Mirrors of Courage

"But Mommy I want to go to the ball too." Lil'Serenity looked up at her mother as she tucked her in to bed.

"I'm sorry sweetie but you're still to young. Maybe next year." With a smile she brushed the blankets up around her shoulders and gave her a kiss on the forehead. "We'll see you in the morning." Serenity looked up at her mother with a smile before she drifted off to sleep.

Serenity looked down at her daughter with a smile before getting up from the bed and heading toward the door. Opening the door her breath caught in her throat when she saw Seiya walk by in a long blue gown. Her gown was breath taking. It was a split dresses. The skirt was dark blue with a glittery blue, shear layer overlay. But it was the top that struck her eye. When you saw it from the front it looked like a normal halter-top but when she saw the back, there were two shear pieces that fell well beyond the waist of the skirt that tied the shirt on. Leaning into the doorway Serenity smiled watching Seiya walk by before she shook her head realizing she was nowhere near ready.

Serenity lifted her skirt a bit and ran down the hall to her room where Endymion was adjusting his dress coat around his shoulders. "Ah Serenity I was wondering when you were gonna get ready." Endymion quirked a smile and walked toward Serenity and kissed her lightly on the cheek. "But what would my wife be if she wasn't fashionably late." With a wink he pulled away and smiled. "I'll see you at the ball."

"I shouldn't be to long all I really have to do is style my hair. Give me about 15-20 minutes. Let my mother know?"

"Sure thing Serenity." Endymion smiled as he closed the door as he left.

Serenity walked over to her wardrobe and rifled through her gowns and pulled out the one she had been thinking about wearing tonight. Draping it over her arm she looked at the shimmery gold fabric that was the base color of the gown. With her other arm she pulled up the shear black open front overlay and put it on the bed. Sure now she had her dress but what was she going to do with her hair?

Looking into the mirror her hands quickly went to her traditional buns and pulled out the pins that held the style in place, the gold and silver tresses falling to the floor. Carefully to be sure there wasn't a strand out of place she pulled all her hair but two strands that she pulled from the top of the tail that she left loose to slide around the side her of face.

Holding in a pin in her mouth she pulled various pieces of her hair up and curled it around the tail and pinned it in place until only a few strands were left to fall along her shoulders. Reaching into a little bin of clips she pulled out some bobby pins with gold gems on it and strategically placed them through out her hair.

Looking carefully into the mirror she eyed her hair in the back and smiled. Pulling a small piece of paper out of her drawer she pulled two tiny diamond bindi's off the sheet and put them on the points on both sides of her crescent moon.

Satisfied with her appearance Usagi walked over to her dress and quickly changed into it. Glancing into the mirror one more time she quickly make her way out the door and down the hall.

"Serenity?"

Serenity turned with a startled look on her face, but quickly smiled when she saw Rei standing before her in a long beautiful red gown. "Rei!"

"I as hoping I'd get a chance to talk to you before the ball." Rei smiled walking over to her and hugging her gently. "It's been a long time since I've been able to talk to you without everyone else around."

"I know how you feel. I always feel like I'm so rushed when I'm home. I never get the chance to talk with anyone."

"Not that it's a big surprise though is it Sere." Rei pulled out of the embrace and she pointed to the ball. "We can walk and talk of you like."

"No I want to be able to talk to you without any interruptions. Cause once people see me our conversation will be put on hold till who knows when." Serenity smiled leading Rei over to the couch against the wall. "So what do you want to talk about?"

"Nothing really important I just figured we could catch up." Rei ran a finger through her raven black hair and smiled. "So are you happy?"

Serenity almost choked on the air when she heard the question. Sure Rei didn't mean it the way it sounded, but it was a question that she had been thinking about a lot since she got back. Since she saw Seiya to be more specific. Oh why did things have to be so difficult? She was married to Endymion and that was the way things would remain. What good would come now if she were to tell people that she had loved long before she married him?

"Serenity?" Rei looked at her in concern when she didn't seem to answer.

"Oh of course I'm happy. I mean who wouldn't be? I'm married to a great man and have a beautiful daughter." Serenity smiled up at Rei. "Why is something going wrong between you and Jedite?"

"To be honest I thought our relationship would have progressed from here. We've been together for ages yet he won't ask me to marry him."

"Did you ever think maybe you could propose to him?"

"I don't know. It just doesn't seem right. I'm a girl of tradition Sere. Tell me one girl that doesn't picture her love getting down on one knee and proposing?" Rei looked up at Serenity and smiled knowing she knew how she felt. "Anyway I really should keep you from the ball any longer. Don't want you to be any later then normal."

The two girls laughed as they got up from their seats. "My friends are always far more important then a ball, you know that."

"Thank you, I know we didn't to talk for that long but thanks for listening to me." Rei hugged Serenity again before heading back toward the ballroom.

"Not a problem Rei. And don't worry about Jedite I'm sure he'll come around eventually." Serenity smiled to Rei.

"I hope so."

"Serenity! You are a half and hour late!" Luna stomped up to her holding her skirt in her hand. "Will you ever show up to a function on time?!"

"I'm sorry Luna, I held her up. I haven't had the chance to talk to her in private in a while. I do apologize." Rei bowed her head in respect and walked past Luna and Serenity and into the crowd.

Luna shook of the excuse and grabbed Serenity's hand. "Your presence is required in the ballroom now."

"Relax Luna I wasn't planing on going anywhere else." She tried to free her arm from Luna's grip as they walked but Luna was relentless. Luna dragged her into the ballroom weaving her in and out of the many guests until she reached Queen Serenity. "Here she is your majesty."

"You know Serenity, you really should learn to show up to social events on time."

Serenity bowed her head as her mom started the lecture. "I'm sorry mother but my daughter wasn't going to bed easy. I was with her until 15 minutes ago, then I had to get ready."

Queen Serenity realized she had inadvertently chastised her daughter. "I'm sorry daughter, I didn't mean to make it sound like I was yelling at you. I only meant it as a joke." Queen Serenity looked out over the crowd. "Now my dear it is time to greet our guests."

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Together Serenity and her mother walked around and greeted their guests. It was the same thing every year. They would say hello and then she wishes them well. Half of them Serenity didn't even know who they were. It was the strangest thing living like that. You wouldn't know who anyone is but they sure knew you. But that wasn't really true either. Sure they knew you by face and reputation, but did they really know you?

Serenity leaned up against the wall in the corner looking out over all the people. There was only a hand full of people in the room who really knew her. And she had kept the biggest secret of her life from all of them. Had she really been living a lie? Would her mother have let her marry Seiya? // "That was before I realized we still have time" \\ Seiya's words kept coming back to her. Did they still really have time? What about Endymion? What about her daughter? What would happen to her family if she were to tell everyone what she was really thinking?

That was exactly why she couldn't tell everyone what had gone on between her and Seiya. If she did her family would be destroyed. How would Endymion ever trust her? He certainly wouldn't allow him anywhere near her daughter.

Looking up Serenity saw Seiya with Yaten and Taiki. The way she smiled was something that was so beautiful. No matter how long they were at court those three never trusted anyone else as fully. She was the only other Seiya trusted with all her heart. But how could she trust her now? After the argument they had earlier Seiya would probably never speak to her again. No! She couldn't have that.

Putting a strand of hair behind her ear, Serenity straightened her gown and made her way toward Seiya. She stood behind her for a few minutes waiting for their conversation to finish before finally tapping her lightly on the shoulder. "Seiya can we talk?"

Seiya refused to turn around and face her. "I have nothing more to say to you Serenity." Seiya looked back at Yaten and Taiki and motioned to another part of the room. With a nod the three girls moved away from Serenity.

"Seiya please! Won't you just talk to me?!" The crowd shifted as they heard the princess yell, curious as to why.

"What's to say Serenity? You made it blatantly clear you didn't want to risk everything for us!" The crowd looked around in shock as Serenity moved closer to Seiya, not even caring about the room around her.

"You think this isn't risking everything?" Serenity proceeded to move closer to Seiya. "You obviously don't care enough to keep it quiet either do you?"

"I did it your way for far to long Serenity! I can't keep it inside anymore. You know what made my realized this? You! You and Yaten made my realized that no matter how far I go or for how long, I will always wish for what I have here! But I don't even have that do I!"

"Seiya what is the meaning of this?" Queen Serenity stood from the center of the room the crowd parting so they could look face to face. "Do you think it's polite to cause such a scene?"

"I'm sorry your majesty but."

"You're right Seiya I can't do this either." Serenity held her arm in front of her as he hand played idly with the overlay on her dress. Serenity turned toward her mother and bowed her head. "I'm not sure of the outcome. I think that's what I've really been scared of the most. But I think now it's time for me to get over my fear. I've been keeping a secret for far to long. It didn't just hurt me but it I also hurt the one person I care about the most."

When Endymion came and stood next to her mother, Serenity's voice caught in her throat. She knew he could hear every word she was saying, but it seemed different somehow with him standing right there. Summing up all the courage that she could she looked to Seiya who still had her head bowed down. "One of my close friends today asked me if I was happy, and you know what? I couldn't tell her the truth. To be honest at that time I didn't know what the truth was yet."

Serenity turned and looked at all the guests. "Every one of you here knows who I am right? Princess of the Moon, married to the Prince of Earth right? Well how many of you really know who I am? Sure my friends know me but only one here knows my true heart."

Serenity turned and looked at her mother and Endymion. "I just wish it was one of you two standing before me. That way I wouldn't be put into a situation such as this. Endymion, I have married you and bore you a child. And over time I did develop a love for you. But it was more or less a love out of convenience."

Walking toward him she held her hands at her side, looking like the strong girl that everyone didn't realize she could be. The courage that radiated from her was unfathomable. Everyone thought she was strong but was more or less a push over. Well tonight all would think of her different. "You can't deny it Endymion, after our marriage I could hardly talk to you. It was how long before I slept in the same bed with you?"

"Serenity you are confusing me. I was the same way. I to be honest wasn't too happy about marrying you either, but we found each other half way. It was because we didn't know each other, we've talked about this before." Endymion ran his fingers through his hair. Serenity couldn't help the smile that crept on her face. That was the one thing she had developed over the time of their marriage, being able to tell how Endymion was feeling at any given time. Endymion would always run his fingers through his hair when he was nervous. Though it was a rare thing to happen tonight he had it in spades.

"No Endymion, I'm afraid that the fact I didn't know you wasn't the reason I didn't want to learn to love you for so long. It actually comes from before we were married." Serenity stepped in front of her mother and nodded her head before turning around and walking back toward Seiya. "It's actually because I loved another, and I didn't want to give you the chance, because I was afraid I would loose them."

"Serenity what are you talking about? How come you never said any of this before?" Queen Serenity followed her daughter with a perplexed look on her face.

"Why mother?" Serenity kept her back to her mother as she scanned the crowd, her eyes stopping on the azure blue that was Seiya's. "As I grew up you told me how my marriage to the Prince of Earth was essential for the survival of our empire. You bred me to know I would marry a man that I had known but not enough to really be considered for my husband. I unlike everyone else was not given the choice of whom I was to fall in love with. But like the books always say you can't help whom you fall in love with. So why would I have told you when I fell in love? When my future was already decided for me?"

"Serenity, you still could have talked to me about it."

"No I couldn't." Serenity's eyes reluctantly pulled away form Seiya's as she turned back to face her mother. "Because I thought you wouldn't understand what I was feeling. I was terrified of what you would think if I told you who it was I loved."

"Well who is it Serenity?"

Serenity looked at her mother in confusion. "I thought by now it would have been pretty obvious who it is that I love. After all we were just arguing."

"I don't follow Serenity, the one you were fighting with was." Queen Serenity looked up as she realized what she was about to say. Looking at Seiya she saw the love in her she had in her eyes for her daughter. "Seiya please come here."

Seiya looked back at Yaten and then to Serenity before walking past her to stand before the Queen, her head bowed down. Her eyes shot open when the Queens finger touched her chin and nudged her face up to look into her face. "Your majesty."

"So you love my daughter?" Seiya cast her eyes down before looking back up and nodding. "Why did you not say something?"

"I." Seiya was stopped when a hand reached from behind and wrapped their fingers around hers.

"I am the reason we didn't say anything." Serenity came up beside Seiya. "Seiya wanted to tell everyone. But I was afraid of what would happen if you found out about us. Giving that I had been told my future since I was 6."

"Serenity, I'm sorry, I never meant for you to think that you couldn't lead your own life. If I had known you were in love, I never would have made you marry. But I'm afraid now it is to late, for you are married to Endymion."

"I'm sorry I shouldn't have returned when I did." Seiya tried to pull away but Serenity in place.

"Don't you apologize Seiya. This was going to happen sooner or later." Serenity looked up at her mother. "And I'm not sure how it will be done. But I will no live another day without Seiya. I have kept this part of my heart in the dark for so long, I will not deny it anymore."

To be continued.

Note: Part 6 Will more then likely be the last chapter of Dream of Mirrors. I have been writing a rough outline of a sequel to it. So if you are interested let me know.