I don't trust anyone... I recall now why I locked myself out from the world. I like being alone... Solitude is like a blanket that surrounds the cold human heart, giving it heat and melting the ice of perception. I don't enjoy the feeling of it now... I don't remember perception... I must be blind.
Blind...yes, for I cannot see whom this being before me is. I fear him like I have feared no other... More than death do I watch him, suspect him, cower from him. He appears as one would assume the body of death would appear, I do suppose... His eyes...so dark and vacant...his hair dark as well. His skin is the most death like feature he possesses, being pale as the moon and untouched by the morning sun.
I didn't...wish to remain in contact with him. I wanted to escape. I looked around myself fearfully after I was dressed, suspecting him all the while. Never trust, never become weak like I had been in my early days with Wei§ where I trusted them all so greatly only to find that I didn't need them. When I realized that...that was when I locked myself away.
"Why would such a pretty bird hide so deeply in the forest?" Shoukou asked in an insane yet teasing tone.
Pretty bird...pretty bird...where? I was alone there, was I not? There's no pretty bird... Unless, of course, I were to be a bird...but I cannot fly. I'm trapped here... I suppose I locked myself inside too...but I don't want out. I'm glad I can't fly. People that desire to escape their situations just make constant futile attempts that only depress. I'm plenty happy where I am. I can smile here...alone...without anyone to see.
I'm not alone anymore... He came, that boy, Shoukou... He looks like...someone... I'm just not quite sure whom...
I had this bad habit of forgetting things, loosing my memory... Amnesia that's what it was. I forgot so much...yet remembered pain. I could see the blood dripping from my clothes every night with the metallic stench in the back of my throat and elegantly surrounding my tongue. I remembered the glazed over eyes and horrified expressions of pale faces and mutilated corpses. It would never leave me...the knowledge I had taken life.
Life...it seems so valuable... There's only one chance at it...if you screw up that's it. It's over. Though, I wonder, if it's over than perhaps it's not so valuable... There's only one, but that one is guaranteed to end... People's influence isn't so great if they end up dying...and all those they help die as well. So a mortal life is of no value for there is truly no task that one can complete to make it worth something...
Shoukou's eyes were looking at me expectantly, waiting. Why...? An answer, I had forgotten to supply an answer to his question of the bird.
"Maybe the bird is afraid? Maybe the bird didn't think its beauty is so important? I wouldn't know, Shoukou, for I am not a bird..." I supplied.
His arms wrapped around my waist, and he placed his head upon my shoulder, licking my neck lightly with a smirk appearing on his face. It made me nervous when he did that... I wish he would just stop... Maybe he'd even go away if I were truly fortunate...
"Yes...I must have used the wrong animal... You were a kitten, were you not?"
Notes: Heh heh heh, yeah, I completely forgot this was floating around o.O;;; Between the swans, demon and angels boys, homework...yeah, I forgot. Oops? So yes! It might not have anything to do with whatever plan I had originally XD wooo! That's alright because I wrote something! Go me! Wheee~ Right... Sorry for the bad stopping place, just remembered I have some happy homework to get to! So yes! Ha...?
Misty Eyes-does this count as stuff? Right...basically all that's happening is they're sitting around and thinking . Err...right! There needs to be some action! Whoa...that just so threw my mind in the gutter o.O;;
Sammy-chan-awww, you noticed he was spacey? I'm touched ;_; *glomps and loves* Glad to hear it! But yes...living alone in the boonies can do that to a boy slut o.O;;
Bombay-chan- I love you ;_;
Yuki-glad to see he has no connection! He has my thought process at 3 AM ((that's mainly when I've written...)) so no connection for Nagi is good... Plus that whole he's insane thing o.O;; As for meek Omi... I was scanning what I wrote and he seems generally...out of it ^^;
Yes! That's all XD Right...homework time .
Blind...yes, for I cannot see whom this being before me is. I fear him like I have feared no other... More than death do I watch him, suspect him, cower from him. He appears as one would assume the body of death would appear, I do suppose... His eyes...so dark and vacant...his hair dark as well. His skin is the most death like feature he possesses, being pale as the moon and untouched by the morning sun.
I didn't...wish to remain in contact with him. I wanted to escape. I looked around myself fearfully after I was dressed, suspecting him all the while. Never trust, never become weak like I had been in my early days with Wei§ where I trusted them all so greatly only to find that I didn't need them. When I realized that...that was when I locked myself away.
"Why would such a pretty bird hide so deeply in the forest?" Shoukou asked in an insane yet teasing tone.
Pretty bird...pretty bird...where? I was alone there, was I not? There's no pretty bird... Unless, of course, I were to be a bird...but I cannot fly. I'm trapped here... I suppose I locked myself inside too...but I don't want out. I'm glad I can't fly. People that desire to escape their situations just make constant futile attempts that only depress. I'm plenty happy where I am. I can smile here...alone...without anyone to see.
I'm not alone anymore... He came, that boy, Shoukou... He looks like...someone... I'm just not quite sure whom...
I had this bad habit of forgetting things, loosing my memory... Amnesia that's what it was. I forgot so much...yet remembered pain. I could see the blood dripping from my clothes every night with the metallic stench in the back of my throat and elegantly surrounding my tongue. I remembered the glazed over eyes and horrified expressions of pale faces and mutilated corpses. It would never leave me...the knowledge I had taken life.
Life...it seems so valuable... There's only one chance at it...if you screw up that's it. It's over. Though, I wonder, if it's over than perhaps it's not so valuable... There's only one, but that one is guaranteed to end... People's influence isn't so great if they end up dying...and all those they help die as well. So a mortal life is of no value for there is truly no task that one can complete to make it worth something...
Shoukou's eyes were looking at me expectantly, waiting. Why...? An answer, I had forgotten to supply an answer to his question of the bird.
"Maybe the bird is afraid? Maybe the bird didn't think its beauty is so important? I wouldn't know, Shoukou, for I am not a bird..." I supplied.
His arms wrapped around my waist, and he placed his head upon my shoulder, licking my neck lightly with a smirk appearing on his face. It made me nervous when he did that... I wish he would just stop... Maybe he'd even go away if I were truly fortunate...
"Yes...I must have used the wrong animal... You were a kitten, were you not?"
Notes: Heh heh heh, yeah, I completely forgot this was floating around o.O;;; Between the swans, demon and angels boys, homework...yeah, I forgot. Oops? So yes! It might not have anything to do with whatever plan I had originally XD wooo! That's alright because I wrote something! Go me! Wheee~ Right... Sorry for the bad stopping place, just remembered I have some happy homework to get to! So yes! Ha...?
Misty Eyes-does this count as stuff? Right...basically all that's happening is they're sitting around and thinking . Err...right! There needs to be some action! Whoa...that just so threw my mind in the gutter o.O;;
Sammy-chan-awww, you noticed he was spacey? I'm touched ;_; *glomps and loves* Glad to hear it! But yes...living alone in the boonies can do that to a boy slut o.O;;
Bombay-chan- I love you ;_;
Yuki-glad to see he has no connection! He has my thought process at 3 AM ((that's mainly when I've written...)) so no connection for Nagi is good... Plus that whole he's insane thing o.O;; As for meek Omi... I was scanning what I wrote and he seems generally...out of it ^^;
Yes! That's all XD Right...homework time .