Chapter 6- A long awaited talk.
I never envisioned my life to be like this. Pregnant, still at school, the father not knowing and Jess pretending to be the father. It's like I'm repeating my mother's life. They say I'm my mother's daughter and I think they're right. I know my life will never be the same as will Jess but I don't want him to do anything that he will later regret. I need to know once and for all if this is what he really wants.
"Hey Rory." Said Jess breaking my thoughts as he sat down to join me on the bridge.
"Hi." I looked at him for fear that what I was about to do could ruin my life, his life or both our lives.
"Hey don't look sad. Please Rory."
"Look Jess there is something I need a truthful answer to. You might not like what I have to say but let me say it. " Looking at him I saw no fear or questioning as to what was running through my mind.
""I don't want you to give up your life if you're not ready, or doing it to spite Dean. I.." I was silenced as he leaned in head our face together inches apart. I could see his eyes sparkling, full of life and something else I couldn't work out. I wanted him to kiss me but he didn't instead he spoke in a soft voice.
"I'm doing this because I choose to. Not because I want to spite Dean and I wont be giving up my life. I never saw it like that. Yes the baby may be Deans but it will be ours. I will help any way possible. I don't intend to leave or be in and out like your father was. I'm going to be here all the way. Never question how much you mean to me and always will mean to me, and Rory never question what I would do for you. Ever." Smiling down at me I knew that what he said was the truth. Leaning forward I closed the gap between us and sealed our secret with a kiss.
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Our first kiss. That is how I will always remember it. It wasn't forced, but came from the truthful heart of hers. I knew I loved her but have no way to show it to her. I wished some days just to say it and others just to do something romantic for her and somehow in the conversation let it come up.
The one thing I fear from this little secret we are keeping is that one-day it's going to come out and Dean and Rory will get back together. I don't know how it will happen but I just know that we wont be able to keep it up.
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I kissed Jess. Not the first either but this one was different somehow. He wasn't expecting it but I wanted it, maybe it's the hormones kicking in. I don't know anything any more!
There is one thing niggling at my mind lately and that is that Dean will find out about the baby. Its not that I really want him to know it's his reaction that I wish not to deal with. I would rather be called a "Whore" than to see his reaction when he finds out. I don't want this baby to feel unwanted, that is all I want a child who knows that they are loved.
I'm back and have finished it now and have a few more to put up soon. Thanks to all these for reviewing the last chapter. Katie, Sarah V., Seehoo., dodgerluv., some1., JeniLee., Cipher
I never envisioned my life to be like this. Pregnant, still at school, the father not knowing and Jess pretending to be the father. It's like I'm repeating my mother's life. They say I'm my mother's daughter and I think they're right. I know my life will never be the same as will Jess but I don't want him to do anything that he will later regret. I need to know once and for all if this is what he really wants.
"Hey Rory." Said Jess breaking my thoughts as he sat down to join me on the bridge.
"Hi." I looked at him for fear that what I was about to do could ruin my life, his life or both our lives.
"Hey don't look sad. Please Rory."
"Look Jess there is something I need a truthful answer to. You might not like what I have to say but let me say it. " Looking at him I saw no fear or questioning as to what was running through my mind.
""I don't want you to give up your life if you're not ready, or doing it to spite Dean. I.." I was silenced as he leaned in head our face together inches apart. I could see his eyes sparkling, full of life and something else I couldn't work out. I wanted him to kiss me but he didn't instead he spoke in a soft voice.
"I'm doing this because I choose to. Not because I want to spite Dean and I wont be giving up my life. I never saw it like that. Yes the baby may be Deans but it will be ours. I will help any way possible. I don't intend to leave or be in and out like your father was. I'm going to be here all the way. Never question how much you mean to me and always will mean to me, and Rory never question what I would do for you. Ever." Smiling down at me I knew that what he said was the truth. Leaning forward I closed the gap between us and sealed our secret with a kiss.
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Our first kiss. That is how I will always remember it. It wasn't forced, but came from the truthful heart of hers. I knew I loved her but have no way to show it to her. I wished some days just to say it and others just to do something romantic for her and somehow in the conversation let it come up.
The one thing I fear from this little secret we are keeping is that one-day it's going to come out and Dean and Rory will get back together. I don't know how it will happen but I just know that we wont be able to keep it up.
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I kissed Jess. Not the first either but this one was different somehow. He wasn't expecting it but I wanted it, maybe it's the hormones kicking in. I don't know anything any more!
There is one thing niggling at my mind lately and that is that Dean will find out about the baby. Its not that I really want him to know it's his reaction that I wish not to deal with. I would rather be called a "Whore" than to see his reaction when he finds out. I don't want this baby to feel unwanted, that is all I want a child who knows that they are loved.
I'm back and have finished it now and have a few more to put up soon. Thanks to all these for reviewing the last chapter. Katie, Sarah V., Seehoo., dodgerluv., some1., JeniLee., Cipher