AD: I'm evvvviilll!!!!
Li: No surprises there.
AD: Shut it! On to my reviewers who've been waiting for this chapter for about a week... It's not the longest anyone's ever had to wait, but since I've been reviewing either every day or every second day it's long for them... Oh, and by the way Raven, did you see how many reviewers were happy to take you off my hands for a couple of days? If I were you I'd be a good boy...
Raven: *grumbles*
AD: Now....
Rei Aianamy: *rolls on floor laughing* Kai, giving up on being a bad ass, not in this lifetime I don't think... Don't we all have problems cleaning our rooms...
Raine: *smiles* I'm loved!!!!! Kawaii scene, ne? And I'm very happy cause none of them can comment with the uprise of people wanting to take them home!!!!
Purra: Purra! CALM DOWN!!!! And him leaving just means that the stories gonna be a little different, so now instead of knowing whether or not their getting together, you don't! Thanks! I updated soon.....ish.
Angel Slayer: Thank you!!! ^-^ and I updated, kinda fast....
DestinyBabee: Ok, did you people really think that it was going to be that easy? I mean this is Kai we're talking about...
OT puff: CALM DOWN!!! I love Raven too, but he ignores me when I say that... *pouts* YAY! someone said I'm not evil. Maybe a little scared, maybe also a little *holds fingers in big gap* arrogant. STUPID!!! FUNNY!! *looks at the fuming Kai* Oh no, Kai, get back here now!!!!! YOu don't beat up reviewers. *grabs onto his arm and is dragged away... ............................................................................ ..
AD: *panting* Thank god for closets! Ranting is fine, I like to hear a good rant every now and then... K well I'd better finish off so you guys can read the story...
super-fan(): I stopped because I was meant to be an evil cliffie hangery author person! *grumbles* I've updated I've updated...
Amanda Panda: You know, patience is a virtue...
Chapter Five : Confused Beginnings
Serena faced the doorway, shock running through her.
She placed one trembling hand against her still tingling lips.
What had just happened? One moment he had responded to her touch with one of his own, and the next he had just....
Left.
Standing she walked from the room, determined to find out what had just happened. She searched for him in the dimly lit lounge room, finding nothing she turned to face the balcony.
He stood there, caught in the light of the moon, it glinted off of his body, making him seem even more untouchable than before. She felt her determination leave her, all that remained was confusion, a desperation to discover just what had happened.
She looked around, finding the room completely empty, the others it seemed had gone to bed while they were preoccupied.
Sighing in relief she moved forward to confront him, walking until she was no closer than a meter behind him.
He was looking out at the glittering city below them, absorbed in it, almost so much that she didn't wish to disturb him, but once again the overwhelming sense of desperation to discover just what had happened took over.
"Did I do something wrong?" she asked quietly, afraid to speak any louder, but knowing that he could hear her at the same time.
He looked at her from the corner of his eye, grunting, barely noticeable tears glittered in the corner of her eyes, and he felt the urge to respond, even if it meant confusing her even more.
"No." he replied finally, after silently debating with himself whether or not he should answer.
Confusion crossed her face as she regarded the man standing before her, at sixteen the years that should be spent partying with his friends and having fun were filled with a cold sense of duty that he couldn't shake. There was a darkness about him that could not be penetrated, a shield of mystery that could not be solved.
"What happened then?" she asked, an echo of the desperation she felt edging itself into her voice.
"It doesn't matter." he replied coldly.
"It matters to me." she responded, her voice barely above a whisper.
He didn't respond and she turned, anger and hurt filling her, "You can't shut yourself off from the world forever Kai." she said simply, before leaving to return to their room.
Kai listened to her departing footsteps.
Why wouldn't she leave him alone? What was it about her that drew him to her?
Why couldn't he get past a weakness such as love?
Love.
The word hung in his mind, and he wondered, was it truly love that he felt? Or was it simple lust?
The certainty of him believing it to be real love scared him, love was an emotion that was beaten out of him as a child, and had no place in his future.
Yet here it was, popping up to destroy him.
Closing his eyes he contemplated it. The weakness that was love wished to pull him down into it's never-ending pool of sorrow, joy and humiliation.
Still the ever shrouding darkness wrapped around him, preventing him from loving as much as it did from enjoying, from ever opening up to anyone.
A mistake such as kissing her should not be repeated he concluded to himself, knowing that it was futile to keep declaring that.
Every time he was near her, every time she spoke it was an effort just to stop himself from showing the emotions, emotions that should have disintegrated from his being by now, from showing.
To accept the light that before had seemed so far away.
But the darkness ate away at him, consumed him, leaving behind nothing to show the person that had been, and nothing to show of it's presence there.
Nothing.
To accept the light would be to give himself a new beginning, but even the best of people could not escape the darkness, it would still be there, pushed back into his mind, awaiting it's chance to destroy him.
Safer to remain where he was, in the darkness than to pull free and try to change.
Change now was too hard, too difficult to even imagine.
Looking into the sky he watched the stars, finding it strange that they were still enjoying their light when they had died already, fading into nothingness.
And there it was again, nothing.
Pulling himself from the balcony he walked back to his shared room with her, changing in the bathroom and then walking to his bed glancing at her on the way.
Tears stained her cheeks, evident even now, and he slowly leant over and brushed one from her cheek, before turning back to his own bed, growling with anger at himself.
His last thought before fading into the blissful unconsciousness was; Weaknesses can be overcome, and as a weakness so shall love.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
AD: Waahh! That was a very hard chapter to write, I'm sorry it's taken so long, I'll try to have the next chapter up quicker.
Kai: I hate you.
AD: Shut it.
Raven: Getting soft aren't you?
Irvine: Yeah, aren't you meant to be the big tough guy?
AD: Quiet!
Now, you'll see a pretty little purple button at the bottom of the screen, you feel compelled to push the button, and type, write a review.....
*sighs* this would work sooo much better if I had a hypnotising thingy!
Li: No surprises there.
AD: Shut it! On to my reviewers who've been waiting for this chapter for about a week... It's not the longest anyone's ever had to wait, but since I've been reviewing either every day or every second day it's long for them... Oh, and by the way Raven, did you see how many reviewers were happy to take you off my hands for a couple of days? If I were you I'd be a good boy...
Raven: *grumbles*
AD: Now....
Rei Aianamy: *rolls on floor laughing* Kai, giving up on being a bad ass, not in this lifetime I don't think... Don't we all have problems cleaning our rooms...
Raine: *smiles* I'm loved!!!!! Kawaii scene, ne? And I'm very happy cause none of them can comment with the uprise of people wanting to take them home!!!!
Purra: Purra! CALM DOWN!!!! And him leaving just means that the stories gonna be a little different, so now instead of knowing whether or not their getting together, you don't! Thanks! I updated soon.....ish.
Angel Slayer: Thank you!!! ^-^ and I updated, kinda fast....
DestinyBabee: Ok, did you people really think that it was going to be that easy? I mean this is Kai we're talking about...
OT puff: CALM DOWN!!! I love Raven too, but he ignores me when I say that... *pouts* YAY! someone said I'm not evil. Maybe a little scared, maybe also a little *holds fingers in big gap* arrogant. STUPID!!! FUNNY!! *looks at the fuming Kai* Oh no, Kai, get back here now!!!!! YOu don't beat up reviewers. *grabs onto his arm and is dragged away... ............................................................................ ..
AD: *panting* Thank god for closets! Ranting is fine, I like to hear a good rant every now and then... K well I'd better finish off so you guys can read the story...
super-fan(): I stopped because I was meant to be an evil cliffie hangery author person! *grumbles* I've updated I've updated...
Amanda Panda: You know, patience is a virtue...
Chapter Five : Confused Beginnings
Serena faced the doorway, shock running through her.
She placed one trembling hand against her still tingling lips.
What had just happened? One moment he had responded to her touch with one of his own, and the next he had just....
Left.
Standing she walked from the room, determined to find out what had just happened. She searched for him in the dimly lit lounge room, finding nothing she turned to face the balcony.
He stood there, caught in the light of the moon, it glinted off of his body, making him seem even more untouchable than before. She felt her determination leave her, all that remained was confusion, a desperation to discover just what had happened.
She looked around, finding the room completely empty, the others it seemed had gone to bed while they were preoccupied.
Sighing in relief she moved forward to confront him, walking until she was no closer than a meter behind him.
He was looking out at the glittering city below them, absorbed in it, almost so much that she didn't wish to disturb him, but once again the overwhelming sense of desperation to discover just what had happened took over.
"Did I do something wrong?" she asked quietly, afraid to speak any louder, but knowing that he could hear her at the same time.
He looked at her from the corner of his eye, grunting, barely noticeable tears glittered in the corner of her eyes, and he felt the urge to respond, even if it meant confusing her even more.
"No." he replied finally, after silently debating with himself whether or not he should answer.
Confusion crossed her face as she regarded the man standing before her, at sixteen the years that should be spent partying with his friends and having fun were filled with a cold sense of duty that he couldn't shake. There was a darkness about him that could not be penetrated, a shield of mystery that could not be solved.
"What happened then?" she asked, an echo of the desperation she felt edging itself into her voice.
"It doesn't matter." he replied coldly.
"It matters to me." she responded, her voice barely above a whisper.
He didn't respond and she turned, anger and hurt filling her, "You can't shut yourself off from the world forever Kai." she said simply, before leaving to return to their room.
Kai listened to her departing footsteps.
Why wouldn't she leave him alone? What was it about her that drew him to her?
Why couldn't he get past a weakness such as love?
Love.
The word hung in his mind, and he wondered, was it truly love that he felt? Or was it simple lust?
The certainty of him believing it to be real love scared him, love was an emotion that was beaten out of him as a child, and had no place in his future.
Yet here it was, popping up to destroy him.
Closing his eyes he contemplated it. The weakness that was love wished to pull him down into it's never-ending pool of sorrow, joy and humiliation.
Still the ever shrouding darkness wrapped around him, preventing him from loving as much as it did from enjoying, from ever opening up to anyone.
A mistake such as kissing her should not be repeated he concluded to himself, knowing that it was futile to keep declaring that.
Every time he was near her, every time she spoke it was an effort just to stop himself from showing the emotions, emotions that should have disintegrated from his being by now, from showing.
To accept the light that before had seemed so far away.
But the darkness ate away at him, consumed him, leaving behind nothing to show the person that had been, and nothing to show of it's presence there.
Nothing.
To accept the light would be to give himself a new beginning, but even the best of people could not escape the darkness, it would still be there, pushed back into his mind, awaiting it's chance to destroy him.
Safer to remain where he was, in the darkness than to pull free and try to change.
Change now was too hard, too difficult to even imagine.
Looking into the sky he watched the stars, finding it strange that they were still enjoying their light when they had died already, fading into nothingness.
And there it was again, nothing.
Pulling himself from the balcony he walked back to his shared room with her, changing in the bathroom and then walking to his bed glancing at her on the way.
Tears stained her cheeks, evident even now, and he slowly leant over and brushed one from her cheek, before turning back to his own bed, growling with anger at himself.
His last thought before fading into the blissful unconsciousness was; Weaknesses can be overcome, and as a weakness so shall love.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
AD: Waahh! That was a very hard chapter to write, I'm sorry it's taken so long, I'll try to have the next chapter up quicker.
Kai: I hate you.
AD: Shut it.
Raven: Getting soft aren't you?
Irvine: Yeah, aren't you meant to be the big tough guy?
AD: Quiet!
Now, you'll see a pretty little purple button at the bottom of the screen, you feel compelled to push the button, and type, write a review.....
*sighs* this would work sooo much better if I had a hypnotising thingy!