Keroberos peeked quietly into Clow's room, his paws moving silently across the floor. He blinked and saw a white feather on the ground, looking around for Yue. "Hello?" He whispered. There was no response. He walked up to the bed and yanked the blankets back a bit, his fur standing on end at what he saw..
Clow Reed..his master, in bed with..Yue. And they were both nude. A small wave of nausea rose in the being's stomach, and he quickly ran out of the room, breathing heavily. There had to be some kind of explination for this.. Masters and their guardians didn't sleep sans clothing with each other.. it just didn't happen..
He began to pace the length of the hallway, tossing an occasional glance to the window, or to Clow's door, waiting for the two inside to awaken. Finally, after what seemed like hours, the door opened, and Keroberos tensed, about to yell at Yue, but Clow Reed exited instead. He tilted his head.
"What are you doing up, Keroberos?"
Keroberos' wings drooped. There was no way he could yell at his master the way he would yell at Yue. "I..nothing, master. Just walking around the house."
"Couldn't sleep?" He scratched behind the lion's ears, causing Keroberos to purr instinctively before pulling away slightly.
"Have -you- been sleeping well, master?" There was a tone there that he hadn't really meant to use, almost sardonically. Clow paled a few shades.
"Why do you ask?"
"I worry about you master, you work too hard."
Clow shook his head to clear himself of that thought. He must've imagined that cruel tone.. there's no way Keroberos could've found out. "Yes, of course." He smiled weakly and patted Keroberos' head. "I'll be in my study if you need me."
"Yes, master." Keroberos bowed his head and looked back to the door, nudging it open with his nose and stepping inside. He gently shut the door with his paw and padded to the bed again, hopping up onto the blankets and sitting there, giving Yue a smouldering glare, almost shaking.
Yue yawned and tilted his head away from the pillow. "Nn.. Clow-sama?" He murmured, smiling in his sleep. Keroberos pulled away like he were slapped and put a paw on Yue's chest to wake him. Yue's eyelids twitched and soon, the blue orbs, laden with sleep stared groggily up at him. "..Keroberos?" He muttered, blinking, then yelped and pulled the blanket up to cover himself.
"How long has this been going on, Yue?" Keroberos' tone was an angry one, and Yue's eyes widened at it.
"I...how long has what been going on?" He asked innocently.
"You and Clow Reed...don't you care what everyone else says?! You're going to disgrace our master."
"Niisan.." Yue looked down. "I'm sorry.. I just..I thought you'd be angry."
"Is that why you didn't tell me?"
"Yes."
"So you didn't trust me."
"That's not it." He gave Keroberos a pleading gaze and sat up, but Keroberos had already hopped off the bed and started to leave the room. "Niisan.. I love him."
"You don't know what love is, Yue."
"Yes I do." He said quietly. "It's the most wonderful thing in the world. And..I.. I don't want to give it up."
Keroberos sighed and lowered his head, closing his eyes. He had never heard of such a thing..he loved Yue, but like a brother. He didn't know about Yue and Clow being -in- love. "Don't give it up on account of me, Yue." He muttered, half to himself. Yue pulled his robes on and crawled out of the bed, kneeling next to him.
"Are you mad at me, niisan?"
"A little."
"What if I made you a pudding?" He smiled. Keroberos' ear twitched, and he mumbled softly.
"Damnit." He sighed. "Okay, but only if it's got chocolate sauce."
"Deal." Yue smiled brightly and walked out of the room. Keroberos frowned and watched him.. He had never seen Yue this happy before.. maybe he really was in love with Clow. But it didn't take the skills of a fortuneteller like Clow for him to know that it wouldn't last too much longer.. Clow was mortal, and it would soon be time for him to go..
*
Yue told me later that Keroberos had found out, and it was a strange feeling to have relief and dread wash over me at the same time. He assured me, however, that Keroberos wasn't angry, and that he understood, and it was some consolation. Rubi and Spinel had been sealed away in a seperate area from the book that Yue and Keroberos would sleep in.. "I" would need Rubi and Spinel later on. Yue seemed to sense something about the book, and as he traced his fingers across the moon on the back cover, he looked at me,and I could tell from the look of betrayal in his eyes, he didn't like it. I pulled him into my lap.
"Yue.. you can't stay here by yourself after I'm gone."
"Then don't go." He whimpered. "I don't want you to."
I sighed. "I don't have a choice. I'm not immortal like you are."
"Can..can't you just use your magic?" He curled up against me, and I saw that amidst the quiet, icy strength, there was a vulnerability.. In a way, I was Yue's Achilles Heel. So I held him while he cried, comforting him like I wouldn't be able to once I died. It would be up to Keroberos and their new master, or mistress, I suppose, after I was out of the picture. We didn't make love that night, but Yue let me hold him while he fell asleep, and that was good enough for me.
My entire life, I hadn't bothered with love, and it seemed strange that I would find it in one of my own creations.. maybe I had both succeeded and failed with Yue, as much of a paradox that seems to be. I succeeded in making myself a strong, beautiful guardian who would judge the new owner of the cards.. yet, I had failed in making him emotionless, and I had in a way, taken away some of my own strength by falling in love with him.
Life was such a riddle sometimes.
Clow Reed..his master, in bed with..Yue. And they were both nude. A small wave of nausea rose in the being's stomach, and he quickly ran out of the room, breathing heavily. There had to be some kind of explination for this.. Masters and their guardians didn't sleep sans clothing with each other.. it just didn't happen..
He began to pace the length of the hallway, tossing an occasional glance to the window, or to Clow's door, waiting for the two inside to awaken. Finally, after what seemed like hours, the door opened, and Keroberos tensed, about to yell at Yue, but Clow Reed exited instead. He tilted his head.
"What are you doing up, Keroberos?"
Keroberos' wings drooped. There was no way he could yell at his master the way he would yell at Yue. "I..nothing, master. Just walking around the house."
"Couldn't sleep?" He scratched behind the lion's ears, causing Keroberos to purr instinctively before pulling away slightly.
"Have -you- been sleeping well, master?" There was a tone there that he hadn't really meant to use, almost sardonically. Clow paled a few shades.
"Why do you ask?"
"I worry about you master, you work too hard."
Clow shook his head to clear himself of that thought. He must've imagined that cruel tone.. there's no way Keroberos could've found out. "Yes, of course." He smiled weakly and patted Keroberos' head. "I'll be in my study if you need me."
"Yes, master." Keroberos bowed his head and looked back to the door, nudging it open with his nose and stepping inside. He gently shut the door with his paw and padded to the bed again, hopping up onto the blankets and sitting there, giving Yue a smouldering glare, almost shaking.
Yue yawned and tilted his head away from the pillow. "Nn.. Clow-sama?" He murmured, smiling in his sleep. Keroberos pulled away like he were slapped and put a paw on Yue's chest to wake him. Yue's eyelids twitched and soon, the blue orbs, laden with sleep stared groggily up at him. "..Keroberos?" He muttered, blinking, then yelped and pulled the blanket up to cover himself.
"How long has this been going on, Yue?" Keroberos' tone was an angry one, and Yue's eyes widened at it.
"I...how long has what been going on?" He asked innocently.
"You and Clow Reed...don't you care what everyone else says?! You're going to disgrace our master."
"Niisan.." Yue looked down. "I'm sorry.. I just..I thought you'd be angry."
"Is that why you didn't tell me?"
"Yes."
"So you didn't trust me."
"That's not it." He gave Keroberos a pleading gaze and sat up, but Keroberos had already hopped off the bed and started to leave the room. "Niisan.. I love him."
"You don't know what love is, Yue."
"Yes I do." He said quietly. "It's the most wonderful thing in the world. And..I.. I don't want to give it up."
Keroberos sighed and lowered his head, closing his eyes. He had never heard of such a thing..he loved Yue, but like a brother. He didn't know about Yue and Clow being -in- love. "Don't give it up on account of me, Yue." He muttered, half to himself. Yue pulled his robes on and crawled out of the bed, kneeling next to him.
"Are you mad at me, niisan?"
"A little."
"What if I made you a pudding?" He smiled. Keroberos' ear twitched, and he mumbled softly.
"Damnit." He sighed. "Okay, but only if it's got chocolate sauce."
"Deal." Yue smiled brightly and walked out of the room. Keroberos frowned and watched him.. He had never seen Yue this happy before.. maybe he really was in love with Clow. But it didn't take the skills of a fortuneteller like Clow for him to know that it wouldn't last too much longer.. Clow was mortal, and it would soon be time for him to go..
*
Yue told me later that Keroberos had found out, and it was a strange feeling to have relief and dread wash over me at the same time. He assured me, however, that Keroberos wasn't angry, and that he understood, and it was some consolation. Rubi and Spinel had been sealed away in a seperate area from the book that Yue and Keroberos would sleep in.. "I" would need Rubi and Spinel later on. Yue seemed to sense something about the book, and as he traced his fingers across the moon on the back cover, he looked at me,and I could tell from the look of betrayal in his eyes, he didn't like it. I pulled him into my lap.
"Yue.. you can't stay here by yourself after I'm gone."
"Then don't go." He whimpered. "I don't want you to."
I sighed. "I don't have a choice. I'm not immortal like you are."
"Can..can't you just use your magic?" He curled up against me, and I saw that amidst the quiet, icy strength, there was a vulnerability.. In a way, I was Yue's Achilles Heel. So I held him while he cried, comforting him like I wouldn't be able to once I died. It would be up to Keroberos and their new master, or mistress, I suppose, after I was out of the picture. We didn't make love that night, but Yue let me hold him while he fell asleep, and that was good enough for me.
My entire life, I hadn't bothered with love, and it seemed strange that I would find it in one of my own creations.. maybe I had both succeeded and failed with Yue, as much of a paradox that seems to be. I succeeded in making myself a strong, beautiful guardian who would judge the new owner of the cards.. yet, I had failed in making him emotionless, and I had in a way, taken away some of my own strength by falling in love with him.
Life was such a riddle sometimes.