Yue continued to sob, clinging desperately to Clow Reed's body as if mere tears could bring him back to life. "No! Clow!" He shook violently, raindrops falling to hit his skin.. Clow would've commented that it was pathetic fallacy.. but Clow wasn't here anymore..He felt like part of him was missing, and it was true both in the poetic and realistic sense.. Clow was his creator and master, not just his lover.. What was he supposed to do? He didn't want a new master..not after he and Clow had been together so long.. how could he replace that?
Keroberos lowered his head, resting it against Clow's cool hand. He too was sobbing quietly, although not as heartwrenchingly as Yue was. It was the last time they would see Clow.. He knew that they had two days before the spell would take effect.. Clow had told him. He had also told Keroberos to take good care of Yue.. and as Keroberos looked at the devastated angel, he knew what he had to do. He gently took Yue's robes between his teeth and started to pull him away. "Come on, Yue."
"No! I'm staying with him."
"He's dead, Yue..we can't bring him back."
"Damnit, Keroberos! Leave me be!" He yanked his arm back and sat down rather suddenly, pulling Clow's lifeless body into his arms, smoothing the grey hair gently. "You were always complaining that..it was in your face. Now you won't have to worry about it.." He barely got the words past his lips before he began to cry again, feeling completely helpless.. did love always hurt this much? If it did..then he wouldn't ever love anyone..ever again. Keroberos sighed, his eyes showing great pain.
"I can't.. I promised him I'd take care of you.. please, Yue.. he wouldn't want you to suffer."
Yue whimpered, looking again to Clow, hoping against hope that he was just sleeping..wasn't dead..and soon, he'd open his eyes and smile and whisper 'I love you, watashi no tenshi'..but his hope was shattered when he ran his fingers along Clow's chest.. and the heartbeat he was searching for.. was gone. He gently lay Clow under the Sakura tree and shot an ice shard at the ground, displacing a small pile of Earth. Keroberos blinked and watched him for a few minutes, then realized what Yue was doing. He began to follow suit, digging at the ground with his large tawny paws, until finally it was deep enough. Yue froze the ground completely and gently picked Clow up, cradling his lost love in his arms.
"Clow.. I love you.. and..I always will.. no one will ever take your place, master.. I promise.." Tears rolled helplessly down his pale cheeks as he lay Clow in the icy coffin, sealing it, replacing the dirt around it.. He felt like he was going to collapse, but he took the small book of cards and took one out. A beautiful woman with curly hair appeared, watching Yue carefully. He nodded, and she frowned. A small pile of flowers appeared at the foot of Clow's grave, and Yue gave her a weak smile. She disappeared back into the deck. Listlessly, Yue followed Keroberos back into the mansion, but instead of going into his room, he collapsed onto Clow's bed, burying his face in the pillow and curling the blanket around his slender body, shaking. He could still smell Clow's faint gingery cologne on the pillow, and breathed in the scent, unable to stop the tears from falling.
Keroberos shook the rainwater from his fur and slowly nudged Clow's bedroom door open with his nose, walking inside, listening to Yue's agonized sobbing. His shoulders slumped, and silently, he crouched down before jumping onto the bed, sitting down, resting his head on his paws. "Yue, I'm sorry.. I.. I know how much you loved Clow." There was no response, and Keroberos scooted closer to Yue, resting against him to offer what comfort that he could.. They fell asleep on Clow's bed, and they were never to awaken in that house again.. but in a little house in Tomoeda, Japan...
*
Sakura would be a good mistress to Keroberos and I, as much as I hated to admit it.. and I could see a bit of Clow in her. She would be the one to get the cards under her control. Keroberos was already smitten with her.. I, however, would take more convincing than that old fool. Part of me still missed Clow, and I assume that I would no matter how long my life was. Things changed, though, when the boy named Eriol arrived in Japan. I fought and screamed inside Yukito's body, but no one could hear me..
That smile, those eyes.. it was Clow, I knew it! But it was only a child.. why on Earth would he choose such a form.. did he want to mislead me so that I wouldn't bother him? The yearning inside me grew even worse when Yukito fell in love with Kinomoto Touya..
But Eriol, as he told me, was only Clow's reincarnate.. he wasn't Clow.. He'd smiled at me with more wisdom than his years held.. and told me that Clow loved me greatly.. for most of the memories that Eriol had inherited were of me..I stayed dormant inside Yukito for a long time after Eriol left.. it was like my last link to Clow had been shattered.. And staying alone while Yukito was with Touya was merely practice..after all, if I was going to be alone forever, I should get used to the feeling..
What I didn't know was that forever was only eight more years..
Author's notes: *blows nose and tosses away the now-empty kleenex box* Oi. By the way, pathetic fallacy is when nature reflects human emotion in literature..ie: person crying and it's raining out. The story has one more chapter, and hopefully I won't start bawling like a baby through it.
-BM
Keroberos lowered his head, resting it against Clow's cool hand. He too was sobbing quietly, although not as heartwrenchingly as Yue was. It was the last time they would see Clow.. He knew that they had two days before the spell would take effect.. Clow had told him. He had also told Keroberos to take good care of Yue.. and as Keroberos looked at the devastated angel, he knew what he had to do. He gently took Yue's robes between his teeth and started to pull him away. "Come on, Yue."
"No! I'm staying with him."
"He's dead, Yue..we can't bring him back."
"Damnit, Keroberos! Leave me be!" He yanked his arm back and sat down rather suddenly, pulling Clow's lifeless body into his arms, smoothing the grey hair gently. "You were always complaining that..it was in your face. Now you won't have to worry about it.." He barely got the words past his lips before he began to cry again, feeling completely helpless.. did love always hurt this much? If it did..then he wouldn't ever love anyone..ever again. Keroberos sighed, his eyes showing great pain.
"I can't.. I promised him I'd take care of you.. please, Yue.. he wouldn't want you to suffer."
Yue whimpered, looking again to Clow, hoping against hope that he was just sleeping..wasn't dead..and soon, he'd open his eyes and smile and whisper 'I love you, watashi no tenshi'..but his hope was shattered when he ran his fingers along Clow's chest.. and the heartbeat he was searching for.. was gone. He gently lay Clow under the Sakura tree and shot an ice shard at the ground, displacing a small pile of Earth. Keroberos blinked and watched him for a few minutes, then realized what Yue was doing. He began to follow suit, digging at the ground with his large tawny paws, until finally it was deep enough. Yue froze the ground completely and gently picked Clow up, cradling his lost love in his arms.
"Clow.. I love you.. and..I always will.. no one will ever take your place, master.. I promise.." Tears rolled helplessly down his pale cheeks as he lay Clow in the icy coffin, sealing it, replacing the dirt around it.. He felt like he was going to collapse, but he took the small book of cards and took one out. A beautiful woman with curly hair appeared, watching Yue carefully. He nodded, and she frowned. A small pile of flowers appeared at the foot of Clow's grave, and Yue gave her a weak smile. She disappeared back into the deck. Listlessly, Yue followed Keroberos back into the mansion, but instead of going into his room, he collapsed onto Clow's bed, burying his face in the pillow and curling the blanket around his slender body, shaking. He could still smell Clow's faint gingery cologne on the pillow, and breathed in the scent, unable to stop the tears from falling.
Keroberos shook the rainwater from his fur and slowly nudged Clow's bedroom door open with his nose, walking inside, listening to Yue's agonized sobbing. His shoulders slumped, and silently, he crouched down before jumping onto the bed, sitting down, resting his head on his paws. "Yue, I'm sorry.. I.. I know how much you loved Clow." There was no response, and Keroberos scooted closer to Yue, resting against him to offer what comfort that he could.. They fell asleep on Clow's bed, and they were never to awaken in that house again.. but in a little house in Tomoeda, Japan...
*
Sakura would be a good mistress to Keroberos and I, as much as I hated to admit it.. and I could see a bit of Clow in her. She would be the one to get the cards under her control. Keroberos was already smitten with her.. I, however, would take more convincing than that old fool. Part of me still missed Clow, and I assume that I would no matter how long my life was. Things changed, though, when the boy named Eriol arrived in Japan. I fought and screamed inside Yukito's body, but no one could hear me..
That smile, those eyes.. it was Clow, I knew it! But it was only a child.. why on Earth would he choose such a form.. did he want to mislead me so that I wouldn't bother him? The yearning inside me grew even worse when Yukito fell in love with Kinomoto Touya..
But Eriol, as he told me, was only Clow's reincarnate.. he wasn't Clow.. He'd smiled at me with more wisdom than his years held.. and told me that Clow loved me greatly.. for most of the memories that Eriol had inherited were of me..I stayed dormant inside Yukito for a long time after Eriol left.. it was like my last link to Clow had been shattered.. And staying alone while Yukito was with Touya was merely practice..after all, if I was going to be alone forever, I should get used to the feeling..
What I didn't know was that forever was only eight more years..
Author's notes: *blows nose and tosses away the now-empty kleenex box* Oi. By the way, pathetic fallacy is when nature reflects human emotion in literature..ie: person crying and it's raining out. The story has one more chapter, and hopefully I won't start bawling like a baby through it.
-BM