Chapter 3: Nightmares
Severus was agitated and anxious all at one. Those combined made for a very irritated Potions Master. He was anxious because of everything going on with Draco, whom he loved like a father would love a son. He was agitated because he didnt have the inkling of an idea as to what to do for him. There weren't any potions that dealed with depression which wouldn't have worked in the first place since Draco refused to even take the Dreamless Sleep Potion let alone a depression potion. Then, to add to his mood, Voldemort was growing closer and it would only be a few days before he and Draco were summoned.
The door to his classroom opened. "Professor, I'm tired but I dont know the password to your chambers."
Severus grabbed Draco's hand, leading him to the entrace of his chambers. He placed the pale appendage on the knob, waving his wand over both. "There, now you can come and go as you please. I have research to do so don't expect back here anytime soon. If you get hungry, there's some Chocolate Frogs," Draco smirked, "in the cabinent by the fireplace. The Frogs were a gift from your mother so dont go looking so smug. You read whatever you want, just make sure that the books are back in there proper place. That is all." As Draco went to go inside, Severus paused his movements. "I dont want you leaving. It isnt safe," Severus whispered, not used to playing this role. "Goodnight Draco," he planted a kiss on the blonde's brow and hurried back to his classroom.
Draco stood in the hall, blinking confusedly. He shook his head to clear the thoughts and went inside, locking the door behind him. So much was changing. He was now close to three of the most distant people in the world. As the warm spray of the water caressed his worn body, his fingers darted across several scars on his hips, wincing. Those memories would not haunt him tonight. Draco had always been close to Severus....closer than he was to even his own father. Draco wondered if he could somehow convince Severus to adopt him once his mother was sent to St.Mungo's. Next came, Sirius Black. Draco had heard so many bad things about the man from Severus and Lucius that he wasn't expecting Sirius to be so...kind. Sure, he had the worse sense of humor and he hated Severus with passion-which in Draco's eyes was merely sexual frustration between the two adults. Then, there was the issue with Remus.
He had meant all of those things he had told Remus before they ate. Remus was quite possibly the only one on the face of the planet that could understand him. Remus also treated him like a normal human being, not some evil creature needed to be wiped from the face of the Earth. Draco felt the exact same about Remus and now that he knew what it was like to be in the werewovle's shoes, he wouldn't dare insult Remus again. Of course...there was the alien feeling in the pits of his stomach everytime he thought about the older man. It was a warmth that filled his entire body and he caught himself blushing at least two times in the presence of Remus though, he figured it had happened before without his knowledge.
Dressing in his pajamas, Draco sleepily padded into his room. He didnt' bother with the anything just intent on reaching the bed before he collapsed. He slipped down the blankets and covered himself, sighing in contentment. He wouldn't think about anything. Not about Voldemort, the Dark Mark, Potter, or Remus. No, not tonight. He was too happy.
@-@-@-@--
Talons teared a milky smooth skin, ripping the flesh into shreds of blood. Hands held the struggling form down, the laughing creature thrust into his virgin body. Slitted eyes were full of mirth as he took the remaint of the boy's innocence, all the while the worse curse imaginable was suspended on the boy as he writh-
Draco came to himself, heard his own screams as his flailing limbs were held down. This only caused him to see Voldemort again, raping him. Tears coursed like twin waterfalls his cheeks. A voice breezed past his ears. "Draco! Snap out of it! Your really starting to scare me! Draco!!"
Draco blinked, eyes clearing of the haze. "Professor Lupin?"
Remus controlled his own erratic breathing, hand resting on Draco's knee. "Oh God Draco! You had me really frightened. I heard you screaming all the way from my rooms. I guess Severus put silencing charms on his classroom. Do...do you want to talk about it?"
"No!"
"Draco, it will make you feel better. Trust me, I think I know what your going through." Remus hesitantly reached out and smoothed that rebellious strand of blonde hair and tucked it behind Draco's ear. "Tell me Draco, please. I want to help you get over your pain."
"I dont think anyone can do that."
"Quit being a git. Hmm, fine." Remus, still in his pajamas, threw aside his dressing robe. Draco watched him wide eyed. He crawled underneath the blankets with Draco. "So I guess I'll just stay here until you do tell me."
"Your an annoying prat sometimes, Professor."
"Call me Remus."
"Remus," Draco tested the name and found it rolled off his tongue fluently. He sighed, laying back down and turned to face Remus. "While I was under Cruciatus, Voldemort took advantage of me and.....and he raped me." Remus drew in breath, pale yellow eyes growing rounder. "He wasn't the only one. No, he had others prepare me before he did..it. I think there were at least five before him but I could have lost count. I was too weak to even feel the pain. of it over and over and over again. He wanted me broken.....looks as if he got his wish, huh?" Draco wiped the tears from his eyes. "Now your disgusted by me, aren't you?"
"Oh God no! Draco....I'm disgusted and pissed at Voldemort for doing that to you! Noone deserves that to happen, least of all you. Draco, I'm so sorry that it had to be you. I wish I could go to the bastard and kill him but dont you worry, his time is coming and I'll make him pay for hurting you."
Draco smiled; the first real smile he'd grinned in years. "Thank you Remus. Noone's ever said anything like that before to me." He yawned, blushing faintly. "Remus...um....do you think...you would hold me?"
Remus held his arms open in invitation and the blonde eagerly went into the hold. The werewolf curled the flaxen locks around his fingers. The boy snuggled against his chest, hands clutching at the fabric of his shirt. Remus then realized just how fragile Draco was. With a hug, Remus kissed Draco's forehead. "Goodnight Draco."
"Night Remus."
Severus was agitated and anxious all at one. Those combined made for a very irritated Potions Master. He was anxious because of everything going on with Draco, whom he loved like a father would love a son. He was agitated because he didnt have the inkling of an idea as to what to do for him. There weren't any potions that dealed with depression which wouldn't have worked in the first place since Draco refused to even take the Dreamless Sleep Potion let alone a depression potion. Then, to add to his mood, Voldemort was growing closer and it would only be a few days before he and Draco were summoned.
The door to his classroom opened. "Professor, I'm tired but I dont know the password to your chambers."
Severus grabbed Draco's hand, leading him to the entrace of his chambers. He placed the pale appendage on the knob, waving his wand over both. "There, now you can come and go as you please. I have research to do so don't expect back here anytime soon. If you get hungry, there's some Chocolate Frogs," Draco smirked, "in the cabinent by the fireplace. The Frogs were a gift from your mother so dont go looking so smug. You read whatever you want, just make sure that the books are back in there proper place. That is all." As Draco went to go inside, Severus paused his movements. "I dont want you leaving. It isnt safe," Severus whispered, not used to playing this role. "Goodnight Draco," he planted a kiss on the blonde's brow and hurried back to his classroom.
Draco stood in the hall, blinking confusedly. He shook his head to clear the thoughts and went inside, locking the door behind him. So much was changing. He was now close to three of the most distant people in the world. As the warm spray of the water caressed his worn body, his fingers darted across several scars on his hips, wincing. Those memories would not haunt him tonight. Draco had always been close to Severus....closer than he was to even his own father. Draco wondered if he could somehow convince Severus to adopt him once his mother was sent to St.Mungo's. Next came, Sirius Black. Draco had heard so many bad things about the man from Severus and Lucius that he wasn't expecting Sirius to be so...kind. Sure, he had the worse sense of humor and he hated Severus with passion-which in Draco's eyes was merely sexual frustration between the two adults. Then, there was the issue with Remus.
He had meant all of those things he had told Remus before they ate. Remus was quite possibly the only one on the face of the planet that could understand him. Remus also treated him like a normal human being, not some evil creature needed to be wiped from the face of the Earth. Draco felt the exact same about Remus and now that he knew what it was like to be in the werewovle's shoes, he wouldn't dare insult Remus again. Of course...there was the alien feeling in the pits of his stomach everytime he thought about the older man. It was a warmth that filled his entire body and he caught himself blushing at least two times in the presence of Remus though, he figured it had happened before without his knowledge.
Dressing in his pajamas, Draco sleepily padded into his room. He didnt' bother with the anything just intent on reaching the bed before he collapsed. He slipped down the blankets and covered himself, sighing in contentment. He wouldn't think about anything. Not about Voldemort, the Dark Mark, Potter, or Remus. No, not tonight. He was too happy.
@-@-@-@--
Talons teared a milky smooth skin, ripping the flesh into shreds of blood. Hands held the struggling form down, the laughing creature thrust into his virgin body. Slitted eyes were full of mirth as he took the remaint of the boy's innocence, all the while the worse curse imaginable was suspended on the boy as he writh-
Draco came to himself, heard his own screams as his flailing limbs were held down. This only caused him to see Voldemort again, raping him. Tears coursed like twin waterfalls his cheeks. A voice breezed past his ears. "Draco! Snap out of it! Your really starting to scare me! Draco!!"
Draco blinked, eyes clearing of the haze. "Professor Lupin?"
Remus controlled his own erratic breathing, hand resting on Draco's knee. "Oh God Draco! You had me really frightened. I heard you screaming all the way from my rooms. I guess Severus put silencing charms on his classroom. Do...do you want to talk about it?"
"No!"
"Draco, it will make you feel better. Trust me, I think I know what your going through." Remus hesitantly reached out and smoothed that rebellious strand of blonde hair and tucked it behind Draco's ear. "Tell me Draco, please. I want to help you get over your pain."
"I dont think anyone can do that."
"Quit being a git. Hmm, fine." Remus, still in his pajamas, threw aside his dressing robe. Draco watched him wide eyed. He crawled underneath the blankets with Draco. "So I guess I'll just stay here until you do tell me."
"Your an annoying prat sometimes, Professor."
"Call me Remus."
"Remus," Draco tested the name and found it rolled off his tongue fluently. He sighed, laying back down and turned to face Remus. "While I was under Cruciatus, Voldemort took advantage of me and.....and he raped me." Remus drew in breath, pale yellow eyes growing rounder. "He wasn't the only one. No, he had others prepare me before he did..it. I think there were at least five before him but I could have lost count. I was too weak to even feel the pain. of it over and over and over again. He wanted me broken.....looks as if he got his wish, huh?" Draco wiped the tears from his eyes. "Now your disgusted by me, aren't you?"
"Oh God no! Draco....I'm disgusted and pissed at Voldemort for doing that to you! Noone deserves that to happen, least of all you. Draco, I'm so sorry that it had to be you. I wish I could go to the bastard and kill him but dont you worry, his time is coming and I'll make him pay for hurting you."
Draco smiled; the first real smile he'd grinned in years. "Thank you Remus. Noone's ever said anything like that before to me." He yawned, blushing faintly. "Remus...um....do you think...you would hold me?"
Remus held his arms open in invitation and the blonde eagerly went into the hold. The werewolf curled the flaxen locks around his fingers. The boy snuggled against his chest, hands clutching at the fabric of his shirt. Remus then realized just how fragile Draco was. With a hug, Remus kissed Draco's forehead. "Goodnight Draco."
"Night Remus."