Letters Of Black

By: Atsureki

Disclaimers : Wieß ain't mine!

Warnings : AU, Yaoi, OCC, angst.

Notes : Stuff written in Italic are thoughts.

This is AU so some stuff is a bit diffrent but should still be familier. Pasts have been change to fit the story though.

Chapter 18. Black Choices

Ran paced back and forth trying to kick his brain into action but it was impossible. There was something that kept on nagging him and he just couldn't figure out what it was and it didn't help that he was so concerned about Omi and Ken either.

Angry with himself the redhead sank down on the couch and rubbed his face. With a huff he pulled out his phone, dialed a number and impatiently waited for someone to answer. He talked for a long time before he hung up and groaned. It had to be against the law to be so fucking stupid! What kind of bodyguard was he?

"Fuck!" the redhead exclaimed and pulled at his hair. "Fuck, fuck, fuck!!!" He got to his feet and started pacing again.

"You're such a fucking idiot Fujimiya!" Quickly he dialed another number and continued pacing. No answer. A chill of fear ran through his body. Why didn't Yoji answer his phone? Ran tried Ben's appartment instead and got the same result. His hands started shaking badly as he disconnected the line.

"No, please, no." There could only be one reason to why Yoji didn't answer his phone and why there was no one around to pick up at Ben's place. As fast as he could he grabbed his katana, his coat and bolted for his car.

"Let him be safe, let him be safe," the redhead chanted as he threw himself into the white porsche and sped off. It was shear luck that he didn't get himself or anybody else killed during his mad drive to Ben's appartment. Panting and trembling Ran hurried up the stairs and almost broke the door down in his eager to get inside.

"KEN!" No answer, not a sound. The place seemed empty. He searched through every room and closed his eyes when they landed on Yoji's limp form. Two fingertips against the blonde's throat confirmed that he was alive at least. Carefully Ran carried his friend into the living-room and placed him on the couch. He placed a cold wet towel on Yoji's forehead and started pacing. Some idiotic part of his mind had really thought that the lanky blonde could have protected Ken but he should have known better.

"Ben you stupid fuck!" Benjamin Cezare Giambelli born 24 years ago just outside of Rom, oldest son of Bernardo and Tereza Giambelli was the psycho who had been threatening him and Ken. No one had known just what kind of sickness it was that had made him and his parents move back to Italy. Ben was suffering from schizophrenia and he had been treated for it with drugs for years.

The problem was that he wasn't allowed to do games while he was on drugs so he stopped taking them when they approached a match. It was just that when he didn't take them it was hard for him to go back to them since that part of his mind that was kept locked away really didn't want them.

Ran cursed and clenched his hands into fists. At first he had just thought that the ashblond Italian was a real good actor but that wasn't the case. For all he knew Ben didn't even know what he was doing half of the time. The dark side of him took over from time to time and it was that side that had slaughtered Kase two years ago and it was that side that now endangered Ken's life along with Omi's.

Correctly medicated Ben was the sweetest man alive but without them he was as dangerous as a gun in a child's hands, he could go off at any moment. Moroshima had known all of it but he had put his team first. Two people had already died due to his idiotic want to create fame for himself.

"Bastard!" Ran muttered darkly and checked on Yoji again. The question was where was Ken now? Probably at the same place as Omi. Were they still alive? Ran swallowed and twisted his hands. The brunette had to be alive, he just couldn't lose him now. He loved Ken and he would do anything to get him back. But first he needed Yoji to wake up. Gently he shook his friend. "Kudou, snap out of it will you?"

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

He was cold and his head hurt like hell. Reluctantly he opened his eyes and moaned when the sharp light hit him. Where the hell was he and what had happened?

"Ran?" he asked hoarsly and tried to sit up. Panic shot through him when he couldn't move. He was tied up, but why? Ken struggled against the ropes and the panic grew more serious. "RAN!?"

"Hush baby," a soft voice mumbled and a hand caressed his cheek. But it wasn't Ran, it was someone else. Scared the brunette looked to his left.

"Ben?" It all came back to him. Ben was the one who had been after him all alone, he wanted to kill Ran and probably him too.

"Who else my love? Now don't struggle you'll hurt yourself. I'm gonna take such good care of you…" Ken closed his eyes and felt how is body shivered with fright.

"Let me go Ben!" he demanded firmly and pulled harder.

"I really wish I could Kenken but you'd just try to run away from me," Ben replyed gently. "I'm going to have to prove to you that you belong here with me."

"I don't belong with you! I don't want to be with you! Now LET me go!!" Gray eyes turned darker.

"Watch it Ken! Remember what I told you? Either you love me or you don't live." The brunette drew in a shaky breath. He knew that Ben was deadly serious about that.

"I thought you loved me Ben?" Ken asked quietly.

"I do love you."

"That's a load of bullshit Ben! If you loved me even a little you wouldn't do this to me! Hell if you were my friend you'd be thrilled that I'm happy with Ran." For a moment the old, real, Ben flashed in the maniac's face.

"I love you Ken," Ben mumbled seeming very confused.

"Fuck you! You don't give a shit about me or my feelings. All you care about is what you want!" The hard words caused the blonde to shrink back slightly. "Admit it! You killed Kase just so you could have me all for yourself!" He had gone too far with that one that was obvious when Ben's face changed again. Ken could barely recognize his old friend when his insanity took over.

"What difference does it make? He's dead and I'm not. Ran will be dead soon enough too. It's actually a good thing that he loves you so much. Since I know he does I can get him to dance after my pipe in whatever way I want. Ah I almost forgot. There's someone here I want you to say hello to." Ben pointed to the other side of the room and Ken obediently looked there. Completely naked and handcuffed to a bed was Omi. The small blonde's eyes were closed and his body showed signs of bruises.

"Omi! What did you do to him?!" Ben smiled wickedly and licked his lips.

"I just played a little with him. Unfortunately he's rather delicate and bruises easily which is a pity. But… he's so soft, warm and innocent much like you were before Kase messed you up," the ashblonde snickered.

"Played with him?" Ken felt his whole body convulse. "Did… did you…" He couldn't even bring himself to say the horrible word.

"Rape him?" Ben asked and laughed. "No I didn't rape him… yet. You see he doesn't know who I am but we're gonna inform him aren't we Kenken? After that I might decide to play a little more rough with him. And then there's you… God how I have longed to make you mine, baby." Ken desperately tried to get loose when he heard the insane hunger in his former friend's voice.

"If you touch him or me I'll kill you Ben, I swear to God!" the brunette spat out and glared.

"Kill me? Please Kenken don't insult me! The only one who's gonna kill anyone is me. The question is how many will die before you understand… Ran will have to go of course but what about Omi here and his friend Yoji? It's up to you if they live or die. Now tell me baby, what's it going to be? I'd prefer if you gave yourself to me willingly but if you're going to be stubborn…" The threat in Ben's voice caused Ken to shiver.

"If I refuse?" he asked so quietly he wasn't sure the other man had even heard him.

"Then I'll rape Omi, kill him and Yoji. Make no mistake Kenken I will take you, make you mine. So, do you want to live with their lives on your conscience or are you going to come quietly?" Ken whimpered.

How could he make that choice? It was his life against two other's and he would never be able to live with having them hanging over his head. Besides, if Ben killed Ran what did he have left to live for? His life would most likely return to the way to the way it had been before and that wasn't something Ken looked forward to. It was hopless, no matter what he did he was doomed.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

Yoji rubbed his face and looked at his friend. Ran had just finished telling him about Ben and the blonde was concerned about Ken but even more so about Omi.

"So what are we going to do?" Ran didn't turn around to look at him.

"I don't know Yoji, I don't know. They could be anywhere and we have no way of knowing if… if they're still alive," the redhead answered slowly with his voice back to its normal blandness. But Yoji had known Ran for too long to be fooled. By taking away all emotions from his voice and face the redhead was trying to protect himself.

"Don't think like that Ran."

"I've messed up Ben's plans so many times already. He was suppose to kill Ken last Saturday but he couldn't since I interfered. Who knows what he'll do or already have done?" The lanky blonde massaged his temples and hated that he had to agree with Ran there "I can't lose him Yoji, I just can't," the redhead suddenly said and turned around.

"Then we're just gonna have to make sure that you don't! We'll get Ken back and Omi too, we have to," Yoji said firmly and carefully got to his feet. "Do we have any idea of when Ben got Ken?" His friend was silence for a while.

"I checked Omi's laptop. It goes into sleep-mode after 30 minutes and when you wake it up the clock tends to first show the time when it shut down. Adding that half an hour I would say that it was 5 hours ago." Yoji nodded.

"We're 5 hours behind that bastard then. So far he's been refering to Kase's death constantly and that suggests, at least to me, that he wants Ken to relive that or something. My guess is that we'll find both Ken and Omi at the same place where he was killed," the blonde mumbled as he paced back and forth fighting against the headache. "The problem is that we can't just run over there since we can't be sure nor can do we have any idea what Ben has planed."

"I agree. Ben wants me dead and I have a feeling he wants Ken to be around when I die. That's a good thing, sort of. As long as I can stay alive I don't think he'll… But still it only gives us so much time and he is crazy," Ran sighed and ran his long fingers through his crimson hair. "Then there's Omi. God only knows what he'll do to him."

"I don't even want to think about it," the blonde mumbled, pain obvious in his voice, and swallowed hard. "Ben seems to be obsessed with innocence and we both know that if it's one thing Omi is it's innocent." The redhead nodded slowly and chewed on his lip.

"I think that's why he hated Kase so much. He took the innocence away from Ken and therefor 'spoiled' him. When he called me and told me that he had taken Omi his voice was filled with… hunger. I know he wants Ken, wants to make him his and I think he wants Omi too." Yoji shuddered.

"If he hurts Omi I don't know what I'll do." A pale hand squeezed his shoulder. The room was silence for a long time befor the doorbell rang. Ran frowned and went to the door. He hesitated for a while before he opened.
"I have a delivery for a Fujimiya Ran-san," a young boy said.

"That's me," the redhead muttered. The boy handed him a clipboard and told him to sign it. A package was given to him and then the boy left.

"What's this?" Yoji asked and tilted his head.

"I'm not sure." Ran opened it and held up a video-tape. "It's from Ben." Shaking slightly the redhead went back to the living-room and loaded the VCR.

"I'm not sure I want to watch this," the blonde shuddered but took a seat on the couch. Ran turned on the TV and pushed play.

"Oh dear Gods!" Both men stared at the TV in shock.

~TBC~

What was on that tape???? And how cruel is Ben? Poor Ken, he's gonna lose no matter what he does ne? But Yoji and Ran will save them right? Right? Um guess we'll have to wait and see. About the stuff with the laptop. I know at least my computer does that when it's been in sleep-mode. *nods* I wonder if everyone is gonna make it out of this alive… Ja/Atsureki