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Hyde had always known he would never lead a "normal" life. Too much pain to do that he thought. Ever since he was a kid, he had always been "cool", and as he grew up, fatherless, that was the only thing he could do to hide his jealousy. Yeah, Hyde was jealous as a kid of all the other kids who had normal families, a mom who would cook for them, care for them, make sure they didn't do anything stupid and a dad, a real life one, who would play baseball with them, and teach them how to ride a bike. None of that he had. None of it.
His mother has always been an alcoholic, drinking her way through many different "uncles", like "uncle" Larry, "uncle" hot tub Johnny and so on and so forth. She didn't care for him, she just thought a kid was a nuisance. She wouldn't make him peanut-butter and jelly sandwiches, he had to steal them from others, like the few toys he had. Those he either stole or found in the garbage near their house. And yet, as a kid, he had called her mom. But how long can you call the woman passed out on the couch your mother. There was no mutual respect in their family.
He had lost of the respect he has for her when he had seen her naked, straddling one of his "uncles" and doing it with him. He had looked at them with rounded eyes, not realizing what she was doing. She had turned around and yelled at him to go out. He left her right then, left all his respect for her and went out. He was just about ten years old. And since then, he had called her mostly Edna, even if sometimes, he would call her "Ma". She found him some time after that, sitting on the porch, looking at the sky and crying. But then, the only thing she did was yell at him, telling him he had to knock before coming in. What kind of a mother was that? Telling him he had to knock before coming in? He was ten, he had just had a nightmare. Yet the nightmare was just starting. As he got older, the only thing she did was remind him he had ruined her "water skiing" career and how like his father he was.
Pshh, his father. A fine person he was. The bastard who had left them both when Hyde was just 8 years old. It was right after one of his little league games. He was up for bat he remembered. He kept looking at the bleachers, but Bud Hyde was nowhere to be seen. Bud didn't see him bat or his team win thanks to him. Red had given him a ride to his house. He thanked him and got out. As he went up the steps of the porch, he kept wishing Bud would come out and say he was sorry for missing the game, and that that will never happen again. Instead, he opened the door and found his mother sitting on the couch, crying. He went to her and asked what was happening. She had looked at him with nothing but annoyance.
"Your father left."
"When will he be back mommy?" he had asked, not thinking of the worse.
"Never, never." she had told him, before going to her bedroom and shutting the door. Little Hyde stayed there, as he began to cry. He went to bed, and cried the whole night at how his daddy left.
He was barely seventeen when Edna had ditched him too. Just went away with a trucker. He thought she would come back, but he had thought too highly of her. She didn't come back, and believe it or not, he actually did miss her sometimes. That was before he started living with the Formans and started loving Kitty like his own mother.
But less then a year later, surprise surprise, who had come back to town? Bud.
He remembered that day too, now, turning on his side on Leo's narrow couch. He and the guys were just going to get some beers, hopefully enough to make them all look pretty before they kicked them out because of their age. The went in, and as always Kelso made an ass of himself, saying they were in school. He had looked at the bartender, and kept staring at him. Yup, the bartender, his father, the guy that disappeared for nine years. Two nights later, he had come back to the bar, screaming at him all of his wrath, and Bud had just caved, saying he really was a bad parent, and that there was no reason why Hyde should forgive him. But yet, Hyde did and he moved in with him, leaving the Formans and Eric's company.
Eric. His best friend and the guy he envied most. He had everything going for him, except, of course the body, since he was scrawny. But Eric had everything else, a great girl, Donna (on which Hyde had a crush earlier), great parents, sweet Kitty and hardass Red, and a prey for all the burns you could make up, Laurie aka earth mother whore. But they, the "perfect" family had welcomed him in their house, arms wide open, and accepted him as their own. But life with them wasn't the little life he wanted to live, or so he thought at first. Kitty and Red wanted him to try harder, to become the person he knew he could become.
He had felt really bad when he got arrested for possession, it was like being a traitor to them. But they accepted him back. They were his family, a great one, the one he loved, one of the only things he cared for in his life.
Even all of his positive thoughts on the Formans, "the family" couldn't erase all the pain he felt from his biological "parents" ditching him. It was bad enough that they both had ditched him once. But now, it was double the pain. He felt betrayed. He had trusted Bud, and yet, he stabbed him in the back, like a petty thief. What a fine pair they made. Two bastards who couldn't look at life in the face. Whenever a problem arose, all they did was run.
"Cowards! Fucking cowards!" he said out loud.
The sound resonated in the empty dark house. In his reverie, he had imagined them being there, that's why he called them cowards. But his reverie melted and he was alone once more, crashing at Leo's place.
'Sad little orphan boy.'
Man, he hated that phrase. It made him sound like a wuss who cried day in and day out because his mommy and daddy left him. To tell the truth, at first he was sad, all of the memories of his childhood coming back to him when Edna left. But now, having bottled everything up, more like buried it in a secret part of his heart, all he felt was anger and hatred. If they ever came to him again, when he had a job and a good life, he wouldn't look at them twice. The hurt they caused him was eternally engraved in his mind, in his heart. Nothing they would ever do could erase that or make the pain go away.
'Sad little orphan boy.' his mind kept saying.
He was too weak to fight it now, he just wanted to fall asleep, to fall in the boon we all crave. He knew that sleep also meant nightmares, but he didn't care. No nightmare could be harsher than his life right now. Nothing could scare him now. Nothing. And with that, he turned on his side, closed his eyes and waited for sleep to take him to a, hopefully, better place, filled with booze, chicks, rock n' roll and some of his best stuff.
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Chapter 5 is over. I think this was better then the last ones. I think it gives us more insight on Hyde's life. Hope you agree! As always R/R!
Hyde had always known he would never lead a "normal" life. Too much pain to do that he thought. Ever since he was a kid, he had always been "cool", and as he grew up, fatherless, that was the only thing he could do to hide his jealousy. Yeah, Hyde was jealous as a kid of all the other kids who had normal families, a mom who would cook for them, care for them, make sure they didn't do anything stupid and a dad, a real life one, who would play baseball with them, and teach them how to ride a bike. None of that he had. None of it.
His mother has always been an alcoholic, drinking her way through many different "uncles", like "uncle" Larry, "uncle" hot tub Johnny and so on and so forth. She didn't care for him, she just thought a kid was a nuisance. She wouldn't make him peanut-butter and jelly sandwiches, he had to steal them from others, like the few toys he had. Those he either stole or found in the garbage near their house. And yet, as a kid, he had called her mom. But how long can you call the woman passed out on the couch your mother. There was no mutual respect in their family.
He had lost of the respect he has for her when he had seen her naked, straddling one of his "uncles" and doing it with him. He had looked at them with rounded eyes, not realizing what she was doing. She had turned around and yelled at him to go out. He left her right then, left all his respect for her and went out. He was just about ten years old. And since then, he had called her mostly Edna, even if sometimes, he would call her "Ma". She found him some time after that, sitting on the porch, looking at the sky and crying. But then, the only thing she did was yell at him, telling him he had to knock before coming in. What kind of a mother was that? Telling him he had to knock before coming in? He was ten, he had just had a nightmare. Yet the nightmare was just starting. As he got older, the only thing she did was remind him he had ruined her "water skiing" career and how like his father he was.
Pshh, his father. A fine person he was. The bastard who had left them both when Hyde was just 8 years old. It was right after one of his little league games. He was up for bat he remembered. He kept looking at the bleachers, but Bud Hyde was nowhere to be seen. Bud didn't see him bat or his team win thanks to him. Red had given him a ride to his house. He thanked him and got out. As he went up the steps of the porch, he kept wishing Bud would come out and say he was sorry for missing the game, and that that will never happen again. Instead, he opened the door and found his mother sitting on the couch, crying. He went to her and asked what was happening. She had looked at him with nothing but annoyance.
"Your father left."
"When will he be back mommy?" he had asked, not thinking of the worse.
"Never, never." she had told him, before going to her bedroom and shutting the door. Little Hyde stayed there, as he began to cry. He went to bed, and cried the whole night at how his daddy left.
He was barely seventeen when Edna had ditched him too. Just went away with a trucker. He thought she would come back, but he had thought too highly of her. She didn't come back, and believe it or not, he actually did miss her sometimes. That was before he started living with the Formans and started loving Kitty like his own mother.
But less then a year later, surprise surprise, who had come back to town? Bud.
He remembered that day too, now, turning on his side on Leo's narrow couch. He and the guys were just going to get some beers, hopefully enough to make them all look pretty before they kicked them out because of their age. The went in, and as always Kelso made an ass of himself, saying they were in school. He had looked at the bartender, and kept staring at him. Yup, the bartender, his father, the guy that disappeared for nine years. Two nights later, he had come back to the bar, screaming at him all of his wrath, and Bud had just caved, saying he really was a bad parent, and that there was no reason why Hyde should forgive him. But yet, Hyde did and he moved in with him, leaving the Formans and Eric's company.
Eric. His best friend and the guy he envied most. He had everything going for him, except, of course the body, since he was scrawny. But Eric had everything else, a great girl, Donna (on which Hyde had a crush earlier), great parents, sweet Kitty and hardass Red, and a prey for all the burns you could make up, Laurie aka earth mother whore. But they, the "perfect" family had welcomed him in their house, arms wide open, and accepted him as their own. But life with them wasn't the little life he wanted to live, or so he thought at first. Kitty and Red wanted him to try harder, to become the person he knew he could become.
He had felt really bad when he got arrested for possession, it was like being a traitor to them. But they accepted him back. They were his family, a great one, the one he loved, one of the only things he cared for in his life.
Even all of his positive thoughts on the Formans, "the family" couldn't erase all the pain he felt from his biological "parents" ditching him. It was bad enough that they both had ditched him once. But now, it was double the pain. He felt betrayed. He had trusted Bud, and yet, he stabbed him in the back, like a petty thief. What a fine pair they made. Two bastards who couldn't look at life in the face. Whenever a problem arose, all they did was run.
"Cowards! Fucking cowards!" he said out loud.
The sound resonated in the empty dark house. In his reverie, he had imagined them being there, that's why he called them cowards. But his reverie melted and he was alone once more, crashing at Leo's place.
'Sad little orphan boy.'
Man, he hated that phrase. It made him sound like a wuss who cried day in and day out because his mommy and daddy left him. To tell the truth, at first he was sad, all of the memories of his childhood coming back to him when Edna left. But now, having bottled everything up, more like buried it in a secret part of his heart, all he felt was anger and hatred. If they ever came to him again, when he had a job and a good life, he wouldn't look at them twice. The hurt they caused him was eternally engraved in his mind, in his heart. Nothing they would ever do could erase that or make the pain go away.
'Sad little orphan boy.' his mind kept saying.
He was too weak to fight it now, he just wanted to fall asleep, to fall in the boon we all crave. He knew that sleep also meant nightmares, but he didn't care. No nightmare could be harsher than his life right now. Nothing could scare him now. Nothing. And with that, he turned on his side, closed his eyes and waited for sleep to take him to a, hopefully, better place, filled with booze, chicks, rock n' roll and some of his best stuff.
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Chapter 5 is over. I think this was better then the last ones. I think it gives us more insight on Hyde's life. Hope you agree! As always R/R!