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Remembering James, Remembering Love: Chapter 8: Memories of Quidditch
'That Saturday they all apparated and met in front of the field's entrance. They had paid in advance so all they had to do was show their ID and go in. They didn't have enough people for a game obviously so they decided to just all play for themselves. Lily was heading for the goal with the quaffle under her left arm and thought that this was definitely a deja vu. As she was speeding closer and closer to the goal a bludger came flying towards her. More deja vu, she thought. James was flying underneath her screaming, "NOOOOOOOO!!! LILY!! At the same time, pictures were flashing through his head. Lily was quick enough this time though. She barely dodged to bludger, but not before she thought to herself. That was just like my dream! Lily couldn't fly her broom properly with all these thoughts and pictures running through her mind. She landed her broom and started to walk towards the door. Everyone else landed before she could leave. They all asked her why she had to go but she just said, "I have to think about something." and she walked out the door. Just a second later she stuck her head back in, smiled brilliantly and said, "Bye James." She then walked out the door and apparated home.
Lily went into her room at Hogwarts and wasn't the least bit surprised to see Linky waiting for her.
"Hi Linky, you don't have to worry about blurting things out anymore. I know" Lily said smiling.
Linky looked overly excited, "Oh Miss Lily! That is wonderful! Miss Lily and Master James again! Oh Linky is so happy!" Linky started jumping around the room.
The two of them sat down on the bed and had a long talk about everything you could possibly think of. Around 7:00pm Linky said she had to go because she already missed helping with lunch and the other elves would be mad if she missed dinner too.
That night Lily couldn't sleep. Only think about James. How could she have been so stupid!? She knew she was dreaming about someone and how could she not even think of James, after he seemed so obsessed with her! She couldn't believe she was thinking that James liked her too much...well duh! He loved her it was obvious! The question is... does she love him? She couldn't exactly remember if she actually loved him or not...she knew she must have like him but did she love him?
The next day was still Sunday so Lily decided to go see James. She did think James was cute and why not try going out with him...again...so she quickly apparated to James front lawn. She walked up to the door and knocked. She waited for a couple minutes and no one answered. She tried again and this repeated until a half asleep James still in is pajamas answered the door. He perked up immediately when he saw that it was Lily. He smiled and asked her in. He told her to sit in the living room and make herself at home while he went to get some coffee. She sat down and looked at a pile of magazines. She picked up the pile and started to look through them. She laughed when all she saw was: Quidditch World, For the Love of Quidditch, Famous Flyers and Quidditch Queens...and Kings. She should have known better. She set the pile back on the table and turned to see James carrying in to mugs of coffee. He set the coffee on the table at sat down next to her, turning to face her.
"So Lily, what's so important that you had to tell me at 8 o'clock in the morning?" He still looked pretty tired and he yawned.
Lily didn't know how this would go over and all but she reached over and held his in both hands and whispered, "James, I know." He stared into her emerald eyes for a couple of seconds and then quickly pulled away. "L-Lil- Lily I don't have any idea what you're talking about." Lily didn't understand, "But James you couldn't expect me to never remember anything could you?" James smiled, giving in, "Well, It did seem pretty hopeless..." Lily smiled and reached for his hand again. This time James didn't pull away and he was lost in her eyes once again and she reached up and ran her fingers through his hair as they both leaned forward closing their eyes... Their lips touched but before they could actually kiss, Lily pulled away. "No. James I know I know you but I really don't KNOW you anymore and even though it's just a kiss I'm not ready." James looked heartbroken, "B-b-but Lily..." He didn't know what to say. Lily looked at him sort of pitifully, " James we can date and stuff just let me get to know you again, because trust me, I want to know you. " James couldn't say no because he got the feeling that it was this or nothing. He just nodded his head and said, "Sure...whatever Lily." He looked down at the ground and Lily ran her fingers through his horribly but cute messy hair. Then she got up and apparated back to Hogwarts. James was still really hurt. She obviously didn't know how much it meant to him. And it was just a KISS!
Lily got home and plopped down on her bed. WHY had she done that? It wasn't like they were getting married! She thought to herself, 'It didn't feel right, that's why you didn't do it' but she knew the truth, it did feel right. It felt so right that she was worried she would fall in love with James again. She didn't want something to happen to him and have to go through what he went through, or even worse make him do it again. She knew the real truth though, no kiss would change the way she felt, she loved James and she couldn't change that. It was like all of her had been ripped out and now put back in. WHY did she care??? The kiss wasn't going to stop something from coming that was already there...love...
A week later James, Remus and Sirius were walking through Hogsmeade when they ran into Lily. Remus and Sirius said hi to Lily like normal but James didn't speak, just stared. Lily smiled and thought to herself, 'they must not know...well that's a good thing right...' They all had lunch together until Sirius and Remus mysteriously had to go. After they left James smiled and said, "Lily we need to talk." Lily already knew what this was about and started to talk, "James--"
"No, Lily, listen..." James cut her off, "I know I should have been more understanding it's just that I had waited so lo--oh forget there's no excuse for the way I reacted...What did you want to say Lily?" Lily was about to tell him that she did love him and everything but for some reason but she backed down, "Uh-uh-it was just that I was going to tell you that I think that we should start over because that little disagreement was a bad start and I don't want to talk about it." "Um...Ok." James didn't know how else to respond to that. He decided that no physical contact whatsoever was good idea but then he thought that if Lily touched him it would be okay, so he wouldn't look too suspicious. They spent the entire day together both trying to act like nothing happened but both felt awkward. Finally it was time to go home. Lily left James laughing and smiling but the second she was out of sight she took off the disguise and burst out in tears. She didn't even know why she was crying but she was. She had to talk to someone and even though they were James's friends she had to talk to Sirius or Remus...I mean they are her best friends pretty much too..
Remembering James, Remembering Love: Chapter 8: Memories of Quidditch
'That Saturday they all apparated and met in front of the field's entrance. They had paid in advance so all they had to do was show their ID and go in. They didn't have enough people for a game obviously so they decided to just all play for themselves. Lily was heading for the goal with the quaffle under her left arm and thought that this was definitely a deja vu. As she was speeding closer and closer to the goal a bludger came flying towards her. More deja vu, she thought. James was flying underneath her screaming, "NOOOOOOOO!!! LILY!! At the same time, pictures were flashing through his head. Lily was quick enough this time though. She barely dodged to bludger, but not before she thought to herself. That was just like my dream! Lily couldn't fly her broom properly with all these thoughts and pictures running through her mind. She landed her broom and started to walk towards the door. Everyone else landed before she could leave. They all asked her why she had to go but she just said, "I have to think about something." and she walked out the door. Just a second later she stuck her head back in, smiled brilliantly and said, "Bye James." She then walked out the door and apparated home.
Lily went into her room at Hogwarts and wasn't the least bit surprised to see Linky waiting for her.
"Hi Linky, you don't have to worry about blurting things out anymore. I know" Lily said smiling.
Linky looked overly excited, "Oh Miss Lily! That is wonderful! Miss Lily and Master James again! Oh Linky is so happy!" Linky started jumping around the room.
The two of them sat down on the bed and had a long talk about everything you could possibly think of. Around 7:00pm Linky said she had to go because she already missed helping with lunch and the other elves would be mad if she missed dinner too.
That night Lily couldn't sleep. Only think about James. How could she have been so stupid!? She knew she was dreaming about someone and how could she not even think of James, after he seemed so obsessed with her! She couldn't believe she was thinking that James liked her too much...well duh! He loved her it was obvious! The question is... does she love him? She couldn't exactly remember if she actually loved him or not...she knew she must have like him but did she love him?
The next day was still Sunday so Lily decided to go see James. She did think James was cute and why not try going out with him...again...so she quickly apparated to James front lawn. She walked up to the door and knocked. She waited for a couple minutes and no one answered. She tried again and this repeated until a half asleep James still in is pajamas answered the door. He perked up immediately when he saw that it was Lily. He smiled and asked her in. He told her to sit in the living room and make herself at home while he went to get some coffee. She sat down and looked at a pile of magazines. She picked up the pile and started to look through them. She laughed when all she saw was: Quidditch World, For the Love of Quidditch, Famous Flyers and Quidditch Queens...and Kings. She should have known better. She set the pile back on the table and turned to see James carrying in to mugs of coffee. He set the coffee on the table at sat down next to her, turning to face her.
"So Lily, what's so important that you had to tell me at 8 o'clock in the morning?" He still looked pretty tired and he yawned.
Lily didn't know how this would go over and all but she reached over and held his in both hands and whispered, "James, I know." He stared into her emerald eyes for a couple of seconds and then quickly pulled away. "L-Lil- Lily I don't have any idea what you're talking about." Lily didn't understand, "But James you couldn't expect me to never remember anything could you?" James smiled, giving in, "Well, It did seem pretty hopeless..." Lily smiled and reached for his hand again. This time James didn't pull away and he was lost in her eyes once again and she reached up and ran her fingers through his hair as they both leaned forward closing their eyes... Their lips touched but before they could actually kiss, Lily pulled away. "No. James I know I know you but I really don't KNOW you anymore and even though it's just a kiss I'm not ready." James looked heartbroken, "B-b-but Lily..." He didn't know what to say. Lily looked at him sort of pitifully, " James we can date and stuff just let me get to know you again, because trust me, I want to know you. " James couldn't say no because he got the feeling that it was this or nothing. He just nodded his head and said, "Sure...whatever Lily." He looked down at the ground and Lily ran her fingers through his horribly but cute messy hair. Then she got up and apparated back to Hogwarts. James was still really hurt. She obviously didn't know how much it meant to him. And it was just a KISS!
Lily got home and plopped down on her bed. WHY had she done that? It wasn't like they were getting married! She thought to herself, 'It didn't feel right, that's why you didn't do it' but she knew the truth, it did feel right. It felt so right that she was worried she would fall in love with James again. She didn't want something to happen to him and have to go through what he went through, or even worse make him do it again. She knew the real truth though, no kiss would change the way she felt, she loved James and she couldn't change that. It was like all of her had been ripped out and now put back in. WHY did she care??? The kiss wasn't going to stop something from coming that was already there...love...
A week later James, Remus and Sirius were walking through Hogsmeade when they ran into Lily. Remus and Sirius said hi to Lily like normal but James didn't speak, just stared. Lily smiled and thought to herself, 'they must not know...well that's a good thing right...' They all had lunch together until Sirius and Remus mysteriously had to go. After they left James smiled and said, "Lily we need to talk." Lily already knew what this was about and started to talk, "James--"
"No, Lily, listen..." James cut her off, "I know I should have been more understanding it's just that I had waited so lo--oh forget there's no excuse for the way I reacted...What did you want to say Lily?" Lily was about to tell him that she did love him and everything but for some reason but she backed down, "Uh-uh-it was just that I was going to tell you that I think that we should start over because that little disagreement was a bad start and I don't want to talk about it." "Um...Ok." James didn't know how else to respond to that. He decided that no physical contact whatsoever was good idea but then he thought that if Lily touched him it would be okay, so he wouldn't look too suspicious. They spent the entire day together both trying to act like nothing happened but both felt awkward. Finally it was time to go home. Lily left James laughing and smiling but the second she was out of sight she took off the disguise and burst out in tears. She didn't even know why she was crying but she was. She had to talk to someone and even though they were James's friends she had to talk to Sirius or Remus...I mean they are her best friends pretty much too..