Chapter 11- Knowing what you've done is right but not feeling it.
It broke my heart to walk away. Hidden away just like mum did I let myself think that we could be a family. My heart wanted to believe but my head told me otherwise and I'd always followed my head except for that night. I'd followed part of what my heart wanted by getting involved with Jess. Part of it still clung to Dean but now I feel it's free it give Jess everything.
No one knows about the "out" I gave Dean. They will never find out but some of them will guess. He let me walk away again, but this time it was different. It was final, no turning back. My future belongs with Jess and this baby. I know that and believe it with all of my heart.
Sitting in my bedroom I know that it won't remain the same for long. Casting a quick glance over at my desk I see all my school books waiting to be done. Paris had worried about me getting behind in all of my classes and got all my work for me, which all sat on the desk.
The weird thing about the visit was how Paris acted. Now when I think about it, it was weird. She knew about the baby but yet seemed sad. She was polite too even asked how I was coping and when the baby was due. She seems lonely.
Glancing down at my ever increasing stomach. I wonder what you will look like. Placing a hand over my stomach I can feel the baby kick ever so slightly.
"Just be a healthy baby." I whisper before attacking the homework.
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I love that girl and hope she now realises it. I know she gave Dean an out because he is still with Angie. When you look at him though he seems to have a haunted look to him but that look is quickly covered up. I know I mustn't be thrilled with the way the whole situation turned out, but I can't seem to keep the grin off my face. I love being with Rory and I'm going to love this child as if it's mine.
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Hearing someone at the door I walk to answer it hoping for it to be Jess. Standing in the doorway stands Dean. Head lowered and his whole body taking on a defeated pose. Lifting his head you can see a different person is there. This one sad about something.
"Rory I just came to tell you I want you back and I love you."
"What. " I can't think of anything else to say he never expressed any of these feelings last time we talked.
"I want you back."
"And what about the baby Dean?" I whisper almost afraid of his answer.
"What about the baby."
"Sorry Dean that isn't what I wanted to hear. I have no idea why you are hear but leave now."
Leaning in closer to my face I smell alcohol. Looking closer I can see the bloodshot eyes. Hissing in a voice so unlike Dean " Just remember that child in there is mine and whatever Jess says or does won't make him the father. Got it." And walked off.
Closing the door the scene replays in my head.
Thanks to all those who reviewed: markie, jhfortier, reader-writer, Katie, Sarah V. This would have been up sooner except for all the homework I got and searching for the ending of a chapter which I still haven't found, sorry for that. The next one should be up in two days.
It broke my heart to walk away. Hidden away just like mum did I let myself think that we could be a family. My heart wanted to believe but my head told me otherwise and I'd always followed my head except for that night. I'd followed part of what my heart wanted by getting involved with Jess. Part of it still clung to Dean but now I feel it's free it give Jess everything.
No one knows about the "out" I gave Dean. They will never find out but some of them will guess. He let me walk away again, but this time it was different. It was final, no turning back. My future belongs with Jess and this baby. I know that and believe it with all of my heart.
Sitting in my bedroom I know that it won't remain the same for long. Casting a quick glance over at my desk I see all my school books waiting to be done. Paris had worried about me getting behind in all of my classes and got all my work for me, which all sat on the desk.
The weird thing about the visit was how Paris acted. Now when I think about it, it was weird. She knew about the baby but yet seemed sad. She was polite too even asked how I was coping and when the baby was due. She seems lonely.
Glancing down at my ever increasing stomach. I wonder what you will look like. Placing a hand over my stomach I can feel the baby kick ever so slightly.
"Just be a healthy baby." I whisper before attacking the homework.
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I love that girl and hope she now realises it. I know she gave Dean an out because he is still with Angie. When you look at him though he seems to have a haunted look to him but that look is quickly covered up. I know I mustn't be thrilled with the way the whole situation turned out, but I can't seem to keep the grin off my face. I love being with Rory and I'm going to love this child as if it's mine.
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Hearing someone at the door I walk to answer it hoping for it to be Jess. Standing in the doorway stands Dean. Head lowered and his whole body taking on a defeated pose. Lifting his head you can see a different person is there. This one sad about something.
"Rory I just came to tell you I want you back and I love you."
"What. " I can't think of anything else to say he never expressed any of these feelings last time we talked.
"I want you back."
"And what about the baby Dean?" I whisper almost afraid of his answer.
"What about the baby."
"Sorry Dean that isn't what I wanted to hear. I have no idea why you are hear but leave now."
Leaning in closer to my face I smell alcohol. Looking closer I can see the bloodshot eyes. Hissing in a voice so unlike Dean " Just remember that child in there is mine and whatever Jess says or does won't make him the father. Got it." And walked off.
Closing the door the scene replays in my head.
Thanks to all those who reviewed: markie, jhfortier, reader-writer, Katie, Sarah V. This would have been up sooner except for all the homework I got and searching for the ending of a chapter which I still haven't found, sorry for that. The next one should be up in two days.