked at her, his eyes cold and hard. "hell Ying it wasn't just you baby it was ours, unless you fucking cheated on me is that it? is that it Ying Fa"
"NO, No its not, I would never do that you. how could you ever think that" her voice full of sadness and sorrow.
His heart broke at the sadness of his voice, what was he doing couldn't he see that she didn't for the better. "you know I would have wanted to keep it" he said wiping away her tears. "it was something we made together and I would have wanted it" he hugged her to him.
Caressing her hair, he pulled back placing a kiss on her forehead.
Hey are you ok wake up
Wake up
End of Dream
Syaoran slowly opened his eyes, coming faces to faces with two pools of emblem. "hey are you ok, I saw you fall and trying to wake you up for a while now"
Syaoran looked at her then closed his eyes again, "yeah im fine"
"well that's good, I was worry for a second there"
He sat up looking at her, she has long honey brown hair and was dressed in a short skirt and light pink tank top. "yeah thanx" he mumbled looking up at the sky. 'What was that a dream? But it seemed so real. Ying Fa were you hiding something from me -'
"hello, earth to you" he snapped out of the line of thought he was in and looked at her. 'Yeah' he said kind of getting annoyed with her. Here he wanted to figure out what Ying Fa was really pregnant and all that shit happened and this girl was bothering him. But she did remind him a lot of Ying Fa; the hair, the voice, the worrying nature.
He smiled to him self and shook his head, "im fine, thank any way" a small smile tugging at the corner of his mouth. "im Syaoran, and you are?"
"Oh' sorry how rude of me, im Sakura." As she said that, he looked at her in shock. "is there something wrong, you seem like you seen a ghost." She said laughing nervously.
"Cherry Blossom" he whispered. She saw a great sadness fall over his chocolate brown eyes when he said that.
"yeah that's what it means--- what's wrong you seem really sad, is everything ok"
"yeah im fine" he said shacking his head. A grin formed on his lips. "do you know where a guy could skate?" he asked getting up and grabbing his board that was on the ground a few feet away.
"ummmm-your not allowed to skate on school grounds but a few people do, but not this late." She said while getting up her self.
"oh` ok, so then what do you do for fun here." He asked as they started to walk back toward the school.
She laughed at that and looked up at the sky "well nothing really. Just hang around talk with friends--" he made a face that, which made her laugh.
"that's all, I think im going to die from boredom here"
"so which year are you going to be in. I mean you are new right" he nodded at that.
"well year 10 im meant to be in" he said giving her a wicked smile "how about you, girl"
"yup the same" she said cheerfully
.Later else where.
A girl with curly red hair a golden yellow eyes sat in her room watching TV when the telephone rang. She picked it up and all most dropped it when she heard the voice on the other end.
"Hello Riya, its Syaoran" his voice has changed a lot, it sounded lonelier and sadder.
"Sy-aor-an" she said with a shacky voice.
"yeah, hey how have you been"
"taking it day by day, how are you doing. I know it must have been hard on you"
Syaorans mouth tighten from the other, his voice cold and hard "I need to know something Riya" he paused for a few seconds, she nodded even though he couldn't see her. Then he went on.
"when I broke my ribs, remember, from wakeboarding" he closed his eyes trying to fined the strength to go on. "was Ying hiding anything from me"
She moved the phone from his ear and looked at it, then whispered to her self "could he know". Then put it on her ear again "no - Syao. What gave you that idea."
"Riya, im not a fool. Tell me the truth." He paused again. " Was she pregnant" he screamed in to his cell phone. He was alone in his dorm room, Eroil was out and Sakura had left after they had talked for a while. He felt like he could really trust he maybe it was because she was a lot like Ying Fa. And he liked been around her.
"Syaoran!! - how -how did you - find out". He didn't know what to think. Who the hell did he know. Ying Fa only told her and Lin, then it hit her Lin!! "did Lin tell you" she spate out. "I told Ying not to trust that little bitch with it"
"don't you dare talk about my best friend like that!" he stated angrily. But wait Lin new what the hell, did the hole world know but him. "and she didn't tell me"
"then how the hell did you fined out" he was angry, could he just leave it all in the past. Did he lose his heart she wondered what happen to the Syaoran that they all loved and adored. "cant you just leave it in the past" she spate angry.
"don't tell me what to leave in the past. I had a right to know, she shouldn't have kept it from me, I would have wanted to keep it, she shouldn't have had an abortion"
"how do you know all this" he was so confused how would he have know.
"how I know is not of your business"
"Syaoran leave it in the past, you cant do anything now, face it okay! Face it. She's goon and you cant have her again, no one can. I would have loved it if she kept the baby, we would always have a pieces of her that would remind us of Ying Fa. But we don't. And know she's dead do you hear me dead!!" with that she slammed the phone and dove in to bed crying.
A tear around Syaorans cheek, Riya was right she was gone. He would never hold her again. Never tell her how much he loves her, small her hair, taste her sweet lips, feel her touch. Never again, maybe if she had the baby there baby, he would have something to remind him of her.
He layed in bed looking up at the ceiling, tears streaming down his faces. 'Ying Fa' he whispered before falling asleep.
SH: owww I hope you guys like this chappii (^_^) im so tired how, I stayed up till almost 12 at night writing this and I have skool tomorrow lol. Plz tell me what you think in dieing to know. Well like promised Sakura and well the ppl that said Ying Fa was dead was right, but there is more to know about her, and well I promise a lot more of sakura in the up coming chapters. Ill up date as soon as I can about a week I think. Ne wy thanx 4 reviewing it mean a lot to me. Well till next time buhbye.