Title. Above the Fire
Authour. ~sushisama~ (sbolce@esper.com)
Warnings. Damn fluff. Ohwell. This one has a bit more or a serious feel to
it, but still rather fluffy. It's
Takouji/Koujya, so if you don't like shounen-ai, this isn't the fic for you.
Disclaimer. Digimon belongs to Toei, I still believe. No one's told me otherwise, yet.
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Notes. W00t, stopped being lazy and finished the sequel. Go me.
Now, if only I could get to work on those Kensuke and Kingdom Hearts
fics... Hmm. Ohwell. Anyway, I kind of
like this fic. Especially the last line
of it. Hieh. And I was going to say something else, but I forgot what it was,
so I'm just going to leave it at that and probably write in the next fic if I
remember it. So, read and review, and
check out the message board.
/ thoughts / [ dreams ] (
flashbacks )
::*~~*::
Takuya
shifted slightly to get out of Kouji's loose grip, the blue-haired boy staying
fast asleep. He had been sitting up
with Takuya in his lap, but the smaller boy was starting to get uncomfortable,
though Kouji had long since gone to sleep with no problems. The brown-haired boy helped lay the
bluenette down on the ground on his side, in a position that the sleeping boy
could be comfortable and one that allowed Takuya to return to the embrace he
had left whenever he was ready to.
It was a new routine the two
of them were falling into. Wherever
they stayed for the night, whether it is outside or in a city somewhere(as rare
an occurrence as that was), the two boys would always sleep near each
other. Of course, the others eyed them
oddly - aside from Izumi, who just gave a knowing smirk - but neither one cared
all that much.
Takuya had started to cheer up
since four nights ago, when Kouji first held him, to the point where no one
seemed to notice his mood change anymore.
It was only Kouji who had the privilege of seeing him sad and
discouraged, because that's the only person Takuya wanted to see that. He would stay strong for everyone, leading
as best he could with a smile on his face, but at night he would return to the
Light's warm embrace, letting his defenses down. There was no need to be strong for Kouji: the pale boy already
held enough strength for the both of them.
Even though Kouji was there
for him now, he still couldn't stop thinking about his family. He didn't want to deal with it. He just wanted everything to be the way it
was, everything to go back to normal.
There was so much fighting, so much with the law and lawyers, the threat
of being separated from his brother.
No! He couldn't let that
happen. His little brother, Shinya,
needed him. He needed his little
brother.
Would his parents even care,
though? Or were they just going to
fight over the two siblings like the rest of the objects they were disputing
over?
There had been discussions on
moving. His father was definitely going
to be the one leaving, but he was the one that was fighting to keep
Takuya. Which meant moving away from
his friends. And, worst of all, from
Kouji, whom he had learned lived very close to him. The idea of only having Kouji here in the digital world made his
heart ache.
Takuya looked around the
clearing that the children had made for the night in the middle of a deep
forest. Last night, they had stayed at
a small city run by (Motomon) and they had all been given a good meal and a comfortable
bed. They didn't have that luxury this
night, but at least he still had Kouji to cling to for warmth and comfort.
While Kouji was still
sleeping, Takuya was sitting up, staring at the loner's pale face as he slept
peacefully. It was the only time Kouji
over looked that way, and he especially thought it was beautiful in the full
moon's light as it was right now.
Takuya frowned as his thoughts
went back to the depressing state they had had before. / I don't want to move... not away from
you... / He sighed, closing his eyes.
"What are you thinking
about?" came a soft whisper.
Takuya opened his brown eyes to stare at Kouji's open blue ones. The taller boy did not move, but stared
intensely at the tan, as if trying to see through him.
"A lot," was
Takuya's quiet reply. And that was all
he really needed to say, too - Kouji knew everything that was wrong in Takuya's
life. He had made sure of it with
incessant questioning.
Kouji could only stare
sympathetically - not with pity, Takuya had to keep reminding himself - because
he wasn't very good with speaking. He
could only give him the comfort of an embrace, which seemed to be good enough
for Takuya. He thought about it enough,
talking about it made it worse. So, as
he had done many times by now, he opened his arms out to the depressed child of
fire.
Takuya smiled weakly and
crawled back under the small blanket and cuddled close to the surprisingly warm
Kouji. It was the only way he knew how
to comfort him, so he accepted, not only because it made him feel better, but
it seemed to comfort Kouji a bit, too.
No kisses, though. Only hugs.
It was as if Kouji was afraid to touch him.
Great, another thing to pull
on the back of his mind.
"Kouji," Takuya
called softly. If there was one thing
he could get off his mind, he would gladly do it, even if it meant his feelings
getting hurt a bit.
"Yeah, Takuya?"
Kouji replied, sounding a bit tired.
Takuya took a deep
breath. "What do I mean to
you?"
"A lot," was his
answer.
"Not what I meant."
"What do you mean,
then?"
"Am I your... umm...
" He wasn't sure how to word the
question.
"Boyfriend?" Kouji felt the smaller boy nod into his
chest. He pondered the question. Yes, he cared for the boy beyond friendship,
but he didn't like the idea of labels.
And what might be expected of him after such a title was given. "Do you... is that what you want?"
In the end, it always came
back to Takuya's happiness above his personal feelings on the matter.
"Well, yeah, I was
hoping..." He nuzzled Kouji's
chest. "But, only if you want it,
too..."
"Can we just not title
it?"
"What do you mean?"
"I don't want to be your
boyfriend, and I don't want you to be mine."
"Oh," said Takuya in
a defeated tone, moving away a bit from the other.
"No, Takuya," Kouji
said quickly, pulling the boy back to him and tightening his grip. "You don't understand." He rubbed the smaller boy's back in a
soothing, reassuring motion. "I
care about you, I want to be with you.
I just... don't like titles.
Does that make any sense?"
Takuya
thought about it. "You mean...
we're going out, but that's not what it's called...?"
"Yeah, something like
that."
"But... it's not open,
right...?"
"I couldn't share you
with anyone, Takuya."
Takuya smiled. "I don't want to share you, either,
Kouji..." He sighed contently. "Mine..." He tightened his hold on the other, pulling
him as close as possible, wanting nothing to ever be between them. "All mine..."
Kouji smirked, resting his
chin on top of Takuya's for-once-not-covered-by-a-hat head. "All yours..."
"So, if someone asks,
what do we tell them?"
"We just tell them that
we... are. Let them figure it out on
their own."
"Do you care if people
know?"
"No, not really. You?"
"I don't care if my
friends know. But, my parents... I... now would not be the time to tell
them," Takuya admitted.
Kouji nodded. "I understand."
Takuya went silent for a
moment as he contemplated on telling Kouji about the moving subject. But... he didn't know for sure if he was
moving, so he didn't want to speak of any false information. He also didn't want their relationship to
feel rushed while they were in the digital world, even though Takuya knew it
would have to be a bit, even if he wasn't moving when he got back home. So much was going on right now. He wondered how much he would see of the
other boy, anyway...
"Takuya?"
"Yeah?"
"You're not going to
sleep anytime soon, are you?"
Takuya smirked. Kouji was already starting to know him
better... "I can go sit somewhere
else if you want to go to sleep."
"And let you go off and
depress yourself more?" He started
to rub Takuya's back again, in the same reassuring way as he had before. "I'd rather you be here with me. Besides, you're warm..."
"Okay, then, I'll stay
here."
"Try to go to sleep, for
once. Just.. let everything go. You can think on it later. It's not worth it right now."
Takuya nodded, a smile on his
lips. He wondered briefly if he had
changed Kouji, or if the loner had always been this caring, just to those he
cared about. Either way, he loved the
way Kouji treated him when no one was looking, and sometimes even when they
were. He wanted to hold on to those
kinds of moments for as long as he could.
"I never want to leave
this world..." he whispered more to himself than Kouji.
"What?"
Takuya shook his head. "Nothing." He tilted his head back a bit and laid a
soft kiss on the underside of Kouji's chin.
"I'm going to try to go to sleep now. Good night, Kouji."
He nuzzled his chest affectionately and closed his eyes.
"...Takuya?" Kouji's voice seemed a bit more serious than
normal, catching Takuya's immediate attention.
His brown eyes opened again
and he pulled away a bit so he could look up into Kouji's eyes. "Yeah, Kouji?"
The blue-eyed child
hesitated. "May I... kiss
you?"
Though he wasn't sure why, a
small blush crept to the tan's cheeks, and he noticed a similar one on his
'boyfriend's' face. He wasn't sure why,
though; why should it seem weird that Kouji would ask? Maybe that's why it was weird: because he
asked, instead of just doing it. But it
kind of seemed like something he'd do - everything that happened between them
so far had to be explained and said out loud, why not this?
Takuya must've nodded or
something while he was in that brief reverie he noticed as Kouji's lips were on
his. His brown eyes stayed open for a
moment, staring into Kouji's blue ones, but then the loner closed his, and
Takuya followed suit.
It felt longer than it really
was, but at the same time it felt really short. Takuya was the first to pull away and he just stared at Kouji, an
unreadable look on his face. Kouji's
eyes were closed at first and then they slowly opened, and laid their sight on
Takuya's, holding their gaze for a silent moment.
And then they both smiled.
I should probably put more as a conclusion, but it felt
strangely finished with that last line. Hope it's okay with everyone else.
I worked a lot longer on this fix than the other one. Especially on the dialogue.
This one's mostly about their talking, so I wanted to make sure it was
good. And I had my all-inspiring muse,
Kouji Wada, to help me out. Hieh.
There's going to be another part to this storyline. It's going to be a chapter fic, unlike these past two. Oh, great, more work on my shoulders.. I'm so stupid. Ohwell. Makes everyone
else happy, must be good.
And, lastly, I have the replies to 'Edge of the Moon' on my message board. If you sent a comment as of February eighth
to said story, then you'll be replied to there. W00t. Here's the direct
link to the thread:
http://sushisama.hyperboards2.com/index.cgi?board=digimonfics&action=display&num=1044741415
Randomness: you know how there are always two names for the couples, like Taito/Yamachi and Kensuke/Daiken? There should be one for Takouji fiction. And I shall name it Koujya. And Kouichi x Takuya fiction shall be labeled as Kouiya. Because I feel like titling things. Go me. Can I get a w00t w00t? *smirk*