Disclaimer:I own Noothing.
Notes: Sorry with Christmas things are getting behinde.
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Chapter Ten: A War Torn Heart
Seajae sat in the corner of the living room. A coffee cup in her hand. The black circles around her eyes show she handn't slep at all the night before. Bosco sat watching her from the couch. Jimmy and Kim sat feeding the kids breakfeast. Bobby Goren stood drinking a cup of coffee. He went to Seajae and sqautted in front of her.
"Tell me about last night."
"The dreams were so real but so....jumbled."
"Anything make sence to you?"
"Just that everyone was in troble and I could't save them all."
"What about the Man. You said you killed him and you were safe."
"I don't know who he is but I know he's gone. The girl in the apartment was gang related. That's why Nino's looking for me. They saw the pictures too. They think I know more then I did. Well now I know a lot more."
"So with all this jumbled dream you solved a murder." Bobby smiled. "See it just takes someone to sort it all out."
"I hate it when your right." Seajae looked into her coffee. "I just want to know why I kept seeing everyone in danger. This fire, I just can't focus on where it is or why it happens."
"You've gone a long time without seeing anything Seajae. It may take some time to work out the kinks." She looked at Bosco.
"Should we shake up Nino and see what we can get?"
"I'm still not convinced your ready to go back on the streets. You need some solid sleep Seaj."
"Nino's boys are itching for a fight Bosco. We need to pull them in now before they start something."
"They'll sit low until they find out what you know. They don't scramble on rumer."
"But they targeted me. Which means I'm someones ticket into the ranks. They need me."
"Well so do a whole hell of a lot of other people Seajae. We're not going to dangle you out as bait. They'll loose interst soon enough."
"Yeah well I'm not going to sit on my ass and loose sleep because of these jerks." Seajae stood up and walked to the sink and dumped her coffee. "Thanks for coming over guys." She looked at Kim and Jimmy.
"Anytime kiddo. You know we're here anytime you need us." Seajae smiled. The phone rang and she answered it.
"Hello."
"Seajae, it's Sully."
"Hey old man. What's up?"
"Tatianna 's in labor. We're at the hospital."
"You want us to come down?"
"If you could. Even just to take Ethan. All he wants is his mom."
"We'll be there in a few. Tell her to breath."
"Yeah, you try telling a woman with back labor to breath." Seajae hung up.
"Tatianna's in labor. We need to go down and get Ethan." Seajae grabbed her coat. Her friends and husband looked at her. "What? Kelly's on her way. I can leave the apartment can't I?"
"You just seem...like your old self." Kim took Savannah and handed her to Jimmy and helped Mac out of his high chair. "It's good to have you back Seaj."
"I didn't know I went anywhere." She smiled and took Mack from Kim. "Hey baby boy. Auntie Tatianna and Uncle Sully's baby is coming."
"Sully......" Mack smiled at his mother.
"That's right. Kelly will be here soon and you can play with her and your sisters."
"Sisers ukie mama." Everyone laughed.
"No your sisters are sweet and loveable just like you little man. Go terroize uncle Jimmy while I get dressed." She handed Mac to Jimmy and headed to the bedroom. Bosco followed her.
"Your hiding something Seajae." He closed the door behind him.
"Hiding something? Come on Maurice. I can't hide anything from the bunch of you."
"Exactly. Thats why I know your hiding something now. You can't lie to us."
"In my dreams I'm rescuing the world. I guess it's just really tiring saving eveyone."
"You don't have to save them all Seajae. Just save yourself right now."
"You know I can't."
"Then let me save you." He took her in his arms. "Let me be the one who makes it all right this time."
"I wish it were that simple Bosco."
"It can be." He closed his eyes and held her close. "Just let me." They stood there for a long time. Letting the strength of eachother pull them though another day.
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"It's a girl." Sully came out of the delivery room. "Seajae I have a little girl." Seajae hugged Sully.
"Congratulations old man." There were tears in both their eyes. Times like this she didn't mind taking on the weight of the world. "Hey Ethan you have a sister." Ethan came running from Bosco and hugged his dad.
"Hey slugger. You want to go see mama and Annailease?"
"Baby Anna's here." Ethan giggled and Sully went back into the room. Bosco came up behind Seajae and hugged her.
"Another addition to our family." Seajae closed her eyes.
"Another ray of sunshine in our lives."
"Another birthday to remember." Seajae laughed.
"I think my date book is getting pretty full. But I think it's time for a couple of others to have another baby."
"Don't push it. We may have to take out a second morgage at Christmas." Seajae turned around and looked at her husband.
"I'm sorry I can't give you any more babies Maurice."
"Never be sorry for that. You gave me two wonderful children. You saved Hope and she became as much ours as Angel and Mackenzie. You gave more then I could ever ask for." Bosco kissed his wife. "We have all we ever need baby." Sully came out caring a little pink bundle.
"Oh John, she's beautiful." He handed the baby to Seajae.
"Annailease Rose Sullivan, meet your auntie Seajae and uncle Bosco." Bosco smiled.
"Hey she lookes like me Sully." Sully laughed.
"I guess it's only fair since yours looked like me." They all laughed.
"John, bring them all in here." Tatianna called. Seajae went to her friend and gave her a hug.
"You did good my friend." Tatianna smiled.
"She is beautiful no?"
"She's georgeous." Bosco said as he took the baby from Seajae. "You'll be beating the boys off with a stick." She was so tiny and so sweet. "Annailease." He smiled at the baby and Seajae smiled at him. He was so handsome standing there with the liitle girl in his arms. Seajae wiped away a tear. She felt Sullys arms wrap around her.
"He's really grown up. You did good Sunshine."
"Thanks. You did too John." Seajae's pager went off. She looked at it. "I'm going to the nurses station to make a call. I'll be right back." Bosco looked at his wife.
"Everything okay?"
"Yeah. I'll be right back." Seajae went and used the phone. Bosco looked at the baby in his arms.
"You okay Bosco?" Sully looked at his friend. The man looked more tierd then he'd seen him in a long time. "You never did make that doctor's appointment did you?"
"I'll be okay. Seajae's been having nightmere's."
"You need to take some time off. Get some rest. No offence you look like hell."
"John!" Tatianna playfully slapped her husband. "Some friend you are."
"He's right Tatianna. I feel like hell too. I'm surprised I'm not scaring the heck out of the baby. Bosco sat down. "I think it's nothing a week in bed wouldn't cure."
"Take some time off."
"Maybe when you get back."
"Now Bosco. I'll call Faith and Jason and get it cleared." Sully stood infront of him. "That's an order." Bosco knew better then to argue with the older man. He looked down at the tiny miricle he was holding and felt a pang of lonliness in his heart. He hadn't lied to Seajae. He was happy with his family but just seeing a baby and knowing there can never be another for them hurt just a little.
"Thank you."
"Fo what?"
"Making me see that sometimes you have to step back and set your priorities." Ethan climed on his uncle Bosco's lap and looked at his baby sister. "So what do you think of your baby sister buddy?"
"You take me home?" Ethan asked. "Play with Mack and Angel?"
"Sure buddy. We need to wait for auntie Seajae."
"Leave baby with mama and papa?"
"Yeah I guess we could do that." Bosco smiled and got up and handed the baby back to her mother. "Get your jacket on." Seajae came back into the room.
"I told Joey and Kelly to move back to the apartment. I don't want your mom having the whole crew coming in and out." Ethan ran to Seajae and she picked him up. "You coming home with us Ethan John?"
"Yep." Seajae went to Tatianna .
"Say good bye to mama and papa." Seajae smiled. She looked at her husband for the first time since coming back into the room. His eyes were empty. He handn't shaved this morning and he looked tiered amd worn. How had she missed it before? They said thier good byes and headed home.
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"Sully want's me to take some time off." Bosco looked at his wife as they drove home.
"You look like you need it."
"Thanks."
"I mean you...well you know what I mean." Bosco looked at his wife.
"Yeah. I'm going a make a doctors appointment. I just can't kick this tired feeling."
"Well if your wife let you sleep at night..." Seajae smilled. "I'm scared Bosco. Scared of what I'm doing to you." Her smile turned into a frown. "What I'm doing to us."
"Seajae we both work to hard and play to hard. It's in out blood. And add on the stress of someone always having a grudge agaist us it becomes a pretty heavy load. We're strong enough to handle it but we also need to know when to let go." He rached over and took her hand. "For now lets just take it one day at a time."
"Sounds good to me." The sounds of sirens broke them out of the moment. They both looked ahead to find Angela Boscorelli's bar and home engulfed in fire. Seajae slammed on the breaks and jumped out of the truck before it compleatly stopped. Her family was in there. She felt Bosco's arms around as she started to bolt tword the building. "Let me go. Our babies....."
"Seajae honey, the rescue workers are here. You'll just get in the way."
" Get your hands off me and let me get my babies." She broke out of his hold just as the building exploded sending them realing backwards. They both sat up and looked at what was left of the building that held their family and friends. "Oh my god Bosco!" Seajae turned and barried her head agaist her husbands chest and let out a moarnful sob. He just held her tight and prayed. For his children, his friends and his mother. They were gone. He never felt so alone and helpless in all his life.
Notes: Sorry with Christmas things are getting behinde.
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Chapter Ten: A War Torn Heart
Seajae sat in the corner of the living room. A coffee cup in her hand. The black circles around her eyes show she handn't slep at all the night before. Bosco sat watching her from the couch. Jimmy and Kim sat feeding the kids breakfeast. Bobby Goren stood drinking a cup of coffee. He went to Seajae and sqautted in front of her.
"Tell me about last night."
"The dreams were so real but so....jumbled."
"Anything make sence to you?"
"Just that everyone was in troble and I could't save them all."
"What about the Man. You said you killed him and you were safe."
"I don't know who he is but I know he's gone. The girl in the apartment was gang related. That's why Nino's looking for me. They saw the pictures too. They think I know more then I did. Well now I know a lot more."
"So with all this jumbled dream you solved a murder." Bobby smiled. "See it just takes someone to sort it all out."
"I hate it when your right." Seajae looked into her coffee. "I just want to know why I kept seeing everyone in danger. This fire, I just can't focus on where it is or why it happens."
"You've gone a long time without seeing anything Seajae. It may take some time to work out the kinks." She looked at Bosco.
"Should we shake up Nino and see what we can get?"
"I'm still not convinced your ready to go back on the streets. You need some solid sleep Seaj."
"Nino's boys are itching for a fight Bosco. We need to pull them in now before they start something."
"They'll sit low until they find out what you know. They don't scramble on rumer."
"But they targeted me. Which means I'm someones ticket into the ranks. They need me."
"Well so do a whole hell of a lot of other people Seajae. We're not going to dangle you out as bait. They'll loose interst soon enough."
"Yeah well I'm not going to sit on my ass and loose sleep because of these jerks." Seajae stood up and walked to the sink and dumped her coffee. "Thanks for coming over guys." She looked at Kim and Jimmy.
"Anytime kiddo. You know we're here anytime you need us." Seajae smiled. The phone rang and she answered it.
"Hello."
"Seajae, it's Sully."
"Hey old man. What's up?"
"Tatianna 's in labor. We're at the hospital."
"You want us to come down?"
"If you could. Even just to take Ethan. All he wants is his mom."
"We'll be there in a few. Tell her to breath."
"Yeah, you try telling a woman with back labor to breath." Seajae hung up.
"Tatianna's in labor. We need to go down and get Ethan." Seajae grabbed her coat. Her friends and husband looked at her. "What? Kelly's on her way. I can leave the apartment can't I?"
"You just seem...like your old self." Kim took Savannah and handed her to Jimmy and helped Mac out of his high chair. "It's good to have you back Seaj."
"I didn't know I went anywhere." She smiled and took Mack from Kim. "Hey baby boy. Auntie Tatianna and Uncle Sully's baby is coming."
"Sully......" Mack smiled at his mother.
"That's right. Kelly will be here soon and you can play with her and your sisters."
"Sisers ukie mama." Everyone laughed.
"No your sisters are sweet and loveable just like you little man. Go terroize uncle Jimmy while I get dressed." She handed Mac to Jimmy and headed to the bedroom. Bosco followed her.
"Your hiding something Seajae." He closed the door behind him.
"Hiding something? Come on Maurice. I can't hide anything from the bunch of you."
"Exactly. Thats why I know your hiding something now. You can't lie to us."
"In my dreams I'm rescuing the world. I guess it's just really tiring saving eveyone."
"You don't have to save them all Seajae. Just save yourself right now."
"You know I can't."
"Then let me save you." He took her in his arms. "Let me be the one who makes it all right this time."
"I wish it were that simple Bosco."
"It can be." He closed his eyes and held her close. "Just let me." They stood there for a long time. Letting the strength of eachother pull them though another day.
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"It's a girl." Sully came out of the delivery room. "Seajae I have a little girl." Seajae hugged Sully.
"Congratulations old man." There were tears in both their eyes. Times like this she didn't mind taking on the weight of the world. "Hey Ethan you have a sister." Ethan came running from Bosco and hugged his dad.
"Hey slugger. You want to go see mama and Annailease?"
"Baby Anna's here." Ethan giggled and Sully went back into the room. Bosco came up behind Seajae and hugged her.
"Another addition to our family." Seajae closed her eyes.
"Another ray of sunshine in our lives."
"Another birthday to remember." Seajae laughed.
"I think my date book is getting pretty full. But I think it's time for a couple of others to have another baby."
"Don't push it. We may have to take out a second morgage at Christmas." Seajae turned around and looked at her husband.
"I'm sorry I can't give you any more babies Maurice."
"Never be sorry for that. You gave me two wonderful children. You saved Hope and she became as much ours as Angel and Mackenzie. You gave more then I could ever ask for." Bosco kissed his wife. "We have all we ever need baby." Sully came out caring a little pink bundle.
"Oh John, she's beautiful." He handed the baby to Seajae.
"Annailease Rose Sullivan, meet your auntie Seajae and uncle Bosco." Bosco smiled.
"Hey she lookes like me Sully." Sully laughed.
"I guess it's only fair since yours looked like me." They all laughed.
"John, bring them all in here." Tatianna called. Seajae went to her friend and gave her a hug.
"You did good my friend." Tatianna smiled.
"She is beautiful no?"
"She's georgeous." Bosco said as he took the baby from Seajae. "You'll be beating the boys off with a stick." She was so tiny and so sweet. "Annailease." He smiled at the baby and Seajae smiled at him. He was so handsome standing there with the liitle girl in his arms. Seajae wiped away a tear. She felt Sullys arms wrap around her.
"He's really grown up. You did good Sunshine."
"Thanks. You did too John." Seajae's pager went off. She looked at it. "I'm going to the nurses station to make a call. I'll be right back." Bosco looked at his wife.
"Everything okay?"
"Yeah. I'll be right back." Seajae went and used the phone. Bosco looked at the baby in his arms.
"You okay Bosco?" Sully looked at his friend. The man looked more tierd then he'd seen him in a long time. "You never did make that doctor's appointment did you?"
"I'll be okay. Seajae's been having nightmere's."
"You need to take some time off. Get some rest. No offence you look like hell."
"John!" Tatianna playfully slapped her husband. "Some friend you are."
"He's right Tatianna. I feel like hell too. I'm surprised I'm not scaring the heck out of the baby. Bosco sat down. "I think it's nothing a week in bed wouldn't cure."
"Take some time off."
"Maybe when you get back."
"Now Bosco. I'll call Faith and Jason and get it cleared." Sully stood infront of him. "That's an order." Bosco knew better then to argue with the older man. He looked down at the tiny miricle he was holding and felt a pang of lonliness in his heart. He hadn't lied to Seajae. He was happy with his family but just seeing a baby and knowing there can never be another for them hurt just a little.
"Thank you."
"Fo what?"
"Making me see that sometimes you have to step back and set your priorities." Ethan climed on his uncle Bosco's lap and looked at his baby sister. "So what do you think of your baby sister buddy?"
"You take me home?" Ethan asked. "Play with Mack and Angel?"
"Sure buddy. We need to wait for auntie Seajae."
"Leave baby with mama and papa?"
"Yeah I guess we could do that." Bosco smiled and got up and handed the baby back to her mother. "Get your jacket on." Seajae came back into the room.
"I told Joey and Kelly to move back to the apartment. I don't want your mom having the whole crew coming in and out." Ethan ran to Seajae and she picked him up. "You coming home with us Ethan John?"
"Yep." Seajae went to Tatianna .
"Say good bye to mama and papa." Seajae smiled. She looked at her husband for the first time since coming back into the room. His eyes were empty. He handn't shaved this morning and he looked tiered amd worn. How had she missed it before? They said thier good byes and headed home.
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"Sully want's me to take some time off." Bosco looked at his wife as they drove home.
"You look like you need it."
"Thanks."
"I mean you...well you know what I mean." Bosco looked at his wife.
"Yeah. I'm going a make a doctors appointment. I just can't kick this tired feeling."
"Well if your wife let you sleep at night..." Seajae smilled. "I'm scared Bosco. Scared of what I'm doing to you." Her smile turned into a frown. "What I'm doing to us."
"Seajae we both work to hard and play to hard. It's in out blood. And add on the stress of someone always having a grudge agaist us it becomes a pretty heavy load. We're strong enough to handle it but we also need to know when to let go." He rached over and took her hand. "For now lets just take it one day at a time."
"Sounds good to me." The sounds of sirens broke them out of the moment. They both looked ahead to find Angela Boscorelli's bar and home engulfed in fire. Seajae slammed on the breaks and jumped out of the truck before it compleatly stopped. Her family was in there. She felt Bosco's arms around as she started to bolt tword the building. "Let me go. Our babies....."
"Seajae honey, the rescue workers are here. You'll just get in the way."
" Get your hands off me and let me get my babies." She broke out of his hold just as the building exploded sending them realing backwards. They both sat up and looked at what was left of the building that held their family and friends. "Oh my god Bosco!" Seajae turned and barried her head agaist her husbands chest and let out a moarnful sob. He just held her tight and prayed. For his children, his friends and his mother. They were gone. He never felt so alone and helpless in all his life.