Title: Over My Shoulder
Author:Alanna diAblo
Rating: PG
Summery: "I never meant to hurt you."
Author's Note: See end please
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I know you want me to love you
But all you ever do it bring me down
Won't you go away forever?
~Fuel, Down
* * * *
"I never meant to hurt you. I'm sorry."
When our relationship ended, he had hurt me.
It was odvious that we didn't love each other, at least, not for the right reasons. He broke up with me, but in reality we both knew what we had was comming to an end. Now, after getting over the pain he's caused in my life, he's the miserable one. I can see the pain in his eyes as he looks at me and I return it with a steady gaze.
I've never been this happy, and I'm pretty certain that what I have with Carter is the real thing. Finaly, I can open up to someone, and not hide. I can love without fear.
I know Luka is sleeping with almost any woman in sight, and I know it's probably because of me, but I won't say that it's my fault. I'm tired blaming myself for another person's actions. He's sleeping around, that's his decision. To be candid, I could care less..
So Luka is sorry? To late. I'm over him, and getting along much better then ever before. There might have been a time when I cared, Whether intentionaly or not, Luka's hurt me far to much for me to ever forgive him.
What goes around comes around, and for once I'm not at the recieveing end. I'm also sorry, but he said that he was happy for me. I'm happy for me too. I'm not about to leave the one person who's ever truely cared for my well-being, and who I love with all of my heart.
There's no turning back. I wasn't even looking back until Luka tapped me on the shoulder.
Forget it.
"I'm sorry too." I pause, he looks like he's waiting for an explaination. I give him one. "I'm with Carter now,"
"I know.--"
"--and I'm happy.We make each other happy."
He looks like I just ripped out his heart.
"Everyone deserves to be happy."
While part of me wants tell him he had it comming, the other just wants to leave. I can't cause him any more pain, it wouldn't be fair.
"You're drunk Luka, go home."
"Abby, please..."
Then I turn away from him.
Carter is talking to Susan and Gallant on the other side of the appartment.
He catches my eye, looking worried. I smile slightly, and walk over to where he's standing. We look at each other, then he hugs me to his warm body. Without breaking contact, he places an arm around me, I lean into it, feeling content.
"What do you say we get out of here?" His husky voice asks, not bothering to conceal what he really means. As if to make sure I understood his request, he pulls me even closer and lips at my neck.
I grin. "I say lets go."
We bid our goodbyes to everyone, and thank Susan for dinner.
Carter helps me into my coat. With one final goodbye to everyone in ear shot, we open the door to leave.
Carter kisses my cheek as the door closes behind us, and I don't look back. I don't intend to look back. I'm happy now.
Author:Alanna diAblo
Rating: PG
Summery: "I never meant to hurt you."
Author's Note: See end please
* * * *
I know you want me to love you
But all you ever do it bring me down
Won't you go away forever?
~Fuel, Down
* * * *
"I never meant to hurt you. I'm sorry."
When our relationship ended, he had hurt me.
It was odvious that we didn't love each other, at least, not for the right reasons. He broke up with me, but in reality we both knew what we had was comming to an end. Now, after getting over the pain he's caused in my life, he's the miserable one. I can see the pain in his eyes as he looks at me and I return it with a steady gaze.
I've never been this happy, and I'm pretty certain that what I have with Carter is the real thing. Finaly, I can open up to someone, and not hide. I can love without fear.
I know Luka is sleeping with almost any woman in sight, and I know it's probably because of me, but I won't say that it's my fault. I'm tired blaming myself for another person's actions. He's sleeping around, that's his decision. To be candid, I could care less..
So Luka is sorry? To late. I'm over him, and getting along much better then ever before. There might have been a time when I cared, Whether intentionaly or not, Luka's hurt me far to much for me to ever forgive him.
What goes around comes around, and for once I'm not at the recieveing end. I'm also sorry, but he said that he was happy for me. I'm happy for me too. I'm not about to leave the one person who's ever truely cared for my well-being, and who I love with all of my heart.
There's no turning back. I wasn't even looking back until Luka tapped me on the shoulder.
Forget it.
"I'm sorry too." I pause, he looks like he's waiting for an explaination. I give him one. "I'm with Carter now,"
"I know.--"
"--and I'm happy.We make each other happy."
He looks like I just ripped out his heart.
"Everyone deserves to be happy."
While part of me wants tell him he had it comming, the other just wants to leave. I can't cause him any more pain, it wouldn't be fair.
"You're drunk Luka, go home."
"Abby, please..."
Then I turn away from him.
Carter is talking to Susan and Gallant on the other side of the appartment.
He catches my eye, looking worried. I smile slightly, and walk over to where he's standing. We look at each other, then he hugs me to his warm body. Without breaking contact, he places an arm around me, I lean into it, feeling content.
"What do you say we get out of here?" His husky voice asks, not bothering to conceal what he really means. As if to make sure I understood his request, he pulls me even closer and lips at my neck.
I grin. "I say lets go."
We bid our goodbyes to everyone, and thank Susan for dinner.
Carter helps me into my coat. With one final goodbye to everyone in ear shot, we open the door to leave.
Carter kisses my cheek as the door closes behind us, and I don't look back. I don't intend to look back. I'm happy now.