Megumi was on the verge of a serious breakdown and his sudden appearance wasn't helping at all. She wanted to run away but his mere presence has rendered her weak.
She just stood there, holding back her tears.
As she saw him bend to pick up the letter, she went inside the gate and headed for the door, brushing past him. She wanted to get away. Even if its just a few meters away, just as long as she doesn't see him. She didn't think she could take it.
But he wasn't just going to let her go. He came back when he heard of Kenshin's passing away but he also saw this as an opportunity to finally resolve the things that had been bothering him ever since he left. That's why he went to her immediately upon his arrival.
He reached out to her. His hand caught her wrist and he managed to make her look at him.
***
She found herself lost again in his eyes. They were what they were like before only they seemed deeper. They made her forget everything and remember it all at the same time.
He felt his gaze rip through the very depths of her soul, and the tears she desperately fought back were threatening to fall.
She didn't want him to see her cry so she slapped his hand away and ran to her house, slamming the door behind her. She went to her room. Leaning on her closed doors, she felt all her emotions crashing down at her again. She felt like they were weighing her down. She felt her knees get weak and she fell to the floor. She curled herself into ball and covered her mouth as she cried.
***
Sano was shocked at what happened. It's not like he expected her throw him a party or anything, but he never thought she'd be like this. He wondered if she hated him. Or if she just found him a nuisance like he felt she always did. More hurtful thoughts came to mind as he searched for reasons that can explain the coldness, unusual even for her, she showed him tonight.
He was about to walk away when he heard muffled cries coming from inside her house.
***
She was crying like she never did in her life. She let go of everything she kept bottled up inside of her for 15 years.
She can't hold anything back anymore. She can't keep any of her walls up.
She was a strong woman, yes, but everyone had his or her limits. And she just went pass hers a little while ago.
She didn't know exactly what she felt. She was confused, hurt and overwhelmed all at the same time. For a long time she wanted him to come back but now, she doesn't think she take it.
She loves him yet she despises him. She didn't know what to do or how she should react anymore.
She hates him for hurting her. Leaving her. And for making her feel again.
***
She heard him come inside. She heard his footsteps as he came closer. She hugged herself tighter as if doing so would shield her from him.
She closed her eyes as her doors started to open.
***
Sano was surprised to see Megumi lying on the floor. She looked.. so helpless. He cursed himself. He always said to himself that he would beat the crap out of anyone who would dare to hurt her. But here she was crying, and somehow he knew it was entirely his fault.
He couldn't bear to see her like this. He bent and scooped her up, placing an arm behind her knees and the other supporting her back. He carried her in his arms like she was a child. And at the moment, she certainly felt as vulnerable as one.
She was surprised at what he did. She wanted to break away from him. She didn't want him to pity her. She wanted to be alone right now.
"Put me down you baka!" she started screaming, pounding on his chest and kicking at him.
She started to hit him harder. Sano leaned on the wall to keep his balance. He closed his eyes, he wasn't gonna stop her.
"baka! baka! baka! baka.." she said in between sobs. She felt herself getting weaker, but she kept on her futile attempt to make him let go of her. But the more she fought, the tighter he held her.
He was holding her like he was clinging on for his life. Like he was making up for all the years he had left her alone.
She did tire herself and just sobbed in his chest. When she seemed to have quieted down, he opened his eyes to look at her. He was surprised to see that she had fallen asleep.
"baka.." he heard her whisper one last time.
"I know."
Kissing the top of her head, he whispered to her..
"Gomen ne."
Maybe the little sparks he saw every time they argued actually meant something. And maybe the small flame he thought they had that night had not been an illusion. Maybe.. just maybe.. she felt something for him too.
Ok so I don't know if I should rewrite this chap too. I tried to make this w/ less drama but it always ended up this way so I decided to just put this one up. I just want to finish it, I can't seem to begin a new fic w/out ending this one. Sorry if Meg was a little too emotional.. she was having a breakdown ^.^`` please review.. tell me if you don't like it -_-